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2:54

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2:59

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3:05

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3:07

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3:16

the cooler air coming in and

3:20

the slightly warmer sweeping

3:23

back out or

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your chest perhaps

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3:38

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3:43

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3:53

you feel it the most just

3:55

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3:59

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4:02

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4:07

you're ready, feel free

4:09

to focus your attention on the sound of

4:11

my voice as

4:14

I recap our last episode. Geneva

4:19

and Lucy arrived together

4:21

at the Hotel Crassie

4:24

and were met by Paulina and

4:27

Mrs. Breton. The

4:30

event was to include a

4:33

tribune of young men from

4:35

the local college and

4:37

a speech by a respected

4:39

professor. To Lucy's

4:43

surprise, this man turned

4:45

out to be Monsieur Paul and

4:48

his address was excellent. Later

4:53

on, a dinner was held with

4:55

the local savant who

4:57

were all in awe of Paulina and

5:00

her perfect French. Geneva's

5:04

conversational skills paled

5:06

in comparison, though

5:09

she looked undeniably very beautiful.

5:14

Dr. John had been keeping his eyes

5:16

on her, and

5:18

after dinner, while she lamented

5:20

how bored she was, when

5:23

she heard the men returning, she

5:26

flew to the piano and

5:28

was soon joined by Graham. Seeing

5:32

Lucy hidden away in a

5:35

corner, he sat by

5:37

her and remarked upon

5:39

Jennifer's elegance, before

5:41

requesting that Lucy put in a

5:44

good word for him with Paulina.

5:48

Lucy's heart quietly

5:50

broke and she

5:52

decided to refuse him for her own

5:55

sake. Seeing

5:57

the two together, Monsieur

5:59

call drifted by and

6:02

made an audibly harsh remark

6:05

which he had to later apologise for.

6:09

He begged for Lucy's forgiveness

6:12

while she awaited Ginevra to join

6:14

her for their courage back

6:16

to the roof as in. Ginevra

6:21

was in a foul mood after

6:24

Dr John seemed to renounce

6:26

his attentions for her and

6:29

put them on to Paulina. Tonight,

6:33

we pick back up at the

6:35

roof for Sam sometime

6:38

later. So

6:41

just lie back and relax as

6:44

I turn to the next page-ins

6:46

of Villains. Chapter

7:02

28 The Watchguard

7:10

Monsieur Paul Emmanuelle

7:13

owned an acute sensitiveness

7:15

to the annoyance of

7:17

interruption from

7:19

whatsoever cause occurring during

7:22

his lessons. To

7:25

pass through the class under

7:27

such circumstances was

7:30

considered by the teachers and pupils

7:32

of the school individually

7:35

and collectively to

7:38

be as much a woman's or

7:40

girl's life as were. Madame

7:46

Becquersal, if

7:48

forced to the enterprise,

7:50

would scurry through, retrenching

7:53

her skirts and

7:56

carefully coasting the formidable

7:58

mestrand. a

8:00

ship dreading breakers. As

8:05

to Racine, the portraits,

8:08

on whom every half-hour

8:11

devolved the fearful duty

8:13

of fetching pupils out

8:16

of the very heart of one

8:19

or other of the divisions, to

8:21

take their music lessons in the

8:24

oratory, the great

8:26

or little saloon, the

8:29

sala mujer, or

8:31

some other piano station. She

8:35

would upon her second or

8:38

third attempt frequently

8:40

become almost tongued-tied from

8:42

the excess of consternation,

8:45

a sentiment

8:47

inspired by the

8:50

unspeakable looks levelled

8:52

at her through a pair

8:54

of dark, dealing spectacles. One

9:01

morning I was sitting in

9:03

the carre at work upon

9:05

a piece of embroidery which

9:08

one of the pupils had commenced but

9:11

delayed to finish, and

9:14

while my fingers roared at

9:16

the frame, my

9:18

ears regaled themselves with

9:21

listening to the crescendos and

9:24

cadences of a voice

9:27

haranguing in the neighbouring

9:29

class, in

9:31

tones that waxed momentarily

9:34

more unquiet, more

9:38

ominously varied. There

9:43

was a good, strong partition

9:46

wall between me and

9:48

the gathering storm, as

9:51

well as a facile means of

9:53

flight through the glass

9:56

door to the core, in

9:59

case it's swept this way. So

10:03

I am afraid I derived more

10:05

amusement than alarm

10:07

from these thickening symptoms.

