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I've been working and
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speaking with couples for
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decades, but over
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the last years I've expanded the
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concept of a pair so
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that it involves friends, it
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involves co-founders, podcast
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hosts, creative pairs, and
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Kara Swisher and Scott Galloway are
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one of these creative pairs, people
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listen to them on
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their podcast and what they
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hear is two people each embodied
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in their own points of views
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who disagree out loud in front
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of an audience into the microphone
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and tease each other and challenge
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each other and confront each other
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and I thought gosh this is
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a kind of modeling that is
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so necessary at this moment. The
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focus is often on troubles in
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the relationship, problems, we don't
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often actually get to see
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what does the good couple,
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the good partnership, the creative
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pair that holds the polarity
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actually sound like or
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look like and this was my
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focus on this conversation as I
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for that, Scott Gail. That
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probably, I could imagine,
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is something that brings clarity
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in the relationship between the two of you,
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no? Definitely takes that element
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off the table. Actually,
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I get along well with men because of that, I
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think. I really believe that. Because it
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never hovers on the being sexualized. Not
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your own. Not that it would, but yeah. In
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this case, not that it would. I
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thought of that when I ... We
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had this brief exchange when you
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interviewed me on Pivot
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and we
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were bantering about, we should have a session, we
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should have a session. Then
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I thought, why not, actually? Why not?
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You have a public persona
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as a pair on the podcast
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and then you are also the
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parents, so to speak, of your
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team that works
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for you and watches and
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learns from your dynamic. Then
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I thought, there's
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so much to learn about people
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who work together and get along. Probably
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the best thing to ask as a start
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is, what would make
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this conversation useful, interesting,
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productive for each of you? Scott,
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go ahead. That's not fair.
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I really come
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at this. My
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objective here is, I just want to express ... how
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grateful I am. I want to cement
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what I think are the positives in our relationship.
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But yeah, for me, the only objective
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I have is to use this as
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a vehicle to express gratitude, to
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use it as a moment to take a
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pause and appreciate the relationship and appreciate just
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how fortunate we are. That's
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kind of it for me. I didn't
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come to this with a
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list of objectives. Wishes.
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It doesn't have to be as
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practical, but a wish. But
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this is a wish, to be able to take a
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moment of pause and express
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my gratitude for... what would
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you say? This has been a wonderful
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relationship for me. This is... Three
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years. Four years. Yeah, I
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think it's been longer than that.
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And I learn a great deal
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from care, more personally, actually, than
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professionally. And it's been
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very rewarding for me, just
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on a lot of levels. I
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get to do something twice a week that I
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not only love doing. I look forward to
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our work relationship. I don't think of it
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as work. It's also
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financially exceptionally rewarding. I
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wish I'd had this 20 years ago when I needed the money.
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But it's given me... I have an objective around
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reaching influence around some things I'm passionate
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about. And this is provided that
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platform. And that platform, I am
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not a modest person. I think I'm remarkably
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fucking talented. But this
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platform is really mostly a function of
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care's brand equity that she brought to
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the table and her credibility. So
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I'm grateful for that. I feel as if
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a little bit I'm drafting off of care's
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presence in the marketplace. Yeah,
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just the word I would use is grateful.
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And I wanted to articulate that gratitude. That's
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something I'm not very good at. I make
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the mistake of believing that if I feel
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something, that other people telepathically register those feelings.
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Like buying a birthday present but not giving it.
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That's right. Yeah, i'm waiting for
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my birthday present from scott this year That
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was it by the way You just
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got it. Thank you. That's very sweet scott.
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Um, I have slightly different objectives. I'm really
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interested in why our Relationship
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resonates with so many people. Uh, i'm really
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fascinated for some reason our relationship makes people
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feel better I say this a lot on
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the show, but on the way here I
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ran into a young woman who stopped me
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on the street and said yours and scott
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relationship teaches me about relationships and I
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said why and she goes I don't know. I
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just feel better listening to it and she was
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um, uh, she was she was very
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emotional about it and then I was
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waiting in line and an older woman said
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to me Oh my god,
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you and scott and it was so fascinating
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it was I ended she was
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she's an artist and she talked about listening to it
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when she does art and she said it you know
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She was very upset about The state
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of the world, especially with israel and
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said it makes me think a lot and
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calms me down Which was really interesting
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and I I was
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like, well, you know, we don't always agree
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and she was very much Um said that's
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okay. I I learned how to disagree and
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it was really interesting. So the relationship is
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reached into people And
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they learn how to get along with people
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they may not agree with and I think
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i'm really interested in why that is why
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what sometimes it's chemistry, of course, there's chemistry
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but What is what
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are we doing specifically that's causing
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that? Let's
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put that question out. I mean I have
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immediate thoughts too, but I think that One
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way to start scott would actually maybe
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go to i'm actually more thankful for
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the things that I have learned from
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her personally than professionally Meaning
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something is seeping into the way
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that we register each other And
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that then translates in the way
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that we have conversations with each
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other can argue disagree banter
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and The effect of that is
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what people? get is
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they see people who are arguing,
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but they're not hurting each other.
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They're not fighting. They
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are elevating each other for the
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sake of the topic that they
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are discussing and showing
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tension, healthy tension. The
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way I think of it is that, I mean,
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it sounds strange, but Karen, I are what Washington
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DC is supposed to be. And
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that is you're supposed to send different
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viewpoints such that in a civil manner,
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under the auspices of connective tissues
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around fidelity and affection for our
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country and our Commonwealth, that
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we have civil and
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robust debate
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and argument such that you can craft
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better solutions. And we do
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that. And we're here to save democracy. But
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we, I think what we engage in
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is what most people think of as that, what
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a deliberative body is supposed to accomplish. You take
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people with different backgrounds, maybe
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different interests, and they talk
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about an issue and they see
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each other's points, they have empathy, they're civil, they
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demonstrate affection for each other, even
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though they disagree, and they
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come away with a more informed kind of,
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better union. I mean, that is supposed
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to be our core, our confidence as
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a species, is a
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form of cooperation is debate, evidence and argument. I
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think we're the only species that can do that.
