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It keeps me in the light . I don't have
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secrets anymore . I just bring
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them into the light , either with somebody or
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with my husband , or in prayer . That's
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the lifestyle of overcoming .
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Hey , leader , and welcome to another episode of the L3
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. While , leader , in today's episode you're going to hear
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my conversation with the founder of Annie
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Ann's Pretzels who doesn't love those , ann
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Beiler and I would tell you a lot more
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about her now , but she's actually going to share her story
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and I'm pretty sure everyone on the planet knows
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Annie Ann's Pretzels and if you've never
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heard Ann and you've never heard her story
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, just get ready . It is so
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powerful and I know you're going to be challenged , I know you're
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going to be inspired and I'm just so grateful
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that she was willing to take the time to share
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this here . So I know you're going to be blessed . But before we dive
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into her story , just a few announcements . This
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. And with all that being said , let's dive right in
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. Here's my conversation with Anne Beiler the founder
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of Auntie Anne's Pretzels . Enjoy
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. Anne
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Beiler , welcome to the L3 Leadership Podcast
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. I'm extremely excited for this conversation . We're so
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glad to have you .
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Well , it's my pleasure to be on
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your podcast today , Doug , and thank you for having
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me .
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Yeah Well , we're going to go into all
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kinds of different directions with you and your story , but
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obviously you're most known for being the
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founder of Auntie Anne's Pretzels , which I
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don't think there's a person on the planet that doesn't love those
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. When I told people I was interviewing you , they're
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like can we get some free pretzels ?
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I know People still want freebies .
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So funny . But I want to dive
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in your story , but before we do and we'll dive more into
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Auntie Anne's later but can you at least give people an idea
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of the scope of where Auntie
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Anne's was and what you built it to prior to
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selling it , and then we'll dive into your story .
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Yeah , sure . So we started back in
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1988 in
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a little farmer's market in downtown Pennsylvania
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. I grew up in the Amish culture
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which my mom and dad were
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old order Amish until I was three
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and then we went to the black car Amish
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. We moved on up which meant
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we could have a car it had to be black
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and my dad could farm with a tractor
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instead of horses and we had electricity
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. So it wasn't so
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bad . We had some . It was pretty cool
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. But on the other
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hand , we looked at Amish and I grew up
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in that culture , very knowledgeable
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and understand the traditions
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and I grew up in this very
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, I want to say it
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was a very good environment for me as
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a child . My mom and dad loved us , cared
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for eight of us kids , or three boys , three
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girls and five boys and
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it wasn't almost . Looking back
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I just realized how good
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it was and how it almost seems idyllic
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to me today because
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I've experienced a lot of life
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since that time . At the
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age of 16 , I met my husband
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, jonas
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, and he was my attraction
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and the love of my life . As soon as
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I met him and obviously at that point
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in my life was pretty short , but
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he was a good man Also grew
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up in the Amish culture , and a
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good looking guy and worked hard and love
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God . I'm like , wow , okay , I hit the jackpot with
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this guy . I hope I can marry him one day . And three
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years later we got married . I was 19 in the year
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21 . And it's still very culturally
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. That's Amish people
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, amish men , and eight he's still married
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, most of them married very young , because
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we are taught well about how to
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do family , work hard and care
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for each other . My mom always said little children
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, love each other , do not give each other pain . When
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one speaks to you in anger , do not answer
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them again . So we had all these . You
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know , forgive and peace , salt
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and light and go this heck of
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a mouth . So you know I really had a great starting
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life , doug , and when
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I look back at that I realized
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that was enough . You
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know that foundation
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helped me weather the storms
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of life . Mama , dad took us to church
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, of course , every Sunday , without fail
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. We sat around our dinner table , three
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around our kitchen table , I
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might say three times a day breakfast
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lunch and dinner without fail
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All of the years I was at home . There
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was never an exception to that , unless
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we may have been out visiting or something
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. But yeah , that's what we did . And
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so I realized that the around
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the table being with my family , mom and dad
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always being around was
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. I look at that right now and I didn't think
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, of course , didn't realize at the time , but what
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a gift to our family that they
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were always around . In particular
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, my mom and dad went to farmers
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markets from in Philadelphia
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for a couple of years and during
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those years I was around 11 , 12 and 13
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. And I would come home from market
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and my mom that was the only night that she was
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not at home when I got over from school and
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she would have a list for
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me to a pies and
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cakes that she wanted me to bake and
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I would do that in my farmhouse kitchen
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I'm sorry , basement . I would
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go down the basement steps as a little girl I
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remember I would . Many times I would cry because
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my mom was not there and
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but I knew how to do this and I made 60
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to 70 pies and cakes every Thursday
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night for maybe two years by
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myself while the other kids were out doing
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their chores , you know anyway . So
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I feel like God set me up for something
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that I would never have dreamed of , which was Auntie
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and Sup Pretzels and going
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from one store , a Downing
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Town , and then two stores that
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that year , the very first year , 12 stores
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the next year , 35
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the next and 15 years so the following year
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. So we just kept growing until we sold
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the company in 2015
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. And by that time we had almost 900
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locations . So for
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this little Amish go from Anixtra County , pennsylvania
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, let me tell you , god worked an amazing
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work in my heart , in my
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mind , in my professional world , in
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my personal life , in my spiritual life . Those
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almost 20 years I always say
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that Auntie and grew me up . That's where
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. I learned real life .
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Wow . Well , I certainly want to dive into leadership
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lessons with that a little bit later , but
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what I think so interesting
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is , you know , you just shared your story . If we just shared
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what you just shared , it's business like hey had a great childhood
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, had great parents , and basically you
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started a company and scaled and we sold
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it and it was fantastic .
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But that's right .