10:13

Poor Racine was not safe. Four

10:17

times that blessed morning, she

10:20

had made the passage of peril, and

10:23

now for the fifth time it

10:26

became her dangerous duty to

10:28

snatch, as it were, a

10:31

brand from the burning, a pupil

10:35

from under M. Paul's nose.

10:39

"'Monteau, Montieu,'

10:42

cried she, "'What will I

10:45

become? Matthew would kill

10:47

me. I'm sure, because he is

10:49

angry.'" Nerved

10:53

by the courage of desperation,

10:56

she opened the door. "'Mademoiselle,

10:59

la malle pienot,' was

11:02

her cry. As

11:06

she could make good her retreat,

11:08

or quite close the door, this

11:11

voice uttered itself. "'From

11:16

this moment, the

11:18

class is closed. The

11:20

fast to open this door, or

11:23

pass through this division will be

11:25

hanged, even Madame Becca

11:27

says.' "'Ten

11:31

minutes has not succeeded the

11:33

promulgation of this decree, when

11:36

Racine's French pantouffle

11:39

were again heard shuffling

11:42

along the corridor.' "'M'est

11:46

le peuvel,' said she,

11:48

"'I was not far from peace

11:51

go into that class again, just now.'

11:53

"'M'est le le

11:55

nete, aurelle terrible, and here

11:57

is a commission to the class." I

12:03

have told Madame Beq et Dern not

12:06

deliver it, and she says I

12:08

am to charge you with it. Me?

12:12

No, that is rather too bad.

12:15

It is not in my line of duty. Tom,

12:19

come, Racine, bear your own burden. Be

12:22

brave. Charge once

12:24

more. I, Mademoiselle, keep the figure. I am not

12:26

a man of duty. I am not a man of duty. Impecific.

12:30

I spend life course in this day. Madame

12:33

Masséli Iyer a gendarm for this

12:35

service. Je

12:38

n'en pouis plais. You

12:41

are only a coward. What is

12:43

the message? Precisely

12:45

of the kind with which Monsieur

12:48

Liste likes to be pestered. An

12:51

archon summons to go directly to

12:53

the Hautané. As there

12:55

is an official visitor, Inspector

12:57

I know not what arrived,

13:00

and Monsieur must meet him. You

13:03

know how he hates a must.

13:07

Yes, I knew well enough. The

13:11

restive little man detested spur

13:13

or curb against

13:16

whatever was urgent or obligatory.

13:19

He was sure to revolt. However,

13:23

I accepted the responsibility, not

13:26

certainly without fear, but

13:29

fear, blent with other

13:32

sentiments, curiosity

13:34

among them. I

13:37

opened the door. I

13:40

entered. I closed it

13:42

behind me, as quickly

13:44

and quietly as a rather unsteady

13:46

hand would permit, for to

13:49

be slow or bustling, to rattle

13:52

a latch or leave

13:55

a door gaping wide, where

13:57

aggravations of crime often matter.

14:00

more disastrous in result than

14:02

the main crime itself. There

14:07

I stood then, and there

14:09

he sat. His

14:11

humour was visibly bad, almost

14:15

at its worst. He

14:17

had been giving a lesson in arithmetic,

14:20

for he gave lessons on any and

14:23

every subject that struck his fancy, and

14:26

arithmetic being a dry subject

14:29

invariably disagreed with him, not

14:33

a pupil but trembled when he spoke

14:35

of figures. He

14:39

see, bent over his

14:41

desk, to

14:43

look up at the sound of an entrance,

14:46

at the occurrence of the direct

14:48

breach of his will and

14:50

law, was an effort he

14:53

could not for the moment bring

14:55

himself to make. It

14:59

was quite as well. I

15:01

thus gained time to walk

15:03

up the long glass,

15:07

and it suited my idiosyncrasy

15:10

far better to encounter the

15:12

near burst of anger like his

15:15

than to bear its menace at a

15:17

distance. At

15:20

his estrad I paused, just

15:23

in front. Of course,

15:25

I was not worthy of immediate

15:27

attention. He

15:30

proceeded with his lesson. This stain

15:32

would not do. He

15:35

must hear, and he must

15:37

answer my message. Not

15:41

being quite tall enough to lift my

15:44

head over his desk, elevated

15:46

upon me estrad, and thus,

15:50

suffering eclipse in my present

15:52

position, I ventured

15:54

to peep round, with

15:57

the design at first of

15:59

merely getting a better view of his face,

16:02

which had struck me when I entered

16:05

as bearing a close and

16:07

picturesque resemblance to

16:10

that of a black and

16:12

sallow tiger. Twice

16:17

did I enjoy this side

16:19

view with impunity, advancing

16:22

and receding unseen.