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And we do that. It's,
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we also don't, I mean, a couple of things. None
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of us is so wed to our principles that we're
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not willing to acknowledge the other's points. And
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I think that people like that. But
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what you just said is very interesting. You said,
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we show one relationship between
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two people, but we actually
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model what we expect from
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a nation and
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from a government. And there's something
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bigger that exists between us that
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transcends the two of us. And I think that's
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a very important point. So
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when we're talking about the things the government's supposed to be
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wrestling with, we talk about political. issues,
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we talk about big tech, we talk about economics.
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And I do think that people want
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kind of a safe space to explore
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friction and disagreement without people
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donking on each other, being mean or
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feeling as if somebody has to be
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the clear winner or I mean, there's
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a certain reason why we're near a spore and
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for how course our discourse has become. But
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it's not just public, it's, you know, families and,
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you know, not being there was a very
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funny thing I saw, it was a
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Reddit thing is my parents believe in QAnon, my
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kids love Hamas, I don't know what I'm going
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to do. You know, it was
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kind of funny way to articulate
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it. It's that people are spending
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very hard time personally to get
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to agree, to come to any
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agreement, or to disagree in a
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way that everybody can walk away,
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you know, come without feeling terrible.
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And I think it's because online
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has infected offline,
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rather than vice versa, right? Things
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you wouldn't do. I mean, this is not
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a big revelation. But it really people feel
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dunking is okay, the way they behave online.
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Scott said, of course, it's crude, it's
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reductive, it's, did you
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get that person? And I
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engage in it too. And that's, but I don't
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know if we can, I don't take it offline,
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the way a lot of our culture has started
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to do. It puts people in, in boxes
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they cannot escape from. I
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mean, there's a word that
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you didn't use much yet, which
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is trust, that you won't throw
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each other under the bus. And
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that you like each other as people.
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And so that maintains
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the connective tissue. I think that one
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of the sentences people are experiencing the
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most in the attacks online at this
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moment is shame on you. Yes.
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Very much so. It drives me crazy. For
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whichever thing you think or not think or
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do or don't do, it's shame on you.
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And do better. Say
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that? Do better. That's the one
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I... Be a leader. That's what
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I get a lot. Yeah.
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So I think that what
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people experience when they hear you is,
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first of all, they see two people
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who like each other. In
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a way, that's something that is often described
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of what used to exist in Congress as
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well. People disagreed, but they liked each other.
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They knew this is a good person. That
12:25
it didn't destroy... Your beliefs were
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not the only way by which people
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judged you. They also looked
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at how you relate to people at what
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you do. Not that you are
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a religious person and a secular person, but that
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you are a good person. Wherever
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you get your values in humanism or in religion.
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When people listen to you, your
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friction and
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the strength with which you each hold
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your positions and at the same time
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engage in the dialogue with the other.
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It's the opposite of the
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conflict avoidance that many people engage in at this
13:02
moment. If I don't fully agree with you, I
13:04
don't talk to you. Yeah. Or
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you don't bring it up and you secretly see. I think
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a lot of people secretly see. Or
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they feel like they can get in trouble for saying things. That's...
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If you talk about trust, sometimes we
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get into trouble for things we say, but
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I don't think it feels unsafe
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with each other. Right?
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To express... Even when it's testy,
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we've had some test exchanges. Trans
13:29
was one. There's not that
13:31
many that I can recall, but we've
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had some testy ones and somehow we've
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survived it without disrespect. I
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don't know where people lost that ability. Maybe they
13:41
were holding it all in and now have been
13:43
able to vomit up whatever comes out of their
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mouth. Or they sort of lost... It's
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not really empathy. It's not really the word. I
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don't know. It's just how you were raised. I don't
13:55
know how else to put it. Like, although
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I wasn't raised that way. Why
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did you, well actually I'm very curious because
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I don't know myself, what is your background
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for each of you? I
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think you know this, Mr. But my dad died when
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I was very little. Yeah. One side
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of my family is Catholic, Italian. The other
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side is sort of early
14:15
American Baptist and
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much more traditional Southern.
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And my dad died, who was from
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that side of the family. And my
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mom remarried to a terrible person. And
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I would say not the
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best parent, was not there for me and
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my brothers, but try their best I
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guess with a limited emotional range
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she had. And after
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that, my dad dying, I think we
14:43
kind of raised ourselves in a lot of ways. Although
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I had the support of a great grandmother
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who was wonderful. And my grandmother was too. Yeah,
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my grandmother was really a savior on
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my mom's side. But I loved my grandmother on my
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dad's side, but we didn't see her as much. And
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if you think about the strengths and the
15:04
resources that you bring to your interpersonal relations,
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what are some of the things you would say you honed
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in at home? And by
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the way, the resources don't always come from
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great stuff. No, it usually doesn't, does it?
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I can handle it and nothing much bothers me.
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I think there's a, highly functional
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is often a byproduct of early death
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of a parent. I think
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I'm highly functional. And so I don't get
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too spun around or on it. I
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don't get, it's not
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that I don't lose my temper, but I don't, it's
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hard to get me bothered that much. And
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I always just move on to the next thing,
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move on, move on, move on, just like, let's
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keep going. And I have an expression I have
15:44
on one of my walls here, the chance favors
15:46
those in motion. So it's always a moving forward
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kind of thing. Not in certain. If
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something bothers you, you tell him. Oh
15:53
yeah. Or you wait. Oh no, I tell
15:55
him. It's me at two in the morning,
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so wake me up. You need to know.
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immediately. And if
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you need help, you turn to
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him? Yes, actually. I've asked him for a
16:06
lot of stuff. I don't need a lot of
16:08
help, honestly. I don't think you ask me for
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a lot of care, actually. Which
16:13
is exactly why I asked you a question
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about his, because they told me in a
16:17
roundabout way, Scott. I do when I have
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legal things or investment things.
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I ask him, you
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know, I don't know if I ask him parenting tips.
