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Doesn't. Matter the gender of the versus Most
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of the time where men. And
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is. The source of the
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discontent. Similar. Most
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of the time is because I consider
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them extremely incompetent and out again to
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the same time. It's either one of
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the other men who can be both
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when you can't be incompetent and I
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target it. To me, that's a bit
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tour. When
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I first meet a couple, I
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meet them on paper. I
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read the summary of
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the intake interview that my
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producers do. And as I
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read, my mind goes
2:39
into what matters here. What's important
2:41
to gather the
2:44
basics in order to
2:46
begin layering the scaffolding of this
2:50
relationship. I'd also decided that as
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I met them, I would just
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introduce what I had gathered from
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the story. Let me tell you what I know
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about you so far. This is
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what I picked up. You
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are together nine years. You
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are working in the same international organization.
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You are new parents
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of a 10 month old little boy.
3:19
You met in Italy
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and then went together to
3:24
Kenya, then found your way to
3:27
New York. For
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a while you had a rising
3:32
career and you were
3:34
the following, girlfriend, spouse,
3:38
which induced some fear in you because that
3:40
is also what you saw at home. Dad
3:43
had a career, mom followed suit. For
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the first time, you also
3:49
were working from home or with
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home, as I like to say. And
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since you work in the same organization, you
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actually got to see each other at Work
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in ways that you never did before. The never had
4:01
before and so you discovered some
4:03
aspects of each other that you
4:05
previously were not as familiar with.
4:08
Including that she may be sweet
4:10
and smiling and Fifty The says
4:12
that she is fierce at work
4:14
or what you call in tennis
4:16
and that she has a recurrent
4:18
problem with bosses. Ah,
4:20
and that of that recurrent problem with
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both for seems to be reminiscent of
4:25
a sudden dynamic that you had read
4:27
your father who's attention and praise you
4:30
always sought. But then when you got
4:32
it, didn't think it was enough. On
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and what you got to see on
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the other side is that your partner,
4:40
your wife am what I said The
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way that your wife is actually as
4:44
equally friendly with the people at work
4:46
as soon as we do you not
4:48
even getting special treatment. It's
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just who she is. have you
4:53
the beneficiary of it and that.
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You are wondering since I've
4:58
had many jobs. And.
5:00
It's always need leaving because I don't get
5:02
along with the bus. Maybe it's not always
5:04
the boss does the problem because amd upon
5:06
some fact. What
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am I did? do? I did. I get
5:12
it to. I miss things. They.
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Think you got it completely. Their
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impressive. I went with them. Be
5:19
blown out of the them out
5:21
of prison Saw amount of this
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is awesome putting the pieces together.
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Know what we need to delineate
5:28
the menu and his idea of
5:31
should own person. When.
5:35
I meet these two women.
5:38
First. Divorce as if we are older
5:40
than actually. And. I
5:43
asked him to pitch. Some. Names
5:45
and interestingly they booed
5:48
immediately choose American sounding
5:50
me. As. If to
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say. Our story is broader.
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and trend since the borders and
5:57
the boundaries and mississippi city of
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rx Say that Nina
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and Kay. Where
6:08
should we start? So
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one of the main reasons why we're
6:14
here is changing jobs because
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of this very strong push
6:18
factor which has always been
6:21
your bosses and and I
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you've changed many different jobs. What's
6:26
your timeline? Six months, nine months?
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Two years. Two years, yeah. Not
6:30
that. But just because it
6:32
takes time for five. Okay,
6:35
a year and a half. By a year and
6:37
a half you start looking. Then
6:40
it takes about before looking how much time
6:42
obsessing about why it's not working. I
6:44
would say the honeymoon lasts about six to
6:47
eight months. Then it's half
6:49
to a year to say again,
6:51
really tough and then six months
6:53
maybe it should change and then
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this is it. So
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what is it that
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makes Nina able
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to switch at
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a speed that is uncommon in
7:09
the field? You're
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very good and and everybody recognizes
7:14
that. You get a lot of
7:17
recognition at work. You
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work in a very specific sector so
7:21
there aren't many of you which you
7:23
know can help in a way so
7:25
people know you. You're reputation arrives.
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These push factors of you know bosses
7:31
that make you miserable is
7:33
there. They know it? Most
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of them I'm quite vocal. Yeah. They
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know the extent to which they make
7:43
them miserable. So I'm never
7:45
very open about how difficult the situation
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is. I'm not used to confront people
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so when I do it's because I
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reached the limit. That's
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a clear childhood pattern. I wasn't allowed
7:56
to confront my father so that's
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clearly. happening here too. Doesn't
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matter the gender of the person. Most of
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the time we're men, only
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in one case it was a woman. It's
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easier for me to have a
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little bit of friction with men for sure. And
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is the source of the discontent similar?
