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The Honeydew with Ryan Sickler.
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["The Honeydew with Ryan Sickler"]
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Welcome back to The Honeydew,
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And I am very excited to have this
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Ladies and gentlemen, please welcome Leah Kreischer.
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Welcome to The Honeydew. Thank you
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so much. I'm so happy to be here. This
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is long overdue. Aw, well thank
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you. I came to
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see you guys and do your shows and stuff over there.
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And I was like, I got it. I want you to
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come on, because I'm gonna tell you this. I wanna give,
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your husband gave me my flowers. I'm gonna give you your
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flowers. The wife of the party.
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Listen, it's the best
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name for a podcast out there.
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It's so creative. It's so
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smart. It's so on point. It
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just nails it. It fucking nails it. It's
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so good. Thank you. It's so good.
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And to be the one. of the party like
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that. I am. Yeah, I know. And
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to know the story before the wife
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came in and all that, like, Holy
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shit. So Leanne Chrysler, welcome. Please plug,
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promote everything you would like. And then
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we're going to get into your story.
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Okay. Well, obviously wife's party podcast. I've
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had it for 300 plus episodes. I
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love my podcast. We
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talk about everything and nothing
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and it's great. I
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just produced my first standup special for Shane
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Torres. I'm really proud of that. It's on
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YouTube. You can watch it on Bert Chrysler's
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channel or Shane's channel. And
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I think, I mean, I love Shane,
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but I think we did a really good job. I was
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really proud of myself. Um, so
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yeah. And then obviously always Bert, Bert,
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Bert, bert.com, you know,
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always be selling Bert, Bert, bert.com. But
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yeah, I guess that's it. Wife's party podcast.
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Well, I don't know a lot about
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your upbringing and, um, but
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I hear, I catch these things from Bert,
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from Kirsten, from whoever here, there. So I
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want to talk to you about your upbringing,
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upbringing, because you're where were you born originally?
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You're, you're from the South, obviously. So here's
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what else is funny. People constantly tell me
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I have a Southern accent. Do I sound
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Southern to you? No, exactly. And I say
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that to them, Oh, you
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must sound to me like
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I sound to them for whatever
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reason. Right. Right. Um,
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I draw my O's and my A's
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and it's a, it's a draw. It's
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not a Southern accent. Like accents a
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different hit. No, it's definitely not. Yeah.
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No. Most people think I'm from Texas, but
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my accent is very different than Texas. But
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if you're not from Texas or from where
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I'm from, you just, everybody thinks everybody's from Texas.
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I think. So where are you from? I'm from
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Bowdoin, Georgia. Oh, you're from Georgia. Yeah. Bowdoin
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has about 1600 people. My
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daughter's middle school had 1800 people. Slightly
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different than my upbringing. The
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LA school out here had 200 more
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people than your. I
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remember being there the first day
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middle school and going, yeah, this
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is my entire home town in
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one building. And my kids were
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like, yeah, it is crazy. Man,
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that math has hurt my head. Yeah.
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In one building, one building. So this
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is an, everyone knows everyone in their
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business town. Yes. Joke,
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but true. Sort of true joke,
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but true. And do you have,
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um, extended family or is it just brothers
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and sisters? I'm the only child, only child,
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only child. And you have cousins and stuff
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that live there though. I have cousins. I
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have one other cousin that left actually
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two cousins that left one is still in Georgia and one
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moved to San Francisco. Everybody else is still there. Yeah.
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In that same town. Pretty much. Yeah.
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And what is it now? Do you know the population
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now? About the same. No way.
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Yeah. It's about the same. Nobody's
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moving. No,
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I know when I was in high school, you know, I
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think four or five of us went
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to college, we graduated, I graduated with
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74 people, my graduating class. So yeah,
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it's kind of your whole senior class
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of 70. Uh-huh. My whole senior class 74. And
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I moved around with my parents divorced when
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I was seven. So, but everyone that I
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started kindergarten with in that town, I graduated
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with in high school. Cause I went back
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there for high school. And
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everybody, you know, everybody knew everybody. I
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had like three options for a boyfriend in high
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school and they were all my third cousins. Not
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a joke. Well,
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my boyfriend in high school, when I finally broke up
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with him, my dad was like, thank God, you know,
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he's your cousin. And I was like, what? You could
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have given me a heads up. Didn't tell you
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that at all. No, he was like, well, I knew it
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wasn't going to work out. So I was just waiting for it
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to fall apart. But yeah. So
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what's mom do? What's dad do? You're
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an only child and then they divorce.
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So tell me about that. Mom
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and dad were from neighboring
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hometowns. My
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mom's actually from Alabama. So my hometown is
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on the border of Alabama. So,
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uh, they were high school sweethearts, got married
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three weeks out of high school after my
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mom graduated. And my dad, uh, the
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mechanic, he went to school to be an auto
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mechanic, had his own shop. My
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first job was working for him. I, um, kept
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his books. And then when I turned 16, I drove his
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tow truck. You did? You
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were telling people, I did. I swear.
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Were you really? Yeah. Who are
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you? Yes. I
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know. You pull it out of the fucking place. Every
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old man and his overalls, I'd pull up and they'd
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go, where's your daddy? And I go, well, he's at
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the shop. Well, who's going to pull
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my truck in? Well, I am. And they were
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like, no, you ain't going to hook this up.
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And I'm like, I've been riding record trips with
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my daddy since I was eight years old. So
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I just hook it up and pull it to
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the shop. And these old men would get it. And
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do they ride with you in the cab? Yeah. And
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I'm like, what? I didn't know Jimmy's daughter did
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that. And I'm like, well, you know,
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the good thing about my daddy is I don't
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think he ever really saw me as a girl
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or a boy just as a kid. So
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he never really treated me like, oh, you're
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not doing that. Girls don't do this. Boys don't
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do that. Yeah. Good. I
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like that. He was just like, if we're chopping wood, you are
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also. Yeah. I grew up in
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my friend's dad's junkyard and we had ladies like that
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too. Like, I'm like, you're going to drive that? And
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she's like, yeah, I'm going to fucking drive that. God
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damn it. She would drive the shit out of it.
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Yeah. Yeah. To 16. Just
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getting your license and you're doing that. Yes. Yeah. My
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dad's family had an 88 acre
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farm. So I'd been driving for
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a long time by the time I actually got to legally
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drive. But anyway, so my parents
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were high school sweethearts. My dad was a mechanic. My
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mom worked in a factory selling men's suits
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to pay his way through school, mechanic school.
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And then when he graduated, very liberal of my dad, he
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said, well, what do you want to do? It's
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my turn to pay for you to go to school. And she wanted to
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be a model. So she's very
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beautiful. So
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he paid for her to go to Barbizon modeling school.
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I remember Barbizon. I remember Barbizon. Barbazone
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and when I was four, she went to
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Chicago to a catalog model and
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just didn't come home for like a year and a half.
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Wait, what? Yeah. Kind
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of went a goodbye.
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Just split and stayed. Just split
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and stayed. I think she came home once
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or twice in that year and a half,
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but she stayed there. And, uh, that kind
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of was really hard
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for my dad. My dad sorta
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unofficially had a bit of a nervous breakdown.
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Like I remember getting up
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at for kindergarten and him just,
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just sitting at the table, just
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staring off into nothing, making myself
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waffles and you know, he's
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a great dad, but he was just really
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in love with her and she just broke
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his heart. So when she came back
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from Chicago, but also left you. Yeah.
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So he's watching his little girl without a
8:51
mom to his dudes without a wife. You're
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without a mom. Is this okay? Here.
