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Welcome to the Butterfly
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Mindset Podcast . Today
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I have the most special
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guest in the world my mother
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. What's up
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, mom ?
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How do you match ?
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It's funny because I'm totally rebranding
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the podcast . We're
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doing like , I'm doing a like totally rebranding the podcast . So it shifted from Cyrus's podcast
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to the butterfly mindset podcast and
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I thought who better to
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interview for the first episode of the
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butterfly mindset podcast than my mom
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, who created the butterfly mindset , you
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know . So , um , so
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I want to , I want to kind
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of talk about , like you know , we're going to talk about life
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, and this might be a long conversation , might be a short
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conversation , I don't know , but , um
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, I want to . I want to talk
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about . You know , I learned things about
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your life , like bits
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and pieces of how you think , and like you really
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molded how I think . So
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, for me , for me , this
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is all about sharing how
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successful people think and how
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they move and , and
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, like I said , like you , you , you molded
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my , along with so many other
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people in my life , but you molded my life
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and my , my thinking , to how I think
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about . You know , everything happens for a reason positivity
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, so on and so forth which is
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you would think that like that
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would be oh yeah , that's a no-brainer
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. But like your life wasn't the easiest life
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no , it hasn't been , you
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know . So
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, like starting from
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, I guess when you were little like
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, where
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did you grow up ?
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In the heart of LA .
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In the heart of LA and
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when you grew up in LA
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, obviously it was just the perfect
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life , perfect childhood , right .
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Well , it wasn't the perfectest , but it
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was okay .
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What was it like ?
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When I was growing up , life was totally different
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than it is now . We played outside
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, we ran up , we climbed trees , we
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did all the stuff you do
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outside ride bikes . Most
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of the time I was with my cousins and my aunt
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and uncle , because we were almost the same
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age . So we I spend a lot of time
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at my grandma's um
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and just part of life but
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you're one of how wait what , how
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many ? I'm one of seven one of seven
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.
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Yeah , and you're in what order ? The
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second oldest , okay
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, and then and then . So you have one
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older .
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I had one older brother .
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You had one older brother . Who
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was that one ?
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Raw , but he passed away when he was 18
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.
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How did he pass away ?
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He got shot . He
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was . He
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was in the marines and he came up for a leave
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. He went and hung out with some of his old friends
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and he
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was driving his friend's car and they mistaked
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him for the friend and they shot him wow
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um , he
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was 18 .
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You said Was
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he like ? Was it because
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he was involved with like the wrong people ?
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Yeah , well he was . He was well
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. We grew up in East LA . Yeah
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. So he hung around with the . I
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guess he was like a troll , but I never
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saw him like that . Yeah . But
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he wasn't a bad guy and he joined
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the Marines and Do you know why he joined the Marines
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or ? Just to
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get away , but
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he was a good brother
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.
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And then at that
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time , how old were you then ?
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when he passed away , I was 15
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wow .
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So then you became the oldest then I
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became the oldest how
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was that mentally ? Did
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that change anything how you operated
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, or were you just like how
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you took care of your younger siblings ?
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I always looked out for them , Regardless
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even my brother . I looked out for him . I used to iron
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his clothes and do things for him . Yeah
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, it was just part
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of my way of being . Yeah
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. I always looked after everybody .
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So , and then , how old were your younger
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siblings at the time ?
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I had . My sister was
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two years younger , so she was 13
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, and then my brother was
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12 . Then
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my sister was like seven and
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my we had just had a little brother
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.
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So it was a baby , yeah , and
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was it all the same mom and dad
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?
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No , yeah
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, well , there was five
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of us from the same dad . And then
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my mom had my
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sister , and then she had my brother .
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Okay , and
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then when you were , when
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did you have Desiree ?
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so I got married when I was 15 and I
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had Desiree right before my 16th birthday
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so was that , was that
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right
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after my brother passed .
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Yeah , yeah
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. So like how soon
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after was that ?
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Well , like Desi
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was no , actually
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it was before he passed , because Desi
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was three months old when he died . Wow
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.
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Yeah , how
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was that dealing with being
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and was that ? Like
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you know , you're 15
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, you're 16 years old having
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a three-month-old , and then your
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brother just passes away . Like how
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did you deal with that ? it's
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hard , but I believe
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that I
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believe that God only gives you what
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you could handle and
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it makes you stronger . Um
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, that's a . Uh , uh . Uh , I get sunglasses . I get to hide my tears . Um , I , uh , uh , that's a I
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get sunglasses , I get to hide my tears . That's a strong statement because , like
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you know , we haven't even got into
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a lot of what you've been through . You
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know so , and I'm
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going to rewind even more because when
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you were little , you had even told
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me that you had gone through foster care
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at some point . I
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remember hearing that and being like what the heck
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? You didn't even tell me , we didn't know about that
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.
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It's a part of my life . That it
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was a part of my life . Yeah
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, I didn't have to tell
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anybody because I wasn't ashamed of anything
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. It was part of growing up
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for me , you know
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, and it didn't like it
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hurt when we were separated , but it
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didn't cause me like
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to go backwards
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in any way . Yeah . I
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always went forward , yeah , in any way , I always went forward
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. My mom had a hard time
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because she was a single mom , although
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my dad was in and out of our lives the whole
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time . But my mom
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was totally a single mom and
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my mom had issues where she
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would have nervous breakdowns and so forth . So
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at one point we grew up on welfare
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. So
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at one point she was like her worker said well , you know , you need to mentally take care of
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yourself , so we'll put your kids in foster care so you can straighten yourself out
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, like just mentally . Yeah . And
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then we'll give them back . Well
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, she put all of us into foster care and
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then they didn't want to return us . Um
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, we get into the system and it's hard to get out of
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it . Um , my
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mom being young and naive and not knowing
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what was going on , how old was your
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mom around that , probably about in
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her late 20s at least . Yeah . In
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her 20s , because
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by the time she
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had me when she was 17 . So
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figure 10 , 10 years , yeah
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, about 27 , 26 , 27
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. So she was really young , yeah , and she had four
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kids , five kids . Dang
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. At that point Is this raw . No , she had
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six . Wow , she had six .
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Wow .
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She had six because my little sister was like a
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baby . Yeah . So
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she put us in , and then my
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grandmother , I guess . At that point my
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mom went to my grandma . My grandma
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said don't worry , I'll take them , I'll go pick
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them up for you , or whatever . I don't know how we got ended
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up , but we ended up all back with my mom
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. How old were you ? About
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10 or 11 ?
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dang .
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And how was it like we only stayed
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in foster care for about a year and a half or
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two but how was like , like ?
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what was that experience like for
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you do , do you remember ?
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Yeah , it wasn't bad . The
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family I was with was very good
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and very kind . It
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was normal . We went to church
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, we did birthday parties
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, we did camp outs , we
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went on vacation . So it was nice
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. It was a different experience in life in
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itself , what life should really have been like
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Not having to worry about anything
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.
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What do you mean ? Worry about anything ?
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Worry about anything like worry
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about my mom , worry about my brothers and sisters
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.
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You were 10 or 11 and
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you were worrying about your mom and your
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brothers and sisters . What were you worried about ?
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Because I'm the one that used to help
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my mom with everything . I
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used to help take care of the kids , help
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her out , just do things
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.
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At nine or ten and
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then when then
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you went to foster care and you felt like you
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kind of had more like a normal childhood . A
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quote unquote normal childhood .
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Kind of like just a normal way of living
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. Yeah . My childhood
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, I could remember , was nice because I
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was with my grandparents and my
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aunts , my uncles . Whatever we
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had a normal , my mom did whatever
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she could for us .
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Yeah , could
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for us ? Yeah , um and um , and then so then . So then you're , you're like 10 or 11 , and then what ? Your
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grandma just comes and picks you up or what .
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Yeah , she just goes from house to house . Wherever
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we all , my brothers , we were all separated , except
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me and my sister . At one point they brought
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my sister to where I was at yeah so
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she stayed with me for maybe about four
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or five months before we went home , and
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then my grandma just picked us all up
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. Just
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went to the houses and picked us up and said we
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were going back with her and
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we went with my grandmother and then my mom had
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my . I stayed with my grandmother
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for about me and
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my brother , probably for about six
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months , before I returned to my mom okay
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and then , when you returned
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to your mom , what was it like ?
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it's okay it's like normal yeah it was normal
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.
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My mom just was my mom yeah
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you know , and I never like I know
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, sometimes we didn't have a lot
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, but I didn't blame her
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because she had a lot on her plate yeah
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, um , and then
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, and then like fast forward
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.
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You have Desiree then
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I get married and you get married yeah
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, and then I live .
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I move out and live in my life , but my
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mom's still in my life
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yeah so I was still trying to do for my mom as well
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as try to take care of my family . I was my life , so I was still trying to do for my mom as well as try to take care of my family
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. I was young by
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the time . I was 27, . I
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divorced and I went back with
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my mom , and my mom opened her
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doors and I stayed there with my three
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kids .
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So wait . So by the time you were 27
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, you had Desiree .
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Corina .
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Corina and then Steven
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.
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Steven .
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And I was like calling them
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by their nicknames , yeah , and
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then you divorced .
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Divorced at 27 .
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And then you moved back with my mom . Grandma
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. And then , but in that time , what 27 . And then
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you moved back with my mom , grandma , and
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then , but in that time , what ?
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about . What are all your siblings doing by that time ? By
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the time I went to live with my mom at
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that point , my sister had already passed away
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. She
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was 18 when she died in a car accident , and she just had
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. My brother , george , and
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so my
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other brother , ray , lived
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in Colorado . Yeah . Didn't
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have too much .
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I never really saw him , so wait . So your sister , she
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was how old when she passed away 18 . She was how
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old when she passed away 18 . So
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your mom lost your
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older brother and younger
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sister both when they were 18 .
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Both at 18 and 10 years apart , one
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in 77 and the other one in 87
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. Wow . And
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we lost a little brother in
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65 . He was six
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weeks old , oh
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, so she had a lot to
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deal with In 65, .
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He was six weeks old , so she had a lot to deal with .
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How did she
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deal with it . I don't know , maybe just in her world
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.
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I don't
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know . Do you think that , like , like going
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through that as
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her kid
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helped you
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understand , like how you would want
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to deal with it as a mom ? Definitely
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like did you
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ever think about those things when you were little ?