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But I would, I suppose. But you actually
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know, he helped my son a great deal. He
16:33
gets shy about it. But he really I asked him
16:35
to talk to my son about college. And he he
16:38
was a really important between him and
16:40
my brother, the most important people in
16:42
helping my son figure out where he wanted to go to
16:44
school. I would even say
16:46
Scott was more influential. My son talks about him
16:49
quite a bit, my 18 year old. And so
16:51
both my sons really like talking to Scott.
16:54
So I would I would avail myself to
16:57
not for me myself, but for my kids
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for sure. Yeah. He's been a real asset
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to to their lives.
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Beautiful. Well, would you how would
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you describe? It's good. Described
17:08
by that. Just basic demographic
17:12
background. Oh, origin
17:14
story. Yeah, I was raised
17:17
by a single mother who lived and died a secretary
17:19
a lot of my life. Hands
17:21
down like the singular most important influence in
17:23
my life. Blessed to
17:26
be born in California in the 60s is a
17:28
straight white male. Was she
17:30
also a can handle it all? My
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mom? Yeah. Oh, yeah,
17:35
my mom was very productive, worked hard. I
17:37
like to work. And I think I picked
17:39
up on that early from her. She was
17:41
worked very hard to
17:43
make sure we were economically viable. Kind of
17:46
an I would say we were upper lower
17:48
middle class. You know, my household income was
17:50
never more than I think we peaked at $40,000.
17:52
But, you know, born in
17:54
California at exactly the right time with exactly
17:56
the right skin tone,
17:58
sexual orientation. I mean,
18:01
just had this, like
18:04
the full force, gale force winds of the
18:06
greatest economy at the greatest time and the
18:08
greatest state. I mean, I
18:10
used to my narrative used to be a son
18:12
of a single mother, like, aren't I
18:14
awesome that I overcame these things. And
18:17
then as I got older and matured, I realized that, yeah,
18:20
I wasn't in the 99.9 percentile was in the 99th. Because
18:24
of, you know, I got
18:26
to go to UCLA for free, I
18:28
got into UCLA. I mean, just when I didn't
18:31
deserve to. So I had
18:33
my background, it on
18:35
on from the curb, it looks like it
18:37
was not difficult, but a little bit challenged.
18:39
But the reality was absent
18:41
a male role model, I didn't have that.
18:43
But absent that, I consider
18:46
my background remarkably fortunate
18:49
and blessed and I
18:51
got very lucky. I had a really
18:53
good reference group. My friends as a
18:55
young man were always very impressive, ambitious,
18:58
hardworking, good people. And that
19:01
was really kind of my family, if you will,
19:03
I was an only child. So my friends were
19:05
really my family. That's, and I was really fortunate.
19:08
Your conversations about men. We do. You've
19:11
never said this to me, but I've inferred
19:14
it from the way that you talk about
19:16
young men and the need for young men
19:18
for solid friendships, the good circle in which
19:20
they evolve, etc. So it makes sense. Yeah,
19:23
that's my practice. It's not my prayer. But every night
19:25
before I go to sleep, I call two friends and
19:27
I rotate them. But I don't text
19:29
them. But I call and I have a live conversation with
19:31
two friends every night. And I've done that six and seven
19:34
nights for the last 30 years. Wow.
19:36
And I rotate I go, I
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go down. Yeah, so
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I was very fortunate, very blessed around that. But you
19:43
know, just pretty, I was described
19:45
my could you and your mom are you? When
19:48
you Oh, yeah, I mean, could you spar? Could
19:50
you? Oh, sure. I mean, I think
19:52
I went through I think a lot of young men go through
19:54
that separating from the pack, I kind of turned
19:56
into an asshole when I was a teenager, I was I was never mean
19:58
to my mom, but I wasn't and as kind as I could have been.
20:01
But I moved back in with my mother. I
20:04
actually lived with my mom for a year when she
20:06
was dying. That made us very close. It
20:09
was me and her against the world. That
20:11
was very formative for me. But
20:14
yeah, we were, I mean, other than that like 17 year
20:17
old phase, we were like not very nice such that it
20:19
makes it easier to leave home. I
20:21
say now like nothing good happens because
20:23
my, nothing really good feels
20:26
cemented. Because anytime something
20:28
good happened to me, I would call my mom, literally
20:31
anything. Oh, I met a nice woman
20:33
at a coffee shop and I got her number. Oh,
20:35
I just got my first bonus from Morgan
20:37
Stanley. Like anything good. And
20:39
now not there, right? So it doesn't feel
20:42
like good stuff really happens. It's weird. It's
20:44
like it doesn't really happen because he's not there to hear
20:47
it. You can call me Scott. There
20:49
you go. I occasionally go. No,
20:52
you do. It's so funny. I was just thinking
20:54
you grew up a single mom. I grew up very wealthy, I would
20:56
say, which my brothers
20:58
and I have tried to escape because we're
21:00
very hard workers. We hated that, the
21:03
step up. You are a hard worker. And
21:05
all my brothers are like that. We did
21:07
not like the trappings of wealth at all.
21:10
And did not enjoy it. We
21:12
didn't relish in it or become lazy because
21:14
of it, which was
21:17
interesting. Because it's easy not to
21:19
think about money when you have money, but we really
21:21
don't, we really work hard.
21:23
We really like work and earning things on
21:25
our own. So that's interesting. But you're bringing
21:27
it in a very necessary
21:29
way in the economic realm. I'm
21:31
also thinking simply when you
21:34
describe dad wasn't there, there was no
21:36
dad, there was grandma, mom was somewhat
21:38
present. I learned to fend for myself.
