In this ep, I share an emotional voice message from when I knew I had to leave pro soccer and focus on my healing. I honestly didn’t realize how much I was hating soccer at the time, until my concerning brain scan forced me to step away. I

what is a "plog"? and the sus brain scan that spurred my awakening

Jan 15th, 2022 1h 1m

Today’s plog is a journeyyyy. I start off sitting in a chair, looking up in the stars, sharing where I’m at in life and what exactly is a “plog.” I then tell the story of when I was playing pro soccer, dealing with severe concussion symptoms,

80-Sydney Miramontez, on her eating disorder story and why birth control sucks

Jun 16th, 2021 1h 13m

In today’s episode I interview brave human being and pro soccer player Sydney Miramontez. Sydney and I met playing for the Utah Royals together. Before a few weeks ago we had no idea that, at the time, we were both secretly struggling with our

79-I hated my body, but now I love my body and it weirds me out

May 29th, 2021 35m 55s

I hated my body, but now I love it and it weirds me out Today’s episode is a follow-up of my last one on how I healed my “disordered eating.” In particular, I dive deep into my tumultuous relationship to my body. From bed-ridden concussio

78-how I healed my "eating disorder"

May 7th, 2021 1h 11m

In today's episode, I go in depth about how about how I healed my "eating disorder'. I share how it all started, the shame I felt for binging in secret , resources that helped, and the book that changed my life and got me to the other side. Re

77-a day in the life of my eating disorder

Mar 4th, 2021 15m 36s

I have something on my heart that I’ve wanted to share about for years, but it felt too shameful to reveal while I was going through it. I had binge eating disorder. “Binge eating disorder” feels like three measly words that don’t encapsulat

76- Jessica Shannon, the energy healer who changed my life

Feb 25th, 2021 1h 44m

Today on the podcast, I am so honored to have on one of the most influential people in my life, energy healer and masseuse, Jessica Shannon. I got introduced to Jessica when I was playing in Utah. A teammate’s friend swore by her. At this point

75- Why My Hard work Wasn't Paying Off

Feb 18th, 2021 26m 44s

I recently saw a tweet from a father of an 8 year old daughter who just found out she didn’t make her softball team. The first thing she said to her dad after she found out the news: “Alright dad grab your glove, it’s time to work even harder

74-Caleb Campbell, on dealing with shame, vulnerability, and “holy frustrations”

Feb 4th, 2021 55m 45s

In today’s episode I interview U.S. Army lieutenant, former NFL linebacker, and motivational speaker Caleb Campbell. I stumbled upon Caleb on instagram and was captivated by his words. Caleb, a lifelong athlete, writes a lot about vulnerabili

73- Diane Ulscini, on healing sports traumas

Jan 28th, 2021 1h 3m

In today’s episode, I interview one of the people who helped me out the most during one of the lowest points in my life: my therapist, Diane Ulicsni. When I had my first session with Diane, I had just stepped away from soccer and was in the dep

72- Chris Goodwill, the magic of craniosacral therapy

Jan 21st, 2021 1h 14m

In today’s episode I interview craniosacral, myofascial worker, physical therapist, AKA the healing wizard Christina Goodwill. Have you ever met someone who when they touch you, you wonder if their hands are dipped in an angel’s tears? Someone

71-Sam Lofton, the power of meditation for athletes

Jan 14th, 2021 1h 9m

In today’s episode, I interview meditation teacher and former professional soccer player Sam Lofton. I first met Sam playing with the Portland Thorns. We bonded over the fact that we were both obsessed with finding (often unconventional) ways

70-Gunnhildur Jonsdottir, on being your most authentic self

Jan 7th, 2021 1h 1m

In today’s episode, I interview Icelandic national team midfielder Gunny Jonsdottir. The second oldest of seven siblings, Gunny grew up a very independent person. In 3rd grade, she moved from Iceland to America and picked up soccer. She quic