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I knew that I wanted roots because I didn't
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have them . We
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moved around so much as a child I
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think I went to , like you , go to middle school for three years and I probably went to
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four different middle schools . Elementary
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school is the same . I didn't
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have any roots . Being
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a single mom , she had to do
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whatever she could and sometimes she
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couldn't pay the rent , so we had to leave and
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it was hard . Yeah , rent , so we had
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to leave and it was hard , yeah , but I don't
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remember other than having to move all the time
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. I don't remember a lot of hardships
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like just not
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having enough to eat
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, or that was
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a community in
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a home that we didn't have to keep
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living . Yeah .
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So then you're 27
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, you got three kids , you're
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living with grandma , and
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then , and then , how old
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were , how old were all the kids ?
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uh steven was like five
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no , desi wasn't
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when I divorced
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. She was like 11
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, I think yeah 10 , and he
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might have been 5 or 6 . Yeah .
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And then , and then .
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I was living with my mom and they were in school
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and I would take them back and forth to school . I
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put myself in school .
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Where were you living then ?
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In Cudahy .
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Okay .
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My mom had her house .
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And so you were living there , and then
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you
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would take them back and forth to school . You said you put yourself
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in school yeah , I put myself in school .
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I went to like um , just an
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off the wall school to go
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to like for legal secretarial
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so wait .
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So when you were 15 , you
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got married and everything . Did you finish high school
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? No , okay , and
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then so then you went to like
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a trade school . I went to a trade school . Or did
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you ever finish high school , or no ?
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No , I never finished high school , but I did
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go to like . As
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I got older I would go like I went to like
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East LA College
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and . I took like different
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, like psychology classes , child
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development classes , just different things
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just to keep myself busy and
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I never really like finished , finished
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it all yeah then later
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, when I went with my mom , I decided
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I wanted to do something with myself . So I wanted
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always to work in the law office . So I went
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to do that and I finished
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it and I graduated from there and I got a
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job . Why did you want
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?
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to work in a law office .
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I don't know , it was just something I liked .
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Just like .
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Just because .
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But did you ever meet somebody or anything like
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?
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that . No , I just wanted to do that . I
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just wanted to work . I thought
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it was something like prestigious to go work in a
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law firm , and I did
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. I worked there and I liked it and what
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did you do there ? Firm
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. So and I did , I worked there and I liked it and what'd
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you do there ? I worked for family law . We did
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a lot of family cases and I did all the like , the like actually
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the secretary of the attorney so you were
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like typing and doing all that . Yeah , I was
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doing a lot of stuff and
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and then .
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So then you were doing that , and then then
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how long was it before
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you met ?
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Your dad . I met him two years later
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, when I was 29 .
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Okay , yeah , so
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you were 27, . You
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just got divorced . Then you start working as a legal
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secretary , and then you met
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your dad . And
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then it was how
18:47
did that work ?
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well , at first I didn't want anything
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because I wasn't sure I was just
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. I just had gotten out of a relationship . I just
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wanted to be by myself yeah
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. I didn't know . Um , I
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was having fun just the
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kids taking care of my kids . My mom would watch them in
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the evening . If I went out , you
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know , I'd feed him , put him to sleep and then
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I'd go out . Then I'd come back in the morning do what
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I have to do with the kids go to work , do everything
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yeah um , then
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I meet your dad by coincidence . It was just
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like something fluke we were on the freeway
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driving and
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they
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were in a ferrari yeah and we
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were in a Corvette . And then we're driving down
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the street and my sister says , look at , those guys
19:31
are so cute . And I'm like , no
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, no . And she
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goes , just play with them , karina , just play with them . And I'm
19:37
like , okay . So we started messing
19:40
around on the freeway and then we pulled over
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and it was like fate
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, because the driver went to my sister
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to talk to her and your
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dad came to me to talk to me . So
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we talked a little bit , we had fun , just
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like exchange numbers and stuff , and
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we went on our way , yeah . And then
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he called to take my sister
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on . My sister goes , just go out with us , just go out
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with us . And I'm like , oh no , I don't want to do
20:03
this . I said , okay , let's do it
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. So we went and it
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turned out that I ended up marrying but
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, but I know that .
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So you went on that , you went on that double
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date or whatever , and then you
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didn't call my dad back , though , right um
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, for a while I did call your dad
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back , but afterwards and
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then we were just like friends . Yeah
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.
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And then I went out with my friends and we went to
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Ensenada and I didn't call him
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like Rosarita , yeah , and I didn't call
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him at all for that whole weekend and
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he was like what the heck ? And when I
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get home we had answering machines at
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that point . And it was like I don't know how many
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calls from him , point
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. And it was like I don't know how many calls from him and I was like , oh my god , this guy's he's
20:46
must be stressed . What is his problems ? Like shower
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everything , get ready , go see him at
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his job and he's all scraggly
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and I'm like what the heck ? And
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I'm like what's going on ? He goes , you
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, how are you doing ? I was worried
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about you . You didn't answer my calls and I'm like
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we weren't even dating , really dating . We're
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just like friends yeah and
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then I thought , well , maybe he's worth the
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try , maybe he really does care
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for me yeah so then
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I started , I made where I started
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dating him , and that
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was it and um
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.
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And then , how long after you guys dated did you
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guys get married ?
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like a year later dang , that was quick
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yeah , like a year later , because he was
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, he knew I had three kids and that
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was my worry , that somebody wouldn't
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accept me with three kids . And
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the kids had off and on with
21:44
their dad . They'd go one weekend , so that weekend
21:47
we'd spend together and then the next weekend
21:49
we would take the kids somewhere . And
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it was . It worked out really well and
21:53
he really liked the three kids
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. So then we just he
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just said he wanted him . We just got married
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wait .
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So so you , why
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, what ? Why were you worried
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that someone wouldn't accept you with three kids ?
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Because my mom had a
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lot of kids . She
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had a lot of opportunities but never wanted
22:17
a chance on taking one . What
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do you ? Mean , my mom was a very beautiful woman , but
22:23
she never really wanted to give herself
22:25
to somebody , because she always . Maybe
22:28
she was in love with my dad , I don't know , but
22:31
he never was in the picture .
22:33
What was your dad like ? What did your dad do , though
22:35
?
22:36
I don't know . I think he did a lot of things
22:38
that weren't normal . That
22:41
weren't good .
22:42
Yeah , but
22:44
did you like know
22:46
know him ? Yeah , I knew him .
22:47
No , yeah , I knew him because he was with us when
22:50
I was little , but he would come
22:52
in and go , come in and go . He'd be
22:54
gone like maybe a year and then all of
22:56
a sudden show up again , you
22:58
know , or he'd come like every six months and
23:01
I remember living with him and then I remember
23:03
us leaving him . So it was like
23:05
it was weird , it was different
23:07
, and he and then , when
23:10
did he pass away ?
23:12
in 89 do you know how
23:14
? Or ?
23:14
yeah , he had diabetes and he didn't take care of
23:16
it .
23:16
And then and then
23:18
and then says
23:21
89 . So how old were you ? No , I was born 61 , okay , and then , so
23:23
that was 89 . So how old were you
23:25
I ?
23:27
don't know . I was born in 61 .
23:29
Okay , and then did you like
23:32
? How did that feel
23:34
Like ?
23:34
because he wasn't really in your life . Yeah
23:36
, I mean , I kind of felt it , but it
23:39
didn't consume
23:41
me in any way . Yeah . It was just like
23:43
okay , well , he's gone . Yeah
23:45
, in the other words , when I , when my mom
23:48
passed . That was different yeah
23:50
, so .
23:51
So so going back , so you were , you
23:54
just got married . And
23:56
then , so now you're what , 29
23:59
, 30 , 29 , I was 30
24:01
, 30 years old , you
24:03
just got married . And then
24:05
you , how long after did
24:07
you have Bijan ?
24:09
A year later .
24:10
Okay , and then your best
24:12
son came after that Cyrus
24:15
.
24:18
Actually Bijan was planned
24:20
and Cyrus was our surprise
24:22
.
24:22
Cyrus was the gift . It was definitely the gift . Cyrus was the gift , it was
24:25
definitely the gift .
24:26
It definitely was , because Cyrus is
24:28
the one that keeps the house
24:30
going . What do you mean ? Like
24:33
the house was always like quiet
24:35
, but when Cyrus was around it was alive
24:38
. Like just rambunctious .
24:45
It's funny , you always say what did Baba
24:49
?
24:49
say when he'd come home from work
24:51
and the house was quiet . He's like where's
24:53
everybody ? And I go , everybody's
24:55
here and he goes . Why is it so quiet ? Well , cyrus
24:57
is asleep , so Cyrus was sleeping
25:00
, the house was quiet .
25:01
And what was it like ? I'm actually curious
25:04
. So like you went from like living with grandma
25:07
to then me
25:11
to my dad , then did you guys move in together
25:13
, or I well , at first
25:15
, no , dad .
25:16
Your dad got an apartment closer to
25:18
us and then we were seeing
25:21
each other . I'd go stay with him like the week where was he
25:23
living before you guys met ? In
25:25
Downey .
25:26
Okay .
25:27
And then he moved to Huntington
25:29
Park in an apartment
25:31
there because we were living in Cudahy so
25:34
it was down the street . Then
25:37
I got a place and
25:40
he moved with me for about a year .
25:42
A place where .
25:44
In Los Angeles .
25:45
Okay .
25:45
And then we lived there for about a year , and
25:47
then that's when we moved to Orange County
25:50
.
25:50
Why did you guys move to Orange County ?
25:53
Because one of his friends said that
25:55
another friend was renting
25:57
a house and that he thought it would
25:59
be good for the family to move to Orange County
26:01
and he told Baba about
26:03
it and
26:07
then he said okay , so we moved to orange county and this is when
26:09
you had just three kids
26:11
, or ? I had no bijan was born
26:13
. Bijan was like six
26:16
months or something , seven months and
26:19
where'd you guys ? Move right down
26:21
the street from where we live . Now really , yeah
26:23
, yeah on Marion .
26:25
So you guys just rented like a place , we rented a house there
26:27
.
26:27
Yeah , the same kind of house we have , but we rented
26:30
a house there .
26:31
And then , when did you guys decide to buy
26:33
the house ? Well , we started .
26:36
like a year later we started looking for
26:38
a house because we
26:40
were going to buy a house like down on Marion
26:42
and
26:45
Baba said we put everything down but it
26:47
didn't go through for some reason . Yeah
26:49
. So then we moved out of the house where we were at
26:51
and moved into an apartment and
26:55
we continued to look and then
26:57
, like the following month or
26:59
something , we found the house we're living in now .