16:27

The third time my

16:29

eye had scarce dawned beyond

16:32

the obscuration of the desk,

16:35

but it was caught and

16:37

transfixed through its very

16:39

pupil, transfixed

16:42

by the lunette.

16:46

The scene was right. These

16:49

utensils had in them a blank

16:52

and immutable terror. Beyond

16:56

the mobile wrath of the wearer's own

16:59

unglazed eyes. I

17:04

now found the advantage of proximity.

17:08

These short-sighted lunettes

17:11

were useless for the inspection

17:13

of a criminal under Monsieur's

17:16

nose. Accordingly,

17:18

he doffed them, and

17:21

he and I stood on more equal

17:23

terms. I

17:27

am glad that I was not really much

17:30

afraid of him. That,

17:32

indeed, close in his

17:34

presence, I felt no terror

17:36

at all. For

17:39

upon his demanding cord

17:41

and a gibbet to

17:43

execute the sentence recently

17:45

pronounced, I

17:47

was able to furnish him with

17:50

a needleful of embroidery thread, with

17:53

such accommodating civility as

17:55

could not but allay some portion at

17:58

least of his surplus. irritation.

18:03

Of course I did not parade

18:06

this courtesy before public view. I

18:09

merely handed the thread round

18:12

the angle of the desk and

18:14

attached it, ready noose,

18:17

to the barred back of the professor's

18:19

chair. What

18:22

do you want from me? He

18:25

said in a growl of which

18:27

the music was wholly confined to

18:30

his chest and throat, that

18:33

he kept his tea clenched, and

18:36

seemed registering to himself an

18:39

inward vow that nothing

18:41

earthly should ring from him

18:43

a smile. My

18:48

answer commenced uncompromisingly.

18:52

M.I.C.I. I said, I want

18:56

the impossible. And

18:59

thinking it best not to mince

19:01

matters, but to administer the

19:04

words with decision in a

19:06

low but quick voice, I delivered

19:09

the Athenian message, floridly

19:12

exaggerating its urgency.

19:16

Of course, he would not hear a word of it.

19:19

He would not know. He would not

19:21

leave his present peace. Let

19:24

all the officials of Vilettes and for

19:27

him. He would not

19:29

put himself an inch out of

19:31

his way at the bidding of king,

19:34

cabinet, chambers

19:36

together. I

19:40

knew, however, that he must go, that talk

19:43

as he would both his duty and

19:46

interest commanded an immediate

19:49

and literal compliance with

19:51

the Simmons. I

19:54

stood, therefore, waiting

19:56

in silence as if

19:58

he had not yet spoken. He

20:01

asked what more I wanted. Only

20:06

Monsieur's answer to deliver to the

20:08

Commissioner? He

20:11

waved an impatient negative. I

20:16

ventured to stretch my hand to

20:18

the bonnet grek which lay

20:20

in the grim repose on the

20:22

windowsill. He

20:24

followed this daring movement with his

20:27

eye, no doubt in

20:29

mixed pity and amazement

20:31

at its presumption. Ah,

20:35

he muttered, if it came to the map,

20:38

if Miss Lucy meddled

20:41

with his bonnet grek, she

20:43

might just put it on herself. Turn

20:46

Garthon for the occasion and

20:49

benevolently go to the aténais in his

20:51

stead. With

20:55

great respect, I laid

20:57

the bonnet on the desk where its

20:59

tassels seemed to give me an awful

21:01

nod. Alors

21:05

ait a nod of apology, d'attoulieu,

21:08

said he, still bent

21:10

on evasion. Knowing

21:14

well it would not do, I

21:17

gently pushed the bonnet towards his

21:19

hand. Thus

21:21

impelled, it slid down

21:24

the polished slope of the varnished

21:26

and unbazed desk. Carried

21:29

before it the light, steel-framed

21:32

lunettes, glasses, and

21:36

fearful to relate, they

21:38

fell to the astrad. A

21:43

score of times ere now I had seen

21:45

them fall and receive no damage.