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Behind the scenes . You know , I know your story , that
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that you know it wasn't all up into the
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right , it wasn't all perfect , and you actually experienced
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. You know a lot . Can you share a little bit about
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? You know your story beyond , behind
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the veil of any ends
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and in your upbringing .
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Thank you , doug . Yeah , because that's really what . That's
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really what made
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me who I am today , you know , not the success
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of the ends , although that grew
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me up , but what really sparked
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my spiritual journey . As
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a kid I knew I knew God and I loved
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him and I believed that life is
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good because it
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was , and that God is harsh . Because
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I was taught that if you keep the 10 commandments
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and you know , do your very best to keep them all
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that God would be very pleased with me
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and he would smile on me . But
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if I did something , you know I don't know how wrong something
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should be to be wrong , but I
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just knew that if I did something wrong , maybe
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God would be just pleased with me . What I know
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today , doug , is that that's bad theology
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number one . And also what
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I know is that , after over seven
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decades of real life experiences
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, I know today that
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life is hard . God
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is good , and I'm not
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confused about that anymore , but I sure
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was for many years . So
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Jonas and I were happily married for about
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seven years and we had two little girls
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, one four and one 19 months old , and our
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sweet Angie Angela
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Joy . We live right next to my
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parents during that time and she would
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always make her little trek up to my
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mom's house for her second breakfast
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very often , and one
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particular morning she went up to mom's house and we
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lived in the country , so it was a very common
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, or sometimes the two of the girls would walk
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up together . But that particular
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morning I saw her walk out
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our drive , out our
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, through our yard , headed from my mom's house , which
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I always stood at my door waiting , watching
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her go to make sure that she got around the corner
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and was heading in the right direction
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. Then I would call mom and tell her she's on the way , and
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that morning I watched her , never said goodbye
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to her , never called her back
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, and the unusual part about that morning was that she
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still had her pajamas on and
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I kept thinking I should call her back
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and , you know , change her for the day
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, and . But I didn't . And
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so I turned around , walked into the house and I
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put my hand on the phone and as I did , I heard
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all of this commotion
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, screaming , yelling . I
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had never heard anything like it , but in my heart , immediately
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I knew that Angie
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was gone . And
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I don't know how I knew that , except
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that a mother's instinct is very strong and it's
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very real and it's most times
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right . And
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so I ran to my front door
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and in that moment my father
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was bringing , carrying Angie's
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body in his arms , just wailing
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that I believe she's dead . I believe she's dead . Well
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, of course , doug , you know that's tragic and
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traumatic because
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I had been , I was , I was
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living a good life , I'd
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been a pretty good girl according to the standards
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of the , you know , the church , and immediately
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, as Angie made her ascended to heaven
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that morning , I knew where she went and
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there was some comfort in that . But as time went on
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, the longing and the loneliness and the questions
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and the grief and just
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as sadness was overwhelming and
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I began my very slow and
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gradual descent into a world that I knew nothing
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about emotional pain and spiritual
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confusion . That
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journey , you know it's hard for me to explain it . You
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know just how , how it happened for me
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. But I went from really believing
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and trusting in God to why
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, if
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I was good , why did you do this to
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me ? I know today that's everybody
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asked that question . Why , god ? You know , and
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I think that we forget that Jesus
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was very clear when he said the enemy
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has come to steal , to
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kill and to destroy , and
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I have come to give you life , and
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so I think that we're very confused about that . But we
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all everybody asked that question why God
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? And that became my question . There were no answers
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for me . Even though I kept calling the church my
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husband , I began to drift apart emotionally
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. We , of course , stayed together and
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after a couple of months of and I would always
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cry when
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nobody was watching and I tried to be
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strong I felt like I had to carry this grief
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. You know , I had to carry it by myself
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. That
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was so . It's not okay
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to carry our grief by ourselves , and Jonah's
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not going to be able to talk about
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things . And
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so we then began to live in a silent marriage
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and a couple of months , a
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very short time later , my pastor
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gave to me at church and and
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it has to be to come to his office and
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just to talk , and
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I'd never talked to him before about anything
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that I was feeling or anything in life , about
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my experience , and I had never really taken
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the time to do that because life had been good for me . So
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I was relieved when I felt like
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, wow , I can . I
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can just at least try to talk about what
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I'm feeling . It was a very
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difficult thing for me to think
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about talking about it , but I went and
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so it was . It was a good conversation
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for the most part and at the very end of it , though , he took
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advantage of me physically and
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I I
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, I was devastated because
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I didn't understand the number
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one , why ? And number two
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, I guess I
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did something that I don't know that
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made him do that to me . So
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of course , the guilt , you know
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Angie , took me into a place of sad
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, deep sadness and grief . But this
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was the journey for me of guilt and shame , and
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it wasn't my fault that that
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he did that to me . I know that now . But
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at the time , when I walked out of the office
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, out of his office , I clearly
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remember making
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a choice that I would never
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tell . And let me tell you
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, doug , that's , that's a big
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lie , and
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that's where Satan very often grips
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us in our secrets , and
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I've never in my life kept a secret from Jonas
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, ever . I mean , there was no need to , you know . So
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that took me then into the dark
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world . And that one
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choice , that was my choice . And
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but I made that choice because I felt like
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there was no alternative
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because I didn't know
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, you know , like who , who , who did I
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tell anything ? I didn't know how to talk about Angie's
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death , how would I know how to describe
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or even have the vocabulary to talk
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about abuse ? And that one , that
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one secret kept me in nearly
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seven years of abuse
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of every kind and
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took me into the dark world and kept me there
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. And Satan gave me the tools I needed to keep
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me there and I almost
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succumbed and almost , almost
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died there , physically , almost died there
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.