27:02
Wait . So how is
27:04
it like going from like like
27:07
? So at this point were you like financially
27:09
stable , or was it like yeah
27:11
, we were , we were .
27:13
Your took care of everything .
27:14
I didn't have to worry about anything but
27:16
like , how was that going from like
27:18
where ? I mean from when you were
27:20
so little , like you were saying earlier , like nine
27:22
or ten , worrying about your mom , worrying
27:25
about everything ?
27:27
It was more like a gift , because I
27:31
could still truly
27:33
help my mom . Whatever
27:36
my mom needed , I could give her . I
27:40
didn't have to worry about it . I didn't
27:42
have to worry about it , you know , and your dad was very
27:44
generous
27:47
in that aspect Whatever
27:49
I could , whatever he gave
27:51
me , I could share .
27:53
Yeah , so
27:56
were you working at the Sunday ?
27:59
I was working when I met your dad and then your dad
28:01
didn't want me to work anymore . Then
28:04
I started . I was at home
28:06
most of the time and then I started working for your
28:08
dad .
28:09
Okay , doing what ?
28:11
Doing like the DMV work finance
28:14
companies work like
28:16
going to the finance companies and picking
28:18
up checks , taking them paperwork and
28:20
stuff like that .
28:22
And then so then you
28:24
then , because he owned multiple
28:27
different car dealerships and everything . So , then
28:29
you then , because he owned multiple different car
28:31
dealerships and everything . So
28:36
then . So then you guys are renting an apartment , about to have
28:39
the best kid of your
28:41
life and and you and you
28:43
decide you're going to buy a house . And
28:45
was that because you wanted to buy
28:47
a house ? Was
28:52
that because he wanted to ? Was that because you guys wanted to do it together ?
28:53
Because you had said earlier you wanted roots . So I'm curious on what ? Yeah , it's we . We both decided
28:56
it was the thing to do at that point
28:58
because he was financially
29:00
okay and it was time at
29:02
that time just to settle it down
29:04
somewhere .
29:05
Because you have four kids at the time , one
29:07
coming . Yeah and so then
29:09
. So you chose where
29:12
we're at now because
29:15
, just because you guys already knew the area
29:17
, or what ?
29:18
Well , yeah , and it was a nice area . It was
29:20
quiet and when
29:22
we found the house it was like the perfect
29:25
place . Yeah it was strange
29:27
because we went to see another one right across the street
29:29
, mr Chin's house , yeah , and
29:31
that was like dark and gloomy and I'm like God
29:34
, no . And then they said
29:36
, oh , across the street , we're going to put the sign up today
29:38
if you want to go see that one . Yeah . And
29:41
that one was bright light . Yeah
29:43
. It had everything .
29:45
And so wait , had
29:52
everything and so wait , so .
29:53
so then I'm actually curious how did , like
29:56
desiree steven and kareem
29:58
like deal with , like you meeting baba
30:00
um , they were okay with it because they were
30:03
young when I left their dad and their dad
30:05
and they , desi , had a harder time
30:07
than the other two . she was older
30:09
, yeah , she didn't understand it in
30:12
the beginning , um , but
30:14
as time went on she
30:17
said I'm glad you did what you did
30:19
, because my three
30:21
older kids
30:23
I believe they had more
30:25
time with your dad and was able
30:27
to have a father figure
30:29
. Their dad was there but their
30:31
dad wasn't really involved
30:34
with them and
30:36
Baba was everything for them . He
30:38
did everything for them , like their own .
30:40
What do you mean ?
30:42
Like if they were his kids . He just did everything
30:44
bought their shoes , bought them cars
30:46
, did everything for them .
30:49
And then Supported them
30:51
. So
30:53
, but at first it was hard for Des right .
30:56
Well , not no . Well
30:58
, at first Baba
31:01
didn't get that part because we were without
31:03
the dad for two years . That's when
31:06
I had the hard time with her . Oh , okay , Not
31:08
when meeting Nicholas , that was , they had the hard time with her . Oh okay , not when meeting nicholas that
31:10
was they .
31:11
They were good with it , they were okay yeah
31:14
they really liked him and
31:17
then um , and then like
31:19
, uh , uh , because
31:23
we grew up like I didn't even know , like
31:27
I remember I don't
31:29
know , being you know older
31:32
and realizing that it wasn't even , like
31:34
we weren't even
31:36
half siblings or anything .
31:37
Yeah , because that's what your dad wanted
31:39
. He wanted you guys never
31:41
to feel the separation . So
31:44
he allowed and he encouraged
31:47
the girls . When they would go to their grandma's house
31:49
or wherever they were going , you guys
31:51
were more than welcome to go with them . He
31:53
didn't separate you guys . Yeah , Because
31:55
he wanted that bond . He didn't want
31:57
a separation . So when Desi
32:00
would say I'm going to Grandma Angie's house , she
32:03
would buckle you guys up in the car and she would
32:05
take you guys . Yeah . And that was
32:07
your grandma and grandpa . You didn't know any difference yeah
32:09
, exactly because he didn't want that and
32:12
then , and so was that like conversations
32:14
that you guys had together , or was that like yeah
32:17
, well , he always told me that he didn't want the kids
32:19
separated , like he didn't want them to feel
32:21
like they were different yeah
32:23
so that's why he did everything the same
32:26
for you guys that he did for
32:28
the three older ones , and the three older ones weren't
32:30
his , but he still had them like everything
32:33
for them . He didn't segregate like
32:35
oh well , you get your support
32:38
, so figure out what you're going to do with your kids . No
32:40
, he'd still
32:42
. Whatever they gave , whatever I would get
32:44
, my money I would get was mine . I didn't have to
32:46
input anything . He took care of everything
32:49
.
32:49
Yeah and then . So then
32:51
you bought the house . I
32:54
was born right after or right before the
32:56
house .
32:56
No , you were born right before we
32:58
moved in the house , when you were 16
33:00
days old .
33:02
Okay , and then
33:04
. So that would have been December
33:06
20th 1993
33:09
. And
33:12
so then you guys
33:14
moved in the house and
33:20
then fast forward
33:22
all the way to , let's
33:25
say , you know , wait . So now , what
33:27
are your other siblings doing at this time ?
33:30
um the ones I
33:32
had . My sister lives in in
33:36
santa maria . Yeah , santa maria she's
33:38
living her life with her son and
33:40
daughter she , yeah , so she she
33:43
went .
33:44
When did she move there ?
33:46
Oh , when my nephew was little , probably
33:48
like 30 , 35
33:51
years ago .
33:52
But you guys were living together when you guys
33:54
met Baba . No , when
33:56
was she Well ?
33:57
actually yes . Yes , because
33:59
she had moved in with us , Because
34:01
she had separated from her husband
34:04
. Okay . The baby's dad
34:07
, and so she was living with us . Yes
34:09
, yes and then that's when you guys
34:11
went out yeah , when we would go out and stuff
34:13
like that , or she had her own place . I don't remember
34:15
, but she at one point
34:17
she was there with us yeah and
34:19
then .
34:20
Okay , so then then .
34:22
So she's she is she
34:24
separates and
34:26
then she meets somebody and
34:29
then fast
34:31
forward . I was already with your dad , but
34:33
just dating , and then she ends up with
34:35
another , with Hassan
34:38
, and then they got married . Okay
34:40
.
34:40
Yeah , and then what about your other siblings
34:42
?
34:45
My other one . I only have one more . After that , my brother
34:48
was in Colorado living
34:50
his life with his family , and then my
34:52
younger brother was George
34:54
. That's all we had left . So right now
34:56
, fast forward , there's only two of
34:58
us left .
34:59
So okay , so then
35:02
you have . And then what was Uncle
35:04
George doing at this time ?
35:06
He was young . He was like 13 years old . Okay , he was just 13
35:08
years old . Okay . He was just with my grandma
35:11
. Okay , my mom .
35:13
So you guys were living . He was living there when you were .
35:15
Yeah , he was living there with us yeah , and then you
35:17
moved out .
35:18
What did he feel like ? Do you ever
35:20
know ?
35:21
what he felt like when you moved out or anything ? No , he
35:23
never really said anything , I just left and
35:25
does that ?
35:27
yeah , okay , so then . So then
35:29
you fast forward to um
35:32
, to , to
35:34
2004
35:37
. Grandma
35:40
passes away in january 2004
35:44
, right , but she had , I remember
35:46
, like she had came to live with us yes
35:48
, about two weeks prior she
35:50
said I'm gonna stay here with you .
35:52
Now I'm gonna live with you . You
35:54
know I'm not gonna be at the house anymore , let george stay
35:57
there . And she came to live with
35:59
me okay , so . So
36:02
uncle george was staying at the other house yeah
36:04
, because he had a girlfriend
36:06
, gladys , and she had zion , so
36:08
she wanted to stay out of his life and let
36:11
him live .
36:11
So she just let him live in her house
36:13
, mm-hmm , and then . So
36:16
, uncle , where was that house ?
36:19
In Norwalk .
36:19
Norwalk , and then Grandma
36:22
came to live with us , mm-hmm , but
36:25
she was like , was
36:27
she not doing ? Well , I don't remember what happened , because
36:30
I remember her having to go to the hospital yeah
36:32
, well , she was .
36:33
She was always in and out because she had um
36:35
heart problems
36:37
and all these problems . She had um
36:40
open heart surgery prior
36:42
to that from what there's
36:44
a heart attack or no , just because she
36:46
had arteries blocked so
36:49
is that because unhealthy or I
36:52
think it's part of yeah , it's part of I
36:54
don't know actually why because she
36:56
had diabetes . When she got diabetes after my
36:59
brother died , she was
37:01
in her 30s yeah and
37:03
that's when she hit diabetes . From diabetes
37:05
, then she ended up with high blood pressure
37:07
yeah all , everything else , heart problems
37:09
and everything yeah and then . So
37:11
then she comes to live with us she came to
37:13
live with us and then I
37:15
would take her back and forth to the doctor , and
37:18
once she had to go to the doctor
37:20
, so I took her in . They kept her there
37:22
yeah , I remember that was after a week
37:24
, after she had already stayed with us , and then
37:26
she passed yeah
37:31
, because she stayed with us . She used to come in and out and
37:34
stay with us prior , like in between everything
37:36
.
37:40
And then she would go back home , okay
37:44
, and then your mom passes away in 2004
37:46
, january . How did that feel ?
37:47
That was the hardest . That
37:54
was really hard , because
37:57
my mom was everything for me . I
37:59
did everything for her , like whatever and she needed , I would try
38:01
to do it for her , you know , and that was
38:04
real hard .