8:17
Most of the time is because
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I consider them extremely incompetent and
8:21
arrogant at the same time, which
8:23
is combination which I don't. It's
8:26
either one or the other. I mean, it can't be
8:29
both. You can't
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be incompetent and arrogant. To me that's
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a bit too much because the arrogance,
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because the arrogance associated with
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power has a lot
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of full repercussions on my work. If
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you are simply incompetent and you let me
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be, fine. You know,
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we go along. And if you are arrogant
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and good, I don't have
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much problem in following you because I
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recognize the leadership. Unfortunately,
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most of the time where I had problems
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was a combination of two. So I didn't
9:03
recognize the leadership that I
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was forced to follow. One
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other question. Do
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you find yourself as the main person
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or even the only person at odds
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with your boss? Or
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is this
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systemic? But you
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are the more, you
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have enough power that you actually can even
9:27
voice your complaint. It's definitely
9:29
systemic most of the time. I'm
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not sure it's just power. It's
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just that I seem to be
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less able to stand it than other colleagues.
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Other colleagues say, yeah, yeah, whatever. Fine,
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tomorrow is another day. But
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something sit with me way
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more than with other people. Editor.
9:53
Thank you. Even
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when you were working in the
9:58
other office in... Africa, there
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maybe it was only you. Well,
10:05
in Africa. The issue was
10:08
a particular one because I think that, you
10:10
know, we are always focused about the fact
10:12
that I change work because
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there is a boss I don't go along
10:16
with. And this is true.
10:18
Most of the time, there is
10:20
a part that I am ambitious.
10:23
There is something in me that I cannot
10:25
even explain, where I always look for
10:27
the next challenge. I
10:30
mean, in the middle of the pandemic, I started
10:32
my third master. How cool, cool
10:34
one can be. I mean, it's
10:36
fantastic. I loved it. But
10:39
how much it has impacted on our
10:42
life. I mean, I worked every single,
10:44
I started every single weekend for
10:46
18 months. Sometimes
10:50
I don't even know why I'm doing
10:52
it. Why am I getting into things
10:54
that do not necessarily, things that make
10:56
me happy? Well, one thing that doesn't
10:58
help is that every time you were
11:00
when you started working in this organization,
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when you every time you change job,
11:04
every time you went up another level,
11:07
you got a lot of praise from a
11:09
certain person and a lot
11:11
of recognition from your father. And it made
11:13
him really happy. Although
11:16
he has never
11:19
explicitly asked for it. Yeah,
11:22
it doesn't need to. But he doesn't
11:24
need anymore because he planted such good
11:26
seeds when you were a child that
11:28
he doesn't need to give directions. And
11:30
you are the extension of it. You're
11:34
part of the congratulatory course? Well,
11:38
I think I'm really looking to help and
11:40
support you. I've
11:52
always been interested in the alternative
11:54
resume that people bring to work,
11:56
not just where they work and
11:58
what positions that they've had. but
12:00
their alternative resume as in their
12:02
relational history. And
12:05
Nina has just given us such
12:07
a beautiful example of how
12:10
her professional trajectory
12:12
intersects with her
12:14
relational history. She
12:16
actually has it clear for her why
12:18
she reacts to certain things, what
12:21
gives her the drive, what is
12:23
it about the recognition that she's
12:25
aspiring to. And I'm listening
12:28
to her and now I'm looking to Kay
12:30
and I'm thinking, and how does Kay fit
12:32
into this? And
12:36
your role is you're not
12:38
necessarily congratulating, but you are
12:40
a harmonizer. You
12:44
are the person that doesn't give her grief
12:46
for it. A,
12:49
you're massively understanding,
12:52
you know your partner. Yeah,
12:54
she taught me how to be understanding.
12:56
Yes. She was very good. That is
12:58
true, but I also know that even
13:00
in work, you
13:03
are the person who makes sure to get
13:05
along with everyone. You
13:07
are a harmonizer. And
13:12
that she didn't teach
13:14
you. Now, you
13:17
know, what is interesting is you've mentioned
13:19
her father three times and I know
13:21
none about your own janitori, but
13:23
they must be somewhere present in this conversation
13:26
too. If at all, right? So
13:30
you are a harmonizer. You
13:32
certainly the last thing you want to do is stand in
13:34
the way of someone. You'll
13:37
make it happen. You'll adapt,
13:39
you'll figure it out. And
13:42
hopefully you'll get a thank you at the end too. And
13:46
both of you are looking for certain thank
13:49
yous or ahas, but with
13:51
a different trajectory,
13:54
you know? So give
13:56
me a tiny bit of background. Yes,
14:00
you're right. I'm a
14:03
harmonizer because I feel
14:05
discomfort when there's conflict, when
14:09
people around me don't get
14:11
along. I'm very
14:13
much a people's person. I
14:16
really enjoy working with people
14:19
in teams. I
14:21
grew up in a very solid
14:24
family, father, mother,
14:26
brother. We traveled
14:28
quite a lot because of
14:30
my father's work. My mother
14:32
followed along. So she
14:35
had a career when we were
14:37
back in Italy, but when we were
14:40
abroad, she was the wife of. But
14:43
she elevated her role. She
14:46
really gave the best of
14:48
it. So her role entailed more
14:51
or less optionally socially than
14:53
dinner, fundraisers. And
14:56
she was very good at it and
14:59
always had a way to do it seamlessly.
15:02
And he recognized it? Always. He
15:05
was very grateful, always recognized.
15:07
So very solid couple, not
15:10
so good, neither of
15:12
them in expressing or
15:15
recognizing negative emotions in
15:17
general, in life. Everything was more on the
15:19
positive side. The glass
15:21
was often half full. One
15:24
of the consequences is that I am, I
15:26
think I discovered a
15:29
certain fear of giving
15:31
space to my negative emotions, because I
15:33
fear that they're never going to go away. So
15:36
I have a hard time connecting with them.