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Well , thank you for sharing that story . So
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after the seven years , I do think it's important
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. So what happened after that seven year period
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that kind of brought you out of that ?
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Well , you know , I stayed there too long and
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my message today is for people that are
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in dark places and don't know how to get out . I
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felt stuck , I felt like there was no , no
15:32
way out and I I , I
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believe truly believed that life
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was over for me . I
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knew I believe the lies that I was unlovable
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, I was unforgivable and
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for sure , I was unchangeable
15:47
. I didn't feel like there was anything
15:49
within me that I had to offer to
15:51
anyone . I didn't feel like I had the ability
15:54
to change anything
15:56
. I was stuck in this
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, this dark place , and
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did not know how to get out . And
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I weighed 90 pounds . I
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was falling apart from the inside out . I
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was majorly depressed
16:10
and went to the doctor
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a couple of times because , physically , I
16:14
thought that I had ulcers in
16:16
my stomach and my heart raced and I thought
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I was having a heart attack . So I mean physically
16:20
secrets over time
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will kill you . If
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not physically , you die emotionally
16:27
. And Dr Richard Dobbins says that
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the tragedy is not in dying , but
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it's what dies inside of us while we live
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. I was dying inside
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and I was trying to live , and
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so at the end of all those years , I prayed
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and I wept and I just got to
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deliver me . And I knew that one day it was just
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like I don't know , come down and somehow just
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deliver me out of this dark place . But
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one day I was compelled by a Holy
16:53
Spirit within me that said get
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up off your knees , stop
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crying and go tell
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. Go tell your husband . You
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know the story of the man by the pool of the pesta
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. You know , for 38 years he sat there , waited
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, tried to get into the
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pool and he wasn't
17:11
able to manage that and
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had all the reasons as to why he couldn't get
17:16
into the pool for his healing . When Jesus came to
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him that day he said to him Sir
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, would you like to be healed ? You
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know , and that's a question of all
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time , do we want to be healed ? And
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my , the question , for me , was I
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wanted to be healed but , like , like
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the man by the pool , I didn't know
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how to get into the water
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, I didn't know how , I didn't know where to go , what to
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do . But that morning Holy
17:41
Spirit was very clear with me and go tell
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. And I
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gathered my broken self together
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. I'm
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sorry , it's okay
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, I'm grateful . I remember it very clearly . I
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gather myself together in Holy Spirit within
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me Never left me , doug . He
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never left me because it was him
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. It was him he gave
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me the courage . Wow . So
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I gathered it all up in my
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heart and palm
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sweating and heart racing , and all
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the way to my husband's , jonas's repair
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shop I kept saying , god , I can't do this
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, I can't , do this , I can't
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. But I kept driving and when I got
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there I made a very hard . When
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I say hard , no feeling , no emotion
18:37
, two sentences
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could passionate him and
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the look in his eyes was scary
18:45
. I had never seen the sadness
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or the that look and whatever
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that look was . I had to turn
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around and leave . I couldn't touch him
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. I didn't say it . Forgive
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me please . My end , my the end of my conversation
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confessional , is simply I'm sorry
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and I'm a sorry person , and
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that that principles founded James 516
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. I didn't really understand that principle at
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the time . I didn't even know it was in the Bible . I
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just know Holy Spirit gave me the courage to
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do what I had to do that morning . But
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, as from that day to this day , doug
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, I've learned the power of
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of being real , open , honest
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. And let me tell you something there's
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no other way . There
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is no other way . I prayed for seven years
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and
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I stayed in this dark place . Jesus and
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God , holy Spirit , sustain me . They
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never let go because they won't
19:38
. They promised that they would
19:40
stay with us forever and
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they stayed with me . But wow . And