38:08
So then you lost your
38:11
mom , but then you had . Then
38:13
uncle george came to live with us too , didn't he
38:15
? So what happened to her house then ?
38:18
I let it go into foreclosure . I couldn't deal
38:20
with it . I helped her so much with
38:22
it and I didn't realize that so
38:26
much with it and
38:31
I didn't realize that . I didn't realize how important it was to
38:33
keep it , but I just couldn't
38:35
deal with paying for it Because
38:37
I didn't . She wasn't here , so I didn't
38:40
see why I should continue . Yeah
38:42
, and that was just
38:44
the ignorance of something
38:48
you know , but that's
38:50
why I didn't , that's why I let it go , because
38:53
I could have continued to pay it .
38:55
Yeah , exactly . So
38:57
then Uncle George comes
38:59
to live with us . I remember that because
39:01
I remember it was like my favorite part , yeah
39:05
, and then . So Uncle George
39:07
is living with us , but Gladys
39:09
was living somewhere else or something right , yeah
39:12
, she went back home .
39:12
They like broke up or something right .
39:15
And she left , and then Uncle
39:17
George was living with us for a while
39:19
and then in 2000,
39:22
. Well , did Uncle George move in with
39:24
us before Grandma passed away ? No , after
39:27
.
39:27
It was like right after right yeah like a couple
39:29
months after , because that's when I let the house
39:31
go , so three months . If you don't pay it
39:33
, then it goes into foreclosure .
39:35
And then he came to move with us .
39:36
Then he came to live with us .
39:37
So that's why he came to move with us .
39:39
Yes .
39:40
I didn't know that . And then he
39:43
came to move with us , so . So then it was January , February
39:45
, March , April . In April I
39:47
just remember always , like every day , hanging
39:49
out with Uncle George . It was like my favorite thing . And
39:52
then in October
39:54
October 29th 2004
39:57
, Uncle George passed away .
40:01
And that was hard . That was even harder
40:03
. Why ? Because that was my little brother
40:05
. But
40:10
I know God doesn't do things . He
40:12
doesn't give you what you can't handle . And it was the
40:14
hardest thing . For me , it
40:17
was the most hardest thing , so
40:19
hard that I sent you guys to school the next
40:22
day because I didn't want you to be part
40:24
of it . I needed to be
40:29
by myself .
40:33
I , I
40:39
remember , like I remember , walking
40:41
down and like realizing
40:44
it isn't it
40:46
. I
40:52
like , I think Uncle
40:54
George is the one I miss the most
40:57
.
40:59
He had a very caring heart , a very caring
41:01
. He was very good with you guys
41:03
. He was a good brother and a good uncle . He
41:07
might not have been the best son , but
41:09
he was a good brother and a good uncle . He might not have been the best son
41:11
, but he was a good brother and a good uncle . Why do you say that ? Because
41:14
he just he gave my mom a hard
41:16
time a lot , and that's
41:18
maybe just because of immaturity
41:21
, I don't know .
41:23
But he was only what 28 , right
41:25
29 .
41:26
Yeah , 28 . 28? .
41:28
Yeah , yeah , 28
41:35
, when he passed away , and then , so that was , you lost grandma
41:37
, then you lost uncle george , and
41:39
then what was like
41:42
, um , during that time
41:44
, like what did baba do ? Like , well
41:46
.
41:46
He helped me with all the funeral arrangements . He did
41:48
everything for it . He
41:51
helped whatever he could .
41:55
And then like , what was
41:57
it like to like for
42:01
? Like being , you know
42:03
, dealing with your five kids at
42:05
that time , like when you lost
42:07
Grandma and then uncle George ?
42:12
I think that's what kept me going , because
42:15
I couldn't have time to sit
42:17
down and think about it . I
42:19
had to keep moving . So in my own time
42:22
, when you guys were in school , or
42:24
when you guys , you know , know , were doing
42:26
things , that's when it hit me , when
42:29
I was by myself .
42:30
Yeah , and then did
42:33
you and
42:35
then like fast
42:38
forward to what exactly
42:41
a year later ?
42:41
Yeah , my world
42:44
really kicked in . What
42:47
do you mean ? I
42:52
didn't know what
42:54
I was going to do . He
42:57
was my everything
43:01
. He
43:04
took care of us , he took care of you , he
43:06
had a home for us , he had everything for
43:09
us . And
43:12
then he left and I didn't
43:14
have a choice .
43:15
Because
43:17
Baba
43:19
went into the hospital October
43:21
29 , 2005 and then passed
43:24
away on November 1st , Correct ? And
43:28
what did that like you
43:31
? What was going on
43:33
through your head , like at that point ?
43:35
I couldn't believe it was happening . I
43:40
had just went through two and
43:42
that was hard . But
43:45
then to have your spouse also leave
43:47
and then you're staying with your kids
43:49
again by yourself , I
43:53
think it's the most hardest thing to go
43:56
through . But
44:00
at the same
44:02
time it's like a fight
44:05
or flight . You have to figure out how to
44:07
do things . And it was really hard
44:09
for me because there was times I remember
44:11
crying in the room because I couldn't figure out how
44:13
to pay the bills and
44:15
you'd come in and you'd say , mom
44:18
, what's wrong ? And
44:21
then I would tell you and say , don't worry , mom , don't
44:24
worry , god knows
44:26
, it's going to be
44:28
okay , it's going to be okay , it's going to be okay . And
44:31
then , for some reason or another , it would
44:33
be okay and I could pay the bills and
44:35
I could pay the house . My
44:38
worst fear was to lose it . Yeah
44:40
. Because I didn't want to have
44:42
to uproot you guys , and
44:46
I think that was the
44:48
hardest part of it all having to figure
44:50
out things that I didn't have to . It's like having a table
44:52
with four legs and then
44:54
all of a sudden one leg breaks and you're trying to figure
44:57
out how to balance it . It
44:59
was the most hardest thing that I had to go
45:01
through .
45:03
And then , like you
45:06
were , I remember going
45:08
into the room and telling you that a lot , and
45:10
then like , but
45:15
like you
45:17
, for me
45:19
, seeing
45:21
you , like
45:24
instead of sitting there and like
45:26
I guess , like you know , curling in a ball
45:28
, which sometimes , like we would sit in the room and just cry
45:30
, right I remember , because
45:33
I'd say something like that , you'd be
45:35
crying and I'd be like , what's the matter ? And you'd be like this
45:38
. I'd be like , don't worry , it's all good , like we're good , yeah
45:44
, and but instead
45:47
of like just shutting down , you like
45:49
stepped up , you
45:51
started working multiple jobs .
45:52
Correct .
45:54
But like
45:56
what was that thought process ?
45:58
Well , it's the only way that I knew that I could
46:00
make . I had to do something other
46:03
than sit there and not do anything
46:05
and lose everything , and
46:07
I didn't want to lose you guys , because you were still
46:09
very young . Yeah . So I had to keep
46:12
going and make myself strong to
46:15
keep you guys .
46:16
What do you mean ?
46:17
Because I felt like if I would lose the house
46:19
, I would lose you guys .
46:21
Like , what do you mean ? I don't
46:23
know . Like , like , lose , like
46:25
.
46:29
Like we'd have to move somewhere where it was not safe . If I would have
46:31
to move somewhere not safe then maybe you'd hang
46:34
around with a bad crowd . I
46:36
don't know the way I grew up and
46:39
I had to make choices as I was growing up and I
46:41
didn't want that for you guys .
46:43
So do you think that , like because everything
46:46
you had gone through losing your brother
46:50
, your older brother and
46:52
all of that you didn't want
46:54
those ? That's what you're talking
46:56
about .
46:58
Yes , that's the part I didn't want to
47:00
happen , because you hang around with
47:02
the bad people even though you're not a bad person
47:04
. They see you with the bad people
47:06
when they think you're a bad person .
47:08
Because that's what happened to your brother . Yes , it wasn't that
47:11
he was . He was get , really , I
47:13
think , probably getting his life on track , exactly
47:15
. He just came home from the marines and then , yeah
47:18
, he was with the wrong people so
47:21
then ? So , so you start
47:23
working multiple jobs , keep the house overhead
47:25
, and then like
47:29
, what
47:33
about the
47:35
businesses , baba's businesses ? We
47:38
lost them all .
47:39
Well , by the time your dad died , we had
47:41
already lost the last one that he had , but
47:44
he still had a couple of cars left
47:46
. Yeah . And so he had sold
47:48
those , those and we had that money . Then
47:52
it was hard because
47:54
he had taken out a loan for
47:56
the other business we had and
48:00
it didn't work out for
48:02
different reasons . But
48:06
when your dad died there was money . Yeah
48:08
. And that's how I kept it . But I kept it just
48:11
by the time . You know
48:13
, sometimes I had it , sometimes I
48:15
didn't . Yeah . Um , it
48:18
was hard because I didn't know how to really manage
48:20
money . Yeah . Because I
48:22
didn't have money to manage . I
48:24
didn't ever have to worry about anything . Whatever
48:28
I ? Needed , it was provided for me by your dad . Yeah , and before that , I didn't ever have to worry about anything . Whatever I needed
48:30
, it was provided for me by your dad .
48:31
Yeah , and before that you didn't have it , and
48:33
before I didn't have it , so I didn't miss it .
48:35
Yeah , so it didn't , you know . And
48:38
when I did have it , it was like , okay , I could do whatever
48:40
I , you know I needed to do .
48:42
So you went to like maintenance
48:44
mode . Basically you went to like you're
48:46
going to go and get you know
48:48
jobs , pay the bills
48:51
, just keep it .
48:52
Yeah , just keep the house going .
48:54
So now the
48:57
whole time , like that
48:59
this was happening , like
49:02
I you know it
49:07
was interesting because people would always ask , like
49:09
what do you want to do with your life ? They'd
49:12
be like , what do you want to be when you get older , yada , yada
49:14
, like as a little kid or whatever . And
49:16
then you know I'd say something
49:18
or whatever . And then
49:20
if I talked to you , it would always be like you
49:22
can do whatever you want , as long as you put your mind to it
49:24
. Like
49:27
, where did that come from ?
49:34
long as you put your mind to it like where did that come from ? Because I always
49:36
wanted roots and it was
49:39
always in my mind and in the ending , whatever
49:41
I had to go through to get there , I got
49:44
there .