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Without a wife, without a mom, I
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stayed with her parents a lot. Um,
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her dad suffered from really severe PTSD
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from World War II and was probably
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the meanest person I've ever known. Like gotten
9:10
to fight hit somebody was like a logging
9:12
chain in the head. Um,
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just a real mean nasty guy. So I was
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really scared of him. I didn't enjoy
9:18
staying at their house, but I stayed there to
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my mom came back. And when
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my mom came back, she kind of plotted to leave
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my dad. So,
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um, that's when the
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games began with my mom.
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Oh, so
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yeah, my mom came back from Chicago. Um,
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what made her come back? Do you know? I
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think, um, I think my
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dad just kind of stopped sending her money.
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So he was sending her money to support. He was fulfilling
9:50
his end of the bargain. I'm going to support you and
9:52
get you up and running. But at a
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certain point he figured out that she was, this was,
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she was kind of conning him a little bit. Um,
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So he just stopped sending her money. So she came
10:02
home when she got home. Ah,
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this is just so not
10:07
fun. But she had
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gone to Atlanta, found an apartment,
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rented an apartment, fully furnished it
10:13
without telling him. And
10:16
basically was like, I'm going to
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leave. And he was like, what's going on?
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Let's have like a trial period where we
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see if this can work here. And
10:25
she agreed to it while she finished amassing
10:27
everything and then left him and left him
10:29
with all the credit card debt and took
10:32
me to Atlanta. Took you. Yeah, took me
10:34
to Atlanta, which was really devastating for me
10:36
because I was on this farm, right? I
10:39
had a calf every summer I had to raise. I
10:41
worked on the farm, all my cousins. You're telling people
10:43
out there. Not yet, later though. But I had
10:45
all these cousins. I was totally surrounded by
10:48
family. And then she moved me to Atlanta
10:52
in a community in Atlanta
10:54
that was all gay men in the 70s because
10:56
she thought a little girl would be really
10:59
safe in the gay community. So she
11:01
moved me into the gay community. And
11:04
did you know you were going or did you
11:06
wake up one day and mom's just driving? Like
11:09
you had any heads up? I didn't
11:11
have a lot of a heads up, but
11:13
I know she told me that I had
11:15
enough time to give my dad my favorite toy.
11:17
And he still has that toy. It broke his
11:20
heart. I gave him the toy that I slept
11:22
with every day because I was, you know, he
11:24
and I had been inseparable for a year and
11:26
a half. And then all of a sudden she
11:28
showed up and everything changed.
11:30
It was really hard. But
11:34
after we moved to Atlanta, I started
11:36
figuring out my mom was not right
11:38
in that. And this is my
11:41
opinion. My mother has not been diagnosed with
11:43
anything that I know of. But
11:45
I noticed at a young age that she lied
11:47
quite a lot. And I would
11:49
catch her in the line. You know, when you're like seven
11:51
or eight, you go, hey, that's not true. And
11:54
then when you say, hey, mom, that's not true, I would
11:56
get in trouble for that. And she would tell me it
11:58
was true. Um,
12:00
and then, you know, she
12:03
started having me steal things from places.
12:05
Why? She wanted them and
12:07
she didn't want to pay for them. What are we talking about?
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What do you feel? Like sugar dispensers
12:14
and she loves, she likes
12:16
large knives and
12:19
she liked large serving spoons in
12:21
restaurants. So it was always from
12:23
a restaurant. It was never, it was one of
12:25
her favorite spots. Where are you going? Well, I
12:27
don't know. Cause we went to
12:29
everybody's pizza a lot and they had
12:31
everybody's pizza. And
12:34
you would be stealing shit from there. Yeah. And
12:37
I hated it because I was like, this
12:39
is so wrong. How old are you? Eight.
12:42
I can't imagine that my kid be like,
12:45
get that spatula. Get
12:47
that spatula. Just take it down your pants. Take
12:49
it down your pants. Here we go. If they catch
12:51
you, you won't get in trouble cause you're a little
12:54
girl. So just put it in your pants. And I'd
12:56
be like, Oh my God, I'm just gonna, I gotta,
12:58
I gotta, I gotta keep walking. Keep walking. Keep walking.
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So there was that. And then
13:04
she was dating this guy that we
13:08
would take suitcases full of cash to the Cayman islands
13:10
on a regular basis. So some part of me was
13:12
like, I don't know what that dude and her
13:14
and her, three of us, she was seeing the
13:16
guy. Yeah. Here's
13:18
my little suitcase full of cash. He
13:21
owned arcades and junkyards. Yeah.
13:24
It's cash business. Cash. Yeah.
13:27
So that was happening in Atlanta.
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And then my dad's house, my dad was
13:32
living with two other bachelors and a log
13:34
cabin that had no heat on
13:36
20 acres of land. We had to chop wood.
13:38
I lived with them every other weekend and then
13:40
all three months in the summer. So
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I jokingly say I'm a perfect fit
13:45
for Bert because I grew up with
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like three bra major
13:49
bachelor party every weekend,
13:52
women in and out. I mean,
13:54
it was like a frat house and
13:56
that's where I felt really safe because my mom
13:58
not only was like, flying was, had
14:01
a lot of men in and out and
14:04
didn't really have a lot of friends. And
14:06
I think when I was young, I just was
14:08
like, something's up here. Like something's not, elevator's
14:11
not going to the top floor. Um,
14:15
when I was middle school, she moved us to a
14:17
suburb and I guess I always knew something was really
14:19
off, but when we moved to the suburb, I had
14:21
a neighbor across the street whose family was like, Oh
14:23
no, you need to kind of stay at our
14:25
house. Oh, really? Yeah. They told, they
14:28
sort of like took you in. Yes. And
14:30
then what were they seeing? Just the shit that's
14:32
going on. A lot of yelling
14:34
and screaming. A lot of you,
14:36
your mom. Yeah. A lot of, um,
14:39
hardcore criticism of, of me, of,
14:41
I didn't really, the way
14:44
she worked now that now that I'm an adult
14:46
and I've read a lot of books and I've
14:48
been in a lot of therapy, I really think
14:50
she had a borderline personality disorder called narcissism as
14:52
a disorder. That's what I
14:54
believe. Again, she's not been diagnosed. So
14:56
I can't say that's factual. But
14:59
my experience of her based on what I've read
15:01
is pretty much that. So
15:04
if I, if you
15:06
told me, if I said, Hey, the inside
15:08
of your mug is green and she didn't
15:10
think that was true, I would be punished
15:12
for that. Just me going, but
15:14
hold on that's green. So why am I
15:17
in trouble? She was very, um, she
15:19
made me take like 21 vitamins every day.
15:21
I had to drink niacin when I was
15:23
a kid. She was very controlling of my
15:25
bowel movements. Like she would monitor my bowel
15:27
movements and watch me to make
15:30
sure I had them like, like not
15:32
normal stuff. Yeah, that's not normal. Not
15:34
normal. She was naked a lot. Like
15:36
all the time, she was always clean.
15:38
A lot. Then you said like,
15:40
oh, like she
15:43
vacuumed naked. She was naked. Yeah,
15:45
she was always naked. She was a model actually, by
15:47
the way, she ended up being the highest paid model
15:49
Atlanta for like nine years. She was a runaway model
15:51
in Italy. She was like, yeah, my mom. I don't
15:53
look like my mom. I look like my dad. She's
15:56
like five, eight blonde green eyes, shares
15:58
body, not my. Naughty Share a
16:01
C would just roll around. They get
16:03
it on a you're always yeah would
16:05
just be when you had company as
16:07
well. Received an Mc. enough to keep
16:09
it together. Remember. I grew up and gags the.