21:40
I learned to just know I've got
21:43
my own legs to stand on, I
21:45
have to be self-reliant. But
21:48
you probably called grandma when great things
21:50
happen to you too. Yes. And
21:53
so you have that combination between connection
21:55
and self-reliance. And we talk every night,
21:57
I would say almost every night. her
22:00
life for sure. Yeah,
22:02
I know her phone is one of the few phone numbers
22:05
I know is hers by
22:07
heart, right? You know, you don't of course, nobody remembers
22:09
phone numbers anymore. But that's what I knew
22:11
by heart. And then
22:14
I listened to Scott describe, you know,
22:16
calling mom, but also, you know,
22:19
it's easier to be what did you call a 17 year
22:21
old asshole when you actually
22:23
have someone holding the fort? Yeah,
22:26
yeah. And you can go, you know, and
22:28
the relationship is solid and steady. So you
22:30
can be bratty for a few
22:32
years, you know, and I'm thinking that,
22:35
I mean, I'm wondering to what extent the
22:37
sum of that also exist
22:40
in your relationship, these formative
22:42
experiences that you have, like
22:44
being with a person being with a
22:46
woman with strong opinions, or who holds
22:48
things on her own, who works very
22:50
hard, it's familiar to you.
22:53
I'm your mother, Scott. Scott,
22:56
I am your mother. You
22:58
didn't say this, but it's
23:00
not I'm your mother, but it's more
23:02
that you have learned to
23:04
not be threatened. You've learned
23:06
to enjoy actually even to welcome behaviors
23:08
that in a different context are experienced.
23:11
You know, I can imagine some people
23:13
listening to the two of you and
23:15
saying, what an amazing pair, they go
23:17
at it and they like it, etc.
23:20
And I can imagine other people listening
23:22
to you or even working for you,
23:24
for that matter, even on your team,
23:27
who get tense when they see that
23:29
tension and that animosity or that sparring
23:31
come up because that for
23:33
them was not at all something that said
23:36
you're safe here, you can fight, but rather
23:38
you're not safe here, don't fight. Yeah,
23:41
my I mean, I've never
23:43
been in therapy, but it's one thing
23:45
that's very obvious about the relationships most
23:47
important to me. My
23:50
key relationships are all very
23:53
my closest friends are either
23:55
gay or very feminine. I'm
23:58
drawn to people who take care of me. And
24:00
I mean all of my best
24:02
relationships are basically some version of Homer Simpson
24:05
and March sent in March I'm
24:08
the unwashed idiot
24:11
fratbro, and they are
24:13
this caring decent person all
24:15
of my closest friends are like
24:19
gentle Nice
24:22
loving people that's who I'm drawn up always
24:24
been drawn to I have no idea if
24:26
I'm trying to create What makes
24:28
them want to you? and
24:30
they're drawn to me because I get I think I
24:33
provide a certain level of comfort and What
24:36
it is, but every one of my close
24:38
friendships is basically
24:40
a very gentle Loving
24:42
person and I'm the irreverent
24:45
aggressive obnoxious one Yeah, but
24:48
I don't think you're as bad as you think you
24:50
are you know what I mean? I think there's a
24:52
part. Yeah, it is. It's a little cosplay that that's
24:54
your idea of yourself Often when people
24:56
do come up to me if they don't like something you said
24:58
I Constantly say Scott
25:00
is an incredibly kind person I think
25:02
you have to you know and because
25:05
he struggles with stuff that should be a
25:07
problem for you Why because he's expressing struggling
25:09
and so once they start to think that
25:11
way they go oh that's I hadn't thought
25:13
of it that way No,
25:15
I think you're not you're very generous and
25:18
kind person with your time and your space
25:20
And I think you you like being the bad boy, but
25:22
you're not really bad I know a lot
25:24
of bad bad people and you're not one of them
25:28
I One
25:31
thing stands out to me in
25:34
their interaction is that they have
25:36
each other's back They
25:38
can argue They
25:40
banter, but they prop each
25:43
other up Cara says
25:45
I don't think you're as bad as you
25:47
think you are they hold a mirror to
25:49
each other to see Themselves
25:52
in a more holistic way,
25:55
so sometimes it's blunt It's
25:57
sometimes very honest. It's
25:59
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26:02
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26:04
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28:24
begin. Sometimes
28:29
people present themselves as tough. Yeah,
28:34
so the purpose of covering
28:38
what often is a very tender, gentle.
28:41
I think you're talking about me. I am actually tough,
28:43
but I also can be tender. It's okay to be
28:46
tough. One time I was telling Scott, I
28:48
was talking to someone who was in therapy every day
28:50
of the week. You know, I guess when you do
28:52
that, when you're in deep psycho analysis,
28:54
and I said, there's a lot of dice, and
28:56
I don't think I know, have that many things
28:58
to talk about about myself. And they said, you're
29:01
blocking. That's right. Isn't that the
29:03
word? They said, you're blocking. I said, well, it's working.
29:05
Repressing, repressing. Yes, I said, it's working. I'm very happy
29:07
and you seem miserable. I
29:09
don't know what to tell you. But now I
29:11
can stay happy. I'm like, I don't think so.
29:13
I think I actually am happy, but okay, sure.
29:16
I have, I mean, we've met maybe three or
29:18
four times that we have spoken together. I
29:21
don't think of you as tough, but I
29:23
do sometimes think you can be intimidating. Scott,
29:26
who presents as tough, doesn't intimidate me
29:28
at all. Yeah. Whereas. Hey,
29:33
for you, however, do intimidate me sometimes.
29:36
Really? Why? Because
29:38
I'm not fully sure how you register me. So
29:40
I don't really know. It's
29:43
like, and with him, it's easier
29:45
to see that under this cat-hat-hat,
29:47
there is something, you know, that
29:50
smile and I go, okay, got it,
29:53
got it. Yeah. But
29:56
I don't know if nobody has told you that you
29:58
can be. I'm not as much of an- open
30:00
wound. That's absolutely true. I'm just not.
30:02
Maybe I have a scar, but I
30:04
certainly am not. Again, it's
30:06
the moving on thing. I can always figure out a way
30:09
to get out of it. I think about that a lot
30:12
because how do people survive difficult
30:14
crises, right? Depending on what the
30:17
crisis happens to be. Well,
30:19
years ago, I did an outward bound. There was
30:21
a couple of them actually, and you go in
30:23
the wilderness. I was
30:26
very calm in crisis, like extraordinary.
30:28
I was surprised how calm I
30:30
was. I didn't panic. I got
30:32
calmer and calmer as the situation got worse and
30:34
worse. Sometimes in
30:36
the face of threat, you
30:39
can have fight, flight, freeze,
30:41
or fix. Yeah, I
30:43
think I'm the last one. The fix
30:45
is the one that's often not added,
30:47
so you become instrumental. You roll up
30:49
your sleeves and you get to work.