49:46
So I knew that was the only possible
49:49
way is you put your mind to something and
49:51
keep it in there and you'll
49:53
succeed and
49:55
then , and then , like
49:58
you know , we're
50:02
in middle school and
50:06
then this is when I like really decided I want to
50:08
play soccer as
50:11
a professional , because before that I didn't want to
50:13
. Right , and then I remember like
50:15
saying that , and I remember like
50:17
growing up , even in like high school , and like
50:19
as I got better because when I was younger I wasn't even that good
50:21
but like as I got better and better , and
50:24
then it was actually like , oh , this could be a possibility
50:26
or not , or whatever Could go to college
50:29
. And teachers would tell me you should go to college
50:31
, blah , blah , blah . And I told you
50:33
I didn't want to go to college and you
50:35
were always just like like
50:38
, okay , just do what you .
50:40
What you want , what you like , what you
50:42
feel .
50:43
But why not push me to do something
50:45
else ?
50:46
Because I knew that you wouldn't be happy doing
50:48
that . So I wanted you to be happy
50:50
in whatever you did , Because
50:53
if you're not happy and you have to go to college
50:56
, then you're
50:58
not . It's not you . I
51:01
wanted you to be you . All
51:04
the kids . It doesn't matter . It didn't
51:06
matter like some went , some didn't
51:08
, but that's because it was their
51:10
choice . If they wouldn't have wanted it , then they didn't
51:12
have . I didn't want to push you to do something
51:15
because I wanted you to do it
51:17
. No I wanted you to do what you wanted
51:19
to do .
51:21
But like how did that
51:23
mind ? Because so many parents like that's not
51:25
how they operate .
51:29
I know , but I Because it's just , I
51:31
don't know , because
51:36
I know that if you do something
51:38
you don't like , then it's going to be , you're
51:40
going to have a miserable life Because you're
51:43
doing something that , oh shoot . My mom made me go
51:45
to school for taxes and
51:47
I don't want to do taxes . But , I'm going to
51:49
do it anyways because she wants . It's going to be miserable
51:51
for you every day to get up and go do your
51:53
job . So , if you
51:56
like what you're doing . It's not going to be a job
51:58
. It's going to be a pleasure for
52:00
you to get up in the morning and go do something
52:02
.
52:03
Go enjoy it .
52:04
Yeah .
52:05
Right , yeah , and
52:16
then . So now I think it's pretty interesting because
52:18
then like fast forward to , so Baba passes away and , like I said
52:20
, like that was really hard . I always say like
52:23
that was the best thing and the worst thing that ever happened to
52:25
me , not because like he was
52:27
the best dad ever
52:29
, it was because if that didn't happen
52:31
I wouldn't be where I'm at today .
52:32
Exactly , and I believe that too . I believe that
52:34
that's why I say God doesn't make mistakes in
52:36
whatever he does . Everything's a reason . I
52:45
feel the same way because you guys were handed
52:47
a silver spoon . Every
52:51
time you needed something or wanted something , it was there . You didn't
52:54
have to want , or you just say oh , I really want that , okay , yeah , even when your
52:56
dad died , you both wanted
52:58
laptops yeah , okay in
53:01
september . He bought the two
53:03
laptops for christmas in december
53:05
yeah um
53:08
. He
53:10
passes away in november , but
53:13
he still had your presence
53:16
yeah you know what I mean . It was
53:18
something , and I think that if
53:20
you , he would have still been here
53:22
, I think you guys would have been just spoiled . Obnoxious kids . No , seriously
53:24
, no , it's true . I , I agree , would have been , you would have , you wouldn't have
53:26
had to work for anything , so it would obnoxious kids . No , seriously . No , it's true , I
53:28
agree you wouldn't
53:30
have had to work for anything , so it would have been just like
53:32
oh , my dad would take care of it or my mom would give
53:34
me you know . And
53:36
now you guys have
53:39
earned where you're at because
53:41
you worked hard .
53:43
Well , that's like . That's what I was saying is like
53:45
because , like I know for a fact
53:47
, like I probably like , and again , like
53:50
you said , like I probably would have because we had everything
53:52
when he was around , and then we go
53:54
to like like not
53:56
having everything worrying about , like I
53:58
remember the same , the same , like
54:00
worries that you were saying
54:03
about , you know , your mom , like
54:05
having the same thing about you . You
54:07
know , like worried , like is my okay , do
54:09
we have enough money to make the house payments ? You
54:12
know , growing up that way , but that's really what
54:14
made me I
54:16
think , like think the way
54:18
I think and operate the way I operate . And
54:21
then you know
54:23
I'll get to that
54:25
part , but like you know what , what then
54:28
? So so Bob passed away , and
54:30
then what , like six years later , or something like
54:32
that you meet Henry .
54:35
Five years later I met him and
54:37
it was just like friends
54:39
at first . Yeah . And then I
54:41
said , okay , we'll start dating . But then I had
54:44
to introduce him to you guys and
54:46
I wasn't sure yet and I didn't want to
54:48
bring somebody into our home without
54:50
feeling I
54:53
don't know . It's kind of strange . Yeah . And
54:58
then when
55:00
I started dating then you
55:02
and Stephen got
55:04
kind of like what , who are you going with , what are
55:07
you doing ? Like overprotective , and
55:09
I was like I'm an adult yeah but
55:12
I wasn't sure
55:14
how things were going to be , so that's
55:17
why I had to wait a little bit and then so
55:20
yeah , but then .
55:21
So then you guys . So then then
55:23
henry comes around , and I
55:26
hated him yes , definitely hated
55:28
him .
55:29
You did , and I didn't understand why
55:31
, because he wasn't a bad person , he was
55:33
pretty nice . But I think it was
55:35
a man coming into your house where your
55:37
dad was . That was hard
55:39
for you and I remember you coming up
55:41
to me and telling me why do you have to date ? Why
55:43
do you have to go out ? You were 16 years
55:46
old and I'm like what
55:48
do you mean ? Well , yeah , I
55:50
don't understand why . And I said because
55:53
I don't want to be by myself . I didn't
55:55
want to be like my mom , by herself the whole life
55:57
and struggling . I wanted
55:59
to have a partner and I
56:02
had my partner and God had a
56:04
different plans At
56:09
that point . I remember you coming up to me and telling
56:11
me well , I miss my dad . And
56:13
I said well , I'm still in love with your dad . And
56:21
I said I didn't make this choice . God
56:25
did it and I still love him
56:27
and I love you , you . But I don't want to be by myself
56:29
. And
56:31
I remember you hugging me . We both
56:34
cried and now I
56:37
believe you're
56:39
his best friend . You're
56:42
really close to him and
56:44
that's why I say God doesn't make mistakes . However
56:49
he draws it out , it's
56:51
the perfect plan and
56:54
not anything in life is perfect , but
56:56
he makes it fit , because
57:01
I know you had a hard time with him in
57:03
the beginning . Yeah , you were so mad .
57:06
It's so interesting because you , like you
57:09
just said something . You said like god you know
57:11
, like everything's perfect , but not everything's perfect
57:13
kind of thing , but like then
57:16
, if you really think about it , like the imperfect
57:18
is perfect right
57:21
, and like that's like so much of
57:23
like your story
57:25
is , like it's like not this
57:28
like perfect story
57:31
at all . But without all of
57:33
that , those experiences , you wouldn't
57:35
have operated the way that you operate , which then
57:37
, in turn , wouldn't operate how I operate . But
57:39
I remember like I
57:41
remember like yelling and
57:44
telling Henry to get out of the house , and
57:46
all of that , like I
57:48
don't even know why , like well , I know why
57:50
, because I felt like I felt like
57:52
um .
57:54
Like he was invading on your .
57:57
No , I felt like he didn't need to be there Because
58:01
, as
58:03
I
58:05
think I was what
58:08
I was 11 years old , you were 16 . No , I was 11 years
58:10
old ?
58:10
you were 16 .
58:11
No , I was 11 years old , and
58:13
then when Baba passed away , or
58:15
10 or 11 , just about to be 11 and
58:19
then I remember that happening and
58:21
then I remember like
58:25
I think it was Amo Ali
58:27
, he like came
58:30
up to me and he was like you know
58:32
, you're the man of the house now .
58:33
Oh , that's right . Yes , I
58:36
remember that .
58:38
But I never understood , like , like
58:42
, why
58:45
it was me
58:47
instead of B and
58:50
like , but I just knew I
58:54
got to make sure that mom's okay
58:56
, blah , blah , blah , right . And
58:59
then I think that's
59:01
what bothered me . It's like I was like I'm
59:04
here .
59:05
What does she need somebody for ? You're
59:08
a kid , you know
59:10
, and I understand
59:13
where you're
59:15
coming from too , though , and
59:18
that's why I'm so proud of the person
59:20
you've become .
59:22
Well , yeah , and then like you go back
59:24
to , you go back to that . Then I'm like infuriated
59:27
about Henry , and then I don't know whaturiated about Henry , and
59:29
then I don't know what happened
59:32
or I don't know why , I
59:36
don't remember when , like we became
59:39
friends .
59:40
After you guys wrestled .
59:41
We fought right .
59:42
Yes , because you guys .
59:44
I was outside I like physically fought
59:46
him .
59:46
Yes , because you guys , we
59:50
were in the family room and there was some boards or something that needed
59:52
to be moved outside . So I
59:54
got up to go do it and he
59:56
was sitting there doing something and told you something
59:58
like why don't you go help your mom ? And
1:00:01
you said help her , do what ? And I
1:00:03
don't know what happened and you guys were
1:00:05
wrestling in the living room , in the
1:00:07
family room , and I'm like , stop whatever . And
1:00:10
it wasn't like to
1:00:13
hurt you , but you were so angry and you
1:00:15
had to take it out Because you
1:00:17
didn't know how to deal with it , like
1:00:19
him being in the house and him saying
1:00:21
something and you thought it wasn't
1:00:23
his place to say anything , but
1:00:27
he . After that you guys
1:00:29
became friends yeah and
1:00:33
then and then .
1:00:35
Yeah , I mean like , like you
1:00:37
know also , I think like around , like I
1:00:40
think when I was going to europe to go play soccer is when
1:00:42
I really realized , like when I was when I graduated high school , and then I was going , so when
1:00:44
I really realized like wait
1:00:46
a second . When I graduated high school and then I was going
1:00:48
, so when I really realized like wait a second
1:00:51
, now I'm leaving , my mom's got to have somebody
1:00:53
. I
1:00:55
think that was like my moment where I was like , oh
1:00:57
, it makes sense it might have .