16:11
There's no no way no joy on
16:13
over there off of. Let us
16:16
know kids I know for a
16:18
higher power point as noses in
16:20
my community. So yeah was. Not.
16:22
Super awesome! It was really lonely
16:25
and other stuff with this lady
16:27
who is always naked and so
16:29
I'm obsessive about what I was
16:31
doing. Well as you know, Eating.
16:34
She was also kind of macrobiotic so I
16:36
could only eat what she told. Me
16:38
as is projecting all that model
16:40
and security mental illness bullshit on
16:42
the you with the bowel movements
16:44
in what's gone in and out
16:46
of the body and isn't same.
16:48
May and you're being regulated like
16:50
that. She's watching us sheath a
16:52
yes, he I'll share. Misallocate. Out too
16:54
graphic that she would like that newspaper on the
16:57
floor and go do it. Without.
16:59
A toilet money you me
17:01
that last as humiliate me
17:03
to not just monitoring it
17:06
is bad man. Israel had and
17:08
then that my dad who is just of
17:10
friggin also. Signaled the floor. Really? Bad
17:15
now he was. If I wasn't we did it
17:18
as less girl he had take a dune buggy
17:20
up the side of a mountain unleaded elders rattlesnakes
17:22
in the would eat en. Route from that
17:24
was that's interesting to hear you say. that's
17:26
where I felt safe. You talk about rattlesnakes?
17:29
yeah, buggies and ladies in an hour? Yeah,
17:31
like this is where I'm at all day.
17:33
I'll listen. We had to build a chimney on
17:35
this large having to read it right? so we
17:38
had one. Fireplace only is in
17:40
the living room said he'd the bedrooms
17:42
my dad was building this like would
17:44
burn burning furnace that he actually.did through
17:46
the house. Though. He had to
17:48
build the chimney says one mountain in
17:50
our home town called Blackjack Mountains and
17:53
like a mountain is covered in rattlesnakes
17:55
sell. Me: And my dad
17:57
and his roommate. Studies. and
18:01
put a trailer on the Jeep and my
18:04
dad would turn a rock over and Doug would shoot
18:06
the rattlesnake that was under the rock and then they'd
18:08
hand the rock to me to put in the trailer.
18:10
Fuck that!
18:13
Fuck that chimney right now! Then
18:16
you pick the rattlesnake up and throw it. I'll
18:18
shiver on that. Fuck that! That's
18:20
all for one rock! That's one rock!
18:23
Yeah, you got a lot more rocks.
18:25
There's only like four weekends in a row.
18:28
All the rocks build this damn chimney. One
18:32
summer I had to dig a ditch because the
18:35
basement was flooding and I had to dig a
18:37
ditch that was the length of the house and
18:39
the width of the house. How old are you doing
18:41
this shit? 12,
18:44
13, oh younger. 10, 11. He bought it
18:46
in 1980. You're taking a trench around the house?
18:49
Yeah, that's what we did. Bunch of
18:51
beer, a little bit, something on the radio. Dig,
18:54
dig, dig. Cut wood all year and I was
18:56
so happy to be there. I would have done
18:58
anything not to be at my mom's house. And
19:01
you're only getting the weekends and then
19:03
the summer. And the summer, yeah. But
19:05
Monday to Friday is mom. Yeah. Naked
19:08
mom who is just torturing you. Yeah,
19:10
it was pretty rough. Man. So
19:12
when I'm middle school we moved the family across
19:14
the street. They were moving and
19:17
the dad called me in and
19:19
he was like, hey, I actually can't leave you
19:21
here. I'm building a house. I'd like to build
19:23
a room for you. I'd like to legally adopt
19:25
you if that's okay with you. And
19:28
I was so embarrassed because I thought, oh
19:30
my God, they found out. They
19:33
know that my mom is not
19:35
right. It was really embarrassing. So
19:38
I was in eighth grade. And actually
19:41
when my mom got custody of me, the
19:43
judge was like at 13, she can choose
19:46
wherever she wants to live. So
19:48
I knew I was going to move with my dad after
19:50
eighth grade. So I said, thank you, you know, but I'm
19:52
going to live with my dad. But
19:54
that was probably one of the right 13. 13.
19:57
So you decide on your own. Okay. Sorry. I interrupted. That
20:00
was probably, that was one of what? That
20:02
was what, that was when probably one of the
20:04
hardest moments is that I, someone
20:06
saw me and saw,
20:09
um, that it was
20:11
rough. You know, you can kind
20:13
of pretend like everything's okay. I
20:16
don't have any siblings. It was just me and her and
20:18
a cat. So you could just
20:20
kind of act like nothing's
20:22
I'm good. I just got to wait 12
20:25
days to get two days of normalcy with
20:27
my dad. Then I'll wait 12 more
20:29
days to get two days of normalcy and that's gotta
20:31
make it to Memorial day. And then I got three
20:33
months in the morning. Scaring Judy Garland for
20:35
fucking 12. Here
20:37
goes that. Here goes daddy. So I got a question
20:39
that just popped in my head. I want to ask
20:41
him. I want to get back to you, but, um,
20:45
raising your girls, even though
20:47
we're out here and your life is so different,
20:49
have you seen the little Leanne in their school?
20:52
Have you seen that girl? You know, have you
20:54
been able to identify one where you're like, I'd
20:56
like to, or have you helped anybody like that?
20:59
My house. Yeah. I have a Girl Scout troop, you know,
21:01
I've had for 13 years and we had
21:03
a girl in that troop that all,
21:06
I have two other leaders, all three of us were
21:08
like, this girl needs all
21:10
of us needs everyone here and needs
21:13
the three of us adults in particular,
21:15
and at some point, um, She,
21:19
she stopped coming and we tried everything
21:21
we could get her to keep coming.
21:24
And I mean, pick her up to drop
21:26
her off, just whatever we could. And, um,
21:29
Couldn't make it work. Here's the thing. I was the
21:31
kid. Like I felt like, uh, so after my dad
21:34
died, we were 16, like everyone,
21:36
it was right at Thanksgiving. So
21:38
all of a sudden is this. Bunch
21:41
of donations, anonymous donations, Christmas presents,
21:43
clothes from all the wonderful people
21:46
who meant well. And
21:49
all I could feel like was a fucking
21:51
charity. And I was embarrassed.
21:53
I was humiliated. I was angry. Like fuck
21:55
these sweatshirts or fuck these people in there.