30:52
Right. That's not necessarily a good thing
30:54
because a lot of people, my
30:56
wife thinks about things a lot. I'm
30:58
always like, let's just move on. Just make a
31:01
decision and go. It's not going to get any
31:03
better by mulling it. I don't mull a lot.
31:06
Perhaps I should, but I just don't have time for
31:08
it. No, but how are you with those who do?
31:11
I'm a little impatient, I would say. I
31:13
think you end up in the same place. It
31:16
just seems like it's painful when people do that. The
31:19
worry makes me think it'll
31:21
take days off their lives. I don't know. I
31:23
don't have that kind of time. I always
31:26
feel like I don't have that kind of time. Look,
31:29
I love the way that people
31:31
that don't mull and don't worry,
31:33
it's a very nicely packaged argument
31:35
for me. It's not a good
31:37
thing to do. No, I get
31:39
it. I get it. I get
31:42
it. I'm not going to be the one to convince you that
31:44
you... Oh, well, my wife, when I
31:46
met her, she says, what are you, neurotic? I
31:48
said, I can't think of anything. I like to
31:50
clean, I guess. I don't know, but
31:53
it calms me down. I
31:55
don't find that neurotic. Organized specific
31:58
tasks with the... beginning, a middle,
32:00
and an end. And you don't have
32:02
to think about anything else. Right, that's exactly
32:05
what I think. Meaning has very powerful function
32:07
in that sense. Are you
32:09
similar in the not mulling, not
32:11
worrying, not ruminating? Scott, I think
32:13
we're mulls a lot, don't you
32:15
Scott? Yeah, I mean,
32:17
I struggle with depression and anger, so I
32:19
have a tendency to live way too much
32:21
in the past. I'm hands
32:23
down, 110% of my anger and mulling is on me, it's
32:29
focused on me. I do think
32:31
I do try to be very generous. I have
32:33
this thing, don't keep score, decide what kind of
32:36
husband, father, son you wanna
32:38
be, and be that person
32:40
and don't contribute
32:42
that to the relationship, registering
32:45
their contribution and keep score. I just don't do
32:47
that anymore. But I
32:49
am very hard on myself and constantly
32:51
disappointed in myself, constantly feel like I've
32:54
come up short on everything I should
32:56
have done, how I
32:58
perform on anything. I'm just
33:00
constantly disappointed in myself
33:03
and can't get over it and can
33:05
never forgive myself. And
33:07
it really turns on me. I get angry
33:09
at myself and it's like, my
33:12
blood turns to acid and it just registers
33:14
this emotional toll and I go into these
33:16
very dark downward spirals. And I talk about
33:18
that on the show. I think a lot
33:20
about, I've
33:22
made a living basically running my brain to old white
33:25
guys to say, what's the opportunity with your business? That's
33:27
how I've made my living for 40 years. And
33:30
the white spaces
33:32
we fill are the following from
33:35
just a pure economic or marketing standpoint. And I think
33:37
why people are drawn to the show in addition to
33:39
the chemistry. Cara occupies
33:42
a white space. There aren't
33:44
that many women, full stop,
33:46
who come from a background in journalism, who
33:48
are physically smaller,
33:52
who are from a vulnerable community,
33:54
the LGBTQ community that are
33:56
in people's faces and giving
33:58
very forceful. thoughtful opinions,
34:01
interrupting people, not
34:04
taking shit. That's just
34:06
a white space there aren't that many people in from
34:08
that background. And women
34:12
and men, but mostly women, but a
34:14
lot of men too, really respond well
34:16
to that. They're like, that's
34:19
what I wanted to do. Everybody talks
34:21
about it, but not that many people
34:23
of that demographic behave that way. So
34:26
that's the white space that Kara fills, you
34:28
know? And so people
34:30
are really drawn to that power, that
34:32
strength, that courage. I'm
34:34
a straight white male that shows his emotions. That's
34:39
the white space. And it's
34:41
an enormous white space. I fucking cry
34:43
all the time on our show. And
34:46
that is hands down when I
34:48
get the most, and it's totally
34:50
organic, it is not staged at
34:52
all. I'm embarrassed when I do
34:54
it, I don't plan on it. You
34:58
know, it's very authentic. And I cannot
35:00
tell you how many men I hear
35:02
from. Because you reveal
35:05
a side of
35:07
masculinity that is often so
35:09
hidden and unacknowledged and yet
35:11
quite present and real. And
35:13
all men, there's so many men who
35:16
literally look at it like a skill that they
35:18
would kill to have. I
35:20
hear from these guys like my whole life,
35:22
I've wanted to express that kind
35:25
of emotion. And I just can't. And
35:28
at the same time, you
35:30
can just feel a lot of women, and I
35:32
think a lot of people who feel like they've
35:34
taken shit and listened to men talk over them,
35:36
man-splain them, not gotten back
35:38
into people's faces, feel
35:41
that Kara's sort of their
35:43
warrior queen, right? So
35:46
I think we both occupy spaces that
35:48
gives people, makes
35:50
people feel seen and heard and emboldens
35:52
them. Yeah, they're aspirational for them.