1:00:59
it might have been because you didn't understand in the beginning
1:01:01
, like what do you need somebody for
1:01:03
? And I said I don't want to be by myself
1:01:05
. That's one thing I didn't want to
1:01:07
be
1:01:10
. I knew that
1:01:12
. I just didn't know that it would happen
1:01:14
again , because when Baba died I thought that
1:01:16
was it , it was over . I
1:01:20
didn't want anybody else , I just wanted him
1:01:22
and I couldn't have him .
1:01:28
Yeah , so
1:01:31
when you met Henry and then you fell in love with henry , like how did that ? Like
1:01:33
how ?
1:01:33
did you process that it was hard . When
1:01:36
I met him , it was just to just
1:01:38
like a friend and that was your thing
1:01:40
, because you sent me out with your friend's mom
1:01:42
. Eisen's mom said go out with
1:01:44
her , just go out with her mom have , because I
1:01:46
was always home yeah just depressed
1:01:48
yeah in the evenings . I was just there
1:01:51
. Then I was like you should go dancing
1:01:53
. Yeah , go dancing , because I love dancing . You said
1:01:55
you like dancing , just go . So that's
1:01:57
when I went , and probably
1:01:59
after the fourth time
1:02:02
going out with her is when I met
1:02:04
henry but did
1:02:06
you like , did you like
1:02:08
have like ?
1:02:09
uh , do you feel like guilty or
1:02:11
anything like that like um
1:02:14
like what was that feeling like
1:02:16
? Because , because , like you , it's
1:02:18
one thing like after you get divorced
1:02:20
right it's different .
1:02:21
Yeah , well , when you lose somebody it's
1:02:23
a lot , it's harder , but
1:02:27
you know that , whatever
1:02:30
like my thing was , I was going to
1:02:32
stay with him forever . Yeah . I didn't have a plan
1:02:34
to leave . Yeah . He
1:02:36
didn't have a plan to leave either . Yeah exactly
1:02:38
. We had talked before , I
1:02:40
know , right before he passed . It
1:02:43
was probably , I don't
1:02:45
know , right before he died . I think we
1:02:48
were talking and stuff . And he said you know , if anything
1:02:50
happened to me , I don't want right before he died . I think we were talking and
1:02:52
stuff and he said you know , if anything happened to me , I don't want
1:02:54
you to be by yourself . I'd
1:02:57
rather it happened to me than to you , because I wouldn't know how to raise a voice . And I
1:02:59
said don't talk like that . You know it's not . He
1:03:01
said well , if it does , I want you to remarry , I
1:03:03
don't want you to stay by yourself . And I said well
1:03:05
, I don't want you to remarry . And
1:03:09
he just laughed . But
1:03:12
he said I'm serious . And he kept saying I have to do this
1:03:14
, I have to do this , I have to do this before I'm
1:03:16
50 . I
1:03:19
didn't know he was going to die , you know , maybe he
1:03:21
didn't know either , but he just knew he had to
1:03:23
take care of some stuff before . Yeah
1:03:26
. So when I met henry , it was just
1:03:28
like just like 49 . That's
1:03:31
crazy yeah he was
1:03:33
young no , but it's
1:03:35
crazy that he would say that that he
1:03:37
had to do before he was 50 yeah , that was his
1:03:39
main thing was to get everything in order , and
1:03:43
it was really it wasn't working for
1:03:45
him . It was yeah it wasn't
1:03:47
in the plans and
1:03:49
so then .
1:03:49
So then , sorry , go ahead . So you're saying I met
1:03:52
.
1:03:52
I went dancing , I met henry and it
1:03:54
was just like he
1:03:56
was three years younger and I was like , oh , you're
1:03:59
a baby , like I don't even want to
1:04:01
deal with you , you know . And
1:04:03
he was like a baby . I'm not a baby . He was 40
1:04:05
. I think he was like 45
1:04:08
at that time yeah . I
1:04:11
just turned 49 . Yeah . And
1:04:13
I was like no way . And
1:04:15
little by little we would call
1:04:17
and talk to each other and then we started going out , but
1:04:20
as friends , and then it started getting a
1:04:22
little bit serious . And that's when I
1:04:24
introduced him to you . That's when I started bringing him
1:04:26
around .
1:04:27
Yeah and yeah , that's when I introduced him to you that's when I started bringing him around .
1:04:29
Yeah , because I didn't want to bring somebody in that
1:04:33
I wasn't sure of . Yeah , I
1:04:35
couldn't do that but .
1:04:37
But what I'm saying is , it's like when
1:04:39
you're , when you were doing
1:04:41
that , like , oh , like , how was
1:04:44
it like yeah , like how did it feel ? And then
1:04:46
like how was it for him ? Well , it was hard for him because feel , and then
1:04:48
like how ?
1:04:48
was it for him ? It was hard for him because he had
1:04:50
. It was more hard . I think it was more hard
1:04:52
for him than me because I already
1:04:54
had a standard that I wanted . Yeah
1:04:56
. I already lived with
1:04:59
a man that was a gentleman , that was
1:05:01
giving , that was loving , that was caring
1:05:03
, and
1:05:07
it was hard for him to live up to that . And I remember
1:05:10
one time we were going somewhere I
1:05:13
don't know what I had , went up there for the weekend and
1:05:15
I was ironing and I started crying and
1:05:18
I couldn't figure out why . And
1:05:22
I remember and
1:05:24
I used to iron your dad's suits
1:05:26
for work , his shirts , and
1:05:29
it hit me really , really hard . And
1:05:32
he walked in , he goes what's wrong ? And
1:05:35
I go nothing . He goes why are you
1:05:38
crying ? I go nothing . And
1:05:40
then that's when I broke down and I said , because
1:05:44
I'm still so in love with my
1:05:48
husband that passed and
1:05:51
I
1:05:55
don't know how to do this and I'm afraid . I'm
1:05:58
afraid to get close to you because
1:06:00
I'm still in love with
1:06:03
him and
1:06:05
I remember him holding me and reassuring
1:06:08
me and telling me just give
1:06:11
me that love and I'll take care of it . But
1:06:15
I know in the first probably was the
1:06:17
first four or five years was
1:06:20
up and down , it wasn't . And
1:06:22
I remember sitting after
1:06:26
I met him . I remember sitting and
1:06:29
telling God whatever you want , if
1:06:31
you want him in my life , leave him . If
1:06:33
you don't take him out now , because I can't do
1:06:35
this , I
1:06:38
can't think I have something
1:06:41
and I don't yeah and
1:06:44
and
1:06:46
he . He
1:06:48
showed me that . You
1:06:51
know that I
1:06:53
don't know . It was hard for me . Yeah
1:06:56
. And I sat there and I told I
1:06:58
remember saying bye to him and telling him that it
1:07:00
was over . I couldn't do this anymore . Just
1:07:03
leave me alone , you know , and
1:07:07
it was really hard for me because
1:07:09
I had already given him my
1:07:12
heart and
1:07:16
I always wished why did
1:07:18
you leave me ? Why do I have to go through this again
1:07:20
? And
1:07:23
I would tell God I know
1:07:25
you have your reasons . Um
1:07:28
, you don't make mistakes . Just
1:07:30
help me with this one and
1:07:33
remember he moved out for three months . Yeah
1:07:36
. And then he wanted
1:07:38
to move back . And I was so brokenhearted and
1:07:40
I said , when he left and
1:07:42
you guys watched me cry and then
1:07:46
he said oh , I need to move back
1:07:48
, I want to rent a room from you , remember
1:07:50
. And everybody said no , mom , don't
1:07:52
do it , don't do it . He already Stephen was saying no
1:07:54
, don't do it because he already broke your heart once . And
1:07:56
I said but if I don't do it now , I'll
1:07:58
never know . And
1:08:01
God opened the door again . And
1:08:04
then we were married .
1:08:05
Like what , six
1:08:07
months later , yeah
1:08:15
, and then we were married , like what ? Six months later , yeah
1:08:17
, and then and then . In between all of this , there was
1:08:19
when , when , when
1:08:21
was it that Corinne
1:08:24
tried because the house went into her
1:08:26
name ? When , yeah , the house
1:08:28
right before Baba passed away right . He put
1:08:30
it because he was doing something for a loan or something
1:08:33
that right , and so then , so he does
1:08:35
that , and then Baba passes away . And
1:08:37
then how old were we when ?
1:08:40
When she tried to sell the house , you were 13
1:08:43
. You were 13
1:08:45
and Bijan was what ? 14
1:08:48
or 15 . Yeah , that would make sense
1:08:50
like a couple years after he passed away . She
1:08:54
because they moved in with us yeah , they
1:08:56
were gonna move in with us . They were moving
1:08:58
in they like repainted everything
1:09:00
, yeah , everything . I had moved from the master bedroom
1:09:02
downstairs yeah put all my stuff there
1:09:05
and they .
1:09:05
I was giving them the master bedroom because they were going to
1:09:07
help with all the payment and everything .
1:09:08
Yeah , and then we
1:09:11
fixed the room for the baby , and
1:09:14
that's when I
1:09:16
bought sung's car
1:09:18
. Yeah , I had a van and
1:09:20
I was giving it to desi because desi didn't have
1:09:22
a car at the time and corinne got mad and
1:09:25
said I can't deal with this . I'm moving in with you
1:09:27
and you're buying a car . Yeah . So
1:09:31
she left . After that , probably
1:09:34
a year later or two , she
1:09:37
wanted to sell the house and she leaves
1:09:39
notes for you guys .
1:09:41
I don't remember the notes still .
1:09:45
I have a note actually saved still , but she left one on your
1:09:47
pillow , one on Bijan's pillow and
1:09:49
one in my room Because
1:09:52
everybody had a key to the house . And
1:09:55
you get home , and you , when
1:09:57
I come home from work , you tell me Mom
1:09:59
, what's this ? Rina's going to sell
1:10:02
our house . And I said what ? Yeah . I
1:10:04
hadn't even seen the note yet and
1:10:07
that's when I went furious and I
1:10:09
called her and I said how dare you yeah
1:10:12
, but she wanted to she wanted
1:10:14
to sell the house and
1:10:16
then for years .