21:57
You know what I mean? Like I didn't
21:59
mean. that but I was just like this
22:02
I don't want
22:04
or need and I've been able to do
22:06
that too and a few times in life
22:09
where I'm like oh and it's all so
22:11
scary I remember being a kid like why
22:14
should I trust this one this one fucking is
22:16
trash oh you know and then for you to
22:18
have these three ladies that wanted to look out
22:20
for you it's also a little bit nerve-wracking
22:24
to be like do I give my
22:26
trust in these people absolutely you know
22:28
it's hard to believe someone can love you
22:31
and the one person that's supposed to it
22:33
doesn't know how amen she just doesn't know
22:35
how I mean what what causes narcissism
22:39
as a disorder is serious childhood
22:41
trauma which I believe she had
22:43
I mean her dad was a
22:45
disaster he was an absolute meanest
22:48
nastiest man I've ever seen until
22:51
he got diagnosed with PTSD and
22:53
got medicated and then he was
22:55
actually really great you really saw
22:58
difference are you kidding wow he
23:00
would oh my god I would hear him hit
23:03
the front porch screaming
23:05
and cursing at my grandmother where's
23:07
my goddamn lunch may I mean from
23:09
the minute he walked on the porch
23:12
and when he got medicated he just started
23:14
crying he cried and cried
23:16
and cried and cried but he was
23:18
you know he was
23:20
on Hiroshima 30 minutes
23:24
after they dropped the bomb and
23:26
his job was to find survivors and take him to medics
23:29
oh my god yeah
23:32
I mean come on yeah that's
23:34
insane yeah how do you come back
23:36
from that how do you how do you raise
23:39
three children and be kind and
23:41
soft you can't do that he was
23:43
just trying to not see Japanese bodies
23:45
all the time and didn't tell anybody
23:48
until I was in
23:50
probably probably
23:53
tells eight or nine years old when he finally
23:55
got diagnosed and then started getting treatment
23:58
that's a razor There you
24:00
know why. Understand why she's broken and
24:02
I? I have no hard feelings with
24:05
her as I had all that when
24:07
I was younger. I really forgave her
24:09
for a lot of stuff. By when
24:11
you decide to choose your dad to
24:13
signal even worse with her or is
24:16
it just cut off cold like how
24:18
does that go now Well this this
24:20
sars them. Make the choice yes I
24:22
do. Ah, This
24:25
starts phase two of. My
24:27
and her relationship really say to his
24:30
you're dead to me. And
24:32
I'll see or talk to or for like
24:34
a year and a half or so. And
24:37
then she savage cheerleader and high school. She
24:39
just showed up at a ball game like
24:41
nothing happened and then I'm a teenager yelling,
24:43
well guess okay. So. I guess we're
24:45
making up now, you know, That's just how
24:47
was this poop Out of nowhere I'm at
24:49
this game. yeah not I'm com his elbow
24:52
heads of nest. The. As
24:54
north the do for new city death
24:56
this to sell out is so applied
24:58
as facilities he made. Mans
25:02
a time soon as you fancy model
25:05
come back to her small home town.
25:07
on this is like it was average
25:09
Sir James right to my ball game.
25:12
I'm so yeah. Then I just started
25:14
under a relationship with her again because
25:16
she's my mother and it went on
25:18
until twenty three and. Then I assume
25:21
other questions this whole time the you
25:23
choose to live with your dad, how
25:25
far in proximity his mom would couple
25:27
miles like at Lan how far the
25:29
land of from that. About. Fifty miles.
25:32
So. Far as I'm an hour yeah
25:34
and not three states over meant
25:36
like with wanted to could absolutely
25:38
have had a relationship with her
25:40
daughter. Had. To drive through my dad some
25:42
down to get her parents' house. And.
25:44
Did do that? Oh, I'm sure she
25:46
did. So she bows to Chicago and
25:49
now she's staying in Atlanta and both
25:51
you now. The Bass? Yeah,
25:53
Yes. So. Dimension.
25:56
Season or six times when. You
25:59
forgot the. Six marriages. She
26:01
was working on number seven, but I think he might
26:04
have got wise. Then got out
26:06
early before he got trapped. She's
26:09
six divorces. She ain't healthy, y'all. She
26:11
just ain't healthy. Bless her heart. You
26:16
know, I don't want anybody, I genuinely
26:18
would hate to be
26:22
as angry as she is and
26:24
live her life every day that angry. That's
26:26
just not any way to live. You know, that's really
26:28
sad. It breaks my heart for her. But
26:31
yeah, she, uh, I was
26:33
dead to her for a while and then she came
26:35
back and then we, you know, we're sort of okay
26:37
for a little bit. And then I was bopping around
26:40
in college. I was miserable in college. We even talked
26:42
about the redneck stuff I grew up with. I'm sure
26:44
Burt's talked to you about. That's the stuff I want to
26:46
talk to. Kirsten's told me some things too. So should I stop talking
26:48
about this because that's way more fun? No,
26:50
no, we could talk about, we'll get to all
26:52
of them. We're not in a hurry. Did Burt
26:54
tell you that when my dad first met Burt, he
26:56
was living in a convenience store? Yeah, that's what he
26:59
told us. He went from a log, Gavin. I
27:01
could live here. I could live here. Oh, he
27:03
got a log. Okay. First of
27:05
all, okay. When
27:07
I first started dating Burt, I said
27:09
to him, I'm a little concerned about
27:11
you meeting my family because I don't,
27:13
he's from pretty white collar, you know?
27:17
He's from Florida, which gives a different element.
27:19
But I mean, dad's a lawyer. Mom's
27:21
very educated, um, wasn't
27:24
educator. Her parents were like, they're
27:27
just white collar people. I am
27:29
not from that big time. And
27:32
I was like, oh, my dad's
27:34
actually currently living in a convenience store.
27:38
But from up from the cabin? Yes,
27:40
from the cabin. My dad's currently living in
27:42
a convenience store and my
27:45
grandfather wears overalls every
27:47
day of the week. I mean, he has a
27:49
Sunday pair for church and then the regular pair
27:51
for, I mean, like, and definitely
27:54
is an old school Southerner. If you know
27:56
what I mean. Really nice
27:58
man, but very old. old school southerner
28:00
and I was like, how in the world am I
28:02
going to make this
28:05
happen? So I kind of prepped Bert on
28:07
the way to Bowden explaining
28:09
to my family, a couple of people
28:11
might cook meth, just saying one
28:13
or two has a missing teeth and
28:15
that's why. So just buckle
28:17
up and
28:21
just hope for the best. And we went in that
28:23
convenience store and in the middle of the convenience store
28:25
is a pizza oven. And Bert was like, there's a
28:27
pizza oven in here? Wait a minute. You
28:30
mean you go through the beer cooler and on the
28:32
other side of the beer cooler is my dad's apartment,
28:34
which has no windows. So it's pitch black. But
28:36
he had a great couch. He had a great
28:38
couch. The couch reclined and he also had a
28:40
recliner. And Bert was like, hold on. You
28:46
mean you can get up any time of the night
28:48
and go in the other room and get snacks? And
28:50
then my aunt also worked there who makes the best
28:52
biscuits ever. And so as soon as you wake up
28:54
in the morning, you can have like biscuits and gravy
28:56
and whatever you want.
28:58
It was a dream. Met my
29:00
grandfather, Haskell, who was the
29:03
best storyteller I've ever been around. And as
29:05
you know, Bert is one
29:07
of the best storytellers and my pop
29:10
just told him stories all day. The
29:12
first day they were inseparable and I
29:14
was like, okay, well that's working. My
29:17
dad's working. Just avoid the two toothless cousins in
29:19
the corner and we can get out of here
29:21
unscathed. But yeah, when my dad
29:23
first met Bert, he was like, I want to tell you
29:25
something, boy. That's the
29:27
best frog gigger in the county
29:30
is Leanne. And Bert
29:32
was like, what does that even mean? What
29:35
does that mean? And well, we used to have them when I was
29:37
a kid, we didn't have any
29:39
money so we would camp a lot. And
29:41
my grandparents had this farm that had a river on it. So
29:44
you get in a John boat, a flat bottom boat
29:46
with spotlight and you just frog gig all night long.
29:49
You just reach in the bank and grab frogs. Some people do
29:52
it with like a pole, a forked pole, but we didn't do
29:54
that. We'd just grab it with our hands. You
29:56
just trolling along into snag and grab it with your
29:58
hands. And then what do you do with it? You
30:00
put it in the well of the boat and
30:02
then you eat them. Oh, you do go home
30:04
and eat them. Yeah, we eat frog legs Yeah, fry
30:07
them up. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Yes. I've had frog
30:09
legs. They're not bad. They're not bad. They're
30:11
not bad They're fine. It was fun. I
30:13
mean as bizarre as that may sound that was
30:15
so was by the way shooting rattlesnakes out from
30:18
under rocks Yeah, that to build a chimney
30:21
Not just for fun to build a chimney. It
30:23
was a perfect It
30:25
worked and then we finally had heat. It
30:27
was freezing in that house Oh,
30:32
we did have a snake that lived in
30:34
our log cabin So we had a rat
30:37
snake that lived in my dad's bathroom because
30:39
what's better to take care rats Than
30:42
a snake and most people
30:44
don't really understand that perspective But my
30:46
family always had snakes because they
30:48
take care of rats and we have farm. Yeah,
30:51
you have a farm You can't need that So
30:53
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get back to the dews. What else did you use to
34:31
drag race for money in high school? Where?
