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0:04
Sup. Hi.
0:08
You know, I have, I have, I have a question for you. Okay.
0:13
Why are you so awesome?
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My parents. That
0:25
sounded rehearsed. So
0:29
Malcolm, tell me, how
0:31
awesome are they?
0:32
Dad told me to say it.
0:41
No, but seriously, uh, no,
0:44
I get a lot of compliments on you. Um.
0:47
I don't know. I'm
0:47
just this way.
0:50
Yeah. Yeah. I get it from.
0:54
Early ages, you know, uh, they
0:56
would just be like, Oh, he's, he's such a nice
0:58
kid, you know? And, um,
1:02
in the teenage, in the teenage years, especially,
1:05
because that's a, that's a time when
1:08
parents and children
1:10
tend to butt heads the most in
1:12
their teen years. And
1:15
I feel like we did that age
1:17
11. It was
1:20
like your, your
1:22
time where you were the most angry with
1:24
us. And then it was like, after that,
1:26
I mean, we had occasional arguments and stuff, but
1:28
we have, I think we've had a pretty good relationship,
1:31
um, overall, but, but
1:33
yeah, I get a lot of compliments on, um,
1:36
what a good person you are.
1:38
Yeah. I think, I think 11 was around the
1:40
time that I was starting to get
1:42
into. More violent
1:44
stuff like yes, that's when
1:46
I really started getting into video games. You should clarify
1:49
it. Yeah. Okay. Yeah
1:52
More violent, so I was on the sidewalk
1:54
burning ants Throwing
1:57
rocks through people's windows But
2:01
you guys just wouldn't let
2:02
me No,
2:05
you did you did you started to get more into
2:08
like the first person shooter Video games
2:11
and um... I remember
2:13
having to write a paper to you guys about...
2:15
Oh my gosh, I forgot about that! If I could uh, play
2:17
Halo or not. I
2:19
totally forgot about that because
2:21
yeah, we were really nervous about that. You
2:23
know, that was, it's a, it's a difficult transition time
2:26
for a parent, right? Like giving you a little bit more independence
2:28
over what you think you can consume and then also just you
2:30
know, it's a difficult transition time for a parent, right? Like giving
2:32
you a little bit more independence over what you think you can
2:34
consume and then also just Being exposed
2:36
to more things that,
2:39
you know, that are negative, right? Yeah.
2:42
And, um, we were very
2:44
afraid because your, so your friends
2:46
had Halo, right? And you wanted to play.
2:49
Um, cause I know you didn't have
2:51
it at the time.
2:53
I only had a computer. Yeah. You
2:55
didn't have like a system of any kind or anything, right?
2:57
Yeah. Because you did have a PlayStation
3:00
when you were younger, but that got stolen.
3:02
Um, yeah. And then, uh, I
3:04
think. Dad downloaded all the games
3:06
I had on the PlayStation 2 Steam
3:09
on my computer. Oh, that's right. Because I just, I
3:11
loved the Lego Star Wars games. Oh,
3:13
yeah, you did that, but you did a lot of Minecraft.
3:15
Even then, in general, I didn't, no,
3:17
even in Blacksburg, I didn't really play
3:19
much Minecraft.
3:21
I felt like you did a lot in Blacksburg,
3:24
but it was when you were starting to get into it, I think.
3:26
I
3:27
think it was, it must have been the year before
3:29
we moved back here that I was getting into
3:31
it. Because at first I didn't like Minecraft. Oh,
3:34
really? Yeah, because Dad tried showing
3:36
it to me. And like everything that
3:38
Dad tried to show me when I was little, I decided
3:40
I didn't like it because Dad was trying to show me. Of
3:42
course. So... That's how it works.
3:45
Yes.
3:46
Um... Yeah. Yeah. But we were really
3:48
nervous about that. And so, yeah, it
3:50
was your, actually your dad's idea, which is funny since
3:52
I was the English teacher. And he was like,
3:54
you need to write us an essay about why
3:56
you should be able. Do you
3:59
even remember what was
3:59
in it? I, yes, actually.
4:02
Really? Um,
4:03
I don't. Cause I know it wasn't
4:05
like, because I want to. I remember actually looking
4:07
stuff
4:07
up too. Really? Yes. Probably
4:09
the best research you ever did for a paper.
4:13
That's definitely not true. Um,
4:16
but I, it was just like, Uh,
4:20
basically talking about how it's not very,
4:23
like, gory at all, which,
4:25
I mean, now you've played Halo, so you know,
4:27
it's, it's, it's birthday balloons and streamers
4:30
when you shoot a
4:31
grunt. Yeah. Um,
4:34
and then there's, it's also just like, you see little flashes
4:36
of blue or red. Yeah.
4:38
It's not like, yeah, it's not like
4:40
a horror movie where, you know, it's like,
4:42
entrails,
4:43
blood, guts. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
4:46
Um, I remember
4:48
that being a big point because I knew that you guys
4:50
didn't like violence at all. Gore,
4:52
yeah. Um, and
4:56
I think it was also just like, I was talking
4:58
about how it's high fantasy, like it's like
5:00
people in space fighting aliens.
5:03
Like it wasn't. Oh yeah, it wasn't like people. It wasn't like boots
5:06
on the ground. Yeah. Shooting other people. Yeah.
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Wasn't, I feel like, I don't know if this
5:12
was in your paper, but I remember you making this
5:14
point a lot as
5:16
a teenager. Um,
5:19
which was, uh, that
5:22
studies have shown that it's the video
5:24
games don't make a person violent. Yes.
5:27
Yeah. I remember, I don't remember if it was in
5:29
that paper. I still make that point now
5:30
because people still think that's the case.
5:32
Yeah, because I think it's all largely
5:35
because of the, the Columbine shooting,
5:37
because those, that was one of like the
5:39
very first, um,
5:44
it was the first major. Uh,
5:46
school shooting perpetrated by the student,
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uh, and they were really into those games, and
5:52
so, you know.
5:53
I, I even, there was another shooting at one point
5:57
where it
5:59
was proven that the person
6:02
had somewhat,
6:04
on occasion, played Call of Duty.
6:08
That, it's, correlation is not causation.
6:10
And I was like, yeah.
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They have less hours in
6:14
Call of Duty than I
6:17
do in Call of Duty in
6:19
like a week. Right, yeah.