35:55
Yeah, I think definitely Scott's vulnerability is
35:57
incredibly attractive. I don't think it's. Again,
36:00
it's not artifice in any way and
36:02
sometimes I often tell them just give yourself a break like
36:04
stop being so hard on yourself Why don't you give yourself
36:06
a break is something I say a lot to him But
36:09
I think people do respond because men
36:11
really I think what he's talking about
36:13
is vulnerability of men that never gets
36:16
it It is often unexpressed men
36:18
struggle with it because they have a certain,
36:21
you know Persona
36:23
they meet need to maintain and crying
36:25
they can't imagine crying in front of
36:27
publicly, right? No, no the
36:30
socialization of men is more
36:33
geared towards Story season and
36:35
the other side is a woman
36:37
that maybe doesn't cry is also She's
36:40
not you know Bill Ackman or Elon
36:42
Musk said she has heart-teasing with hate
36:44
and she laughs at him like she's
36:46
not like Crumpled down in a heap
36:48
crying. Oh, no a powerful man has
36:50
said something tough to me And I
36:53
think that's something that people appreciate system
36:55
office They're both opposite what you might
36:57
expect from people. Well if someone described our
36:59
backgrounds and our demographics and our and Then
37:02
said this show regularly has one person
37:04
turning into a chocolate mess and the
37:06
other person comforts her They
37:09
wouldn't guess who it is They
37:12
wouldn't be like, oh, it's the six-two guys it
37:14
they wouldn't they wouldn't be like, oh, yeah,
37:16
that's the guy That's a chocolate mess all the
37:19
time Like there's just so many stereotypes and
37:21
expectations around people based on how they look
37:23
or their gender or their backgrounds or whatever
37:25
it is Tell
37:28
me something when you describe
37:30
I grapple more with depression
37:33
and anger and Self-doubt
37:36
is the presence of kaha palliative
37:38
for you. Oh Yeah,
37:42
I very much appreciate. Yeah, and that's how I
37:44
get out of my phone since I spend time
37:46
with other people For
37:49
me, it's really my boys Like
37:51
I've struggled for some reason the past week. I
37:53
don't know what it is. I can feel it
37:55
and I have this whole method I I
37:58
start working out
38:00
once or twice a day. I like
38:03
she cleans you work out. Yeah,
38:06
I will start working out. But more than anything, I've
38:08
tried to be around family and I try to be
38:10
very affectionate with my boy. Like I go to sleep
38:12
with my son when he goes to sleep. I just
38:14
lie next to him. I find that very, very restorative
38:16
for me. But
38:19
yeah, it's it's I've
38:21
learned to manage it without pharmaceuticals.
38:24
True connection. Yeah, it's
38:27
the way I describe it as memalia,
38:29
I just turned to my mammal self,
38:32
right? Yeah, but
38:34
because there is just no excuse. And again, it gets
38:36
me angry at myself. I have
38:38
blessings the size of Mars, I have moves of
38:40
a mood the size of an anthill. And
38:43
it makes no stack ranking your tragedy like you
38:46
can't stack rank like, Oh, that person should
38:48
be less. You know, you don't
38:50
get to be as unhappy because you
38:52
have all these things. I don't think they ever equal
38:54
up. I don't think if you have blessings, I
38:57
mean, I don't think they ever equal up. I think one of the
38:59
things that Scott,
39:02
perhaps hasn't experienced as much as I have his
39:04
life is unfair. Like I've had a lot of
39:06
life is unfair. I always call myself
39:09
an optimistic pessimist. I
39:11
expect the worst and I'm surprised by when
39:13
it turns out, right? You know, I would
39:16
say he is a pessimistic op,
39:18
he really thinks the world is a good place.
39:20
You know what I mean? Like in his heart
39:22
of hearts, he thinks that it's better than it
39:25
is. And I'm never surprised by it. But
39:27
he thinks that the world is a
39:29
better place than the place inside of
39:32
him. Yes. Yes. And he often,
39:34
and he describes himself as
39:36
prone to self-doubt. And
39:39
so a collaboration, a good
39:41
collaboration becomes compensatory
39:43
for the self-doubt. It's
39:46
like when a show
39:48
with you takes care of
39:50
a lot of the rumination. I mean, he may still
39:52
ask himself, did I talk too much? Did I talk
39:54
okay? Did I say the right thing to do? You
39:56
know, but fundamentally your presence.
40:00
And the fact that that's not something you grapple
40:02
with gives him
40:04
more confidence that it was okay,
40:06
rather than that. More
40:08
to the point is that someone he respects
40:11
thinks something he said was wise or surprising.
40:13
And that's one of the things that
40:15
attracted me to Scott is one
40:18
of the things he does almost continually
40:20
on the show is surprise me with insight.
40:22
And I think he likes
40:24
that I am, I think he likes that
40:27
I think he's smart. Right? Because I do.
40:29
Yes, because of the counter voice to the
40:31
voice of doubt inside. Right, but I think
40:33
he thinks someone really smart thinks
40:36
I'm smart. If it didn't come from someone
40:38
smart, it would have no effect. Right. That's
40:40
what I mean. And I think I genuinely am always like, Oh,
40:42
I didn't think of that. Like the other day he did something,
40:44
I was like, Oh, I thought halfway through. And then he thought
40:47
the rest of the way through. So it's, you
40:49
need other people to get you to the next
40:51
level. And I think that works really well here,
40:54
for sure. What I like about
40:56
what you're highlighting both is that it's
40:59
become a little easy to describe
41:01
you from the angle of it's
41:03
the pair that knows to fight well and disagree
41:06
with each other and still like each other. I
41:08
think what you just described is a whole other
41:10
layer of a what
41:12
you represent to society in
41:15
terms of how you each are,
41:17
but also the kind of complementarity,
41:19
you know, when you haven't said something that
41:21
he says, you say, he just finished the
41:24
thought, but you don't berate yourself on it.
41:26
Because I never would have thought of it.
41:28
Like that's the thing is like, it's a
41:30
different brain. And I'm like, Oh, I see
41:33
how then you see around
41:35
someone that like, see something way
41:37
ahead of you. And
41:39
I have such a test for that. It's I'm
41:41
like, Oh, now I see it's like when you
41:43
see one of those pictures where you can't see
41:45
the face, that's sometimes what it feels like. I'm
41:47
like, Oh, there's the face, of course. And
41:49
then you're like, Oh, I hadn't thought about that.
41:52
And I like that I really find that helpful. And
41:55
it happens to Scott all the time, which
41:57
is why it's a really, I'm often surprised
42:00
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42:02
that way. It doesn't necessarily change
42:04
my viewpoint all the time, but
42:06
it changes the
42:08
way I think about something. And I
42:11
think that's helpful because I get
42:13
uncertain, which is good, which is, I think, a good
42:16
thing. What
42:20
Cara highlights here is
42:22
something that is emphasized in
42:24
the research of John and
42:27
Julie Gottman about relationships, which
42:29
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42:31
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42:34
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42:36
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42:38
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42:41
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42:43
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42:45
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Is what you have with him unique, you think? I
45:17
think it's unusual. I don't get surprised that often.