15:39
I very often, I
15:41
always had a very hard time sharing
15:44
my sorrows, even with
15:46
friends, because I
15:49
always had a, not
15:51
only I am going through a hard
15:53
time, I cannot listen
15:57
to wrong advice, it
15:59
would be to Get some. My
16:01
nerves are you don't like incompetence
16:03
either Exactly like that. So if
16:05
I am of thing that which
16:07
is already a sewage effort and
16:09
then I hear. Wrong. Advice
16:11
from friends or or from her is
16:14
so much to bear and of oh
16:16
I was. I
16:18
think I learned from my parents to
16:20
take care of my negative emotions by
16:23
myself. I have a very hard time
16:25
relying on other people. I had a
16:27
hard time believing that the in our
16:29
really. Was. Able to support
16:31
me the show strong enough to carry
16:33
me to carry my sorrows as well.
16:35
So I have a. Let's.
16:39
Focus on the most threesome sorrows
16:41
the were. There were three in
16:43
particular. In and they were
16:45
brought up by some them it's. The
16:48
first one was. We
16:50
were trying to have a baby in
16:52
the process was not coming along and
16:54
we had been waiting for several years
16:56
and we didn't know whether he would
16:58
ever gonna have fun and a cell
17:00
barista. Am I
17:02
so stuck in the city? Because.
17:06
It's. A city I learned to like
17:08
that. It's not a city where I
17:10
thrive. Whereas
17:12
is probably a city where nina
17:14
thrive so. But we were stuck
17:17
here because of the baby process as well.
17:19
We we had to stay in the city.
17:21
So that I.
17:24
Had been trying for a long time
17:26
to change job and things were not
17:28
moving so. Yes than other. Aspect.
17:30
Of my life for us and stock. And
17:33
that sue civil My mother
17:35
started developing dementia. And
17:38
assists. He needs to
17:40
do with my father and. I.
17:44
Know that my presence next to
17:46
them would make a suits the
17:48
friends. And I
17:50
look forward to that moment. At
17:52
some point in our lives, say
17:55
was I was completely completely stuck
17:57
on this aspect. Can.
17:59
I. Go back A set. We
18:01
started some. I'm a harmonize
18:04
or which led us to. I've
18:06
always struggled with what you are
18:08
decide to negative emotions. Which could
18:10
include sorrow. Sadness Greece
18:13
An. Anger. Because
18:16
there was no tolerance for it
18:19
in my family, Because the focus
18:21
was on competence. And
18:23
because they couldn't they couldn't deal with
18:26
it is not the content of the
18:28
advice. Incompetent advice is not
18:30
the content of Did face. it's
18:32
the emotional receptivity of the people
18:34
you're talking to. And
18:37
you learned. That. They
18:39
were know what to do with it. And.
18:42
That they would be overwhelmed. And
18:44
now you think you would be overwhelmed? So
18:48
it's less about bad advice. You butcher's
18:50
the word competence but it's a different
18:52
sorry I'm hearing from you and some
18:55
nice I hear it's accurately that. For
18:58
whatever reason, In. Your
19:01
family. You were
19:03
encouraged. To
19:05
not bring. Feelings.
19:08
That would make other people anxious.
19:12
Helpless. An
19:14
able to just create a
19:16
container. Without. Having to do much
19:18
of anything. And
19:21
so you learned. A.
19:23
Lot to go to anybody but
19:26
also you develop and inner sphere
19:28
that windy feelings emerged. There's no
19:30
limit to them. Because. There
19:32
is no container, not internally
19:34
and not. Would. You parents? yes.
19:37
And then you take this to work because
19:39
we take that emotional history to work and
19:41
we thought it even into a skill. That.
19:46
Part of that may be. Connected
19:49
also with how long it
19:51
takes you to then upgrade
19:54
your. Positions. Because.
19:57
Nobody even knows. That
20:00
you're not happy at work, Or that
20:02
you'd like something else. Maybe
20:05
I want something different? I'm capable of
20:07
more. You know? Oh but
20:09
it looked like you were so please
20:11
and can be. I can imagine people
20:13
have no idea. What?
20:16
You really think because you've
20:18
organized she says around with
20:20
distinct. Where. Does it
20:22
land on you how the other he receive
20:24
this. Well.
20:27
This this. A doing this
20:29
idea that I. Do
20:31
Not. Bring.
20:35
Negative emotions.
20:37
I. Work. I'm and it's
20:40
it's true. One
20:42
of them his. Lack.
20:45
Of control over my
20:47
stress, Lack of control
20:49
over me feeling overwhelmed.
20:52
Because. If I lose control over
20:54
my stress, my emotions. There.
20:57
Was fear? Then I'm not
20:59
going to be safe then.
21:02
I'm. Gonna be seen as incompetent.
21:06
Whereas. If I keep
21:08
everything under control. I'm
21:10
gonna be. says.
21:12
And I'm going to be
21:14
able to control what happens
21:16
in the process And and
21:19
everything else is. And thing
21:21
is that my mother especially
21:23
has always been. A. Problem
21:25
solver have all kinds. Of
21:28
practical and most of the was always
21:30
a solution and I. Absorb
21:33
the skill. Magnificently
21:35
fab five. Then we're
21:37
now with sharing her.