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What? I don't, I
6:22
don't understand. Yeah, I mean video
6:24
games are not going to magically make
6:27
your child violent. No, it's not. You know,
6:29
I could see how it would let, actually
6:33
interestingly, I feel like I
6:36
think some people think, well, if they already have violent tendencies and
6:38
then they're doing this, it's going to make them want to go out and do
6:40
it in real life, and I could see maybe
6:42
an argument for that, but there's also the possibility
6:46
that having an outlet
6:48
like that might prevent someone from doing,
6:50
you
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know. Actually, um, video games are used
6:53
for therapy now, both
6:55
physical and mental. Um,
6:57
I mean not stuff like Call of Duty, but they
7:00
do have it as an outlet or a way of
7:03
even keeping your mental cognition
7:05
healthy because video games
7:07
can engage part of your brain that keeps
7:09
you, your brain young and healthy. So
7:13
it's used to battle dementia. Oh,
7:15
wow. Um, uh,
7:21
yeah, so
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video games have also been used to
7:25
cure small time diseases.
7:29
Like you have a disease, you play a video game and you're cured?
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Yup, magically.
7:34
No, there is this game where, um, people
7:36
could like actually, uh,
7:39
it, first of all, there was like the main
7:41
part of the game where you could like solve
7:43
things that have already been solved with combining.
7:47
Um, I don't know if it was molecules or genomes
7:49
or something together. Oh. And
7:51
then there was one, there
7:53
was literally just a, um, like
7:56
game mode of the game, where
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it's just all the stuff that scientists
8:00
are currently working on, or things that haven't been
8:02
proven yet. And because you have...
8:05
Like, tens of thousands of people playing this game,
8:07
you had tens of thousands of people trying
8:10
to solve all of these things, and they solved a bunch of
8:12
them. Wow, that's amazing. Yeah. Well,
8:14
there's a
8:15
whole... And they're just video game players. Like, they
8:17
were scientists, they were, like, they're just...
8:19
You know, if you tap that right
8:21
part of someone's mind... Yeah, absolutely. Yeah,
8:24
there's, and there's a theory, uh,
8:26
a pedagogical theory, uh...
8:28
About using basically
8:31
games, uh, video games,
8:34
other games, uh, as a way
8:36
to help people learn. Yeah. Cause it keeps
8:38
them engaged, they're, they're interested
8:40
and yeah. So, so
8:43
anyway, so just
8:45
thinking about that period of time, it was, it
8:47
was a rougher period of time
8:49
for us, but it still
8:51
is not nearly what I've seen some other
8:54
people go through and, and
8:56
we also. Have
8:58
had a good relationship intact and
9:01
a couple people that they're like, you know I'd love to
9:03
hear you guys talk about is you know
9:05
your relationship and how you've maintained
9:07
that and how So, you know,
9:10
um, so
9:12
yeah, so anyway, I just thought maybe
9:15
we could explore that a little. And I just want to put
9:17
a little disclaimer on here that
9:20
like I have, Don
9:22
and I have had some strong
9:24
thoughts on. How we wanted
9:26
to raise Malcolm and, um,
9:28
we're very proud of how he's turned out. But
9:30
I don't think I have all the answers and I have also made
9:32
a lot of mistakes. So, uh, by no means
9:35
do I think I'm a perfect parent.
9:38
And Malcolm will
9:39
tell you all of them right now. But
9:41
by no means do I think I'm a perfect parent. But
9:43
if, if anything can help
9:45
anyone think through. Stuff, then.
9:48
Sure. Let's share
9:48
it. I mean, the, there's, there's always
9:50
the prejudice, not, not prejudice. That's
9:52
definitely not bias not the right word. Bias. Bias, yeah. No,
9:55
definitely. Prejudice, no. Uh,
9:58
there's nothing bias that plays into it. Like, you would
10:00
not let me watch any horror
10:02
things. No. Whatsoever. No.
10:04
Um, no. Which, I mean, you saved
10:06
me from a very boring genre,
10:09
so thank you, but... Oh,
10:12
I'm fighting words with Shelby.
10:15
Well, honestly,
10:17
I mean, there is a thing where I, I, I don't
10:19
like horror, um, but...
10:23
It was also, I
10:25
wanted, your mind was still growing
10:27
and I wanted to like, protect
10:29
you from nightmares and stuff, you know?
10:31
Yeah.
10:32
So... Haha, I had nightmares anyway.
10:34
Haha,
10:36
joke's on you mom.
10:39
Welcome to having depression when you're too
10:42
young for a kid that should have depression.
10:45
Well, um... And
10:48
there probably was a bit of bias in there
10:51
because for me,
10:53
because I, that
10:55
kind of stuff sits with me. Right. So, I mean,
10:58
you know, my Jurassic Park story,
11:01
like, you know, I saw Jurassic
11:03
Park when it first came out in the theaters and,
11:06
um, when that, it,
11:10
yeah, it was very startling to me. And,
11:12
um, after
11:14
I saw it, I had nightmares about dinosaurs.
11:17
Uh, I still went on to watch the other two
11:20
of that original trilogy, but like
11:22
I had, I had nightmares about dinosaurs
11:25
for like a really long time. And also
11:27
like this idea that these like scientists
11:29
did all this stuff and
11:32
I'm like, they could bring them back. They could bring them back.
11:34
And I was just like, yeah. So throughout the years
11:36
I would have different, different nightmares about dinosaurs.
11:38
But more, um, less,
11:41
less ridiculously speaking, uh,
11:43
I would get. You know, horror
11:45
things, especially if they were more in like the spiritual
11:48
realm, would just like sit with me for
11:50
days and freak me out and like, and
11:52
I didn't want that to happen to you.
11:54
Yeah, no, I'm totally, it's
11:56
so separated in my mind. I
11:59
think it's because I just, I like.
12:03
I definitely keep different worlds
12:05
in my brain for everything.
12:07
Like, I'm like, ooh,
12:10
like, I never accidentally mix,
12:13
um, canon. Like,
12:17
I'm never like, oh, this was actually
12:19
in Star Wars, not in Halo. Like,
12:22
I, I am very good at separating
12:24
stuff and keeping things in
12:26
conjunction. Like, I, and I have a, In
12:29
my mind, I have our world as
12:31
its own thing and what continuity
12:33
our world follows, which
12:35
there are somehow plot holes in
12:37
our world. Don't know how that works, but,
12:40
um, uh,
12:46
plot holes in reality. Yes.