69-Cara Stiwicki, on how to learn confidence

Aug 8th, 2020 1h 5m

In today’s episode I interview blogger, two-time U.S. National Team rower, and 2019 World Champion in Lightweight Women’s pair, Cara Stawicki. I was first drawn to Cara after reading her blog [carastawicki.com]. In her posts, Cara opens up abou

68-sleep hacks/ how I healed my insomnia

Jul 29th, 2020 40m 47s

Do you struggle with sleep? If so, you know it’s kinda like taking off a sweatshirt when you’re sweaty AF and your arm gets stuck in the sleeve and you kinda wanna die, but the harder you try to fix it the worse it gets. You need sleep not on

67-Amy Rodriguez, on juggling being a mom and a pro athlete

Jul 18th, 2020 1h 1m

In today’s episode, I interview mom of two, pro soccer player, World Cup champion, and 2x Olympic gold medalist Amy Rodriguez. If you’ve ever seen Amy play, she’s a feisty, sneakyyy mom (said in the tone of the kid from that viral Jimmy Kimmel

66-Emily Kruger, on white privilege and culture in sports

Jul 1st, 2020 1h 8m

In today’s episode I interview former Portland Thorns goalkeeper and racial justice activist Emily Kruger. Emily is someone I really admire because as a pro athlete, she went all in on the social causes that she was passionate about, even if

65-Elvis Akpla, on being more than a black athlete, overcoming poverty, and racism in sports (part 2)

Jun 24th, 2020 57m 31s

In this episode, we are keeping it rollinnnnnn with part 2 of the interview with deep thinker, incessant learner, former NFL player Elvis Akpla. Last week, Elvis gave us a look into the neglected parts of American history and how he believes

64-Elvis Akpla, on racism, Black American history, and dealing with different viewpoints than your own (part 1 of 2)

Jun 17th, 2020 1h 5m

New podcast episode with the deep thinking, passionate, former pro football player Elvis Akpla. Elvis is one of the most curious, intellectual, constantly-expanding guys I know. Like, we’re talking photographic memory, constantly engaging in

63-Becky Sauerbrunn, turning your weaknesses into strengths, having a presence, and believing in aliens

May 27th, 2020 1h 24m

In today’s episode I interview cat lover, sci-fi fantasy aficionado, 2x World Cup champion, Olympic gold medalist, Becky Sauerbrunn. Y'all, no two ways about it, Becky is a baller. She is one of the most consistent players in the game of socce

62-the day I decided to quit soccer, but the Universe shut me down (unfiltered journal entry)

May 6th, 2020 28m 10s

Writing is my release. Whenever I need to vomit out of my thoughts, I place my phalanges (lol what a word) on my computer keys and let them type away. It’s not pretty. I typically swear a lot because that’s just how I am and I don’t give a fuck

61-Elizabeth Williams, on playing a game with no fans (b/c of COVID-19), the value of education, and her love of jeopardy

Apr 29th, 2020 1h 3m

In today’s episode I interview WNBA Atlanta Dream player Elizabeth Williams on playing a game with no fans (b/c of COVID-19), the value of education, and her love of jeopardy. Elizabeth’s parents were born and raised in Nigeria. After gettin

60-Yael Averbuch, on the process of mastery

Apr 22nd, 2020 1h 12m

In today’s podcast, I interview the technical soccer goddess, Yael Averbuch. I first knew of Yael from afar, as I watched her YouTube videos that she posted of her dribbling and juggling drills. And I was like ‘damnnnn this girl is a hard as

59-Kate Krieger-on getting more money into the hands of women

Apr 15th, 2020 1h 21m

In today’s episode, I interview Ellevest Financial Advisor and former pro soccer player Kate Krieger. Kate works for Ellevest, a booming start-up investing platform dedicated towards redefining investing for women. Ellevest’s mission is to clo

58-Keelin Winters Pattillo, on dealing with pressure, overcoming burnout, and living in a campervan while playing pro soccer

Apr 8th, 2020 1h 12m

In this episode, I interview firefighter, former professional soccer player, and farmer Keelin Winters Pattillo. Keelin is a force of nature. It appears as though everything she touches turns into a success. I believe Keelin accomplishes whate