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Good morning everybody . Welcome to

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another episode of Still Rose's

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podcast . This podcast was created for women

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, by women . What

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you don't know is that this is take two , take

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one this morning . For

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some reason , every once in a while my

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laptop will

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change the settings or something to

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that effect . So yesterday it was like my camera setting

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was off and then I

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couldn't . The camera was locked , and it

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doesn't matter because I don't do footage , but either

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way it was annoying because I do like to see , like

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myself on camera when I talk . It helps

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a little bit , I think , for me . This

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morning my mic was off , so I started

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recording our episode today and I had

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to stop because , thankfully , I actually noticed

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it , because otherwise I wouldn't really upset . So

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anyway , this is actually take

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two of this morning's episode . So

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what I wanted to share too , because

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it kind of brings me full circle with the topics

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that I wanted to bring up today . For

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those of you who've been listening for a while , you do know that

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, um , I have endometriosis

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and um , we've gone through

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like the disease and what

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that means and what , what the full

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story is . Um , for those of you who haven't

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been listening , we do have an endometriosis episode

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. Um , it aired in March . I'm going to link it in

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this episode so you can hear the full

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story . Um

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, at the time I met with a patient advocate , laura . She's amazing . She's really

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trying to make waves and

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set up a better future for

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people with endometriosis , because

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the disease itself goes undiagnosed for so

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long that it causes a lot of issues

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for women , including

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infertility and just I mean

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, pain , the mental health state

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like it runs the gamut . There's loads of

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information out there . Oh , excuse me

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, let me correct that . There is not loads of information

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out there . There

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are only some websites that actually have actual

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, legitimate information , which is why

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this disease goes undiagnosed for so long

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. In

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any case , I'm going to link that episode so you can listen

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to that , because there's a lot of good information in there . But

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what I'm focusing in on is that yesterday

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I had a bit of a and a

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bit by a bit . I mean I had a flare

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up and I haven't had one in a really long

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time . So when you have endometriosis

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, your cycles are incredibly painful and

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, amongst a variety of

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other symptoms , but

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pain is one of the most prevalent

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. I

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have a pretty high tolerance and

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I usually , as most women

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do , cope and power through when

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there's episodes like that . However , I

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was unprepared yesterday , so I normally

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, when I have my cycle

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, have to take Lidol

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or pain relievers

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every two hours when I

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have it , because if I don't , the

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pain becomes excruciating . And

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so , for the most part , I'm just trying to numb for

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the entire time that I have my cycle

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. Most

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part I'm just trying to numb for the entire time that I have my cycle . For all intents and purposes , as

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I get older , I'm trying to cut back the amount of medicine that I take

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because it is affecting my stomach which

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food for thought for all of you , you know , younger

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than 40 , it does happen eventually , like

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your body starts to just not , it starts to reject

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stuff . So I'm trying to be mindful of that

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and I thought to myself well , this medicine is this last

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like four hours . We took the kids

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out and I didn't . I

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usually carry it with me , so that way , once I start

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to sense that it's the

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medicine is wearing off , I can take it immediately

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and I don't have any any gaps . So

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what ended up happening

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is I didn't take it with me , I thought I could

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just deal with it and I

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ended up having one of the worst episodes

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I have had in years . Like

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years I

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take medicine , like I'm trying really hard not to further damage my stomach and I

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got I was making dinner and I was trying to

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get everything out and you know I I know it sounds a little dumb like

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just , jenny , grab a handful of something , eat it

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and take your medicine . Like you have to get that medicine in . I

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was in mom mode , slash

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wife mode , and was

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like I need to get food cooked because everyone

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was griping and starving and crying and

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like you know , and I myself

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was getting grouchy and so it just it was

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just one of those like snowball moments . I

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ended up in the middle of my kitchen , like

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tears coming down my face , as I'm like grilling

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chicken . Like just because

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I was in such severe

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pain to the

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point where my kids like stopped me . They're like , mommy , just stop

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. Like just sit down , it's okay . Like it's okay , we

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can eat cereal . Like that's literally what they told me We'll

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eat cereal , you don't have to cook

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. So

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I took medicine . As

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soon as I take the medicine , within like 30

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or 40 minutes , everything starts to dissipate and

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I was okay the rest of the evening

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. But that

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intensity in that moment made

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me think of all of you because

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, for what

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it's worth , in that

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moment I

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felt connected to every single other endometriosis

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patient . It's

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a very painful

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personal

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journey that a lot of women go on because

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they're undiagnosed

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and because it happens

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, because the pain , because it's associated

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with your period , there

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is a certain level of shame that comes with it

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for some , but there's also

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like a whole layer of secrecy out

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there for women who experienced any

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adverse symptoms during

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their period . Yeah , because

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period is supposedly like a

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dirty word . It's your period . We bring

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life into this world , ladies , we're

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the only beings on this planet that

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serve as a portal from

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someplace else that

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brings life here . Period

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is not a dirty word , it's

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just not . And

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for some reason we're like conditioned I mean , I know

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why , because of the patriarchy , but like don't