12:48
I mean, it's true. Yeah. But,
12:51
um, I think another
12:54
reason that, like,
12:59
Wow, we've stayed so connected and
13:02
things don't really sit with me
13:05
or bother me is like, you guys always
13:07
have just answered my questions. Like
13:09
you guys have never been because I said
13:11
so people.
13:13
Oh my gosh, but we, but I have to tell the story.
13:15
Yeah, go ahead. Go for it. Because,
13:17
yeah, so that was, that was a parenting
13:19
philosophy a lot A lot of people are like, what
13:22
are you doing? Uh, cause I
13:23
don't understand that. I'm like, why, why are people
13:25
surprised because people buy into the basic,
13:28
the basic ideas, authoritarian parenting,
13:30
like that's just kind of like the fallback.
13:32
Authoritarian stuff is the reason why our world
13:34
is so fucked up. Well,
13:35
amen. So,
13:38
um, yeah, so we didn't
13:40
want to be those authoritarian parents
13:42
and I would say I wasn't there right away. Like
13:44
in my mind I was just like, well, you're the. You're
13:46
the kid. I'm the parent. You do
13:48
what I say. And I also had some anger issues
13:51
earlier on, so I wasn't perfectly
13:53
in this right away. But by the
13:55
time you were three or four, maybe,
13:57
um, yeah. And so
13:59
we would, we would let you
14:02
ask all the questions. We would answer
14:04
your questions. We never did the,
14:06
Because I said so. We never were like, Malcolm,
14:09
you have to do it. You know, blah, blah, blah, blah, until
14:11
we finally, the whys,
14:14
the why questions got to be way
14:16
too much one day. And finally, I don't
14:19
remember which one of us, what it was.
14:21
We're just like, you know what, Malcolm, because I said
14:23
so. And you paused and you
14:26
thought, and you go, is
14:29
that a good answer for you? Because
14:31
it's not a good answer for me.
14:35
Yep. It's true. It wasn't
14:37
a good answer. I mean, fair.
14:40
But I just, I loved that reaction
14:42
because it was, it was just so,
14:44
so funny and, and fair. Like,
14:47
that's not a good reason. You
14:49
know.
14:50
I think it was that on
14:52
top of the, uh, not letting
14:54
me win thing. Oh, I
14:56
think we have to explain that a little bit. Oh, well,
14:58
yeah, you guys have never, have
15:00
never let me win. You
15:03
would, you would dance around on
15:05
my loss. When
15:08
I was five. So I
15:14
know. Actually, I think that was mostly dad. When
15:16
you,
15:17
I don't know, when
15:18
we played air hockey. Oh, that's true. You turned
15:20
into She Hulk.
15:23
But no, when we, well, when you were
15:25
like a baby, you know, we'd be just
15:27
like pretend, you know, like if you were trying to throw
15:29
something in a basket, then we might help it over and be
15:31
like, Yeah, you know, like, you know, do that
15:34
kind of stuff. But yeah, when we started playing
15:36
games. We would give you tips
15:38
and stuff to help out. Like, oh, Malcolm,
15:40
maybe you want to do this or whatever, but
15:43
we would never just be like, oh, you get to win.
15:45
Here you go. You know, we're
15:48
like, I win,
15:49
sucka. But yeah, I think because
15:51
of the never saying, because I told you so,
15:53
and always letting me win, you guys
15:55
always... Always letting you win, not letting you
15:57
win. Always not letting me win.
15:59
So, not letting me win. Um,
16:01
you guys invited me. No, maybe
16:03
not invited challenge is the right word,
16:05
but like you guys didn't shy
16:07
away from it So I was never a kid to
16:10
like hide my Disagreements.
16:14
Oh, yeah, I'm aware So
16:17
are many of your teachers Yeah,
16:23
so I feel like I Learned
16:25
a lot more than some
16:27
kids might have about things because I think some kids
16:29
might just like sit in
16:31
their own logic, and
16:34
not get proven otherwise. Whereas
16:37
I would get, um,
16:41
proven otherwise by you or dad. You'd be like, oh well
16:43
this is actually how it is. I'm like, oh.
16:45
Yeah, we also didn't shy away from giving you
16:47
like correcting you if you were like,
16:49
you know And then you guys also didn't shy away
16:51
from if I was right either right,
16:54
which is also good because if it was hard
16:59
Cuz you mean like, you know
17:02
when you're like seven year old is like Well,
17:04
wouldn't this, wouldn't it be this way? And you're like, yes,
17:10
I just got outlogged by a seven year old.
17:13
But like, I feel like, I wonder how many like
17:15
kids have said something like that to their parents
17:17
and their parents just. Tell
17:19
them that they're wrong, even though they're correct, just
17:22
to preserve their own dignity against their
17:24
own sepulchre.
17:24
Well, to preserve their authority.
17:27
And this is, I actually think this is a really,
17:29
really important, important thing.
17:31
Because, um, when
17:33
you're told with
17:36
authority that, you
17:38
know, this equals that. Like,
17:40
you know, uh, or
17:42
this is how you do this, or whatever. But
17:44
you're not given a reason why. At
17:47
some point, you're naturally going to
17:50
like seep out of that authoritarian
17:52
thing and go, well, what would happen if
17:54
I did do Y? You know, like,
17:56
And then you
17:57
become combative, rebellious.
17:59
Right, uh, because then you're like, well, you lied
18:01
to me. Yeah. You know what I mean? So
18:03
then, um, a child, a
18:05
teenager, or whatever, becomes really... combative
18:08
and disrespectful and, um,
18:11
uh, you know, like, well, you
18:13
always tell me not to do these things. I
18:16
mean, I think we even, I think we
18:18
even told you, Oh gosh, I remember
18:20
this. Sorry.
18:20
This is, we
18:22
just watched Hunger Games last night and this is sounding
18:24
like the plot to Hunger Games, the
18:29
authoritarian versus
18:30
the people. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I just don't,
18:32
I don't agree at all with this. Like just. This
18:35
is I decree it and that's it. Like there should
18:37
be conversation. There should be thought
18:39
processes and, um,
18:41
allowing your child to think is a good thing.
18:44
Um, what? I don't know.
18:47
But I remember we had, um, some friends.