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so that day , though the choice I
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made to tell Jonas that James
19:50
516 model can bet your balls
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one to another and pray , and
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then you'll be healed . And
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that's the model . I feel like us , as Christians
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, as believers , followers of Christ , whoever we
20:02
think we are , whatever we're
20:04
following Christ . But you know , what we want
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to do is pray , never
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tell and
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expect God to heal . And
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I believe that James 516 is
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not the spiritual connection
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with Jesus , it's the relational
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model . It's the model that builds and heals
20:22
, heals and builds relationships . Without
20:25
that confession to Jonas that day it
20:28
was long before , it was five years before he ends there
20:31
would not be an anti-an . Wow
20:34
, jonas and I would not be together today
20:36
and there would not be
20:38
an anti-an . And I always say can you
20:40
imagine a world without anti-an
20:42
self-rencils ? No , I mean
20:44
so . I mean it sounds
20:46
silly , but that is a truth . Every
20:49
time I say that it is , my heart feels
20:51
it , my stomach feels it . It's true . So
20:53
the point to that is , you know
20:55
, satan wants to destroy you . Why
20:58
, why ? Because
21:00
he doesn't want you to fulfill the purpose
21:03
for which God created you , for that's
21:05
why he wants to destroy you , because
21:07
he knows that once you
21:10
are well , once if you're able to overcome
21:12
and you're able to live a life of freedom
21:14
and truth , honesty , transparency
21:16
. You know confession is , it
21:18
feels like a , it feels hard
21:21
and harsh and subjective
21:23
, but you know what it really
21:25
means . You know . Be open , honest
21:27
, transparent , because as you do that , then you are
21:30
actually walking in the light
21:32
with your faults , your failures , your
21:34
sin , your mistakes , your struggles . You
21:36
know , we all live those things every day . But
21:39
as we are able to talk and
21:42
talk about it and confess
21:44
it to someone , that's
21:47
where we begin to live in the light . We
21:49
walk in the light , as he is in the light
21:51
, and then we have fellowship with one
21:54
another . What we're doing right now , doug , is we have fellowship
21:56
with one another , and then the
21:59
blood of Christ cleanses us from
22:01
all sin . It's all
22:03
about bringing our deeds into the light , no matter
22:05
how hard , no matter how bad , no
22:07
matter what the struggle is . But when you begin
22:09
to do that , as it happened for me that
22:11
day with Jones , there was not an instant
22:13
miracle , let me tell you for sure . But
22:16
there was something inside of me that
22:19
I began to feel lighter
22:21
, slowly but surely . I
22:23
mean , the weight of it was still here , but
22:26
I knew I had done the right thing . And when
22:28
Jonas came home that night , he
22:31
simply said to me we need to talk . And
22:36
I didn't want to talk . I had just
22:38
given him the greatest , the
22:40
most information that I had told
22:42
anyone about my secret
22:44
, and he wants to talk about it
22:46
. It was a hard
22:49
, hard evening . But what he said to me after that
22:51
is what got me on the path of
22:54
really truth and believing
22:57
that maybe there's hope for
22:59
me . I was done , life was over . During
23:02
those years I truly believed , doug , that my only
23:04
option was to take my life
23:06
. That seemed easier
23:09
than to tell my
23:11
secret . Can you , I mean , think about
23:14
that ? But that's where I stayed
23:16
for about three years of those nearly seven . I
23:18
thought about it , had suicidal
23:20
thoughts , but yet
23:22
I still wanted family , I still wanted my children
23:25
, I still wanted to be married to Jonas , but I didn't
23:27
know how to get back to that . So
23:30
, anyway , as we began to talk , he
23:32
said I know that you
23:34
have not been happy , but
23:38
if you want to be happy , I want you
23:40
to be happy and if
23:42
you have to leave , if you have
23:44
to go somewhere , please don't leave a note on the address
23:47
or on the middle of the night and go , but
23:50
just come to me and talk to me . Tell
23:53
me what you need , we'll
23:58
talk about it . I'll help you
24:00
find a house . Wow . And
24:02
I'll help you pack your bags , but you have to take your girls
24:05
with you because they
24:07
need their mother . Okay
24:09
, doug , so that was it right
24:12
there . He believed in me . And
24:16
how could he do that ? It's because
24:18
during that day he
24:21
called a counselor and
24:23
the counselors and Jonas was completely
24:26
distraught . He I
24:28
can't tell the story right now because it takes
24:31
too long but in the few hours maybe
24:33
eight hours he had called a counselor
24:35
and the counselor had
24:37
said to me , or had said
24:40
to him you have a right to divorce your wife . I
24:42
guess Even at that time
24:44
, doug , we didn't understand actual
24:46
abuse of spiritual power . We didn't
24:48
even understand . It's
24:51
like I hadn't up there for almost seven years
24:53
. But I understand
24:55
. I understood much later . Abuse
24:58
is not the same as an affair and
25:00
anyway , that's a whole other subject which I
25:02
speak about in my book . It's called those Secret
25:05
Lies Within . But that
25:07
day , when he said that to
25:09
me that the
25:11
girls need their mother
25:13
, you
25:16
can't even understand
25:19
the impact that had on me because
25:21
, again , I was unforgivable and lovable and
25:23
changeable . I don't deserve anything good . I
25:25
was unworthy of the shame , the cloak of shame I wore every single
25:27
day . There was nothing good
25:30
. I could never have written
25:33
anything good or anything that I liked about
25:35
myself at that point
25:37
. And so I said okay , I
25:39
promise you I won't leave you in the middle of the night . And then I asked
25:41
him can you make
25:43
a promise to me ? And he said sure . I
25:46
said promise me you won't rub my past
25:48
in my face ever
25:50
. Wow , he's right . And
25:53
you know what , Doug , from that day . And
25:56
he said I promise , from
25:59
that day to this he has never . We
26:01
have talked about it a lot , all as
26:03
well . But the
26:05
challenge that the counselor gave
26:07
in that day was you can either go and divorce
26:10
your wife and have
26:12
a committed adultery and you
26:15
can go do what your wife has done , or
26:17
you can love her like
26:20
Jesus loves
26:22
you , not
26:25
like Jesus loves the church , because
26:27
he heard that all his life . But
26:30
he said there was something about when
26:32
the man challenged him to love your
26:34
wife like Jesus loves you
26:36
, he said . In that
26:38
moment I began to weep like a baby because
26:42
I began to think about how is it , how
26:46
does Jesus love me ? And
26:49
my focus changed from
26:52
what happened to Anne or
26:55
what Anne did to me to how
26:57
is it that he
26:59
loves me and how can I love
27:01
Anne and the girls in
27:03
the same way . And
27:06
that , doug , is what kept our marriage together and
27:10
he would tell you that God did a work of
27:12
grace in both of us , and
27:14
that's why we're still one today , after 55
27:16
years .
27:18
Wow . Well , thank
27:20
you so much for sharing your story and thank God
27:22
for your husband , thank God for God speaking
27:24
to you , and thank God that you had the courage to confess
27:27
and not just give it all up . So thank
27:29
you for that . A few follow-up
27:31
questions just that , I think , will help
27:33
One . I just love that you are vulnerable
27:36
and willing to share your story , because I feel like so
27:38
many people are going through similar
27:40
things and they don't speak up and they think they're the only
27:42
person on the planet dealing with this , and
27:44
so I guess my first question
27:46
would just be if someone's listening to us and
27:48
they're in the middle of being
27:50
sexually abused or in a situation
27:53
where they're being victimized and they feel
27:55
similar to you do , if I share this , if
27:57
this ever comes out , my life's already
27:59
over . They've been in forever
28:01
. What would you say to that person ?