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get me started so we're

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conditioned to believe

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it's a secret and we need to keep it a secret

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. We can't let anyone know about it , like we can't let

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anyone know that we have our periods . It's

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not a dirty word , ladies , we all have it , and

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we have it because we're bringing life into this world

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. So it

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had gotten me thinking , you know , while I was going through

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that . Of course , everybody like I started thinking

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of everyone , but then I started thinking about my daughters . Now , endometriosis

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If you have like heavy

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bleeding , irregular periods , painful

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periods , excruciating cramps

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, um pain in your

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backside which , by the way , if you've ever

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experienced excruciating pain in your backside

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, that doesn't mean you're dying it could

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be a symptom of endometriosis

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. There's a lot of stuff that

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happens that women just don't

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talk about , myself included . I remember getting

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excruciating pain in

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my butt when I was about 11

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. I had no idea what it was and

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in my head I was like I'm not saying anything about this because

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I'm not having anyone go in there . So

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there's a lot of that in there . So , anyway , it

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had me to start to think about my

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daughters , because endometriosis is a hereditary

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disease and my

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mind immediately goes to I don't want them to go through

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this pain . I don't want them to have these issues

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. Endometriosis causes infertility . So

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I started

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getting worked up about it . But then I remembered

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something quite crucial . I

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happen to know about this disease and

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, instead of telling them

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to just deal with it and take aspirin

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, I actually know what will help them

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. I know what will save their uterus

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. I know what will save them years of questioning

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, like what's going on with my body , and

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I am the type of person

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that will go right in with them to the doctor and

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let them know , like this is what's going on . You

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need to treat them appropriately . That's

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the benefit here is that I have this experience

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, that I can now help my kids and help anybody

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else who's experiencing

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this symptom or who you

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know has a child that's experiencing it , and

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maybe you don't realize that you have it too , which

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, on that note , by the way new feature

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for the podcast you should be able

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to direct message me through

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the actual wherever you're listening , there should

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be a link that says contact and I think

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that , like I tested it , like I

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got it , but

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if you message me there , like I'll be able to get in touch with you . So if you have

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questions about this , please like message me . But

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anyway , it got me thinking about them and being prepared for them and how being a mom has made me look

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at things differently and through a lens of I want to make sure my children are prepared and I want

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to make sure that they're they have everything not

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material things , but mentally prepared

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for life before they

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leave the nest and you know when they

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decide to leave the nest , because I'm sure as heck not going to

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push them out anytime early . So

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it got me . I

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started thinking through what I want

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to share with all of you and then , of

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course , you've all been hearing me talk about how nervous

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I am having everybody home

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for summer break , because we

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know it's day two for

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me , know

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it's day two for me . So I started looking through Pinterest , which is like my fave spot to

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go to because unproblematic , not a lot of ridiculous things on there

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. I can just kind of scroll through some nice

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topics and food recipes and call

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it a night . Just

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in case anybody doesn't know this about me , I

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am rather unproblematic . I like

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to just be easygoing , because you

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know why . Why be stressed out all the time ? Well

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, I came across this quote and

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it it's some

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. It's like food for thought because , especially

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since now that everybody's home , the house is going to be

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messier , instead of sending

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them to school and having them buy

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lunch , I actually am going to have to

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have lunch ready for everybody every single

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day Breakfast , lunch and dinner

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three meals . I'm going to have to get on

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that bandwagon at this

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point . So

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this quote reads what a privilege

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it is to clean a house made dirty by

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healthy children playing , to

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wash dishes , because we were able to eat

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three meals today and to do

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piles of laundry , because we all have clean

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clothes to wear every day . Now

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let's let that sink in

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for a second and really

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think about that , because

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we actually

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circle back to that kind

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of thinking , that way of thinking , quite a bit

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. Here in this house we

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always my husband and I always are very mindful to remind each other

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to be grateful because we came from such

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small , such a small

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setting . We came from an apartment

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that was so small for us . We were busting

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at the seams , the building wasn't

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in good shape . I mean , appearance

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wise was glossy , but the building itself

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was infested and it was just

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gross , like it just wasn't a good living

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environment for my family for

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any family really , in my opinion . We

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were fortunate enough to be able to buy a home and

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move , and so now

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when we're here in our home and

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we get frustrated about certain

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things aspects of the house I

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hate our refrigerator . With a fiery passion

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, I wasn't able to buy a brand new refrigerator

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when we moved in . I hate our refrigerator

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. I say it all the time . I hate it . And

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I talked to the refrigerator itself and I say I hate you so

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much , but

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I have a refrigerator . You know

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like there's people that

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only have a small like

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box . You know , like they don't

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have everything . My

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kids destroyed the living room the

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other day . Building a fort destroyed it . Then they

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left it like that , but

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they actually do have a living room to play in . We

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had such a small setting

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when we were in our apartment totally

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different . You know their bedrooms

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themselves . They have these full , beautiful

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closets and I always keep them really nicely . The

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girls go in there , pick out their own clothes . I