18:51
Uh, our friends, when you were growing
18:53
up, whose, um, son
18:56
was addicted to drugs and
18:58
did, yeah, and did some,
19:01
some bad things, you know, like stole from
19:03
people and stuff like that to feed their habit.
19:06
And I remember you asking me about
19:08
like, Why do they
19:10
do drugs if it does these bad things,
19:12
right? Yeah, and I think some parents would
19:14
have been like well because they're a bad person, you know
19:17
Or because they have an addiction and just kind of
19:19
oversimplify it But we
19:21
told you... At least
19:21
the addiction is more on the correct
19:24
side.
19:24
That is, yes But we told you
19:26
because it doesn't feel bad at first
19:30
And we were like, when people first
19:32
start to take drugs, like,
19:35
it feels good. It gives them what's called
19:37
a high. And we explained it all to you.
19:39
And then we were, then we explained to you how addiction
19:41
works. And then we're like, and then
19:43
it, it gets bad. Like then it.
19:45
It becomes bad and it's, you
19:47
can't get away from it and it causes all of these
19:50
negative things. And so
19:52
I, I personally, I don't, I don't know if
19:54
you ever thought this consciously, if you're going to
19:56
disagree with what I'm about to say, but I
19:58
personally think that's why you never really
20:00
did anything like that because I didn't lie
20:02
to you and be like, Oh, drugs are bad.
20:05
Yes. And then your friends go, Oh no, drugs are good.
20:07
And you go, okay. Yeah.
20:08
Because I already know that there's. That's a good part
20:10
to them. That's what I don't understand about
20:12
cigarettes. There's just nothing good about cigarettes. I,
20:15
I, that's just, they,
20:16
they, Well, I think the people who smoke them feel
20:19
something, obviously. But. Really?
20:21
I
20:21
didn't think cigarettes gave you any sort of high.
20:23
I thought it was just, it tasted bad, it smelled
20:25
bad, and it was bad for your lungs. I,
20:27
I don't think it's a high. I've heard people say it relaxes
20:29
them. Oh, okay. Oh,
20:32
so it's like, smoke and a beehive. A beehive?
20:36
Yeah, if you, people will light
20:38
fires underneath the beehives because then the smoke
20:41
makes all the bees fall asleep and then they can get all
20:43
the honey out. I was
20:47
trying to figure out how someone would smoke a beehive.
20:49
And
20:51
then
20:52
I was like, is
20:54
this a different term for marijuana
20:56
that I haven't heard? I, I was
20:58
relating cigarette smoke.
21:04
And the calming effects of fire
21:07
smoke. Why would
21:07
someone do that? Okay, sorry.
21:13
That was funny though. Um,
21:15
okay, I guess that makes more sense. I'm so used to
21:17
things being like, oh, it makes you feel
21:20
really good or something. Um, but
21:25
yeah, I mean, I never
21:28
done drugs. I've, um...
21:32
I mean, I've, I've drank alcohol before, but
21:34
I don't drink alcohol. And
21:37
I don't smoke anything. I don't
21:41
inject anything. No. Um,
21:44
yeah, um, I
21:47
have to, I have to, I have to tell
21:49
you this. I just, you said about the, the
21:51
cigarette and this made me think, so
21:53
I was curious when I was younger about
21:56
cigarettes and,
21:58
um, my neighbor's mother, uh,
22:00
smoked. So
22:03
I knew how to like sneak into their house when
22:05
it was locked. So there was
22:07
one day I snuck in and I stole
22:09
a cigarette and
22:12
uh, I may have like borrowed her lighter
22:14
too or something. I don't know. And I got on
22:16
my bike and I rode like as far away
22:18
from the house as I could. And then
22:20
I, I smoked the cigarette
22:23
cause I was curious like what it was all
22:25
about. And it was really interesting
22:27
cause I remember thinking like,
22:31
I hate the smell of it. I really, really
22:33
hate the smell of it. And I really hate the stale
22:36
smell of it on people. Like when they
22:38
smoke in their house and then they go out and they're just, everything
22:40
smells like smoke. Um, but
22:43
in the moment, I
22:45
remember thinking that there was something I liked
22:47
about it, but I didn't understand what. And,
22:50
and I was just curious and that was it. I have never
22:52
smoked a cigarette again. But what's really
22:55
weird is every once in a while,
22:57
like, I will just get like a whiff of the smoke
23:00
and I'll be like, oh man, I want to smoke a cigarette.
23:02
It's so strange, but I've
23:04
only ever smoked that one. And
23:07
yeah, my, my, my stolen, my illicit
23:10
cigarette, but
23:12
yeah. Um, mom, I'll never find out.
23:15
I mean, besides you just telling her.
23:17
Oh no, it's not at the moment.
23:19
No, I don't know if I ever told her, but if
23:22
she's listening to this now,
23:23
she does.
23:25
Be careful where you go to Pennsylvania. It
23:29
might get sent to your room. Yeah. Yeah.
23:34
But anyway, but yeah, I think,
23:37
I think, uh, I won't,
23:39
I'm not going to lie. There were times it was really difficult,
23:42
um, being honest and open
23:44
with you and including you in decisions,
23:47
which we did a lot. Oh yeah, that's
23:48
true. That, I think that was honestly
23:51
also one of the biggest ones, like, um,
23:55
because the, I think the thing I
23:58
remember you, I definitely told you guys when
24:00
I was little was.
24:03
I hated being treated.
24:07
Like I was a little kid. Yeah. And
24:09
I think that was probably because you guys
24:12
always included me in everything that you
24:14
guys did. Hmm. And so
24:16
I somewhat knew the adult decisions
24:18
and stuff and I understood what you guys talked about
24:20
too at your table, but whatever,
24:24
I can even see you guys kind of like Grimace
24:28
at it, or be like, uh, when,
24:31
like, whatever person's house you're going
24:33
to, that they were like, Oh, Malcolm, you can
24:35
go sit at the kid's table, and I'm
24:38
like, and do
24:40
what? Right. I'm like,
24:42
be a kid. Man,
24:44
sitting at the kid's table was the most boring thing.
24:46
Oh,
24:47
trust me. I felt the same way when I was your age. I
24:49
was just like, I love to talk to the adults. I really
24:51
like to be in on the conversations.