28:04
Well , I've written a book about it . Again
28:06
, I'll mention that it's secretized within . So
28:10
that's a very , that's a deep
28:12
question , a loaded question , but
28:15
I'll just share my experience with that which I mentioned
28:17
a minute ago , was to , first
28:19
of all
28:22
, be courageous . It
28:25
takes courage , it takes strength . It's
28:29
almost impossible to do it by yourself
28:31
. So I would encourage
28:34
anyone to who is
28:36
in your life right now
28:38
, that you know loves
28:40
you . Number one that you know
28:43
has been down the road
28:45
and has experienced , maybe has
28:47
experienced some , some hardships in their
28:49
life and they have gotten to a point
28:51
in life where they've overcome and you know they're
28:54
strong and they're steady and they , they , they
28:56
can love you and guide you . You
28:58
don't want to go to the bar and talk about your
29:00
troubles at a bar . I
29:03
mean , people do that all the time and there's
29:05
something kind of like appealing
29:07
to me about that , Like , actually , why
29:09
can we not do that in the church ? Why
29:12
? can we not , you know
29:14
, just go and say , hey , this
29:16
is my problem , this is what I'm struggling
29:19
with , and I'm like , why
29:21
can we not do that ? We should be able to
29:23
, because you know , we've we've
29:25
been instructed to bear one another's burdens
29:28
and so , as we do that
29:30
, we fulfill the law of Christ . So I
29:32
believe that it's really the only way that
29:34
you'll be able to overcome any of your
29:36
, your struggles and the and the depression
29:39
and the , the anxiety
29:41
, and you know , we hear so
29:43
. So many people today
29:46
, you know , struggle with panic attacks
29:48
and and
29:51
it's all around . I don't , I don't know that
29:53
I go through a day without somebody telling me that
29:55
I'm I'm anxious or I haven't . I feel
29:57
like I'm having anxiety or I'm having a panic
29:59
attack . It's almost like a buzzword and
30:01
I'm saying there is a better way
30:04
and I truly
30:06
believe . You know , I
30:08
love the fact that Jesus died
30:10
for our sins . That's
30:13
like wow
30:16
. But I just , you know , a couple of years ago , I
30:18
realized , as I read the
30:20
Easter story once again read Isaiah
30:22
and Easter story and I realized
30:24
Jesus not only died
30:26
for my sins , but
30:28
he carried my shame
30:30
and what
30:33
most of it experience with
30:35
abuse of any kind , whether it's verbal
30:37
, physical , sexual
30:40
bullying , whatever
30:42
it may be , the abuse
30:44
that we've experienced , you know , somehow
30:47
it fills us
30:49
with shame . What someone has done to
30:51
us to hurt us fills
30:54
us with shame , Like
30:56
it's my fault , Like I must have done
30:58
something wrong . And yes , you know , after
31:00
I experienced what I did with the abuse , I became
31:03
, you know , hurt people , hurt other
31:05
people . I abandoned
31:07
my children , not not physically , but emotionally
31:10
. I abandoned my children . I mean I could
31:12
, I can write a book , I have written a book about you
31:14
know how I responded to the pain
31:16
and that was inflicted
31:19
on me . But then I began to inflict pain
31:21
on my family . And so
31:23
the shame that you feel , number
31:25
one , is that somebody did this to me . And then , number
31:28
two , you feel ashamed
31:30
because now you are , you
31:32
know , I know some young people that I've isolated
31:35
themselves . They're mean and
31:37
short tempered and angry at their
31:39
families , at their parents , and are mad
31:41
at mom and dad and mad at God . So
31:43
all of these things , you
31:46
know , there's really only one
31:48
way we try to drug it away
31:50
, we try to sex it away
31:53
. We become workaholics , we , we
31:55
, we come , we can even become ministers
31:57
. We start , you know , busy in the ministry
32:00
. We exercise
32:02
it away , we try to . This pain is inside of
32:04
us . We're up to here . We
32:06
can know we can hardly carry it
32:09
anymore , and I know that there's
32:11
people in your audience that are there
32:13
right now . And
32:15
the only way for me
32:17
I tried everything the
32:20
only way for me was to begin to unload
32:22
, and the only way you can do that is
32:24
to actually talk about it . It's
32:28
so hard , I know . So
32:30
when I talk about finding someone
32:32
that
32:35
could help you and you
32:37
know I'm careful about this because I
32:39
felt like I went to the right place I
32:42
mean I went to my pastor , someone
32:44
that I truly trusted . So
32:46
how do you know who to go to ? I
32:51
pray that you ask , that you ask
32:53
, first of all , ask Holy Spirit to help you
32:55
find the right person and
32:58
gather one or two close
33:00
friends that can guide you . And
33:03
then , ultimately , if you're
33:05
abused , you find yourself
33:07
almost depressed
33:09
, so bad that you want to take your life . You have
33:12
to call . Maybe it's a helpline , maybe
33:15
it's somebody in your church , maybe it's someone in your neighborhood
33:17
, maybe it's someone at school that your
33:20
teacher or your I don't know , but you
33:22
have to find somebody to talk to . And
33:24
that jug is then the beginning of
33:27
opening a door to a better
33:29
life . And there's a verse in Proverbs 6-5
33:31
that if the audience that
33:34
you have is they're not all believers . But let me
33:36
tell you this is practical advice , and
33:38
it says in Proverbs 6-5
33:41
, set yourself free like
33:43