1:10:20
So I remember so . So it's funny because , like , I
1:10:22
don't remember the note , but I remember that feeling and
1:10:24
I remember it happening . I just don't remember like
1:10:26
reading the note . I don't know why that feeling and I remember it happening
1:10:29
, I just don't remember like reading the note , I don't
1:10:31
know why . And then I remember like that was right when I started
1:10:33
, I think right
1:10:36
around when I started training with Zach , and
1:10:40
it was like it
1:10:42
was like before , it was like I
1:10:44
want to play pro soccer , but when I started training Zach
1:10:47
I saw like an actual avenue of like getting
1:10:49
there what you could get , yeah , how to get there . Because
1:10:51
he was already doing it . He was already
1:10:53
coaching the pros
1:10:55
the best in the world , right . So then
1:10:58
I like saw that , and
1:11:00
then I think that was when I like decided
1:11:03
for me . It was when I like
1:11:06
was like I have to play pro because
1:11:08
I have to pay , I have to buy my mom
1:11:10
her house , because
1:11:12
I knew how hard
1:11:14
you work to keep the house for this long . So then
1:11:17
, so , then , fast forward , like you're
1:11:19
, you know , we're there , and but
1:11:22
there was always like this thing where she'd always try to
1:11:24
do something with the house yeah , she always .
1:11:26
She always wanted money from me and I refused
1:11:28
it . I argued with her and
1:11:32
you know I was barely
1:11:34
making ends meet . And then she'd
1:11:36
call me and say she wanted , you know
1:11:38
, you want your house back . You need to buy it from me . What
1:11:40
do you mean ? Yeah . You know
1:11:42
, we gave her . For
1:11:44
her to put the house in her name , we had to pay off
1:11:46
all her debt her
1:11:49
to . For her to put the house in her name , we had to pay off all her debt . Yeah , that was over
1:11:51
50 , I think 50 000 or something . And we did a lot of things
1:11:53
and she lived with us until she was 25 years
1:11:55
old without paying anything . Yeah and
1:11:58
then this happens where she
1:12:00
wants to take it , and I don't believe it was so
1:12:02
much her , but I
1:12:04
think it was more the husband . Yeah . And
1:12:06
her , but still because that
1:12:09
was my child . It was so
1:12:11
wrong .
1:12:13
Yeah , and then . So then , you
1:12:16
, you , we , fast
1:12:18
forward . Um , this
1:12:20
is all going out from , basically , when I'm 13
1:12:23
till a couple of years ago
1:12:25
, basically .
1:12:26
Yeah , it's probably 2020 , 19
1:12:28
. I
1:12:32
don't know when I 2020 , 2021 , 2021
1:12:34
. Yeah , well , then she gets , then she wants to call me again remember she starts calling me and
1:12:38
I didn't want to do anything with her .
1:12:39
So then you call her and say , hey , what's going
1:12:41
on , what's going on because , because , so
1:12:44
I remember like , like I
1:12:47
don't know what age it was , but I remember like Stephen
1:12:49
getting married
1:12:52
or whatever leaving and then like
1:12:54
not talking to the family at all .
1:12:55
Right .
1:12:56
And then . So like
1:12:58
I remember being . You
1:13:00
know , I don't know how old
1:13:02
I was , but I just remember , like my
1:13:04
uncle , who I thought was the best person in the world
1:13:07
, gone , then
1:13:09
my dad being gone and then my older brother
1:13:11
being gone , yeah and then I
1:13:14
remember like I was
1:13:16
really close with um
1:13:18
, with Ina Corrine , and
1:13:21
she was like I was always really close with her , yes
1:13:23
, and then when this all happened
1:13:25
, I was like kind of like what the
1:13:27
heck is on ? But I always tried to stay
1:13:29
close with her , true Like . I was
1:13:31
the only one that would like go hang out with her
1:13:33
talk to her or talk to her have lunch with her ? Yes
1:13:35
, and
1:13:41
then it
1:13:43
was in yeah
1:13:46
, maybe like what , 2019 , 2020
1:13:48
, around that time when she
1:13:50
called you or something , because she wanted
1:13:52
to do something with the house again she wanted
1:13:54
me to pay her $65,000
1:13:58
, and then she would say sign
1:14:00
over the house yeah , but she didn't realize
1:14:02
what I do for a living .
1:14:05
Exactly .
1:14:06
Because I
1:14:08
went to go play in Europe . Then I came
1:14:10
back and then you know I stopped playing .
1:14:11
You were all over the place , right .
1:14:13
And then now I own this real estate
1:14:15
company and it's one of
1:14:17
the top real estate companies . So she didn't realize that that's
1:14:19
what I do . And then my
1:14:22
whole goal was you
1:14:24
know , I had two goals in life One , pay
1:14:26
my mom's house off . Two , buy a g-wagon
1:14:29
. And then I think
1:14:31
I , I , I , I got the g-wagon
1:14:33
and then , and then the
1:14:37
goal was to do that . And then she
1:14:40
called you to try to get more
1:14:42
, to get money or whatever yeah , and
1:14:44
then I called her and I was like hey , like this
1:14:47
is like you . You know , this is what I do now
1:14:49
.
1:14:49
Like , let me you know yeah , how much do you
1:14:51
want ? You said you want five thousand ten thousand
1:14:53
. What do you want ?
1:14:54
yeah , she said no yeah , I actually asked
1:14:56
her . I actually asked her first , like just
1:14:58
to like , hey , like I could just assume
1:15:01
the loan , I could do this , yada yada , she didn't
1:15:03
want to , she didn't want to . So I said , okay , like
1:15:05
how much money do you ?
1:15:06
And
1:15:08
.
1:15:08
I asked her how much money she wanted and
1:15:10
I said you know , I'll give you five grand , ten
1:15:12
grand , whatever . And I said do
1:15:14
you want 20 grand ? She goes , it's got to be a lot more than
1:15:16
that . And I said well , I'll
1:15:19
make you a deal . I was like one . You
1:15:22
say you talk to me , you care about
1:15:25
me , you this , you that you
1:15:30
talk to me , you care about me , you this , you that like . then , then like , if you want a relationship
1:15:32
, she because she said her , she would always say her relationship with the rest of the family's
1:15:34
gone right right , right right which
1:15:37
, like my siblings , they
1:15:39
all will tell her
1:15:41
that me I was always like no
1:15:43
, it's not like , for me it's not gone Right
1:15:45
, because I remember her
1:15:48
bringing Stephen back , because
1:15:52
when Stephen came back home it was on Christmas
1:15:54
and she had
1:15:56
arranged him to come back home and
1:16:00
he came back home on Christmas but he hadn't talked
1:16:02
to the family for a little while .
1:16:04
Yeah .
1:16:05
And I was the only one that talked to Stephen , like I would like
1:16:07
reach out to Stephen or his
1:16:10
ex like on , like I don't know
1:16:12
, like a messenger or something , and then we talk , and then
1:16:14
I'd like talk to them a little bit and blah , blah , blah
1:16:16
, and then like that was it . But then then
1:16:19
, after he got divorced
1:16:22
or whatever , then he came back home , right
1:16:24
, and I remember that , and then so
1:16:26
and I like told her
1:16:28
that I was like look like , what
1:16:30
do you mean ? Like it's family , your family , it
1:16:32
doesn't matter , everybody's gonna accept you back , no matter
1:16:34
what , right . And she
1:16:36
was like no , it's not like that . Blah , blah , blah . And then she
1:16:38
told me that
1:16:40
she thinks that . Um , and then she
1:16:42
told me she was like no , the relationship like
1:16:44
it's done like they , no one likes
1:16:47
me . And I said , like I care about you
1:16:49
. So how about this ? If
1:16:51
you want a relationship with me period , no
1:16:53
one else , just your little brother
1:16:55
then
1:16:57
let's try and figure this out . But
1:17:00
if you want $50,000 , $60,000
1:17:03
versus a relationship with me , then you just let me know that
1:17:05
. And
1:17:08
she said that she wanted the money . So
1:17:11
then I hired an attorney and
1:17:13
then ended up paying
1:17:15
the house off and getting the house back
1:17:17
from from
1:17:20
her . But my
1:17:23
question really is is like , like
1:17:26
I
1:17:28
remember I remember sitting
1:17:30
down with you at breakfast
1:17:33
one of the mornings when I was going through
1:17:35
the paying it off and I had just got the
1:17:37
payoff statement and it had
1:17:39
like thirty thousand dollars of late fees . And
1:17:43
I was so mad at you and
1:17:45
I sat down with you and I was like what
1:17:48
the heck ? Like why are there late
1:17:50
fees ? Like we
1:17:52
, like we've been okay for a while , like I've
1:17:54
been making money , like what do you mean ? There's late fees
1:17:56
, blah , blah , blah . And I was so mad that you
1:17:59
had late fees because you're missing mortgage
1:18:01
and yada , yada . I was so upset and
1:18:04
then you told me , you told
1:18:06
me , you told
1:18:08
me , you told me , you told me , si
1:18:10
, I've always been two
1:18:12
months behind because
1:18:14
, since your dad passed away , because you can go two
1:18:17
months , you just can't go three months . And
1:18:23
I remember just thinking like for the
1:18:25
last , from when I was 11
1:18:28
years old , what you're telling me , from when I was 11
1:18:30
years old , all the way to when I was what
1:18:32
, 26 , 27
1:18:34
? You were two months
1:18:36
behind on more . You just didn't go three
1:18:39
months . How
1:18:41
do you deal with . Like
1:18:43
, were you just never stressed , was it
1:18:45
just a norm ? Like , was it just like ?
1:18:49
It was surviving . It was like either
1:18:51
I pay this and stay
1:18:54
without this or just
1:18:56
keep it going so that we're surviving
1:18:58
, so that it doesn't go into foreclosure
1:19:00
, but I'm still able to do other things
1:19:03
. I was working four jobs . Yeah
1:19:05
. You know , and none
1:19:07
of the four jobs amounted to , you
1:19:10
know , to pass the payment
1:19:12
. Yeah , so it was either the payment and
1:19:15
then don't pay this and this , or
1:19:18
leave the payment the way it is , just continue
1:19:20
to make it . Yeah . So that I could
1:19:22
do other things for the house .
1:19:26
So then , what did it feel like when you realize
1:19:29
you didn't have to make a house payment again ?
1:19:30
it's still unbelievable . I
1:19:34
still get like awed
1:19:38
by the fact that I
1:19:41
mean , I'm still working , I still have two things
1:19:43
to pay , but it's not
1:19:45
like , so stressed
1:19:47
that I said , oh dang , I got to make this payment
1:19:49
.
1:19:50
Yeah .