21:48

This time, as Lucy snows,

21:51

hapless luck would have it. They

21:54

so fell that each

21:57

clear pebble became a shell. shivered

22:01

and shapeless star. Now,

22:06

indeed, dismay sees me. Dismay

22:10

and regret. I

22:13

knew the value of these lunettes, as

22:16

your pawn's sight was peculiar, not

22:19

easily fitted, and these

22:21

glasses suited him. I

22:25

had heard him call them his treasures. As

22:29

I picked them up, cracked

22:31

and worthless, my

22:34

hand trembled. Frightened

22:38

through all my nerves,

22:41

I was to see the mischief I had done,

22:44

but I think I was even more sorry

22:47

than afraid. For

22:49

some seconds I dared not

22:51

look the bereaved professor in

22:54

the face. He was the

22:56

first to speak. "'L'homme,'

23:01

said he, "'here I am,

23:05

widowed of my glasses.' I

23:08

think Mademoiselle Lousie would now confess

23:11

that the cord and gallows are

23:13

emplained. She

23:15

trembles in anticipation of her

23:17

doom. "'Ah,

23:19

Tritress, Tritress,

23:23

you are resolved to have me

23:25

quite blind and helpless in your

23:27

hands.' I

23:31

lifted my eyes. His

23:33

face, instead of

23:35

being irate, lowering

23:37

and furrowed, was

23:40

overflowing with the smile, coloring

23:44

with the bloom I had seen,

23:47

brightening it that evening at

23:49

the Hotel Crécy. He

23:52

was not angry, not

23:54

even grieved. For

23:58

the real injury he showed himself, full

24:01

of clemency, under

24:04

the real provocation, patient

24:06

as a saint. This

24:11

event, which seemed so

24:13

untoward, which I

24:16

thought had ruined at once

24:18

my chance of successful persuasion,

24:21

proved my best help. A

24:26

month of management, so long as

24:28

I had done him no harm, he

24:31

became graciously pliant as

24:34

soon as I stood in his presence, a

24:36

conscious and contrite

24:39

offender. Still

24:43

gently railing at me as

24:45

a strong woman, a

24:48

terrible English woman, a

24:50

little troublemaker, he

24:53

declared that he dared not but

24:55

obey one who had given such

24:57

an instance of her

24:59

dangerous prowess. It

25:02

was absolutely like the Grand

25:04

Emperor smashing the

25:07

vase to inspire dismay.

25:12

So at last, crowning

25:14

himself with his bonnet click

25:17

and taking his ruined lunette from

25:19

my hand with a

25:21

clasp of kind pardon and

25:24

encouragement, he made

25:26

his bow and went

25:28

off to the atone in

25:31

first rate, humour and

25:33

spirits. After

25:38

all this amiability, the

25:41

reader will be sorry for my sake to

25:44

hear that I was quarrelling with Monsieur

25:46

Paul again before night. Yet,

25:49

so it was, I could

25:51

not help it. It

25:56

was his occasional custom, the

25:58

very laudable. Acceptable

26:00

custom, too, to

26:03

arrive of an evening,

26:06

always a limp-roviste,

26:09

unannounced, burst

26:11

in on the silent hour of

26:13

study, establish

26:15

a sudden despotism over

26:17

us and our occupations,

26:21

those books to be put away, work

26:24

bags to be brought out, and

26:27

drawing forth a single thick

26:29

volume or a handful

26:32

of pamphlets, substitute

26:34

for the besotted lecture

26:37

beers, drawled

26:39

by a sleepy pupil,

26:42

some tragedy made grand

26:44

by grand reading, ardent

26:48

by fiery action, some drama

26:52

whereof, for my part, I

26:55

rarely studied the intrinsic merit.