a gazelle from the hand of the
33:45
hunter , like a bird
33:47
from the snare of the fallow . Think
33:49
about that picture . That
33:52
means great struggle . So
33:55
what you're about to do is
33:57
not easy . It is a
33:59
great struggle , like it was for me , and even
34:01
after I made my confession , I began to
34:03
talk to Jonas . I had no idea
34:06
how deep I
34:08
was in my darkness
34:10
and how long it would take
34:13
me to get to a place of
34:15
total freedom . But I have to
34:17
tell you I mean , that has been my experience it's
34:20
beginning to talk , finding
34:22
the right person and eventually
34:24
finding a trauma therapist
34:27
, a good Christian , solid trauma
34:29
therapist , or start with just a
34:31
Christian counselor , but
34:33
someone that is , I have to almost say , professional
34:36
, because
34:39
I didn't want to talk to anyone , doug , that would talk
34:41
to me about Bible verses . I mean , I
34:43
hate to admit that , but I knew all the verses
34:45
, I
34:48
knew what to do , but I couldn't
34:50
do it . And so the
34:53
Word of God is very important
34:55
, going to church and
34:58
doing all the things that we do as followers
35:00
of Christ is really important . But
35:02
I did all that and
35:04
the only thing that set me free
35:06
was to begin to talk . And there's
35:09
, you know , the Bible says that we are overcomers by
35:11
the blood of the Lamb and the Word of our testimony
35:14
. I want to say , by your story
35:16
, tell your story and
35:18
the blood of the Lamb . The combination
35:22
is why I'm on your podcast
35:24
today , doug . That's why I'm here today . The
35:26
blood of the Lamb and being able to tell my
35:29
story . I started out just a little
35:31
fall . I'll never forget the very first
35:33
time with Jonas , and then after that we went
35:35
to a counselor for five times . Five times
35:37
my husband said we need to go for help
35:39
. I fought him , I resisted
35:42
him . I said I don't want to go
35:44
. So you
35:46
know everything is scary , but you've got
35:49
to be courageous and you have
35:51
to keep moving forward toward
35:53
the light , the
35:55
darkness . Get out of the darkness as
35:57
fast as you can and begin
35:59
to look toward the light and
36:01
people that are light filled , people that
36:03
you know are followers of Christ
36:05
.
36:09
It may be the same answer , but I'm curious
36:11
. You know , obviously you lost the
36:13
unthinkable . You lost a daughter 19
36:15
months old . We were talking a little bit
36:17
before . You know , I lost my mom when I was 17
36:20
. I lost a sister a few years ago to an overdose . So
36:23
it was interesting a few years ago , nine
36:27
months after I lost my sister . Basically
36:29
, I have what I refer to as a mental breakdown , and so
36:31
what you said I reached out for help and my counselor
36:33
said something to me I thought was so interesting he
36:36
said . He said , doug , I don't think you've
36:38
ever grieved . So what do
36:40
you mean ? He's like I don't think you've grieved your mom , I don't think you've grieved your
36:42
sister . And in my mind , again , going back to the
36:44
Bible verse , it's like hey , we don't grieve like others
36:47
grieve .
36:47
I know I'll see him again one day Exactly .
36:50
And he said , doug , you can't say goodbye to something
36:52
that you've never said hello to . And
36:55
that hit me just like a ton of bricks . And he
36:57
sent me on this whole process . He actually had me go to the
36:59
grave sites of those I've lost and write letters . You
37:02
know I have four kids under seven and I can't imagine losing
37:04
a child . The grief that comes with that Do you have and
37:07
so many people listen to this have lost loved
37:09
ones and had traumatic events . Do you have any advice
37:11
in addition to what you already shared when it
37:13
just comes to grieving and getting
37:15
over the loss in our lives ?
37:18
Well , I think what you just shared , doug
37:20
is powerful and we
37:22
run from it like our
37:25
grief and pain , we actually run away from it and
37:27
I wanted to say run
37:30
towards it . What
37:33
I learned to do over time was
37:35
sit in my chair and when
37:37
I had these feelings of sadness and guilt
37:39
and shame and whatever it may have been , there
37:42
was a load of just emotions
37:46
of all kinds that I would experience after
37:48
I told my secret and eventually
37:50
I learned to sit in my chair
37:52
instead of running away from my pain
37:54
and the feelings that made me feel bad . I just
37:56
talked to somebody at a place
37:58
a couple of weeks ago where I was speaking and a
38:01
gentleman came to me and was
38:04
talking to me about my story and I said so what's your
38:06
story ? He said , well
38:08
, I can't talk about it . And
38:10
I said , wow , can you tell me why you don't
38:12
want to talk about it ? He said , well , because
38:14
if I do , then I will feel all
38:16
of the pain again . I'm
38:19
like , wow , exactly , we don't
38:21
want to feel the pain , but there is no way
38:23
to be well , unless you
38:25
tell , unless you feel the pain
38:27
of it all , you can never be better
38:29
. It's mind-blowing and
38:32
that's kind of like a . Some people
38:34
have never heard that . They
38:36
may never have heard that phrase , but you said
38:38
what I'm saying , but it's true
38:41
. You have to tell to be well
38:43
, and so I believe that
38:45
when people experience this kind of tragedy
38:47
as time goes on , like you said , nine months
38:49
later , is that what you said after ?
38:51
a year or six months ?