1:19:50
You know , it's
1:19:55
a big relief , it's
1:19:58
a blessing , and
1:20:01
I tell everybody about it because
1:20:04
I'm very blessed . Because
1:20:09
I'm very blessed , I
1:20:11
don't think I could have . I
1:20:14
mean , whatever it was I could have overcame
1:20:16
whatever , because that's my
1:20:18
mode . I
1:20:22
can't just sit there and not move . But you
1:20:25
made it a lot easier . Bijan
1:20:30
has made it
1:20:33
a lot easier . Bijan has made it
1:20:35
a lot easier . I
1:20:38
see so much of your
1:20:41
dad in you guys . I don't know how to explain it , but
1:20:44
it's just like
1:20:47
a lift off your shoulders .
1:20:58
Yeah , so now you're where you're at
1:21:00
right now , because we basically went through your whole life
1:21:02
now . Thank
1:21:07
you .
1:21:13
And now , what's your like ? You've been traveling more . Yes , we've been traveling a
1:21:15
lot more and we've been doing things a little bit things to the house , yeah , um , things
1:21:17
that I wasn't able to take care of before
1:21:19
. Um , even you
1:21:22
helped put a roof on the house
1:21:24
yeah , I put a new roof on your roof
1:21:26
yeah , and then we were solar yeah
1:21:28
, and solar , and so that's
1:21:30
a a whole different . Like
1:21:33
wow , there's a new roof on here .
1:21:35
You know what I mean well , the roof hadn't been replaced since
1:21:37
the house was built in 1970
1:21:39
freaking no 64 64
1:21:41
.
1:21:41
I don't think so no I literally had it yeah
1:21:44
, see and
1:21:46
it was literally falling apart and
1:21:48
it was like a I don't know . It's just like . That's
1:21:51
why I say god doesn't make mistakes . Whatever
1:21:54
happened happens for reasons
1:21:56
and it got you where you're at . It
1:21:58
got your brother where he's at . You
1:22:01
know , the other three kids were fine because they were
1:22:03
almost adults when baba passed yeah
1:22:05
and he raised
1:22:07
them yeah and
1:22:09
his . I think the best
1:22:11
thing in life is when
1:22:14
you raise your kids with morals . You
1:22:18
don't have to worry about anything , because
1:22:21
everybody always tells me hey , you're a
1:22:23
, you got your . You've been a really good
1:22:25
mama . You raise your boys right . I said I didn't
1:22:27
do it by myself . They
1:22:29
said , yeah , you know , because they know your dad
1:22:31
died . And I said , no , it's
1:22:33
like when you plant a tree on the ground and
1:22:36
you put the stick to hold it and the and
1:22:39
you just have to water it so that it grows strong
1:22:41
yeah that was already done with you guys by
1:22:43
him and I just had to continue
1:22:46
to water
1:22:48
you guys so you guys can flourish
1:22:50
yeah if it was , whether um
1:22:53
encouraging you
1:22:55
, you know , and letting you know
1:22:57
that anything is possible and
1:23:00
continue to to water and
1:23:03
fill your mind with anything is possible
1:23:05
your
1:23:12
mind with , anything is possible .
1:23:13
And I think that was like for me , like the , because I like talked to a lot of my friends and I
1:23:15
talked to like a lot of different people about , like you know , how they're brought up , how
1:23:17
their kids are their parents , and like I think the
1:23:19
big like differentiator for
1:23:21
me and my childhood
1:23:23
minus the death , minus
1:23:25
the hardship , minus all of that that
1:23:27
we dealt with was
1:23:30
that you always
1:23:32
said you can do anything you put your mind
1:23:35
to . I come up with some
1:23:37
idea and you'd like do it . It
1:23:39
was never like , uh
1:23:42
, I don't know about that , you
1:23:44
probably shouldn't , you know . It was always like do
1:23:46
it , if you want to do it , you can do it . When
1:23:48
I started a clothing company , you're like if you want to do it , you can do
1:23:50
it . When I did this is if you want
1:23:52
to do it , you can do it , and that
1:23:55
I think , mentality
1:23:57
created
1:23:59
what like how I think , because
1:24:02
, like I truly believe I can literally
1:24:04
do anything and you can .
1:24:08
You can because , since you were 13 maybe
1:24:10
no , you might have been like 12
1:24:13
, 12 or 13
1:24:15
when you started coaching kids yeah remember
1:24:17
that yeah because you needed pocket money
1:24:19
. So since you were that age
1:24:22
, you always tried to figure out how
1:24:24
you didn't have to stress me
1:24:26
on what you needed and make your own little
1:24:28
pocket money to do the things you had to
1:24:30
do yeah you know what I
1:24:32
mean . So you were always
1:24:34
there , you
1:24:36
just had to be molded
1:24:41
a little bit yeah , and
1:24:44
then and then now .
1:24:46
So I said you're , you're fixing
1:24:48
up the house a little bit , traveling a little
1:24:50
bit , what's
1:24:53
like . Like if
1:24:55
you had to give like one piece of advice
1:24:57
to someone
1:24:59
that's struggling , someone
1:25:01
that just lost somebody , somebody
1:25:03
that's a single mom , that
1:25:06
that , whether it's because of divorce , because
1:25:08
of death , what
1:25:11
piece of advice would you give them ?
1:25:14
Don't give up . Continue Because
1:25:17
there's something better for
1:25:19
you coming , because
1:25:24
things don't happen . You just don't get divorced
1:25:26
just because Somebody
1:25:28
doesn't die , just because it's
1:25:30
because there's a different plan that
1:25:33
you don't have and you can't see
1:25:35
it yet , but it'll be there .
1:25:38
And how do you suggest
1:25:40
people keep that , I
1:25:44
guess faith when they're going
1:25:46
through all of this crazy pain
1:25:48
.
1:25:48
They have to believe . That's
1:25:50
what kept me going . There's
1:25:53
a higher power , I believe , and
1:25:57
that's how I got through it and I'm sure that's
1:25:59
how you did it . I kept you guys in
1:26:01
Bible camps . I kept you guys busy
1:26:03
. You guys were always busy . Yeah
1:26:06
. You know , catechism
1:26:08
, everything . Because I wanted those morals
1:26:10
instilled in you , I wanted you to know that
1:26:13
there was a higher power and
1:26:15
I believe that I believe so
1:26:17
much in God and I know that he doesn't make mistakes
1:26:19
, no matter how I was
1:26:22
raised I mean , I wasn't
1:26:24
raised going to church all the time- yeah . But
1:26:26
yet you guys were . Yeah . From
1:26:28
day one . Every Sunday
1:26:30
, we went to church . Yeah . You know , and
1:26:33
it wasn't just because , oh , I want them to go to
1:26:35
church . No , I wanted you guys to believe
1:26:37
in the higher power . Yeah , and to
1:26:39
have a fear of like
1:26:42
there's somebody up there
1:26:44
that is watching us .
1:26:46
Well , there was also like it's actually
1:26:48
very interesting that you just said that , because that made me think
1:26:50
about something . Now
1:26:55
I was about to end the podcast , but now I'm going to
1:26:57
go on a tangent . It made me think about something
1:27:00
we went to . You said that we went to Bible but
1:27:04
we did not go to
1:27:06
a single denomination . We literally
1:27:08
went to every single
1:27:10
. I was like , I was like my mom
1:27:12
just used it as daycare . Now that I think about it
1:27:15
, you know , because we went to , we
1:27:17
went to like every religion , every
1:27:19
freaking uh uh uh denomination
1:27:22
of Christianity , every religion everything but like
1:27:24
why , Cause there's only one God
1:27:26
?
1:27:26
It doesn't matter if he's in
1:27:28
Catholic church , Christian church , whatever
1:27:31
church he's in , there's only one . Yeah
1:27:33
. And that's the truth , because even your
1:27:35
dad was what Muslim . Yeah . But
1:27:37
not practicing , and he always used
1:27:39
to tell me the stories and they're all the same . So
1:27:42
there's not no difference between a Muslim
1:27:44
, between an Arabic
1:27:46
, whatever Greek . It's all the same religion
1:27:49
. When you come down to it , it's
1:27:51
one person , one higher
1:27:53
power , and that's God .
1:27:55
I like , I like always say
1:27:57
, like I think that , like all of the
1:28:00
religions
1:28:02
and the , the teachings
1:28:04
they all really base like , come down
1:28:06
to like two things . It's like one
1:28:09
like be a good person and
1:28:11
the second like love , love other people , and
1:28:14
I think that if we can do that , then
1:28:16
it's just about a relationship with God
1:28:19
, right ?
1:28:19
Exactly , exactly .
1:28:20
And I think that going to
1:28:22
different you know
1:28:25
, well , well , yeah , that that actually
1:28:27
made me like , also
1:28:29
, I think , like , be more tolerant
1:28:31
of other people , because it's very easy when
1:28:33
you're only stuck in one way . Then
1:28:36
, like , like , I've met a lot
1:28:38
of my friends that feel like they went to only this
1:28:40
, they only learned this , they only learned about this
1:28:42
church or this religion
1:28:45
, and they feel like they were quote unquote brainwashed
1:28:47
when they were little , right when
1:28:49
, like , like you open
1:28:51
the door to allow us to
1:28:54
see everything else . And
1:28:56
then , and then you
1:28:59
showed us hey , this is what I believe in , this is what I
1:29:01
do , but like , you allowed us to see everything
1:29:03
else , versus close the door and say you
1:29:05
can't see everything else , you
1:29:08
can only see what I want you to see . And I think that was . I
1:29:11
think that like is such an important concept
1:29:13
. Going back to that , because like it
1:29:16
made a , it made it be our choice
1:29:18
to to believe
1:29:20
in god or not , to believe in god or to
1:29:22
believe that this is the , the way or
1:29:24
this is the . Like it made it our choice , versus
1:29:27
like , you have to do it this way .
1:29:28
Right right .
1:29:29
You know , which I
1:29:32
think is unconventional for a lot of parents , because
1:29:34
a lot of parents , they want you to just do
1:29:36
what they believe is right
1:29:38
and that's it period .
1:29:40
And my goal was to
1:29:42
give you guys to
1:29:47
see the world , but to have morals
1:29:49
, because without morals you
1:29:51
can be the richest person , but it doesn't matter
1:29:53
yeah because you don't have
1:29:55
any morals . And I think morals
1:29:58
is the number one key
1:30:00
. If you're a good person and you're
1:30:02
an honest person and you're
1:30:04
a caring person , you're a loving person , that's
1:30:07
all that matters . Yeah , it
1:30:09
doesn't matter , because you can be . You can lose
1:30:11
everything today , but because of your
1:30:13
morals , you can get up and go tomorrow yeah
1:30:15
, I love that .
1:30:17
Thanks , mama , for being on the podcast . I
1:30:20
love you love you too .
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