45:20
I like being surprised by people, and Scott is constantly surprising
45:22
me. Take that answer. He
45:28
surprises me. Do
45:31
you think that your relationship is replicable? Have
45:35
you met other co-founders,
45:38
co-creators, co-leaders,
45:40
collaborators that have inspired
45:42
you? Different
45:44
models, but that you say they too, they have this.
45:48
Because so many people have
45:50
to work with people, and they're all looking for
45:52
a way to do it in
45:54
a way that is not just better,
45:56
but what you're describing is, Scott, satisfying,
45:58
nurturing, joyful, looking for you. I mean
46:00
those are beautiful terms to
46:02
describe going to work. You know, you have
46:04
to find your co-founder, right? I think co-founders
46:07
are always better, honestly, when I see companies
46:09
that the individual founders tend to be really
46:12
narcissistic in a way that's eventually
46:15
problematic. I've
46:17
always had partners. I really like, I think
46:19
it's much more rewarding to build a company with other people.
46:23
I think it's fun. I think it's fun to build something
46:25
together. I think it's fun to make money together. I just
46:27
find it more rewarding. I would never want to do this
46:29
kind of stuff alone because it's like, who do you celebrate
46:31
with? And who
46:33
takes care of yourself doubt? There
46:35
you go. But in terms of, like
46:38
I was thinking if, when
46:40
you went in for heart surgery, someone
46:43
said, well, what happens to pivot if
46:45
care doesn't make it out of surgery?
46:48
And they're like, who's
46:51
the next co-host? Who's your co-host? And I'm
46:53
like, if care is gone, when care is
46:55
gone, pivot is done. See,
46:59
I would immediately replace you. I know. But
47:02
I won't say that. But me,
47:06
I don't have the energy to recreate
47:08
the relationship. And
47:12
another question I had for you, Scott, is actually
47:14
for both of you, but it came up as
47:16
you were talking. In what
47:19
way has your professional relationship
47:21
with Cara? Changed
47:24
you to be a different or
47:26
a better partner with your wife? How
47:33
has this relationship informed, inspired?
47:37
I don't think it's made me a better spouse. I
47:39
think it's made me a better family person. I've
47:42
always come from this attitude of I'm working
47:44
so hard for the
47:46
family. And
47:48
don't you appreciate how hard I'm working?
47:51
I'm working this hard for us and
47:54
a lot of self-pity. And
47:56
care works as hard or harder than I do. I
48:00
do and there's very few people who work as hard as I
48:02
do. And Kara always finds
48:04
time for her family. And I have
48:06
never heard any of that self-pity.
48:11
And that's very motivating for me because
48:13
it's something I don't like about myself.
48:16
And when I see someone who has as much
48:18
pressure on her from a relationship standpoint and an
48:20
economic standpoint as Kara does, Kara's got a lot
48:22
of dependence. And I've
48:24
never heard you complain once. I've never
48:26
heard you complain once. Part of this
48:29
are the socially sanctioned scripts. It
48:32
is very cultural. You are, you know, you
48:35
were talking earlier about how both of
48:38
you kind of transcend some gender role
48:40
expectations. But in this
48:42
one, you fall right in the middle
48:44
of it. I'm working so hard, I
48:46
justify my absence, I justify my lateness,
48:49
I justify my lack of availability.
48:51
You should be thankful. You should realize how
48:53
much I'm doing. I'm not doing this for
48:55
myself. I'm doing this for the family. I
48:57
mean, that's like such a canned script and
48:59
very gender specific. And a lot of it's bullshit
49:02
because most of what I do is for me to be
49:04
honest. Okay. I wanna be ridiculous. Thank
49:06
you for your honesty, sir. No, I wanna be
49:08
ridiculously fucking rich and awesome. He likes the hotel
49:10
room, see? Yeah, I mean, I'd probably
49:12
be doing this without my family. I don't, it's
49:14
not like I get up and go drive a
49:16
bus. But
49:19
do you agree that there is something
49:21
very gender specific about this script?
49:25
Oh no, on so many ways. The other day I
49:27
grabbed some fries from my kid's plate and he looked
49:29
at me and he said, dad, it's mine. I'm like,
49:31
everything in this fucking house is mine. Did you really
49:33
say that? I really said that, I use that as
49:35
exact words. Jeez. Don't
49:39
say that again. There you go.
49:41
There you go. Do not say that ever to anyone. No,
49:43
I can't, yeah, I can hear
49:45
it coming out of my mouth and trying to
49:47
pull it back. Yeah, yeah. I know.
49:49
Good idea. Could you apologize? Do you take
49:51
it back at least? Oh
49:55
yeah. You do that apologizing? Yeah,
49:57
I do. I do apologize to my dad.
50:00
kids and my
50:02
wife and I also try to immediately
50:04
inject humor to mock myself. Yeah, his
50:07
wife runs the whole show. Just 100% 100%. What
50:11
have I not to ask you that
50:14
you think many important part of this?
50:16
Please tell me. I
50:20
don't know. I just think it's interesting
50:22
because you're right. When you started this thing off, a
50:24
lot of people don't, they talk
50:26
about what the problem is and not what
50:28
works. Right. I think
50:30
that's a really interesting way to frame this because
50:33
when people do run into me publicly, because they think they
50:35
really know us and they kind of do on fans
50:38
who listen to the show kind of do know us. They're
50:41
like, what's the real example of what just
50:43
works? You just give me, this
50:47
is just the last one you mentioned,
50:50
Scott gets down on himself and he
50:52
goes negative. He berates himself. He doubts
50:54
himself. He petes himself. And you basically
50:57
say to him, cut it off, but
51:00
you have a way of doing it. And he
51:02
has a trust vis-a-vis you that
51:04
instead of feeling cut off and
51:08
shut down, he feels supported
51:10
and he feels that you're helping him
51:12
not sink. And
51:14
that you're holding his head above water. Those
51:17
moments, because relationships happen in micro moves.