24:54
I remember taking some adults off guard
24:56
talking to them as
24:57
well. Well, yeah. That
24:59
happened all the time. People are like, man, your son is, you
25:01
know,
25:02
he's remarkable. I
25:04
just talked normally. Like, I didn't think
25:06
it was anything... Like, it
25:08
was just... Like, I think you guys
25:10
had just always told me about stuff and had always
25:13
included me in everything, so I just, I knew
25:15
stuff. Like, stuff, like, the adult
25:17
world wasn't hidden from me because I, I
25:19
wasn't an adult.
25:20
Right. Right. Yeah. And,
25:25
yeah. And we separate. I, I think...
25:28
There's a couple things. One, we separate
25:30
generations a lot now. Like, there
25:33
used to be much more multi generational interaction,
25:35
I think, in the past. Um,
25:38
but, uh, two,
25:40
you also grew up around a lot of adults.
25:42
Like, because we
25:44
had people over at the house all the
25:46
time. Um, you know, we had,
25:49
um, our community of
25:51
people, we had, uh, we started
25:54
our Sunday lunches while I was
25:56
pregnant with you. So that was just a part
25:58
of your childhood was, you know, and plus,
26:01
you know, when your dad was... There wasn't
26:02
really any kids my age besides my
26:05
neighbor and other
26:07
kids were like significantly older than me.
26:09
So even they were more mature.
26:11
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You, um, you
26:13
fell in a weird time because
26:15
it was like... There was a time
26:17
when, um, all
26:20
the people we knew were having babies, and
26:22
then there was a period of time, and then there was you, and
26:24
then there was a period of time, and then there was all our friends
26:26
were having babies, so you're like just kind of like
26:28
on this island by yourself.
26:31
I was the only
26:31
kid and the, um,
26:34
and in that
26:36
gap. Yes, you were, yeah, pretty much.
26:38
And, and you know, when your dad
26:40
was the college pastor, um, you
26:42
had college students around all the time.
26:45
You know, um. Yeah,
26:47
and then even in Blacksburg, I played Ultimate
26:49
Frisbee with the College
26:51
Kid Club. That's right, you did. Um.
26:54
The College Kid
26:54
Club. The College Club. The College Kid
26:56
Club. It's still in my
26:58
mind since I was little. It's like, oh, this is like
27:01
the College Kid group. Right, yeah.
27:04
Yeah. But I think, and I think that
27:06
was really important to your, your
27:08
formation, you know, like
27:11
I've, I've heard that about language development, like
27:13
the more people you can expose your child
27:15
to, like more regular conversations,
27:17
they just pick up more words, you
27:19
know, um, that kind of stuff. And, um,
27:23
yeah, but we have this thing where we really want to separate
27:25
the adults from the children. And
27:28
we also, um, I think still
27:32
relatively prevalent in
27:34
our society is authoritarian parenting.
27:36
Now I think that's going away,
27:39
uh, every generation I think comes
27:42
up with different methods
27:44
of parenting, um, that are more like,
27:46
like I think there's one called gentle parenting right
27:48
now. Um, uh,
27:51
I have one, what?
27:53
Parenting. Yeah.
27:55
But see, though, a lot of people parenting would be the authoritarian
27:58
parenting. Um, and I think,
28:00
Oh, here,
28:00
good parenting.
28:03
But, but then what's that? You know what I mean?
28:05
Like some people were like, Oh, you're too, like,
28:07
you should just. They're very punishing,
28:10
you know. I mean, kind of, yeah,
28:12
there are people who are like that. And, um,
28:15
I remember, uh, even, you know, do you
28:17
know who Matt Walsh is? Not the good
28:19
Matt Walsh, but the bad Matt Walsh. Okay.
28:23
Um, he did this
28:25
review of a book that was, it
28:27
was a children's book and it was about consent
28:30
and Um, not for
28:32
sex. Okay. That
28:35
was... But
28:37
there's a philosophy, there's a philosophy
28:40
that one of the reasons why people
28:42
are so poor at consent as adults
28:44
is because they're never taught
28:47
that their opinion matters as children.
28:49
Like, they're just, you know what I mean? And so
28:51
a lot of families will be like, go hug
28:53
your aunt, go hug your grandma, go
28:55
hug, you know, even if the child doesn't
28:57
want to be touched. You
28:59
know, it's like a requirement. And,
29:02
um, so this
29:04
book was sort of the idea of like, kids
29:07
have bodily autonomy. They're
29:09
not like your play thing, they're not your pet,
29:11
they're not your, you know, especially if you don't understand
29:14
or you haven't found out yet that your kid
29:16
has something like autism. And autism
29:19
is one of those tactile, really big ones
29:21
for physical touch. Like, right, like,
29:24
uh, like you could not understand why every
29:26
family gathering your kid is freaking
29:28
out and it's just because. Like,
29:31
they're overstimulated, they don't want to be touched,
29:33
their grandmother is always like poking them
29:35
or something
29:35
like that. Yeah. Yeah. And that's what
29:37
kind of this book was getting at. It was like,
29:40
you know, um, basically
29:42
like you don't have to sit on your uncle's knee.
29:44
You don't have to, um, hug your grandma because
29:46
then you, you, you're basically teaching
29:48
kids that it's okay for adults to touch them whenever
29:51
they want.
29:52
Which then gets to a
29:54
whole
29:54
nother Exactly, and so you would
29:56
think someone who claims to be so
29:59
against, like, pedophilia, and,
30:01
you know, so for the safety of kids and everything,
30:03
would be like, this is a good book. Instead,
30:06
he totally trashed the book, and then he was like, consent,
30:09
my kids do whatever I tell them to do,
30:11
you know, and I was just like, dang,
30:14
man. I was like,
30:15
your kids will be less rebellious?
30:17
if you let them be their own person?
30:21
I don't understand what's so hard to understand.
30:23
I'm sure that's not always 100 percent
30:25
true. I'm sure there's some parent out there going, no, there won't.
30:27
But I mean, it worked for us.
30:30
Maybe we just got lucky.
30:31
Well, no, I, it seems
30:33
pretty consistent with
30:35
friends that I've known. Anytime
30:38
that I know someone who's like
30:41
I'm gonna sneak out or something like that
30:43
I've met their parents and I'm like I
30:45
could understand why you'd want to sneak out I was like
30:47
your parents are kind
30:49
of assholes like they just They
30:52
hover so the amount
30:55
oh my gosh going to MV the amount of parents
30:57
that just hover Oh
30:59
helicopter parents. Oh my gosh.
