If you want things to be the way you want - you have to decide and act. You really can't wait for others to do it for you. Yeah, I know you know this. You've heard it at least a thousand time. (I'm not trying to tell you anything new here.)What it comes down to though, is when you decide to take action. When you decide to say "Hey, I need to do something about this." Let me get back to talking about Christmas blues.I've gotten mixed feelings about Christmas.

• Is it a Czech Christmas America?
• The celebration is full of stress.
• I miss it
• I'm sick of it
• I don't even know it happened (this year).

The Christmas I miss, is the joy, sharing, and care that you get with loved ones. There is never enough of that at any time of year.I'm sick of the surfeit. Too much, food, gifts, even meeting people (I'm an introvert so once I've met lots of people, I kind of need a break). But the truth is Christmas barely happened.

• The kids are older
• Couldn't enjoy the Christmas Mass
• And the covid pall on the world

Yeah, it's like I blinked and it wasn't really here.But these are excuses. To enjoy the time - whenever it is (not just Christmas) - that's a choice. Sometimes it has to get bad enough (or strange enough, as it has this year) before you decide to change something. Yes, this Christmas has been one of the strangest I've ever experienced. And it's been just what I've needed to tell myself "you know what Steven? Next year Christmas is going to be full of love, celebration and life". But as I've said. It's a choice. And it's what I'm choosing now, so it can happen next year. What kind of Christmas should I celebrate? The one that I choose - Czech, American. It doesn't matter. It'll be a McIntosh Christmas.  So, wherever you are. Whatever you're experiencing. Decide the way you want it. I'll tell you how it works for me next year.