34:33
Hog liver road. Like just on the street? Yeah?
34:36
Yes. There wasn't a track? There wasn't
34:38
a quarter mile track? No, no, no, no. Did
34:40
you just say hog liver road? I did. Our
34:43
intersection. Is that the straightest spot to do it? It's kind of
34:45
in a holla, so you know. It's very safe. Hog liver road.
34:47
I'll tell you what right now, mother fucker. I'll see all that hog liver
34:49
road. I'll tell you what. I'll tell you what.
34:51
I'll tell you what. I'll tell you what. I'll
34:53
tell you what. I'll tell you what. I'll tell
34:55
you what. I would never
34:58
do that. There's no way to say that.
35:01
It's real though. It's real. People don't believe
35:03
it's real. It's real. My
35:05
intersection in my street where my dad's
35:07
farm, my grandparents' farm was called Bug
35:10
Scuffle. So you'd go to Bug
35:12
Scuffle and take a right. On the
35:14
Hog Liver? Off of Bug Scuffle. On
35:17
Dot Road? Is that right?
35:19
It's Dot Road. I love this.
35:21
Anyway. So, all right, how
35:23
much are you winning? You just going like 50
35:25
a pop or what? Are you just drag racing
35:27
against all dudes too? It was all dudes. Are
35:29
you the only girl in the group of every
35:31
guy? The only girl, yeah. I
35:34
was the only girl all the time. I went everywhere with my
35:36
dad. And he did dad stuff. He
35:38
went to the tractor pull. We went to Demolition Derby.
35:42
I want to go. I can't find one.
35:44
Demolition Derby? Irwindale Speedway? Every
35:47
other month. Out here? It
35:49
is awesome. Yes. In
35:51
Irwindale. I go. I take Isla all the
35:53
time. I love my daughter so bad to
35:55
that. It's called the Night of
35:57
Destruction. It's a different kind of redneck. It's freaking
35:59
awesome. go to these tracks, it was a place called 75 and
36:02
80 because it was at the intersection of 75 and 80. And
36:06
the rednecks, all the fat guys would take their
36:08
shirts off and then it was locals that would
36:10
bring their Nova in or their souped up, you
36:12
know, or whatever. And they would warm their tires
36:15
up and light them up here. And these guys
36:17
would be like, whoa, and stand there and let
36:19
those little pieces of gravel and rubber just all
36:21
over them. And they would stand there like that.
36:23
I'm like, what the fuck are you all doing?
36:26
It's a different kind of mentality, redneck, right? I
36:28
remember in high school, the boys used to stir
36:31
up an ant bed and stick their
36:33
hand in it for money. Whoever could leave their hand
36:35
in it at long, you got the money. And you're
36:37
like, what? I
36:40
mean, could you imagine some L.A. kids doing it? Fuck
36:43
no. No way. No
36:45
way. Yeah, that was often
36:47
done. So that's so dad moves.
36:50
What age are you living in the convenience store?
36:52
Or you never? I never did. So you grew
36:54
up in that cabin? I did. My
36:56
dad and I did build a house from the ground up when I
36:59
was about 14. So we moved out
37:01
of that house into the house that he and I built. You've
37:03
literally built a house. I did. I didn't
37:05
put the roof trusses on and
37:08
I didn't do the electrical
37:10
wiring. But you
37:12
built your shelter. My dad and
37:14
I did. Yeah. My dad and I taught me that
37:16
my daddy was the real deal.
37:19
It still is very handy. Yeah.
37:22
And he's an understatement. He's like, bet
37:24
your mom's looks are long gone. Dad's
37:26
skills still around. He's
37:31
the best. He's the sweetest and the best.
37:33
I would not be this person without my
37:35
daddy. That's great to hear. Would not be this
37:37
great. Great to hear. No way. So
37:40
yeah. Um, yeah. He and I built that
37:42
house. We lived there for a little bit and then we moved
37:44
back into the log cabin because we didn't like it. We liked
37:46
the cabin better. So we moved back.
37:48
And did you have your own room? You did.
37:50
It was a big cabin. It actually was like
37:52
a four bedroom log cabin. Um,
37:55
and he had, like I said, he had the roommates.
37:58
So I had where those were good. dudes
38:00
by the way dudes don't have any
38:02
but all of them I could be I'm
38:04
not but I mean when I got married to
38:06
Bert I am huh as
38:08
I don't have my mom I drove myself to
38:11
my wedding in a pickup truck no I
38:13
did did you really you drove
38:15
yourself I did I didn't think
38:17
about it you know I think the thing is when you
38:19
grow up by yourself the way I grew up you just
38:21
don't think about it you just do because you
38:23
need to do and if you don't they
38:26
know nobody's gonna drive right nobody coming to
38:28
drive that motherfucking truck that's true you
38:30
know and all this crap
38:32
with my mom my dad is such a sweet
38:35
kind of as much as he was
38:38
a party guy he's really fragile guy
38:40
like emotionally really really fragile kind of
38:42
like Bert really sensitive some
38:44
anxiety issues which you know back in the
38:46
70s you know what that was but
38:50
yeah he remarried when
38:52
I was 19 he'd been with her
38:55
since I was about eight and she
38:58
left him and when she left him he had a
39:00
he had a legit nervous
39:02
breakdown it moved into the dorm with
39:04
me in my college no roommate
39:10
moved out
39:13
like it's
39:17
only if your dad second divorce he
39:19
moved into your college door but what
39:23
though he would he would just be like
39:25
Georgia move
39:30
over there's no way he could make
39:32
it I the same person no way
39:34
no not a mystery I married this
39:36
guy who's the most fragile
39:38
frat boy on the planet that was my dad I mean my
39:40
dad was a friend that moved into your
39:43
dorm it was
39:47
it
39:50
was rough he's not moving
39:52
in for party time no he's
39:54
not he was moving in and how'd you
39:56
get away with it he was crying a lot
40:00
I would sit on the couch
40:02
in the dorm lobby and just wait for me. I
40:06
can't imagine seeing this poor man just
40:08
sobbing. If you're trying to
40:10
live your life and be in
40:12
college, you're finally out of the house. Yeah,
40:15
it was pretty bad. It was pretty bad. It
40:17
was pretty bad. It was pretty bad.
40:19
Um, I got away with it because, um,
40:21
I was in a school. Wait,
40:24
what school did your guys go to? It
40:27
was West Georgia College. It's now
40:29
a University of West Georgia or West Georgia University, something
40:31
like that. But yeah, so in
40:33
my home, it was pretty close to
40:35
my hometown. I was in
40:37
a sorority and you couldn't live in a sorority
40:39
house because it was considered a brothel. Certain
40:43
number of women live in a house together. It was
40:45
a brothel. So we had a dorm floor.