31:01
Yeah
31:01
I cannot. Yeah.
31:03
I was actually really... I thought you guys were alligators.
31:06
No, I'm kidding.
31:08
I could have easily been. Uh, honestly,
31:10
your, your dad, a lot of the parenting
31:12
philosophy came from your dad. And
31:15
I, I had to kind of learn it over time.
31:17
Um, I think he had more
31:20
to... easily unlearn
31:22
because he was like, well, I don't want
31:24
to be my parents, you know? Um,
31:27
whereas I have a great relationship
31:29
with my parents. I love my parents. And, um,
31:32
so I didn't really, I don't know. I just
31:34
didn't really think about like what,
31:36
how I needed to parent. And I just sort of just
31:38
did stuff. And then, you know, Don would be like, well,
31:40
what if we did this instead? Like, oh, okay. You know,
31:42
that makes sense. Yeah. Um. Darn
31:45
it, and I don't remember where I was going. Where
31:48
was I going? What
31:51
were you just talking about? Oh, helicopter
31:53
parents. Um, so when
31:55
we lived... You're welcome. I'm, I'm
31:57
very, I'm actually really grateful
31:59
for our time in Blacksburg because I think that helped
32:01
me let go. Because it
32:04
felt like a safe space
32:06
to let you have freedom. Because we
32:08
lived in that giant apartment complex. Um,
32:12
and we were set aside
32:14
from like main roads
32:17
and stuff like that. And
32:19
the, it was full of,
32:21
um, it was, it
32:23
was, I mean, there was the student section, but there
32:25
was also the, um, the section we lived
32:28
in, which was like graduate school students and
32:30
like visiting professors and families and
32:32
like stuff like that. And so there were a whole bunch of kids
32:34
along there. Yep. And so I
32:36
knew, You know, you went riding
32:38
bike with bikes with your friends. You were going to be surrounded,
32:41
like you're going to be in an area we were familiar with.
32:43
You went up to the pool. We knew where that was.
32:45
Like it was, it was so much
32:47
easier for you to just be like, I'm going to get on my bike and go
32:49
and us be like, okay. You know? Yeah. A
32:52
college residential area
32:54
was actually surprisingly
32:57
a really good area. I feel like to raise a
32:59
kid. Cause like then moving back here, I'm like,
33:01
there's not a lot of kids
33:03
around me. My age and
33:05
there's like the community pools
33:07
are kind of gross and
33:10
well
33:10
it's The, the area,
33:12
it's cause the area, like the
33:15
center of the apartment complex
33:17
was like student, like students and then
33:19
like the outskirts, so we mostly were in the outskirts.
33:21
We didn't hardly really go through the student section. Yeah,
33:24
yeah, we,
33:24
we were in like downtown
33:27
college area. We were, cause
33:29
it was like a college town. Right, yeah. But,
33:34
like, yeah, I
33:36
think college towns are great because there's
33:38
a lot of kids your age and
33:42
there's always, like, uh,
33:45
something that's owned by
33:48
something that's known by the college so it's usually
33:50
kept up nice and everything
33:52
like that. Well, the sad thing
33:54
is... The transient nature
33:57
of colleges and universities meant
33:59
like your friends were constantly moving away. Yeah,
34:01
that's true. And then we moved away, you know.
34:03
I mean, but that can also be a lesson in and of
34:05
itself. Um,
34:08
just, you know, because
34:10
I mean if you don't deal
34:13
with some sort of loss
34:15
at all for a big portion of your life, then
34:17
when it finally hits, it's gonna suck. That's
34:19
a good point. Um, like I never really
34:21
experienced... Uh,
34:24
something that was really, like,
34:26
earth shattering until June
34:29
last year, not the month, until
34:32
our dog passed away last, last
34:34
year. Oh. And so that was, like,
34:38
devastating for me, like, I took a big
34:40
time off of my job and
34:43
I, like, barely
34:45
function. Yeah, that was rough.
34:48
Yeah. Cause, I mean, I just,
34:51
and for, like, some, like, one of my... best
34:55
friends, stuff like that doesn't bother them at all
34:57
because they've had multiple deaths
35:00
in their families. They've, um,
35:04
their parents are both EMTs.
35:07
So the amount of stories
35:10
that they've heard and everything like, like,
35:12
well, they've had a lot
35:13
of animals, right? So it's kind of gone.
35:15
Yeah. Been through that. And,
35:17
um, So yeah, there's just,
35:21
um, so I, I think something like that made
35:23
it a little, because like if, if I had never
35:25
experienced some of my close friends moving away
35:27
from me, I couldn't imagine how much worse
35:30
June passing would have been.
35:31
Yeah. Yeah. I think we
35:33
try to protect kids too much. It's,
35:36
it's, it's kind of funny and weird for
35:38
me to say that right after I said like we,
35:41
we should have a book on. Consent.
35:43
Um, I think we need to protect kids
35:45
in the right way. Yeah. Um,
35:48
I mean, I'm not saying like give your kid a hunting
35:50
knife and drop them off in the middle of the forest and tell them
35:52
to make their way home. Some do that. Um,
35:55
yeah. Uh,
35:57
but yeah, I think, yeah,
35:59
I don't know. It's, parenting's
36:04
difficult. I
36:07
think some of it's also just,
36:09
you can't just stick with one thing. Some
36:12
of it's like you have to cater to your kid.
36:14
100%. I have, I
36:17
have known people who have, uh,
36:19
two kids, three kids, and they
36:21
just, they parent the way they parent.
36:23
That's it. And one will
36:25
be like, Like the
36:27
nicest, most obedient child.
36:30
Raymond Holt. Huh? Raymond
36:32
Holt. There'll be Raymond Holt, yes. Um,
36:34
and then the other will just be like the rebellious.
36:37
Jake Peralta. Yeah. Although
36:39
Jake, Jake was like a good, like,
36:41
he was a scamp. But he
36:43
was off the walls.
36:45
Right, yeah. But like, yeah, it's,
36:47
so you, I think you do kind of have to.
36:50
Especially since. Adjust.