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get mad that they throw everything everywhere

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, but at the same time I'm like but they have this space

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to grow into . You know

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there's so much to it . I

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was pissed off about our dryer , that

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our dryer is eating some

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of my spaghetti straps and the girl's spaghetti straps

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. So I got , I got us a fresh clothes for the

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summer and again , another thing

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to be grateful for , because I couldn't do that before it

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was eating our spaghetti straps . The dryer , and

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my husband just reminded me . Well , do you

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remember having to lug all the laundry down to the basement

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? And you

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know , deal with other people taking your clothes

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out of the washer and dryer because they want to put their

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clothes in , because you didn't wash it fast enough , and

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then if you left it down there for too long , like the bugs

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will get into it and this and that . And he

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reminded me about how terrible it is was

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before and I was like all right , I

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can deal with the fact that our dryer is old at

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this house for now , until I can replace

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it and eat my spaghetti straps , because it's not

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in a basement , it's not a scary gross basement

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, it's in my home . So there's

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so much more to

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be grateful for that happens

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in our daily lives that we really

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just never think about . So I'm challenging

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you here today on this episode

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. Don't

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the thing no

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, let me . Let me rephrase that Not don't , immediately

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today , when you get pissed

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off about something oh

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my God , air conditioning in my car doesn't work

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. You

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have a car . How many people

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do you drive past at the bus stop waiting

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for the bus because they don't have a car ? They

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have to wait outside . They have to leave their house two hours early

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, sometimes for work , because they don't have a car . Oh my God , you

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know the . I have to go out there

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and I have to vacuum our pool . You

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have a pool . You

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have a pool , yeah , and it

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entails work , but you have one . Oh

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my gosh , there's mosquitoes in the backyard . The

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backyard is overrun with mosquitoes . You

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have a backyard . Do

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you see where I'm going with this ? Like , oh

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my God , I'm so sick and tired of having to cook

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food for everybody . That's my , that's actually my complaint . I'm

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just going to share that . Oh my God , I'm so sick and tired

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of having to cook food for everybody . I

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have a family there . There's all these

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different levels of there

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. There's all these different levels

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of like complaints that we have

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that you can counter with a . Well

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, I can be grateful because I have this . I

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tried to record outside this morning and

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my mic wasn't working , which I

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shared , and there was also bugs and flies and a

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giant spider like hanging out right in front of me , so I had to come back inside

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and I was a little bit annoyed and I was like hanging out right in front

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of me . So I had to come back inside and

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I was a little bit annoyed and I was like oh God , it's

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ridiculous , but I laugh

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at myself because I'm like , well , yeah , sure

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it's a little annoying and convenient because I had to come back

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inside and figure out what was going on with my mic , but I

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have a yard to sit in that I went

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out to this morning Never had that . When

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my kids were little , we were in an apartment and

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the backyard was shared with people who had

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dogs and didn't clean up after them . You

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hear what I'm getting at Like I'm

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probably going to lose my , my , my shit today

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. I'm going to lose it today because I'm working

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from home , my whole family's home today

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. Kids are home on summer break . My , my , my husband's

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here to quote unquote , watch them . And I say

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quote unquote cause

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you all know what I mean , I know

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, you know what I mean . I don't have to explain it . I'm

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definitely gonna lose it

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because I have to concentrate , I have to

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be in meetings . I

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work from home . That's a massive privilege , massive , especially since , like , a lot of folks are going

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back to hybrid . People are being forced back into their offices at this

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point because there's like companies don't want

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to have people remote , which I really don't

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understand why . And I'm going to digress for a minute

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because myself

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and my colleagues and almost every single person

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I know that works from home really works

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very hard . Even

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if they take a break during the daytime for like random

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stuff , like they hop back on at night , like myself

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included . Like if I lose an hour during the day because

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of whatever , I make sure that

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I make that time up and I make sure work doesn't

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suffer . So I'm a little surprised that people are

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being forced back into the offices . But nevertheless

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, just saying so

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, for everything you do today , I

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do take , I do challenge you and I'm going to do the

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same thing and I'm interested in hearing from you guys

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on , like , if it worked and if it helped to change

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your thinking . Everything

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you go through today and every time you get frustrated , I want

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you to take a minute , let it , let

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it sink in . What are you complaining about and

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what's the polar opposite , and

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let me know if it's changed your

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day . Do it over the next

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couple of days . I'm very interested in hearing if

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anyone tries this out as an experiment and

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how it might potentially change and shift

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how you are

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as a person , because you're focusing

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on yeah , I'm pissed off , but you know what I

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used to have nothing . I'm

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pissed off that I have to , like , clean up after all my kids

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or I'm pissed off that my kids made this huge mess . Your kids

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are healthy and running around . That's

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what they're supposed to do . They're supposed

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to make a mess , which somebody is going to have to

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remind me about that later , because it's going to happen All

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right . So on that note , I'm going to let everybody go

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. Summer series is meant to be shorts

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and I'm going a little long on this one

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. I hope you all have a great day

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and I

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will see you on the next one . Take care .