40:48
So my, my sorority dorm floor was all
40:50
of my sorority sisters. And I just explained
40:52
it. I was like, listen, I don't know
40:54
what to do. My dad's in pieces. So
40:58
my roommate kind of
41:00
moved out and moved in with her boyfriend and my
41:02
dad moved in her bed. I don't remember
41:04
how long he was there. Like maybe a month. You have like
41:06
bunk beds with your dad or like the two
41:08
twin beds. My
41:12
God. It's
41:15
gotta be the saddest thing. The
41:18
thing on the wall. See
41:21
your look on your face and he's over there. It's
41:23
sobbing. It was awful. You
41:28
know, I get out of school and he'd
41:30
be waiting for me on the couch and
41:32
then he wants to go like drive the
41:35
streets of the city, drinking Bow Eyes or
41:37
looking for his wife. And it was like,
41:39
Oh my God, it was bad. Bless
41:41
his heart. You
41:44
know, now I
41:46
would, I would never do that to my kids, but
41:48
I guarantee you if I did that to Burt, Burt
41:50
would definitely be moving in with Georgia. So
41:54
sorry, Georgia. You didn't hear your dad. So
41:57
funny. For a month. That's a
41:59
long time. It was a long time as
42:01
a sophomore what made him finally say all
42:04
right. I'm fucking out of here You meet somebody ended
42:06
no Not
42:12
that deep but It
42:14
was over Someone
42:17
no no no no no no
42:19
no no you didn't mean anybody knew for a long time
42:22
But you know time he was all wounds.
42:25
I guess he just kind of got over it and I
42:27
moved to Atlanta I was like I gotta get out. I
42:29
gotta get out Crazy
42:32
crazy crazy so now you're in Atlanta, but isn't
42:34
that where mom is I was living with my
42:36
mom again cuz remember at 13 We
42:38
reestablished our relationship. I
42:40
moved in with her at that point. God. There's a
42:42
lot about my life I guess I started drinking when
42:45
I was 13 and by
42:47
the time I was 20 Me
42:53
too I'm sure they don't drink anymore I mean
42:55
I do drink some but yeah by the
42:57
time I was 20 I'd
42:59
had a DUI I'd gotten arrested
43:01
for vandalizing people's homes. What were you
43:03
doing? I was throwing rocks and windows just
43:06
for fun. I can do it.
43:08
I was angry and
43:10
I do I and then
43:13
Still drinking my 21st birthday. I drank
43:16
like a Fifth of vodka
43:18
by myself. I was drinking that much and
43:20
then like a regular thing Uh-huh. That's pretty
43:23
regular and then I started losing my hair
43:25
and From
43:27
the drink and I started bloating
43:29
really badly and then moved to my
43:31
mom's because
43:34
I was in bad shape and I was getting away
43:36
from the situation with my dad and my sorority had
43:38
actually Done an intervention on me and told
43:40
me I needed to go to rehab Kicked
43:43
and stripped me of all my offices in the sorority and
43:45
I was like fuck all you people I'm moving and
43:48
moved to Atlanta to get away Out
43:53
of it So
43:56
then my mom sent me the doctor the doctor's like this
43:59
is from alcohol her And I was like, I don't drink.
44:01
I don't know what you're talking about. Totally lying. Kept
44:03
drinking, kept driving drunk massively. And
44:06
then I woke up one day, I was just driving and
44:08
I was like, this is, I'm not happy. I'm
44:12
massively unhappy. And I
44:14
don't think it has to do with alcohol. I think
44:16
there's something else wrong. Like I'm really
44:18
unhappy. So I
44:20
dropped out of college. My mom's fourth
44:23
husband at the time was very wealthy and said,
44:25
what do you want to do? I'll help you.
44:28
I'll help you any way you want to help. I want help. He's
44:31
the nicest guy ever. And I said, I think I just want
44:33
to move to New York City and just take like a year off college and
44:35
just figure my shit out. I need
44:37
to get out of Atlanta. I didn't make any friends in Atlanta. That
44:40
was like a boy in a girl's body. And
44:42
then south, like you have to be sort of girly. And
44:46
I just, you know, I was raised by three men really. So
44:49
I just couldn't find my way there. So
44:51
I was like, well, I'd love to go to New
44:53
York. And he said, well, I'll pay your rent for six months.
44:57
Just your rent and you take care of everything else.
44:59
And then, uh, you know, I'll find the lease over to
45:01
you or you move or whatever. And I
45:03
was like, that's amazing. Thanks. Did
45:07
that then and stopped drinking
45:09
entirely. I was just like, I'm just going
45:11
to stop cold turkey and figure out why I'm so unhappy.
45:14
So I moved to New York and shortly after that and
45:16
got into therapy. Shortly
45:18
after that, my mom decided to reinvigorate
45:21
her modeling career and move into my apartment with me. Come
45:23
on. Wait, first of all, I'm not
45:25
going to do that. Wait, first of all, two questions.
45:27
How old is she at this point when she's reinvigorating
45:29
the career? I'm 23. So she'd be
45:31
43. Okay.
45:34
So it's not the end of the career,
45:36
but it's going to be a different career.
45:38
It's not the runway, uh, young fashion model
45:40
anymore. Nope. But she got
45:43
JCPenney and Sears. Yeah, that's right.
45:46
Totally. But you know,
45:48
she's beautiful. Right. She's blonde.
45:51
She's tall. She's beautiful. Okay.
45:54
But now she's coming to your place. I have
45:56
a studio apartment. And is that leverage because husband. Number
46:00
four is paying for it. So she's like, fuck
46:02
you. I'm coming and staying to your shit. Correct.
46:04
Man, you can't get a goddamn minute to yourself.
46:06
You ready? It's still better. She
46:08
starts fucking the neighbor across the street and
46:12
says to me, you got to lie. To
46:15
my husband about this. And I said, I'm
46:17
not doing that. I don't lie for myself.
46:19
I'm not lying for anybody. No. So
46:22
we get an a fist fight in my
46:24
own apartment and she kicks me out of my own apartment. No,
46:26
you got a fist fight with your mom. I
46:29
did. I hit her actually. I
46:32
had just had so much. I
46:34
hit her first in the middle of the chest with
46:36
my fist. You punched like that. I just punched
46:38
her and I wanted to knock her down. That's what
46:40
I was trying to do. Just knock her down and she
46:43
didn't get knocked down. So I just kept shoving her
46:45
and shoving her and shoving her until I got, I
46:48
just had to, I just went, hold
46:50
on. I am out of control now and I need
46:52
to leave. So I left and she
46:55
let me be gone. So she set a
46:57
bag out and I was out of my
46:59
own apartment. I was about 10 days. I
47:01
had nowhere to live. So I just
47:03
went from like lobby to lobby to lobby and apartment buildings
47:05
and just kind of went there. I got a friend that
47:07
lives here. I'm just going to hang on the couch till
47:09
he gets home or whatever and would not
47:11
often sleep a little bit. And then, uh,
47:15
I was trying to be an actor because I was trying
47:17
to figure out what I wanted to do. So I was
47:19
in acting class coincidentally with miss Georgia
47:21
and my teacher was like, something's going on
47:23
with you and I don't know what it is. But
47:26
what's happening? And I told him everything
47:28
that was going on coincidentally.
47:30
My mother had also joined my acting
47:32
class. Get the fuck out.