36:52
I mean, any parent
36:54
that have, uh,
36:57
Like, um,
37:01
I don't really know how to put it, an average kid, like
37:03
a kid that doesn't really have any
37:06
sort of, uh, like,
37:08
mental problems or deformities
37:11
or anything like that, and then has
37:13
another kid that might have, like, autism
37:15
or down syndrome. They learn
37:17
so quickly that kids can be so
37:20
different from each other. Yeah, that's, I mean, cause that's an
37:23
obvious difference. Yes, it's very extreme and
37:25
like you have to cater to that
37:27
kid then. At least if it's a higher form of autism.
37:29
Like, there are obviously kids that have lower
37:32
forms of autism that you're just like, Oh, they're just very
37:35
obsessive over this one thing. Right, yeah.
37:37
Um, that's
37:41
the first clue there that you got for
37:44
them having autism. Um,
37:47
But, uh, even simple
37:50
stuff, like, one
37:52
of your kids really
37:54
likes to go out to
37:56
the playground nearby and play with a bunch of kids
37:58
versus your other kid likes to stay inside
38:00
and draw the whole day. Like,
38:03
you gotta... There's
38:05
got to be different parenting for even something
38:07
as simple as that difference.
38:10
Yeah. And that's, that's something that annoys
38:12
me when I see parents doing this
38:14
to their children is when they, like,
38:18
we have, we have a bias towards extraversion
38:20
in this country. And
38:22
so like, yes, it's just like,
38:25
there are so many times
38:27
people and mourning
38:29
people and mourning
38:30
people that too. Yes, I agree. Um,
38:33
yeah, it's like, there's
38:35
lots of situations where people just expect
38:37
other people to be an extrovert. And if they're not
38:39
acting like an extrovert, it's like, oh, there's something wrong
38:42
with you. You have to learn to be an extrovert,
38:44
but we never go up to extroverts and be like, you need
38:46
to. Like, calm down, we need you to learn
38:48
how
38:48
to be an introvert. There are people now that are doing that.
38:51
Yeah, and be like, You need to calm
38:53
down.
38:54
Yeah, and it's, it's a little frustrating
38:56
to me when people do that because there
38:58
are different personalities and not
39:00
everyone can learn to be
39:03
an extrovert, you know? The world is about
39:05
networking. Yeah,
39:07
um. I, I don't
39:10
know how I manage and I don't know if
39:12
I could somehow... Give
39:16
my knowledge to other people, but I
39:18
managed to just say
39:21
F it at one point and just
39:23
started forcing myself to be more
39:25
extroverted and confident and it just
39:29
ended up taking at some point and
39:31
I'm, I'm still not like super extroverted,
39:33
but I'm enough where I can network.
39:35
So you're just proving what I just said, basically.
39:38
What?
39:38
No, no, I'm saying, no, you
39:40
said that people can't, or
39:42
you said that some people can't. Right. I'm
39:45
saying that, like, it doesn't hurt to try.
39:47
Oh, yeah. Like, for
39:49
the longest time, I never thought I was going to be able to,
39:54
but, um, no,
39:57
I, I think it really depends
40:00
on the person. Yeah. Because some of it could
40:02
have also just been something as simple as,
40:04
like, Growing up,
40:06
like people grow out of things. Extroversion and introversion
40:10
can be one of those things. Oh, you were very extroverted
40:12
as a
40:12
child. Yeah. And then you just walk up
40:14
to people. Yeah.
40:16
Yeah. And then for a while I was introverted and
40:19
now I'm kind of somewhere in the middle. Yeah. So.
40:22
Yeah. I mean, I think there are certainly people
40:25
who could try, but I think there are also
40:27
just. We have different ways
40:29
of being in this world and we need to accept that.
40:31
Like I was recently talking with
40:33
an artist who was said
40:35
they were so grateful because their
40:37
mother encouraged their art
40:40
and that was really in their family
40:43
was like surprising
40:45
because like All of their siblings
40:47
are like doctors and stuff, you know,
40:50
and, but it was clear
40:52
that art was like just coming
40:55
out of this person and it was a necessary
40:57
part of their like healing
40:59
process and stuff. And the mother encouraged
41:01
that. And I know there are families who'd be like, you're not going to be an artist.
41:04
No,
41:04
I, yeah. Cause I mean me going to a very
41:06
diverse and rich school,
41:09
I definitely met a lot of
41:11
like Middle Eastern
41:14
Uh, Asian families that were very,
41:17
like, you are going to
41:19
have a PhD
41:21
in something and
41:24
make six figures. Like,
41:26
there was no...
41:28
I dealt with a lot of students, um,
41:30
I did some academic coaching
41:32
when I was at Virginia Tech. And
41:35
there was all these students who came
41:37
from, like, the affluent suburbs of...
41:40
Washington, D. C. They call it NOVA,
41:43
Northern Virginia. And so, like, all
41:45
these kids from NOVA were the ones that
41:47
had, like, the high powered parents and,
41:50
um, and, uh,
41:53
they were expected to do XYZ.
41:55
And the reason I was coaching them was because
41:57
they were on academic probation. Um,
42:00
and, uh, the number of them that
42:02
I would talk to... Who would say,
42:04
like, I don't want to be here. I'm here because
42:07
my parents forced me. They
42:09
told me I'm going to be an engineer because my dad's an engineer
42:11
and I can get a job in their firm and
42:13
blah, blah, blah. You know, and,
42:16
and I'm like, well, what do you want to do? Well, that's
42:18
the great thing
42:18
about nepotism is that you don't need a degree. You can
42:20
just have your dad hire you
42:23
into the job.
42:23
There you go. Just hire anyway. Yeah. But it
42:25
was sad to me because in that situation,
42:28
my job was to get them... Get
42:30
their
42:30
grades
42:31
back up and give them
42:33
hints on and tips on how to like overcome
42:36
any studying problems, but I also
42:38
was just like, tried to give them like
42:40
this in an ear, you
42:43
know, because I thought this is terrible. This person
42:46
really wants to be an artist and
42:49
their parents are forcing them to be an engineer,
42:51
you know? Yeah.
42:55
I always have trouble with that too, because.
42:59
I do support the idea
43:01
of a backup plan. Yes.
43:04
But I think it's really hard
43:06
to have a backup plan
43:09
when it's like that. Like
43:11
there's a difference Like something you don't want at all. Yeah.
43:14
And it's, it's also difficult if
43:16
there are two completely separate ways
43:18
of getting that thing.