21:40
Issues with me. My first reaction was oh
21:42
with a we're going to solve this We're
21:44
going to solve this feeling We're going to
21:46
solve this grief at to the point where
21:48
she was. Able to tell me. I
21:50
don't need you to solve this problem and
21:52
into to listen. And
21:55
I suggest something. Sometimes.
21:59
Problems so. How.
22:06
Can see themselves as
22:08
competent advice. Givers. Are
22:11
also. People. Who actually
22:14
can't tolerate problems? They
22:17
can't tolerate distress and the
22:20
anxiety that problems in this
22:22
it and so. They
22:24
present themselves as problem solvers.
22:27
But in fact there are also
22:29
insists people. Who. Can't tolerate
22:31
a problem with that doesn't necessarily have
22:34
an immediate solution, which is what Nina
22:36
was sentenced. Then I just need to
22:38
tell you how I feel about something
22:41
and you know how. And.
22:43
Because when you solve the problem is
22:45
shut it down. You'd. Basically are
22:47
trying to solve the problem for make
22:49
it go away because you cannot tolerate
22:51
whatever she's going to which is probably
22:53
what happened between you and Mom is
22:55
Weldon. Yes, Yes,
22:58
So. Whenever she says the problem she
23:00
basically was act of it at a at a
23:03
fixed. The. Get
23:05
this and make event. Like
23:07
that over. Likes
23:10
with her. That. Is
23:12
no problem. So. That
23:16
is management of. Anxiety.
23:19
That is overwhelmed. That is the
23:21
fear of the loss of control.
23:24
near as a lack of control
23:26
your that manifests itself as a
23:29
pseudo. Problem. Solving
23:31
skills. The
23:37
reef frame here is that
23:39
what his always been interpreted
23:41
as. Problem
23:43
solving is actually see
23:45
now as problem avoidance.
23:49
It's not about the specific issue that
23:51
needs solution, it's about making the problem
23:53
go away. Wish get away as. fast
23:55
as possible because he brings up
23:57
a lot of tension pressure and
24:01
So we really are talking about management
24:03
of discomfort that happens to
24:05
also sometimes solve a problem. And
24:08
as we continue this exploration and she
24:11
keeps going, yes, yes, yes, with her head,
24:13
you're on track, this is it. It
24:15
also becomes clear that what happened
24:18
in the pandemic when the problems
24:20
there are what Ron Heifetz, the
24:22
psychiatrist at Harvard, calls adaptive
24:25
problems, problems that don't
24:27
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27:17
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27:20
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27:24
solutions. Being stuck
27:26
at home together, being stuck in the
27:28
city without being able to leave it,
27:31
dealing with struggles around fertility
27:34
and adoption, being stuck
27:36
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27:39
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27:41
arrests that didn't have
27:44
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27:46
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27:48
fixes. And
27:52
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27:54
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27:56
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27:58
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28:00
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28:03
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28:05
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28:09
there was so little control I had
28:11
on them. Well, one
28:13
thing it implied is
28:15
that you can't pick the fixer of it
28:17
all alone. Yeah, pity, but...
28:20
Yes, yes, yes, it's a demotion. I
28:22
get it. The
28:24
kind of fixer you are probably believes I can
28:26
do it myself. Yeah, it's hard for me
28:28
to say I need help. It's
28:30
like there's... it's a word that doesn't
28:32
really come out naturally, but I know
28:35
I need help or
28:37
I can benefit from help. There
28:41
is a little... there's something
28:43
within me that judges
28:45
it and
28:47
judges dependency. I have
28:49
a thing with people being
28:52
dependent. And yet
28:54
you're watching your mom, where
28:57
this woman who was
29:00
all capable needs help. You
29:03
get to see her from a much more vulnerable
29:05
place. Yes, completely. So
29:08
has it helped you to redefine the
29:10
meaning of words like I need help
29:13
or I don't always have a quick fix, or
29:16
life sometimes puts things in front
29:18
of you that are overwhelming. And
29:22
you can learn to deal with them, but
29:24
they are by nature overwhelming rather
29:27
than it's a personal failure if
29:29
they overwhelm me. It's
29:31
a personal failure if I need help,
29:34
if I depend. I'm
29:37
working on it, but
29:40
I'm not there yet. I can see how I'm not
29:42
there yet. But
29:44
enough about me. Let's talk about
29:46
you. I'm very happy
29:48
for all this to be all about you.