47:35
Is it really coincidentally? No, it's
47:37
not coincidentally. Right. No, she joined my acting class, which
47:39
I went to my teacher and went, please no. So
47:41
he put her in a different one. So
47:43
they were, we're an excellent class together. So he
47:45
knew who I was talking about
47:48
because he taught her also and, um,
47:51
went to miss Georgia and said, can you let her sleep
47:53
on your couch until, and help her find a place to
47:56
live. And she did Stephanie Michelle's I'll
47:58
be very grateful for her. But
48:00
I also like you were talking about being
48:02
embarrassed once I finally got up
48:04
on my feet I was so embarrassed that
48:06
she'd helped me that I Like
48:09
was an asshole to her and
48:12
years later found her and apologized to her wrote her
48:14
a letter I was like, I just I
48:16
just don't I didn't know how to accept help
48:19
and I was so embarrassed But
48:22
yeah, and she and I are fine now
48:24
we're you know, not friends but fine I
48:28
Be I lived in Spanish
48:31
Harlem for three months scared out
48:33
of my mind. This is in 93. So
48:35
it's a little different than Alabama,
48:38
yes Spanish, Harlem. Yes. I
48:40
remember getting off at the Port Authority. I'd
48:42
never been to New York I just moved
48:44
there. I just thought it's not working here.
48:47
Let's just go there and The
48:50
port, you know 42nd Street was like peep show peep
48:52
show peep show Triple X movie nudie
48:54
nudie prostitutes everywhere in 42nd Street when I
48:56
first moved there dead bodies in alphabet City
48:58
everywhere It was like it was before they
49:00
cleaned it up. So it's really pretty rough
49:04
But I ended up living there for like four
49:06
years. But yeah, my mom when she kicked me out
49:08
I was dead to her then too so
49:11
it happened at 13 and at 23 and then
49:15
I got subpoenaed to court
49:17
to testify on my stepfather's behalf
49:19
because she claimed all these things
49:21
that were not true and Other
49:25
things happen. I don't feel comfortable saying here. I'll tell you
49:27
later if you want to know But wait you
49:30
you had to go to court against your
49:32
mom Yes But she settled
49:34
the night before I had to testify so nice
49:36
way to go But there's nothing worse than walking
49:38
through an airport and someone saying are you my
49:40
name's my first name's Kelly Are
49:42
you Kelly Kemp? Yep, you've been served and open it
49:44
up and find out you have to testify against your
49:47
own mother You're in the airport where they got you
49:55
This is 93 or 94 yeah,
49:57
so that happened and so we
50:00
Split up for a while and then I went on with
50:02
my life. I moved to LA and met Bert, fell in
50:04
love with Bert and
50:07
uh, uh, Bert and I got
50:09
pregnant on the pill. Um, swear I
50:11
was on the pill, got pregnant. We'd, we'd been
50:13
dating for like over a year. He already bought
50:15
me a ring. I didn't even know it, but
50:17
we got pregnant on the pill. So
50:20
my mom wasn't talking to me then either.
50:23
Uh, we had gotten back into talking in
50:25
my twenties, but she was mad at me
50:27
because I wouldn't do something she wanted me
50:29
to do. So she wasn't, um, responding.
50:31
I kept calling her and going, you
50:33
need to call me. I need to tell you something
50:35
like really important. Never call
50:37
me back emailed or you need to call me. I need
50:40
to tell you something. Cause I was going to get married.
50:42
We like had shotgun marriage. We got
50:44
married in like two months. She never
50:46
called me. So finally I sent her an email and said, listen,
50:48
you're not calling me back. So I need to tell you I'm
50:50
pregnant and I'm getting married and I want you to know, and
50:52
I want you to come to the wedding and the email I
50:55
got back from her. Email. First of
50:57
all, an email. Was
50:59
so bad that I printed it out and
51:01
gave it to Bert sister and she cried.
51:04
And I went, I am
51:06
keeping this email forever because
51:08
I will never, ever forget
51:10
how sick she is. So
51:13
in the email again, she said, you're dead to me. I don't
51:15
want to know you don't want to know your husband. I don't
51:17
want to know your kids. You're so
51:20
disrespectful for telling me in this
51:22
manner and whatever her crap was.
51:25
And that's the last time I really had contact with
51:27
her. I saw her at her dad's funeral and,
51:30
uh, how long had it been? Oh,
51:32
long time. And she did bust in on,
51:34
I always brought the girls to see her
51:36
parents because I wanted them to know their
51:38
great grandparents and I had a
51:40
good relationship with them. I mean, shit, who has
51:42
great grandparents anymore? Right? Yeah. I mean,
51:44
they just lost my mom's mom like a
51:47
year ago. Wow. So yeah, I
51:50
mean, everybody has babies young in the South
51:52
y'all. So, you know, but
51:55
yeah, she busted in on one visit with them.
51:57
Literally walked in the door just like my cheerleader.
52:00
Hey y'all, I'm your nanny. And my
52:02
kids were like, Georgia was
52:04
like eight. She'd never seen
52:06
her before ever. And then I
52:08
saw her again at her dad's funeral and that's it. I
52:10
don't know. What was that like? It was, you
52:13
know, we were- You talk at all? We were
52:15
cordial to each other. She introduced me to
52:17
her sixth husband there.
52:21
And then coincidentally,
52:23
my dad's mom had passed away within
52:25
a couple days. So her funeral was
52:27
the following day. And she showed up
52:29
at my grandmother's funeral who I was
52:31
very close to and did
52:33
one of these, pulled me outside and
52:37
with my kids, gave my
52:39
kids each a gift and then proceeded
52:41
to lecture me about respect in
52:44
front of my children and how I have no respect. I've
52:46
never had any respect. I don't know how
52:48
to respect and how disrespectful
52:50
it was for me to come to her
52:53
dad's funeral. And my kids
52:55
were like, what? And I actually talked to my kids about
52:57
this not long ago. I was like, do you remember that?
53:00
And Georgia said, yeah, I just
53:02
thought she's crazy. And I
53:04
went, might not be- And you held it
53:06
together? You don't believe, fuck you lady. No, I
53:08
just go, okay. After all these years, you're just at
53:10
that point like, all right. It's not even worth
53:12
it anymore for you. Yeah. It's
53:15
like almost this is gonna, if she ever hears this, she'll be really
53:17
mad. It's almost like when a homeless person
53:19
is talking nonsense to you and you have
53:21
sympathy and you go, oh yeah, totally. I
53:24
completely, yeah. There are definitely aliens in your
53:26
tent, 100%. I
53:28
agree. Yep. You probably should
53:30
look into that. Yep. That's kind
53:32
of how it is. Because she's just so not
53:35
on this planet. But how's dad? Like how's your
53:37
relationship with your dad? It was amazing. My
53:39
dad comes out here every three or four months. He's
53:42
taught my kids how to build stuff, how
53:44
to fix their car, how to, he
53:46
built all the mic stands out of
53:48
wood in our whole studio. He
53:50
and I build furniture together all the time. We have
53:52
a great relationship and I'd take my kids back. He
53:54
has a house on the lake in Alabama. We go
53:56
there every summer. They birded
53:59
doors. He adores my dad. He's
54:01
just the best. He's great.