38:52
Yeah , nine months , nine months , that's a very short time . I'm
38:55
proud of you for doing that . I mean understanding
38:57
. I can't go on it , it's too heavy , you
39:00
can't bury it forever . And
39:02
so the tragedy people walk
39:04
through it , they keep walking to walk it
39:06
away from it , and the further they get away from it
39:08
, the more they feel like , oh
39:10
, wow , I survived . Right
39:13
, I survived , but at one
39:15
point survival is not good enough . It's
39:18
the tragedy , the trauma which
39:20
you experienced , and then the survival
39:22
. We move on and we feel like we're okay
39:24
and I see survival . As for
39:26
me , it was like wow , I
39:29
survived the death of Angie . And then
39:31
, as I got out of the abuse , I survived
39:33
, that I was so proud of myself I
39:35
survived . This is amazing . But
39:38
survival , I
39:40
picture that in my mind like you're on a raft on
39:43
the middle of the ocean and
39:45
you're on the raft , you're keeping your
39:47
head above water , but I mean
39:49
, the waves are crashing , you're
39:52
not living , you're surviving
39:54
. And so then it's
39:56
tragedy , trauma , and then it's surviving , and
39:59
then it's overcoming , and the
40:01
overcoming is Doug , what I believe
40:03
that you're beginning to feel and experience
40:05
, as you began to open up and
40:08
begin to talk about your pain . I may not be
40:10
right about that , but the overcoming
40:14
happens as we begin to talk . Yes
40:16
. And that's why I can't . You
40:18
know there's so much in my book about that and
40:21
I love what Dr Richard Jarbens
40:23
says . The Christian
40:26
psychiatrists that helped me out
40:29
of the emerged ministries in Akron , ohio
40:31
, which would be near where you are yeah
40:34
, they're still there today emerge ministries
40:37
If you need help , emerge ministries
40:39
is there for you . They do trauma
40:41
counseling , counseling about kids . But
40:44
Dr Richard Talbott , he had one
40:46
line that I love that it was he paraphrased
40:49
James 516 . He says Satan
40:51
builds his strongholds in
40:53
the secrets of our lives and
40:55
he reinforces them by
40:57
silence . Don't talk . But
41:00
when I break the silence
41:02
, when I begin to talk , I break
41:04
the stronghold . That
41:06
is , in fact , the James 516
41:12
model . Satan
41:15
builds his strongholds in the secrets
41:18
of our lives . He builds
41:20
this , he's building that secret . He's
41:22
building it's getting bigger and bigger and bigger . It becomes
41:24
a stronghold in our life . But
41:27
when I begin to talk , I break
41:29
the stronghold . And that's my
41:32
story and I'm sticking to it . Your
41:34
stronghold , it's so big in your
41:36
mind , so hard to bear , that
41:38
eventually you cannot bear
41:40
it anymore . And I just want
41:42
to encourage you whether you're 20 , 15
41:44
, 30 , a young age , don't wait
41:47
. I was almost
41:50
40 before I was able to talk
41:52
about the death of my daughter
41:54
and the abuse I think I was
41:56
actually 37 and
41:58
the abuse of my pastor , and
42:01
I was so wrecked that
42:03
it took me years to overcome . If you
42:05
can begin to live this lifestyle I
42:08
call it the lifestyle of compassion
42:10
If you can begin to live
42:12
this lifestyle every single
42:14
day , when things begin to come
42:17
at you and you're feeling overwhelmed
42:19
or you feel your stomach and knots , or you're hurting
42:21
your heart's , hurting the feelings , their real feelings
42:23
begin to pay attention to that
42:25
. And so what I do to live the overcoming
42:28
lifestyle is when I feel like I've hurt someone
42:30
and I can't just pray about it and say , father , forgive
42:32
me , I'm sorry . It lingers in my
42:34
belly or in my heart , I know . Then I
42:36
need to make an honest confession , or just when
42:38
I'm sorry , or
42:41
if they've hurt me sometimes I
42:43
can't get over it right away . Over time I
42:45
will go say to them you know what you said
42:47
to me the other day or the other week , whatever . What you
42:49
did hurt me and I just want you to know I
42:53
forgive you for hurting me . That sounds silly
42:55
, but it's a principle in
42:57
the Word of God that
42:59
keeps me free . It keeps
43:01
me in the light . I don't have secrets
43:03
anymore . I just bring them into
43:05
the light , either with somebody or with
43:07
my husband , or in prayer . That's the
43:09
lifestyle of overcoming and that's
43:11
where I live today . And listen , doug
43:13
, I have gone from the darkest of nights for years
43:16
hopeless , depressed , suicidal
43:18
to the brightest of
43:21
light . It's so big
43:23
and the more I tell my story
43:25
Doug I don't even understand this the
43:27
greater the light becomes . Wow
43:29
.
43:31
Well , thank you for sharing that . I don't think
43:33
we're going to get to the leadership , but people are saying
43:35
what does this have to do with leadership ? Everything it's like .
43:37
Oh , everything .
43:39
Yeah , do you want to say anything to that ?
43:40
I mean yes , well , I just want to say I
43:42
believe that God wants
43:45
to equip . In these days in particular , he
43:48
wants an army of people
43:50
that are overcomers , that
43:53
can help those who are
43:55
living in this survival mode , in this marketplace
43:58
, but he wants to take us to a
44:00
place of leadership , live
44:02
the overcoming lifestyle . He wants it
44:04
. It's going to take an army of us
44:06
, a whole army of soldiers
44:08
that are strong and courageous
44:11
, that can reach down to the downtrodden
44:13
and lift them up , and I feel like
44:15
that's my mission . My mission
44:18
is to the church , help people , just
44:20
to lift them up , and God needs all
44:22
of us to do that .
44:24
Yeah , and this probably be . We can
44:26
land a plane with this question . But you mentioned , you
44:28
know , even just recently , just if something's in shumbling
44:30
you're holding on forgiveness , forgive someone If
44:33
someone's been in abuse . Like how have you
44:35
? I don't know how much detail you want to go to
44:37
, but you talked about spiritual
44:40
abuse or abuse of authority , and that
44:42
happened . This happened . Unfortunately , statistics say
44:44
this happens every day . I think one , one in three
44:46
or four children are abused . Like
44:48
which is crazy . So how
44:50
, how do you deal Because I think that
44:53
I'm assuming that that's part of the fear and
44:55
telling too . If I tell , then then this person
44:57
who has authority over me , how do you , how
44:59
do how do victims deal with that ?