29:52
You know why I did what I just did? Because
29:55
I also understood from
29:58
the intake interview. So
30:00
that for a long time, that
30:02
is not what happens between the two of
30:04
you. That
30:07
Nina can take front stage easily
30:11
and that works, that's
30:13
part of the deal. She
30:16
can complain, she can be
30:18
embattled at work and
30:21
she has the promotions and she does
30:23
the upgrades and she makes you move
30:25
countries and she and you and she
30:27
and you. And I decided that
30:29
is enough. Well
30:31
it's lop-sided. Enough is what you need
30:33
to say. For
30:36
me it's just like, we're going to
30:38
rebalance this for a moment. What will
30:41
it look like if actually for an
30:43
hour you are on the
30:45
front stage and she listens and
30:47
I'm watching her and she's listening attentively
30:50
and some of the things are
30:52
surprising and some of the things
30:54
are just calming
30:57
and she's
30:59
learning what it's like
31:02
to give space. Because when she says to
31:04
you, tell me if you need something, it's
31:07
predicated on the notion that she knows that
31:09
you want. And
31:14
it's definitely a dynamic, it's a dynamic we've
31:17
been talking about, this
31:19
dynamic where I decided to
31:21
follow her in New York at a
31:23
time where I was very happy,
31:26
where I was both in terms
31:28
of country, work, friends, environment. But
31:31
I also, the moment I accepted
31:33
to follow her I knew I
31:35
wanted to own
31:38
the decision because I didn't want to find
31:40
myself ten years later saying, but I
31:43
did this for you and I just avoid
31:45
from the beginning any tension. But
31:49
I didn't want her to feel
31:51
it was her fault. But
31:53
you're looking at it in a blame structure.
31:56
Whereas what is also happening is
31:58
that until now... one
32:01
person's career has
32:03
been defined as very important. And
32:07
that same person's career that is defined as
32:09
important is the person who says, I'm ambitious.
32:14
And this is the dynamic between the
32:17
achiever and the pleaser. And
32:20
so it's not just about
32:22
coming to New York. It's that the
32:24
coming to New York is a reinforcement
32:27
of the notion of one person's
32:29
career has been more
32:31
central. And
32:34
that is also the story that you grew
32:36
up with. That your dad's
32:38
career took the family all over the
32:40
world and your
32:42
mother made it her own decision.
32:46
Try to not be upset
32:49
about it. Or a victim. That is the
32:51
better word, yes. Or a victim about it.
32:54
How do I change that? I don't know
32:56
if it's an I. It's
33:00
a we or it's a
33:02
you. No. I. So
33:07
where it becomes a matter
33:09
of we instead of I is
33:11
that if you take more of a center stage
33:13
or your career take more of a center stage,
33:16
maybe it's what I need as well. It
33:20
will calm down a little bit my energy.
33:23
Particularly now with the child, I mean, we
33:25
have no choice. I
33:28
mean. But you
33:30
have two different conversations that I
33:32
hear primarily about work, right? One
33:35
is the doing
33:37
more and the other
33:39
one, they're not different, but I
33:41
want just to explore how
33:43
they actually connect. One is the doing more and
33:45
the other one is, I
33:48
seem to always be at loggerheads
33:50
with my boss, which
33:53
then makes me want to go and do something more.
33:56
But the
33:58
thing I wanted to ask. Is it each
34:01
time something similar? What you
34:03
end up experiencing in
34:05
the relationship with your bosses? Does it come
34:07
down to the same thing every time? Different
34:10
color, different garb, same theme? Yeah
34:18
What is in common in all these situations
34:20
that I feel
34:22
like I've never grown up in
34:24
a way when I was a
34:27
child, I felt
34:29
I had a lot of responsibilities, not
34:31
practical stuff. I was a very privileged
34:33
child that goes to school and plays
34:35
and that's it. But there
34:37
was pressure for me to be good in
34:39
school and none of that. And
34:41
it was assumed as the
34:44
normal. But
34:46
at the same time I was a child. I
34:48
wasn't completely independent. And
34:51
this seems exactly the same thing
34:53
that is happening in all the
34:55
jobs that I've been having. It
34:57
doesn't matter how high up I
34:59
get into the hierarchy of
35:02
the organization. I
35:06
feel I'm treated like that. Like a
35:08
child? Yeah, with a lot
35:10
of responsibilities. But
35:12
still contrast that you can do it
35:14
alone. So
35:18
this is somehow beyond
35:20
the personality of my
35:22
boss. The
35:26
combination of responsibility with no... I
35:29
would call it power, but
35:31
it's not really power. There is always someone
35:33
controlling me. It's like, sure
35:35
you can go out until 11, but
35:37
I don't give you the keys. You
35:40
know, sure, you can come back whenever and ring me
35:42
so that I know when you come back. It's
35:46
a little bit the same. I'm
35:49
given more and more work, more and
35:51
more portfolio. Oh my God, Nina, you're excellent. You can do
35:53
this. Sure. But
35:58
then there is always. things
36:00
that are sad and situations
36:03
that keep on happening that bring
36:06
me back to that moment.
36:08
That moment. That moment
36:10
where I was a child and everybody
36:13
was out playing. I
36:15
was not because I had
36:18
to study. And
36:20
not only I was losing the pleasure
36:23
of playing, but
36:25
on top of it, it was just
36:28
given for granted that that
36:30
was what was supposed to happen. And
36:34
still the bar was raised
36:36
higher and a little bit more. It's
36:40
so difficult to explain that,
36:42
but in work
36:44
is the same thing. And
36:48
I don't necessarily think that being without a
36:50
boss would solve it. Because
36:52
then you think, okay, work without a boss. I'm
36:58
afraid that I couldn't. I
37:00
would be dominated
37:03
by fear. I
37:05
mean, I don't know. That's
37:08
why I'm stuck. It's
37:15
fascinating because it's
37:17
exactly the same thing, but
37:20
on a different angle. You
37:25
both see help as control and it gets
37:27
a bit mixed up in the
37:29
workplace. I
37:32
don't want to be controlled, but I'm so
37:34
used to being in reaction to someone who
37:36
I think is limiting me and constraining me
37:38
that it's become a part of my structure.