54:04
He's been with his he's not married But he's
54:06
been with his girlfriend for 23 years
54:08
now. They're happy. He's got three sort of
54:10
step kids with her So he's
54:12
good. He's all good so
54:15
do you like Look,
54:17
there's no way you can tell your kids
54:19
like you don't even know you know what
54:21
I mean like cuz they they'll never get
54:24
That never I mean even no offense kids
54:26
who aren't in the situation your kids are
54:28
in there's There's no lower
54:31
middle class kids out there building their
54:33
own motherfucking chimneys. No, it's fine. I
54:35
know what I mean Like that's
54:38
that's way different than anything. So how do
54:40
you like? How
54:42
do you balance that with your kids? How do
54:44
you or do you find yourself overdoing it over
54:46
correcting? Like how do you do that as a
54:48
mom? well, I take them home
54:50
every summer and for two weeks since they
54:52
were born and We float
54:55
the river we frog gig We
54:58
build stuff we we sleep on
55:00
the ground Not
55:02
on a cot like I did growing up eyes
55:04
when we went camping. We have a tent What
55:07
do you mean you slept on the ground? We put a clean bag
55:09
on the ground. No, like when we go camping So
55:13
we do that We
55:16
take a dock bath, you know, we're at the
55:18
lake house We soap up on the dock and
55:20
jump in the lake and that's a bath You
55:22
know, so that's what I grew up doing so
55:24
as much as I can you know, my cousins
55:26
are walking around no shirt Pistol on their hip
55:29
there's always snakes in the river when we're in
55:31
the river I mean they've my kids have seen
55:33
my cousins shoot a snake You
55:37
know, so I try to give them that that
55:39
little two-week window of what that
55:42
part of the world is like because what I feel
55:44
like too is we we
55:47
LA is such a bubble It's
55:49
not really it is a
55:52
reality, but it's not the only
55:54
reality and my reality was
55:57
Amazing in so
55:59
many ways that I
56:01
couldn't possibly give them here. So
56:04
like we went to Montana with another
56:06
family that's born and raised in LA
56:08
originally from Boston. So super city people
56:12
went to Montana and there was this
56:15
convenience store that had taxidermy literally on
56:17
all four walls like on top of
56:19
the freezers like everywhere and
56:21
her two kids were so flipped out and my
56:23
kids didn't even really notice it because
56:25
when you go back to my hometown that's the way
56:27
it is there too. And I had to explain to
56:30
her kids, you know, hunting is not
56:32
what you think it is. In my
56:34
community, you actually eat what you hunt.
56:36
I mean, I grew up eating deer
56:38
and we grew everything we
56:40
ate on the farm. We had cows
56:42
and pigs and goats and chickens. Oh,
56:44
you would eat those too? Oh, yeah.
56:46
Okay. You're not just using them for
56:48
dairy and no, we weren't a dairy
56:51
farm. No. Yeah. So they had cattle
56:53
farm at 250 had a cattle, but
56:55
he would always put one cow up
56:57
for our family and he raised pigs
56:59
for the family. He raised chickens and
57:01
goats. If you
57:03
a butcher takes a cow,
57:06
how many like, how many people could
57:08
that one cow feed? I don't know, but
57:10
it filled up a big freezer. My grandmother was
57:12
thought out a long time. Yeah. Steaks and burgers
57:14
and everything else you can get the fuck out of
57:17
that thing. Yeah. And the pigs. And
57:19
my pop had his own smoke house. So he
57:21
smoked everything. There was a dairy farm down the
57:23
road. They would trade with a group,
57:26
hall, big vegetable garden. There's very little,
57:28
they bought very little from the store.
57:30
So I feel like I have, I
57:32
feel like I got the opportunity to
57:34
have the last little window of this
57:36
old world. That's the most fucking LA
57:39
upbringing. These people want, you know what I mean? They
57:41
all want to go. That's right. They all want to
57:43
go farm the table
57:45
and this and that and that. And you're really
57:47
fucking doing that shit back then. You're like, Oh,
57:49
you're going to kill this cow because we're going
57:52
to fucking eat this thing. You know, these chickens,
57:54
these fucking whatever. Yeah. They don't know. That's the
57:56
whole fucking woke bullshit out here. They all want
57:58
to be like that. And I'm not. one of them
58:00
is like that out here. It's so hard. That
58:02
life is so hard. Here's
58:05
what I like about what you're saying, I actually love
58:07
about it because you're saying it's so hard but you
58:09
also said you loved it. No, I did. I loved
58:11
everything. You didn't hate it? You didn't.
58:13
You don't tell your
58:16
kids like fuck seeing that part of the world
58:18
because you don't. Yeah. I really
58:20
like that you embraced it. No.
58:22
They've definitely seen us like
58:24
clean fish, fly fish like right out of
58:26
the lake and I don't think
58:28
a lot of kids get the opportunity to see that either
58:31
here. Yeah, I love the
58:33
way I grew up. I would not trade.
58:35
I actually wouldn't really trade my mom either
58:37
because I learned a lot
58:39
about human behavior from her. Knowing when
58:43
someone lies, I'm pretty good at
58:45
that because you read your
58:47
mom differently than you read other people. When
58:50
you can see those kind of inconsistencies in your mom,
58:52
it makes you feel unsafe. That
58:54
unsafe piece you can spot in
58:57
other people very quickly. That's a
58:59
good tool. I also have no
59:01
ability to filter things
59:03
because she filtered everything. Everything
59:06
was a con. I
59:08
just went, I will not be doing that because
59:10
it's so unsafe because you go, well, are you
59:12
asking me to do this? I
59:14
was just saying this to Bert. I remember when
59:16
in high school, she gave me a really nice
59:18
purse and my instinct was to give it back
59:20
because the purse was too expensive for me. So
59:24
what she would ask me to do because
59:26
she'd given me a gift was too expensive.
59:28
I don't want it. I don't want what
59:30
comes with that gift. Exactly. I know
59:32
that. So then it makes me give
59:34
gifts with absolutely no attachment. I don't
59:36
even care if you like it. Me
59:38
too. Throw it in the garbage. Me too. I don't give
59:40
a fuck. Take it back. Return. I don't give a shit.
59:42
You're not going to hurt my feelings. Doesn't
59:45
work like that for some other people though, you realize.
59:50
I love it. Sorry. It wasn't for Bert.
59:52
Bert gave me, oh my God, the
59:55
worst. He gave me
59:57
a gold velour tracksuit.
1:00:00
What part of me looks
1:00:02
or sounds like I would wear
1:00:04
a gold velour
1:00:06
tracksuit? He is six foot
1:00:08
two with a belly. It looked great on him.
1:00:12
And I opened it and I went, oh
1:00:14
man, I'm never going to wear this. And
1:00:16
he has never forgotten it. So
1:00:18
I was like, this is not, I mean, gold jewelry
1:00:21
is one thing, but an entire velour suit.
1:00:24
What is wrong with you, dude? And
1:00:27
he's like, oh, I can't, just can't
1:00:29
buy gifts for you ever. Listen,
1:00:32
thank you for coming on here and doing
1:00:34
this episode. Before we go, I want
1:00:37
to ask you advice you would give to, because
1:00:39
this is interesting, I'm curious what you're going to
1:00:41
say, advice you would give to 16 year old
1:00:43
Leanne. I
1:00:46
would say... Wait, what's your name again? My
1:00:48
name's Leanne. My first name's Kelly.
1:00:51
Kelly, and what was your maiden name? Kemp. So
1:00:53
what advice would you give to Kelly Kemp? I
1:00:58
would say it's, I don't know if it's
1:01:00
advice or maybe like just it's all
1:01:02
going to be okay. I was such
1:01:04
a mess at 16. It's all going
1:01:06
to be okay. I am so happy and balanced
1:01:10
and fulfilled and
1:01:12
at peace with the things I was not that
1:01:14
way about at 16. I think that's what I'd
1:01:16
say. It's going to be okay. That's great. I
1:01:19
agree. I think about the things I thought about
1:01:21
at 16 and how much it meant. Now
1:01:23
I'm like, God, if you
1:01:26
only knew how it means nothing.
1:01:28
Nothing. I mean nothing. Nothing. Nothing.
1:01:32
Thank you very much. Please plug and
1:01:34
promote anything you'd like again. Just
1:01:37
watch the Party Podcast. Shane Torres' special.
1:01:39
Yeah. It's called the Blue-Eyed
1:01:41
Mexican on YouTube. All right.
1:01:43
Thank you very much. As always, Ryan Sickler
1:01:45
on all social media, ryansickler.com. We'll
1:01:48
talk to you all next week.
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