51:19
That's a moment that in a distressed
51:22
relationship would completely turn on its head.
51:24
You would say, Oh, come on, knock
51:26
it off. And the other person would
51:28
feel you have no empathy. I have
51:31
no room to express myself. What about
51:33
my feeling? You shut me up, et
51:36
cetera. And it would begin an
51:38
escalation. Right. But I don't actually
51:40
say knock it off without saying you're great. Like
51:42
look at all the six things, you know, like,
51:44
like, let me show you why that's not the
51:47
case. Doesn't matter. You can say it in the
51:49
nicest way. But what, what,
51:51
what allows him to hold on
51:53
to this rather than
51:55
to feel pushed away
51:57
by it is, is in the detail.
52:00
of many, many other experiences
52:02
where he has learned to trust
52:04
that you mean well for him.
52:07
Many ways of him knowing that there
52:10
is something in what you do that
52:12
actually holds him from thinking
52:14
further. Lots of
52:16
little things that are not expressed
52:19
in the moment, but they allow
52:21
him to attribute meaning to what
52:23
you say that feels helpful and
52:26
curative rather than negative and hostile.
52:28
Yeah, I don't know why. That
52:31
analysis of micro move by micro move
52:33
is what helps us understand what
52:36
makes it work. Now typically we
52:38
all have a good idea of what makes it
52:41
not work. We've seen all the, you know, you
52:43
say this and off when the
52:45
other person goes, it's
52:47
what made this person take
52:49
this in this direction rather
52:51
than in the more obvious
52:53
direction. Right, yeah. You
52:56
say, but I say you're great, another person
52:58
could just hear this as she just, you
53:00
know, whatever you say, what's the word in
53:02
English? Yeah, use
53:04
your empty words, you know,
53:06
placating, placating me, you know,
53:09
and that doesn't happen. And it's
53:11
like what allows this? Well, because I think Scott
53:14
knows that I don't lie, you know, and I
53:16
don't, like, I wouldn't shine
53:18
him on. I don't ever
53:20
shine people on. I think that's, so
53:22
he knows I wouldn't say it if I didn't mean it. Oh,
53:25
here's a question. What is Scott going to make
53:27
Kara cry? God,
53:31
I hope I never make you cry. I hope I
53:33
give you permission. No, no, you get emotional. I'm
53:36
not talking about make you cry. It's that
53:38
you cry about really lovely things. You cry
53:40
about your missing friends or your,
53:42
someone who's sick or your
53:45
mom or something like that.
53:47
Really, you access those emotions. That
53:50
was just a joke because you're never going to make me cry. Yeah,
53:53
but you've, I've heard you get,
53:55
I've heard you get emotional about stuff.
53:58
I think you feel more like. to
54:00
talk about personal stuff, because I'm so personal.
54:05
My kids probably. Yeah, but
54:09
I think, you know, it's just
54:11
different. Kara's raised from a position
54:13
of where, I think, well,
54:16
I think, I think Kara's, I
54:19
don't wanna say her claws are out, but
54:21
Kara said something to me that really struck
54:23
me. She said, you know, when
54:25
we were talking about people who kind of run
54:27
the world or these heads of tech platforms, they
54:31
don't build any safeguards. They're
54:33
not worried about people being victims
54:35
because they've never been victims themselves. And so
54:37
they just have a difficult time understanding what
54:40
it's like to feel, to be a victim.
54:43
And I feel like Kara comes from a place where she
54:46
just took a lot of shit. And
54:51
so as a result, she puts up, it's
54:53
not a front, but I think
54:55
you have a lot of calluses. I
54:58
won't even call it scar tissue, but I think you're tough. You
55:02
have a, you know, you're a nagloo.
55:05
You're tough on the outside and soft and gooey
55:07
on the inside. But the
55:09
vast majority of people you come in contact with
55:11
are never gonna see that, I don't think. I've
55:13
seen it a few times, but
55:16
I think most people don't ever access that.
55:19
And so the question of when
55:21
we like cry. Yeah,
55:24
but I'm coming back to it
55:26
because it goes hand in hand
55:28
with the, I don't know, I don't
55:31
wallow, I don't sell pity. I
55:34
get over things, I'm pretty short, you
55:36
know, that very robust
55:39
system that you have. So
55:41
there might be one day something
55:43
that finally says, I deserve to
55:45
be here. But
55:48
I, as in I, this feeling deserves
55:51
to be, to take just
55:53
some space inside of you for a
55:55
moment. Please don't shut me down. Please
55:58
don't go practical on me. Please don't. start
56:00
cleaning, just let me express
56:02
myself. And there will
56:04
be maybe one day a part of you
56:07
that just asks for
56:09
that and makes it happen. He will
56:11
have not much to do with it.
56:13
The cleaning works. I tell you, this
56:15
should be a whole therapeutic thing. I
56:17
cleaned the whole basement on Sunday. I'm
56:20
so happy. I've written in Mating and
56:22
Gaffivity two pages on somebody who really
56:24
began cleaning. At the moment things became
56:26
most chaotic. And that notion that order
56:28
on the outside will be met by
56:30
order on the inside. It
56:33
is though. It does work. You
56:35
know, so it works
56:37
as a wonderful repressive tactic.
56:39
Organizing structure. It works for something. But
56:42
if you ask, how will I one
56:44
day, you know, will I one day
56:46
cry unbeknownst to me, will tears grab
56:49
me like I've seen them grab him.
56:52
And for that, those
56:55
tears will need to carve a little way
56:58
inside of you and basically say,
57:00
let us come, let us stream,
57:03
give us permission. Yeah, that's true.
57:06
That's true. Probably unlikely, but
57:08
still. And
57:10
I think we can stop here if that's okay with you.
57:13
Great. Thank you for doing this.
57:16
I can't imagine how many very famous
57:18
and interesting people would would kill
57:20
to have you do this for them. So thanks very
57:22
much. Yeah, my pleasure.
57:34
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