37:42
If I don't have it, I feel like I'm
37:44
alone at sea. There's no boundaries. Whereas the authority
37:46
offers me a boundary. But if I'm all alone
37:48
and I have to say to myself, I can
37:50
do it, how do I know? And
37:54
the flip side of it, which is that
37:56
help is a loss of control or a
37:59
lack of control. which is a terrible definition
38:01
of the word, but we get it. We
38:03
know how we got there. You're
38:06
not alone with that distortion. But
38:09
you know, what I still struggle about is,
38:12
is that while I fully recognize the
38:15
thing that I would be lost without
38:17
authority, I mean. I
38:20
don't wanna do it all alone. I've done
38:22
it all alone all my life. I
38:25
would love some help, but help. I've
38:28
both done it all alone, much
38:30
of your life. Not all everything,
38:33
but in this domain, you both
38:35
have been alone in ways that
38:37
have been painful, difficult,
38:39
isolating, challenging. Do
38:43
you have mentors? Have
38:46
you ever had a mentor? Both
38:52
women are so insightful
38:56
and have such a good
38:58
sense of their own relational
39:00
self-awareness. I don't need
39:02
to do therapy here. This
39:04
is a coaching session. What
39:07
I'm clear about is that this
39:09
idea that you want autonomy, but
39:11
you want belonging. And
39:13
if you have belonging, that may
39:15
imply hierarchy, and you are fighting
39:17
the hierarchy because the hierarchy actually
39:19
helps you know who you are
39:21
because it allows you to say,
39:23
I'm not this. Whereas
39:26
if you are alone, then you have to
39:28
be able to speak this to yourself as
39:30
if she really gets it very clearly why
39:32
she would not be her own boss. So
39:34
if she doesn't want to be her own boss, and
39:36
she doesn't wanna have a boss in the
39:39
traditional sense of the word, then
39:41
we also need to explore other ways
39:43
for her to experience support,
39:46
structure, belonging, and autonomy. And
39:51
I think one way to address this
39:53
is through the exploration of
39:55
a mentor. Well,
40:02
we have an official mentoring program
40:05
in our office, so we had to pick
40:07
a colleague. The
40:10
reason I chose this colleague is
40:12
because he's very calm. I
40:15
say that he's very British, which is probably not
40:17
a correct thing to say. He's very calm. He
40:20
thinks before talking. He
40:24
never bursts into rage or
40:26
nothing like that. And so I
40:28
appreciate those in him. But
40:32
if I have to be really honest
40:34
about why I haven't started meeting with
40:36
him, it's that I didn't want just
40:38
another piece of advice. I
40:41
wanted someone to
40:43
walk with, you know? Or
40:47
better, I wanted a piece of advice that
40:49
was coming from a deep understanding. And
40:53
I was afraid not to find it. And
40:55
so just for the fear of it, I
40:58
just said, OK, we'll do it when I
41:00
have time, which is probably an
41:02
excuse. And if
41:04
you went back in light
41:07
of this conversation and
41:09
did it differently, what
41:12
would you do? Well,
41:15
I would...
41:17
Can you be a stand-in for Mentor?
41:19
Of course. Go
41:22
ahead. So
41:27
I'm afraid in entering the mentorship
41:30
that you
41:33
will be another person that I report to on
41:36
my progress. We establish
41:38
goals. And then every
41:40
six weeks, you check how far I've
41:43
been. I
41:45
don't need a mentor that checks how
41:47
much additional training I do, how much
41:50
I develop my skills. That's
41:52
not what I need. What
41:57
I need from a mentor is
41:59
the ability for... someone to meet me where I
42:01
am without asking
42:04
me to go to a
42:06
better place without fixing
42:08
it. Because
42:14
you know I'm hard enough on
42:16
myself what I have
42:18
more of a hard time off and then is
42:21
feeling that it was okay for the rest of the
42:23
world if I was stuck for a little. Nobody
42:26
would judge me for being stuck. Maybe
42:30
someone would
42:32
be even understanding. So
42:36
that's what I need from a mentor. What
42:42
you just asked from the mentor is what you
42:44
would want to ask from your father. So
42:54
now you had a conversation with your dad. Now
42:57
we're gonna have a conversation with your mentor. Where
43:03
did you choose this person? What
43:05
kind of that person what you don't want? If
43:09
you don't want it's what you told you dad
43:11
because that's what you've had. Yeah. John,
43:14
Janet. Janet
43:16
sounds perfect. Yeah. So,
43:20
Janet. Hello. Hello.
43:24
How are you? Doing great. So
43:28
why I chose you as a mentor
43:31
what I see in you is that
43:34
you have a very considerate
43:37
behavior in
43:40
in different circumstances. You
43:43
get the line between a
43:46
work environment and
43:50
life outside. And
43:54
you what I appreciate the most in
43:56
you is that whenever
43:59
someone says something
44:01
inappropriate, you
44:03
don't stay silent and participate in
44:06
the joke. You
44:08
just, in your very British
44:10
way of saying, you just
44:12
comment that that was inappropriate. So
44:16
for me it's integrity, not,
44:18
you know, just follow the
44:20
leaders, whatever they say, but you
44:22
remain true to who you are.