26:59

For Monsieur Emmanuel, it

27:01

made a vessel for an outpouring, and

27:04

filled it with his native verve

27:07

and passion like a

27:09

cop with a vital brewage. Or

27:14

else, he would flash

27:17

through our conventional darkness a

27:20

reflex of a brighter world, show

27:23

us a glimpse of the current literature

27:25

of the day, read

27:28

us passages from some enchanting

27:31

tale, or the

27:33

last witty fui don

27:35

which had awakened laughter in the

27:38

saloons of Paris, taking

27:41

care always to expunge

27:44

with the severest hand, whether

27:46

from tragedy, melodrama,

27:50

tale, or essay,

27:53

whatever passage, phrase,

27:56

or word could be

27:58

deemed unsuited. to an

28:00

audience of june fis. I

28:06

noticed more than once that

28:08

where retrenchment without substitute

28:10

would have left unmeaning

28:13

vacancy or introduced

28:15

weakness, he could,

28:18

and did, improvise whole

28:21

paragraphs no

28:23

less vigorous than irreproachable. The

28:27

dialogue, the description

28:29

he engrafted was often far

28:31

better than that he pruned away. While

28:37

on the evening in question, we

28:40

were sitting silent as nuns in

28:42

a retreat, the

28:44

pupils studying, the teachers

28:46

working. I remember

28:49

my work. It was

28:51

a slight matter of fancy, and

28:54

it rather interested me. It had

28:57

a purpose. I was

28:59

not doing it merely to kill time. I

29:03

meant it when finished as a gift. The

29:07

occasion of presentation being near,

29:10

haste was requisite, and

29:12

my fingers were busy. We

29:16

heard the sharp bell-pew which

29:19

we all knew, and

29:21

the rapid stab familiar to each

29:24

ear. The words,

29:27

voila messieur, had scarcely

29:29

broken simultaneously from

29:31

every lip when

29:34

the two-leaved doors split, a

29:37

split it always did for his admission.

29:41

Such a slow word as open

29:44

is inefficient to describe his

29:46

movements, and he

29:49

stood in the midst of us. There

29:54

were two study tables, both

29:56

long and flanked with

29:58

benches. Over

30:01

the center of each hung a lamp. Beneath

30:05

this lamp on either side

30:07

the table sat a

30:09

teacher. The

30:11

girls were arranged to the right hand

30:13

and the left, the

30:16

eldest and most studious, the

30:18

nearest the lamps or tropics, the

30:21

idlers and little ones towards

30:24

the north and south ponds. The

30:30

sewer's habit was politely to hand

30:32

a chair to some teacher, generally

30:35

Zélé St-Pierre, the

30:38

senior mistress, then

30:41

to take her vacated seat

30:44

and thus avail himself of

30:46

the full beam of cancer

30:48

or Capricorn which owing

30:51

to his near sight he needed. As

30:56

usual, Zélé rose with

30:58

alacrity, smiling to the

31:01

whole extent of her mouth and

31:03

the full display of her upper and

31:06

under rows of teeth. That

31:09

strange smile which passes

31:12

from ear to ear and

31:14

is marked only by a sharp thin

31:17

curve which fails

31:19

to spread over the countenance and

31:22

neither dimples the cheek nor

31:25

lights the eye. I

31:29

suppose Mâsure did not

31:31

see her or he had taken a

31:33

whim that he would not notice her, for

31:36

he was as capricious as women are said to

31:38

be. Then his

31:41

lunette, he had got

31:43

another pair, served him as

31:45

an excuse for all sorts

31:47

of little oversights and

31:49

shortcomings. Whatever

31:54

might be his reason, he

31:56

passed by as Zélé came to the other side

31:59

of the table of the table, and

32:01

before I could start up to clear

32:03

the way, whispered, do not

32:06

move, and

32:08

established himself between me and

32:11

Miss Fanshawe, who always

32:13

would be my neighbour, and

32:15

have her elbow in my side,

32:18

however often I declared to her,

32:20

Jennifer, I wish you

32:22

were at Jericho. It

32:26

was easy to say, do not move,

32:28

but how could I help it? I

32:31

must make him room, and I must

32:33

request pupils to recede that

32:35

I might recede. It

32:40

was very well for Jennifer to be gummed

32:42

to me, keeping herself warm,

32:44

as she said, on

32:46

the winter evenings, and

32:49

harassing my very heart with

32:51

her fidgetings and pokings,

32:54

obliging me indeed, sometimes

32:56

to put an artful pin in my

32:59

girdle by way of protection against

33:01

her elbow. But

33:05

I suppose Miss Sura Manuel was

33:08

not to be subjected to the

33:10

same kind of treatment, though

33:13

I swept away my working materials

33:16

to clear space for his book, and

33:19

withdrew myself to make room

33:22

for his person. Not,

33:25

however, leaving more than a

33:27

yard of interval, just

33:29

what any reasonable man would have

33:31

regarded as a convenient, respectful

33:34

allowance of pinch. But

33:39

Miss Sura Manuel was never reasonable,

33:41

and flint

33:43

and pinder that he was, he struck

33:47

and took fire directly. You

33:54

don't want me as a neighbor, he ground,

33:57

you give yourself a good hand, and

33:59

I will an air of gust. You

34:02

treat me like an outcast." He

34:04

scound. "'Lies away. I

34:07

will fix it.'" And

34:09

he sat to work. "'Get

34:12

up. Everyone. Mademoiselle,'

34:16

he cried. The

34:18

girls rose. He made

34:21

them all file off to the other

34:23

table, then placed me at one

34:25

extremity of the long bench, and

34:28

having duly and carefully

34:31

brought me my work basket, silk,

34:34

scissors, all my

34:37

implements, he fixed

34:39

himself quite at the other end. At

34:43

this arrangement, highly absurd

34:45

as it was, not

34:48

a soul in the room dared to

34:50

laugh. Luckless for

34:52

the giggler would have been the giggle. As

34:56

for me, I took it with entire

34:58

cornness. There I

35:00

sat, isolated and

35:03

cut off from human intercourse.