45:01
There's such , there's so many , there's
45:04
so many the , the , the tentacles you know to
45:06
abuse is . There's so many pieces
45:08
to it . It's so deep and so troubling and
45:11
so confusing . But you
45:13
know , as a , as a child , it's hard to deal
45:15
with abuse . I mean as a child
45:17
, but I should grow it . For me I was a grown
45:19
woman so I cannot even imagine
45:22
. But what I know is is that
45:24
the abuse
45:26
that I experienced , it
45:29
felt , and then also the
45:31
same pastor abused our oldest daughter from
45:33
all the whole time he was abusing
45:35
me he was a part of
45:38
her life as well , and I didn't know that till
45:40
she was 25 . And that was
45:42
that's a whole other story that took me . That almost
45:44
made me crash and burn
45:46
. So you know , the question becomes
45:49
how can I forgive ? How
45:52
can I forgive ? I don't . I'm going to
45:54
answer this very quickly because I know we're running out
45:56
of time , but but the most
45:59
comfort that I got as far as forgiveness
46:01
was many , many years after
46:03
my story unfolded , and it
46:05
was actually in the year 2003
46:09
. And I , I was sitting on
46:11
my chair and thinking about
46:13
forgiveness and just telling
46:15
the Lord I don't know , I don't know
46:17
. And I remember the story
46:20
of Jesus on the cross , when
46:23
, when he was dying , and he said
46:25
I know , you know what he said , but
46:28
we , I went over . I just read
46:30
this so many times that I never saw it . But
46:33
on the cross , jesus said , I
46:35
believe the weight of the world was
46:38
too much for him . He
46:40
was Jesus , he was
46:43
God in the flesh . How can you take the world
46:45
, the weight of the whole world , from
46:47
beginning of time to the end of time , upon
46:50
yourself ? And he said , father
46:52
, forgive
46:55
them , because
46:57
they don't know what they're doing . And
46:59
you know , when I read that in the
47:01
year 2003, . I
47:04
realized that sometimes things are so
47:06
hard for us as human beings to bear and
47:09
I began to pray that prayer Father
47:11
, would you
47:13
forgive him Because
47:16
he really doesn't know what he did to me and my family
47:18
? And you want Doug
47:20
, even to this day , if
47:22
I struggle with how do I forgive ? Maybe
47:25
it's something there's still trigger points in
47:27
my family , or I hear stories
47:30
, my , I
47:32
, that's my , go to prayer Father , forgive
47:35
him , for he does not know what he did . And
47:37
that was a . That was a
47:40
way of forgiveness that I experienced , that gave
47:42
me peace , no
47:44
guilt , no shame on my part , like , oh
47:46
, you have to forgive . I have . To the
47:49
best of my ability , I've
47:51
forgiven , but sometimes
47:53
, when it feels hard , even today , I just read that
47:55
prayer Father forgive , or
47:57
he doesn't know what he did . Try it yourself
48:00
, it might work , I don't know . Yeah Well , thank you for sharing that and I guess
48:03
I'll just leave this open at the end .
48:06
Is there anything else you want to leave our listeners with today , before we wrap up
48:08
?
48:10
You know , I just , I just believe that God is
48:12
bigger than all of us Even can imagine
48:14
. His , his grace goes further than
48:16
our pain . His forgiveness
48:18
is deeper than any sin , any
48:21
shame that we've borne . He is greater
48:23
than all of that and believe
48:26
that . You know , faith is believing
48:28
that God will do what he said
48:30
he would do . Whatever
48:33
God said he would do , he
48:35
will do . That's
48:37
that's who he is . So I want to encourage
48:39
your audience to just believe that
48:41
God is . He is as
48:43
good as his word and he has
48:45
promised to give you life and
48:48
to help you live an overcoming life , the
48:50
life that he died for , and that's
48:52
what he's . He's . He's
48:54
offering that to you today . Work
48:57
out your own salvation
48:59
and fear and trembling . There's a lot of work that we do in
49:02
faith . We call out to him constantly
49:04
. There's a lot of work that we do . Do
49:06
the hard work , Set yourself free
49:08
and you'll begin to live a life
49:10
that you didn't even know was possible .
49:13
Yeah well , and thank you so much for doing the hard work
49:15
yourself and allowing God to use your story
49:18
and the circumstances you've gone through to
49:20
glorify him and help other people . I'm believing
49:22
, god , that you know everyone listening to this
49:24
, those who need help or or in a similar position
49:27
, that this will be the the key to them
49:29
getting free , and so thank you for
49:31
your ministry and , of course , thank
49:33
you for for great pretzels to everyone
49:35
on the planet . My
49:37
family is extremely appreciative
49:40
. So thank you so much , and hopefully we'll get to do this
49:42
again sometime .
49:43
Awesome . Thank you for the opportunity
49:45
. God bless you and Merry Christmas to you .
49:47
Merry Christmas . Well , leader , thank you so
49:49
much for listening to my conversation with Anne . I hope that
49:51
you enjoyed it as much as I did . You can find
49:53
ways to connect with her and links to everything that we discussed
49:56
in the show notes at L3 leadershiporg
49:58
forward , slash 413 . And as
50:00
always , leader , I like to end every episode of the quote , and I'll
50:02
quote President Ronald Reagan , who said this the
50:04
greatest leader is not necessarily the one
50:06
who does the greatest things . He is the one
50:08
that gets the people to do the greatest
50:11
things . And leader leadership is all
50:13
about others , and so make sure you always remember
50:15
that . As I say at the end of every
50:17
episode , know that my wife Lauren , I love you , we believe
50:19
in you and don't quit . Keep leading
50:21
. The world desperately needs your
50:24
leadership . We'll talk to you next episode .
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