44:27
And I think we have that in common, that
44:30
you have a much better way of expressing it. So
44:38
what I would love us to work on
44:41
is communication,
44:45
without fair
44:48
communication meaning compromising,
44:51
because that's what I've seen. Yeah,
44:55
that's what I've said. How is that? It's
45:00
good. It creates like
45:02
a bond with the other person.
45:05
It's without having to bring home my
45:07
story with it. The
45:09
past is not the past when
45:12
it's right here in the present. Mmm.
45:21
I purposefully don't want this to
45:23
be a therapy session, but
45:26
a coaching session, because in
45:28
effect both of these women have
45:30
done a lot of therapeutic
45:32
work, they have done a lot of
45:35
work on their families, and they have
45:37
actually been able to
45:39
translate their coping
45:41
strategies from home
45:43
to work in very effective
45:46
ways, but they've reached
45:48
a ceiling. And there
45:51
is a way in which at this
45:53
moment certain stories no longer serve and
45:55
certain adaptive
45:57
mechanisms are no longer at the end.
46:02
And one of the places that this
46:04
becomes very clear is when I ask
46:06
her what she would want to
46:09
say to her mentor and it becomes clear
46:11
that she's not talking to the mentor, but
46:13
she's talking to her dad. And
46:15
this lends us the lens through
46:18
which we're going to really make
46:20
the separation between a
46:23
mentor and a parent in
46:25
a way that will allow her
46:27
to feel that she can communicate
46:30
at work without the fear of
46:32
losing it, that she can stand
46:34
up and speak up and experience
46:36
her integrity without being afraid that
46:38
she's going to be punished for
46:40
it. It's those
46:42
translations that now become really
46:45
essential for her to continue
46:47
her beautiful ascendance in her
46:50
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46:56
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47:00
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47:02
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get queer bias too? What
49:59
do you do? Can you explain to us?
50:02
Is queerness another source? A source
50:04
of prejudice. Prejudice in the office.
50:10
Not openly. I
50:13
received some inappropriate comments after
50:16
I came back from maternity leave. But
50:18
not about, maybe I'm wrong,
50:20
but not about queerness. There was more of
50:22
a gender. You
50:25
never know. Whether it's because
50:28
I'm a mother and
50:30
a lesbian. Could be one of the two
50:32
or both. Can you describe
50:34
the situation, Sona? Sure.
50:38
So when I went on
50:41
adoption leave for a period
50:44
of four months. The full support
50:46
of your direct? Direct supervisor, yeah. Full
50:49
support of my direct supervisor. And all the office was
50:51
very congratulate about it. So I felt very good about
50:53
it. It was
50:55
something we always wanted. The
50:58
moment I came back, the
51:01
head of my office called
51:04
me in his
51:06
office and asked
51:09
me how his parents
51:12
were. And there was
51:14
a suspicion that he used the word parent and
51:16
not mother in a deliberate way. But
51:18
this is just a suspicion. Then
51:22
he went on to say that my absence
51:24
has created a lot of trouble to the office.
51:27
And I just said, you know, sorry, but this
51:29
thing's happened. You
51:31
could also imagine saying, I'm
51:34
glad to know I have such an important
51:36
role. Thank you. Yeah.
51:42
And then he went on with saying, and
51:44
I expected you to be at that meeting
51:46
a couple of weeks ago. And
51:49
then I felt, well, I was on
51:51
maternity leave. And
51:53
when he asked, well, nobody
51:55
alerted you, that
51:58
you were expected to be there. I said
52:01
no because it was
52:03
true and
52:05
so that at
52:08
least I felt safe that it was not
52:10
my responsibility. So in that moment I said
52:12
thank you that nobody told me and then
52:17
it kept off the conversation. Because they knew not to.
52:19
Because they knew where you were. Yeah and
52:21
they decided, you know, other colleagues decided it
52:24
was not my place to be thankfully
52:29
and then said well now you have a lot of work to do,
52:31
he said. Go, go.
52:35
And it's a bit difficult to
52:37
express the tone, the
52:40
posture, the old. It
52:43
was very painful for you. It was
52:45
very painful. It was very, very painful.
52:47
I was shaking, literally. And
52:49
then went to my immediate supervisor and
52:53
talked to her about it and she was like equally
52:56
shocked but we had the sort
52:58
of the same emotional reaction. Which
53:04
was like this is so inappropriate,
53:06
things like this cannot happen. You
53:08
know, a venting
53:10
type of things which is very
53:12
natural and I
53:14
loved for her to be
53:17
so supportive because that's what I needed. I mean
53:19
the hug essentially. But
53:22
then it's one of these unsolved trials,
53:24
you know, because the thing lingered. It's
53:28
very hard when you don't feel safe. But
53:33
at the same time once I was in
53:35
a meeting and our child was with
53:37
me because it was fake and
53:40
I was home with him and it was very
53:42
nice with him. You
53:47
confirmed for me that it is the fear we need
53:49
to talk about. You
53:51
know, when you say it's not a safe
53:53
place, you have to change your language because
53:56
the language shapes the experience. This
53:59
place is safe. He,
54:03
I'm not sure about, or
54:06
I am sure about, whichever way you decide where
54:08
it plays to you land. But
54:10
he evokes in me all
54:13
the fears I had for all the years, and
54:15
he becomes the representative of the thing I feared
54:17
always. And here I had it. That's
54:20
why him. Because
54:22
he lands on the perfect
54:24
Darnak. If
54:27
you live with that preexisting experience,
54:31
then that response
54:33
has an echo chamber. It
54:36
can't just be absorbed. But
54:40
the system, a safe place, is
54:43
a place where somebody already spoke with
54:45
him. Maybe not
54:47
only about you for that matter. And
54:51
you see the result of that, by
54:55
the way that he's behaving. He
54:58
has changed behaviorally. And
55:01
part of you says, I don't necessarily
55:03
need to change his mind. But you
55:05
can always say to him, it's very
55:07
nice to see you playful with my
55:09
little boy. Do
55:13
you know if he has kids? Yeah. Okay.