35:07

I sat and minded my

35:09

work, and was quiet

35:12

and not at all unhappy. "'Is

35:16

this enough distance?' he

35:18

demanded. Monsieur

35:20

is the arbiter. Said

35:22

I. "'You

35:24

know that is not true. To

35:27

as you created this immense

35:29

void, I didn't have

35:31

an end in it.'" And

35:34

with this assertion, he

35:36

commenced the reading. For

35:40

his misfortune, he had chosen

35:42

a French translation of what

35:44

he called a

35:46

drama of William Shakespeare, the

35:49

false god. He

35:52

further announced, of

35:54

his his big and fools to

35:57

English. How

36:00

far otherwise he would have characterised

36:03

him at his temper not been

36:05

upset. I scarcely

36:07

need intimate. Of

36:11

course, the translation being French

36:13

was very inefficient, nor

36:15

did I make any particular efforts

36:18

to conceal the contempt which

36:20

some of its forlorn lapses

36:22

were calculated to excite. Not

36:27

that it behooved or beseemed me to

36:29

say anything. One

36:32

can occasionally look the opinion it

36:34

is forbidden to embody in words.

36:40

Monsieur's lunettes being

36:42

on the alert, he

36:44

gleaned up every stray look.

36:47

I don't think he lost one. The

36:50

consequence was, his eyes

36:53

soon discarded a screen that

36:56

their blaze might sparkle free,

36:59

and he waxed hotter at

37:02

the North Pole to which he

37:04

had voluntarily exiled himself. Then,

37:08

considering the general temperature of the room,

37:10

it would have been

37:12

reasonable to become under the

37:14

vertical ray of cancer itself.

37:20

The reading over, it

37:22

appeared problematic whether he would depart

37:25

with his anger unexpressed,

37:28

or whether he would give it vent. Suppression

37:32

was not much in his

37:34

habits, but still

37:37

what had been done to him definite

37:39

enough to afford matter for

37:41

overt reproof. I

37:44

had not uttered a sound, and

37:47

could not justly be deemed amenable

37:49

to reprimand, or

37:51

penalty for having permitted a

37:53

slightly freer action than

37:55

usual to the muscles

37:58

about my eyes. and mouth.

38:03

The supper, consisting of

38:05

bread and milk, diluted

38:08

with tepid water was brought

38:10

in. In

38:13

respect for consideration of the

38:15

professor's presence, the

38:17

rolls and glasses were

38:20

allowed to stand instead

38:22

of being immediately handed round.

38:26

"'Dick your supper, ladies,' said

38:29

he, seeming to

38:31

be occupied in making marginal

38:34

notes to his Williams Shakespeare.

38:37

They took it. I

38:41

also accepted a roll and glass, but

38:44

being now more than ever interested

38:46

in my work, I

38:48

kept my seat of punishment and

38:52

wrought while I munched my

38:54

bread and sipped my

38:56

beverage, the

38:58

whole with easy s'en-foy, with

39:01

a certain snugness of composure,

39:04

indeed, scarcely in

39:06

my habits and pleasantly

39:08

novel to my feelings. It

39:13

seemed as if the presence of

39:15

a nature so restless, chafing,

39:19

thorny as that of Miss your poor,

39:22

absorbed all feverish

39:24

and unsettling influences like

39:27

a magnet, and

39:29

left me none but such

39:31

as were placid and

39:34

harmonious. He

39:37

rose. Will

39:39

he go away without saying another word?

39:43

"'Yes,' he turned to

39:45

the door. "'No,'

39:49

he returned on his steps, turning

39:53

perhaps to take his pencil case

39:55

which had been left on the table. He

39:59

took it. Shut the

40:01

pencil in and out,

40:04

broke its point against the wood, recut

40:08

and pocketed it, and

40:12

walked promptly up to me.

40:16

The girls and teachers gathered round

40:19

the other table were talking pretty

40:21

freely. They always

40:23

talked at meals, and

40:25

from the constant habit of speaking

40:27

fast and loud at such times,

40:30

did not now subdue their voices much.