55:16
So, you know, ally with him. Assert
55:19
yourself as the mother that you are. Engage
55:25
him as the father that he is. As
55:28
he said, parenthood. Maybe
55:32
parenthood was a way for him to, you
55:34
know, who knows? You don't know if it
55:36
was a way to not recognize your motherhood
55:38
or a way to actually be trying to
55:40
be neutral about it and inclusive. God, these
55:42
days. So the only way you know is
55:45
by having the next conversation, by context. We
55:48
may be right and we may be completely
55:50
off. But we live in fear. And
55:54
that's why you have a supervisor. That's
55:56
why you have other people with whom you bring this up.
56:00
don't have to do it alone. It's an
56:02
empowering vision because
56:04
it doesn't feel the little one against
56:07
the monster. Maybe
56:10
when I got into the office
56:12
I was the little one because
56:14
the moment the monster spoke I
56:16
immediately trained. You just came back
56:19
from maternity leave. You're in a
56:21
very new stage of
56:23
life, more vulnerable, and
56:25
instead of welcoming you and hugging you and
56:28
saying, hello, you're great to have you back,
56:30
he kind of scolds you for having been
56:32
away. And if
56:34
you had more distance, you'd say,
56:37
oh, that's such a nice thing to hear instead
56:41
of how glad you missed me. I
56:47
think it's really important to not collapse
56:50
an incident that triggers
56:53
you as
56:55
a sign of an entire
56:58
environment. And that is what
57:00
fear does. It says
57:02
the lion's everywhere. But
57:06
in fact, you're in a beautiful
57:08
park and
57:11
he's not even a lion. I
57:17
was very glad of what came
57:19
up at the end when we talked about
57:21
what is the lens of the mother that
57:23
goes to work. But
57:25
equally important was introducing
57:28
the idea that when something
57:30
lands wrong, go
57:33
and have another conversation. Check it
57:35
out. Bring in the
57:38
other people. Widen the lens. Look
57:40
at the context. That will
57:42
help you understand the
57:44
meaning of what actually happened. And
57:48
that message was a very important one
57:50
for me to give to
57:52
them just as we were ending the session. What
58:00
is important for me is to
58:03
remain true to who I am and
58:06
start from there rather than trying
58:08
to please him and see whether
58:10
maybe if I say this this way, he
58:13
will react in a more positive way. That's
58:15
the thing you learn to do at home.
58:19
What I learned to do at home, it was
58:21
not to make my father angry. Yes. What
58:24
you're saying is the most important thing
58:27
that this relationship with this
58:29
boss is inviting me
58:31
to do is to
58:33
break a pattern in which
58:35
I try to endear myself
58:38
to someone who is more
58:41
critical and less
58:43
appreciative or less complementary
58:45
and to prove to them that I can,
58:47
that I am and in the
58:49
process as they like me more,
58:52
I like myself less. Because
58:54
I lost myself at a certain point. It's
58:57
never the same thing that can make someone
58:59
happy. You try
59:01
different ways and the focus is always the
59:03
other person. Because
59:05
what happens is that you go from the love me, love
59:08
me, love me to the fuck you, fuck you, fuck you.
59:11
That's why you change jobs all the time. Not
59:14
only and you get better jobs. At
59:17
some point you've got enough of the love me and then
59:19
it becomes fuck you. And now
59:21
you start to turn the whole thing into a hostile
59:24
environment. But some of it
59:26
is you doing. Yeah. I
59:28
do. Okay. How are we doing? We're
59:31
coming kind of close to the
59:33
end. But how is this? I'm
59:37
happy to dig a little
59:40
bit deeper to understand what
59:42
we were bringing into work from our
59:44
own personal life that was making
59:47
the environment respond to us in that way.
59:50
You got it. You get
59:54
the chair and we'll bring you home. You
59:56
don't need me. What
1:00:05
is a complicated environment where
1:00:07
so many things happen inside
1:00:10
us, between us and others,
1:00:12
systemically, on a global level?
1:00:15
And these two people are doing
1:00:17
very well in the workplace. And
1:00:20
yet, we still get hijacked on
1:00:22
occasion. And those are
1:00:24
the moments where we need to
1:00:26
be able to cipher what is the
1:00:28
past, what is the present, how can
1:00:31
we react differently in the moment, and
1:00:34
how can we call upon the
1:00:36
forces within the work environment
1:00:38
that can help us make
1:00:40
this complicated place a little
1:00:43
bit less complicated. Esther
1:00:51
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