40:35

Monsieur Paul came and stood

40:38

behind me. He asked

40:40

at what I was working,

40:42

and I said I was making a watch

40:44

guard. He

40:46

asked for whom, and

40:49

I answered, For

40:51

a gentleman, one of my friends. Monsieur

40:56

Paul stooped down and

40:58

proceeded, as novel writers say,

41:00

and as was literally

41:02

true in his case, to

41:05

kiss into my ear

41:07

some poignant words. He

41:11

said that of all the women he knew, I

41:14

was the one who could make herself the

41:17

most consummately

41:20

unpleasant. I was she with

41:22

whom it was least possible to

41:24

live on friendly terms. I

41:28

had an intractable character and

41:31

perverse to a miracle. How

41:36

I managed it, or what

41:38

possessed me, he for his part

41:40

did not know. But

41:43

with whatever pacific and amicable

41:45

intentions a person accosted me,

41:48

crack, I

41:50

turned, concord to

41:52

discord, good will

41:54

to enmity. He

41:57

was sure he was so poor. Paul

42:01

wished me well enough. He

42:03

had never done me any harm that he knew of.

42:06

He might at least, he supposed,

42:08

claim a right to be regarded

42:11

as a neutral acquaintance, guiltless

42:14

of hostile sentiments.

42:17

Yet how I behaved to him, with

42:21

what pungent vivacity, what

42:24

an impetus of mutiny, what

42:26

a fool of injustice.

42:32

Here I could not avoid

42:34

opening my eyes somewhat wide

42:36

and even slipping in a slight

42:39

interjectional observation. Vivicities,

42:45

impetus, fook.

42:49

I didn't know, just

42:51

now. There, there I went,

42:54

vivcom la boudre. He

42:57

was sorry, he was very sorry

42:59

for my sake, he grieved

43:02

over the hapless peculiarity.

43:06

This importment, this

43:09

chalet, generous

43:11

perhaps but successive, would

43:14

yet he feared do me a mischief.

43:18

It was a pity, I was

43:20

not, he believed in his soul, wholly

43:23

without good qualities, and

43:26

would I hear but reason, be

43:29

more sedate, more sober,

43:32

less unlier, less

43:35

coquette, less

43:37

taken by show, less

43:40

prone to set an undue

43:43

value on outside excellence, to

43:46

make much of the attentions of

43:48

people remarkable chiefly

43:51

for so many feet of stature,

43:54

of porcelain skin, a more

43:57

or less well shaped nose. and

44:01

an enormous amount of fortuity. I

44:04

might yet prove in useful perhaps

44:07

an exemplary character, but

44:11

as it was, and

44:13

hear the little man's voice as

44:15

for a minute choked, I

44:20

would have looked up at him, or held

44:22

out my hand, or

44:24

said a soothing word, that

44:27

I was afraid if I stirred I should

44:29

either laugh or cry. So odd

44:32

in all this was the

44:34

mixture of the touching and

44:37

the absurd. I thought

44:40

he had nearly done, but no, he

44:45

sat down that he might go on at his

44:47

ease. While

44:50

he, Monsieur Paul, was on

44:52

these painful topics, he

44:55

would dare my anger for the sake of

44:57

my good, and would venture to refer

44:59

to a change he had noticed in

45:01

my dress. He

45:04

was free to confess that when he

45:06

first knew me, or rather,

45:08

was in the habit of

45:10

catching a passing glimpse of me from

45:12

time to time, I

45:14

satisfied him on this point. The

45:18

gravity, the austere

45:20

simplicity, obvious

45:22

in this particular, was such

45:25

as to inspire the highest hopes

45:28

for my best interests. What

45:32

fatal influence that impelled

45:34

me lately to introduce flowers

45:37

under the brim of my bonnet, to

45:40

wear deco brode, and

45:43

even to appear on one occasion

45:45

in a scarlet gown. He might

45:49

indeed conjecture, but for the present,

45:52

he would not openly declare. Again,

45:57

I interrupted, and and

46:00

this time not without an accent

46:02

at once indignant and

46:04

horror-struck. Scarlet,

46:08

Monsieur Paul, it was not scarlet, it

46:11

was pink, and pale pink

46:13

too, and further subdued

46:15

by black lace. Pink

46:18

or scarlet, yellow or

46:20

crimson, pea-green or

46:23

sky-blue, it was all one. These

46:26

were all flaunting, giddy

46:29

colours, and as

46:31

to the lace I talked of, that

46:33

was but another trinket. And

46:37

he sighed over my degeneracy. He

46:41

could not, he was sorry to say, be

46:44

so particular on this theme as he

46:46

could wish. Not

46:48

possessing the exact names of

46:50

these babioli he might run

46:52

into small, verbal errors

46:55

which would not fail to lay

46:57

him open to my sarcasm and

47:00

excite my unhappily sudden

47:03

and passionate disposition. He

47:07

would merely say in general terms, and

47:10

in these general terms he knew he

47:12

was correct, that

47:14

my costume had of late

47:16

assumed worldly ways

47:20

which it wounded him to see. But

47:25

worldly ways he discovered in my

47:27

present, winter merino

47:29

and plain white collar, I only

47:32

puzzled me to guess. And

47:35

when I asked him, he said

47:38

it was all made with too much

47:40

attention to effect. And

47:42

besides, had I not a

47:44

bow of ribbon at my neck. And

47:49

if you condemn a bow of ribbon for

47:51

a lady monsieur, you would

47:53

necessarily disapprove of a thing like

47:55

this for a gentleman, holding

47:58

up my bride. little chain-net

48:01

of silk and gold. His

48:04

sole reply was a groan, I suppose

48:07

over my levity. After

48:12

sitting some minutes in silence and

48:15

watching the progress of the chain

48:18

at which I now wrought more

48:20

assiduously than ever, he inquired

48:24

whether what he had just said would

48:27

have the effect of making me

48:29

entirely detest him. I

48:35

hardly remember what answer I made or

48:37

how it came about. I don't

48:40

think I spoke at all, so

48:43

I know he managed to bid good night

48:45

on a friendly turn, and

48:47

even after Monsieur Paul had reached the

48:49

door, he turned back

48:51

just to explain that he

48:54

would not be understood to

48:56

speak an entire condemnation of

48:58

the scarlet dress. Pink,

49:01

pink, I threw in, that

49:04

he had no intention to deny it

49:06

the merit of looking rather well. The

49:10

fact was, Monsieur Emmanuel's

49:12

taste in colours decidedly

49:14

leaned to the brilliant. Only

49:18

he wished to counsel me, whenever

49:20

I wore it, to do

49:22

so in the same spirit as

49:24

if its material were bare

49:28

and its hue dust

49:30

grey. And

49:33

the flowers under my bonnet, Monsieur, I asked,

49:37

they are very little ones, keep them little

49:40

then, said he, permit

49:43

them not to become full-blown.

49:46

And the bow, Monsieur, a bit

49:49

of ribbon, Vapul-e-Ruba,

49:52

was the propitious answer. And

49:56

so we settled it. Well

50:00

done, Lucis, now," cried

50:02

I to myself. You

50:05

have come in for a pretty lecture, brought

50:08

on yourself a rude savant,

50:11

and all through your wicked

50:13

fondness for worldly vanities, you

50:16

would have thought it. You

50:19

deemed yourself a melancholy

50:21

sober-sides-enough. Miss

50:24

Fanchill there regards you as

50:26

a second diogenes. Monsieur

50:29

de Basson Pierre the other day politely

50:32

turned the conversation when

50:34

it ran on the wild gifts

50:36

of the actress Vashti, because,

50:39

as he kindly said, Miss

50:42

Snow looked uncomfortable. Dr.

50:46

John Breton knows you only as

50:49

Quiet Lucy. Creature

50:52

in offensive as a shadow, he

50:55

said, and you've heard him say it.

50:59

Lucis' disadvantages spring

51:02

from overgravity in tastes and

51:05

manner, warmth

51:07

of colour in character and

51:09

costume. Such

51:14

are your own and your friend's impressions,

51:17

and behold, there

51:19

starts up a little man differing

51:22

diametrically from all these,

51:26

roundly charging you with being

51:28

too airy and cheery, too

51:31

volatile and versatile, too

51:36

flowery and coloury. This

51:41

harsh little man, this

51:43

pitiless censor, gathers up all your poor,

51:45

scattered sins of vanity, your luckless chiffon

51:47

of rose colour, your small fringe of

51:50

a wreath, your small scrapper. of

52:00

ribbon, your silly

52:02

bit of lace and

52:04

cause you to account for the lot and

52:07

for each item. You

52:11

are well habituated to be passed by

52:13

as a shadow in

52:15

life sunshine. It

52:19

is a new thing to see

52:21

one testily lifting his hand to

52:23

screen his eyes because

52:25

you tease him with

52:27

such an obtrusive ray. You

53:26

are well habituated to be passed by as a shadow in life sunshine. you

54:01

You You

55:01

You You

56:00

you you

57:00

you you

58:00

Thank you. Thank

58:30

you. Thank

59:00

you.