43:20
Mm hmm. Like For
43:23
a lot of art stuff, there is, you just
43:25
have to do it and you just have
43:27
to hope that,
43:30
um, you manage to pick up popularity
43:33
and that way you can make money off of it. And
43:37
then you have to
43:39
go to college for, for usually
43:41
whatever other backup plan there is. Yeah.
43:44
Like, arts and... Or
43:46
a trade school. Anything else that's academic, really.
43:48
Yeah, or a trade school. Yeah. is
43:51
going to be two completely different paths. But the
43:53
thing is, is that your backup plan then for going to
43:55
college or a trade school is going to be, take
43:57
up way more of your time. Yeah.
44:00
Even though it shouldn't since it's your backup plan.
44:03
Yeah. That's, that's the tough thing I think
44:05
for somebody who really like the,
44:07
the, the honest truth
44:09
is that the
44:11
arts are difficult to make a living
44:13
at. Yeah. Like, like not,
44:16
it is rare. Um, uh,
44:20
a lot of it's just a lot. Or, or sports or, yeah.
44:22
I mean, a lot of it is being in the right place at the right
44:24
time. A lot of it is connections.
44:27
If you have connections, um,
44:29
and you can be, and, and, and trust talent
44:31
sometimes doesn't really matter. Like
44:33
you can be the most talented. Yeah. You've gone to a modern
44:35
art museum.
44:39
Oh man. Yeah. That day, God,
44:41
he was a, you know, um, the. Like,
44:44
you can be super talented,
44:46
but never be in the right place to be discovered
44:48
or have the right connections to get in front of the right people.
44:51
Like it's, so it's hard. Algorithms
44:53
online
44:53
can just screw you. Oh my God. Just like jump. Yeah.
44:56
And it's so, it's
44:58
so difficult, uh, because
45:01
if you have a dream like that, you want to pursue
45:04
it, but you also know, like, it's a small,
45:06
it's a slim chance and,
45:09
and to have like the backup
45:11
plan. Like you said, unless
45:13
you're just like, well, I'm going to wait tables until
45:16
this happens. Um,
45:18
you, you have to invest time. Um,
45:21
that's basically where
45:22
I'm
45:22
at. Yeah. And
45:23
yeah. Um,
45:29
and that's, that's a difficult spot as a parent too,
45:32
because, you know, logically
45:34
like. That's going to be very difficult
45:37
to break into and I want my child
45:39
to be safe and financially secure and blah
45:41
blah blah But you also don't want that to come across
45:44
as like I don't think you're talented enough You
45:46
know what I mean? Because that's not the issue at
45:48
all. It's the just the
45:50
odds, you know Yeah,
45:52
um, I mean, I'd be perfectly
45:54
fine making a
45:57
barely living wage while just doing stuff that
45:59
I like so Cause
46:02
I mean, I'm just, I'm doing my absolute damnedest
46:05
to stay out of debt.
46:07
I, I, and you're doing a great job.
46:09
If I can do that, and
46:11
I'm still only waiting tables
46:13
or whatever frontline job I'm gonna have
46:15
at that moment, that's honestly good
46:17
enough cause I feel like debt is what
46:20
really sinks people, not what job
46:22
you have. Yep.
46:24
Um, so. 100%?
46:27
But yeah, if you go to, if you go to college
46:29
and you want a backup plan to be something else,
46:31
and your first plan is also college, then
46:33
you're already set because you really just, if
46:36
you have a degree, yeah, if you
46:38
have a degree, then you automatically can.
46:40
That's getting a little better. I've noticed more
46:42
and more listings that are like, no degree
46:45
required, which is. Yes, which is
46:47
nice, but it used to be like when I was growing up, everybody
46:49
was, everybody was like, you better go to college
46:51
or you're not going to get anything.
46:52
There was a couple like editing
46:55
jobs that I
46:57
saw where I needed a degree. Yeah.
47:00
And I, and I like read the description and everything.
47:02
And it was like, you need to know knowledge and this thing and this
47:04
thing. I was like, why didn't you just put experience down?
47:06
I know. Like going to college.
47:09
I, well,
47:11
no, I'm, I'm saying for editing specifically. Editing,
47:16
you barely learn how to edit in college. All
47:19
of it, all of the editing that you learn from
47:21
college is by playing around with the program.
47:24
That's, yeah. So if you play around with the program
47:26
outside of college, you
47:29
know, you know how to do it. Yeah,
47:30
I, I think the, the college
47:33
degree should be... This
47:38
could be a whole episode about what's wrong with the college
47:40
system. There's so much wrong with the college system. Next
47:42
episode! Yeah, not
47:45
to mention like the debt you get into. Most
47:47
people honestly would be better off going to a trade school.
47:49
It's cheaper and then a lot of the trades get
47:51
paid more. This has been a lot of the
47:53
for
47:54
some reason trades are shames. I
47:55
don't understand it. Yeah, it's very well. It's it's
47:57
it's uh, it's You
48:00
know how it's always been like, you know blue
48:02
blue collar, you know
48:05
People physical work people are also
48:07
for some reason Like,
48:09
get disgruntled about the easy way out. And
48:12
it's like, why wouldn't you want to take the easy way
48:14
out? Like, why wouldn't you want
48:16
the easier thing? Go
48:19
to, go to college for 10 years so
48:21
you can finally become a doctor and make six figures,
48:24
or go to college for two years. And
48:26
make six figures. Right. Yeah.
48:28
Like, yeah, I mean, obviously there's a difference in
48:30
what you want to do, but right. If you're
48:32
purely looking at the numbers.
48:35
Oh, it makes way more sense to go for a trade.
48:37
Yeah. I mean, honestly, it's, and it's
48:39
kind of funny coming from me, because I have a PhD.
48:43
And, well, but I can tell you, it
48:47
is not worth it.
48:49
It is, it's, it was expensive and
48:51
I'm going to be paying, I will, my, my
48:53
student loans will probably go away when I die.
48:56
Like that's probably how it's going to be, you
48:58
know, and now,
49:01
as long as the government doesn't make me inherit
49:03
them. No, if they, if you die, your student
49:05
loans go away. Right now. Fair.
49:08
I'll do my best. Um, yeah,
49:12
so, um, oh,
49:15
what was my train of thought? What
49:20
PhD? Paying it off for the rest of
49:22
your life.
49:23
Don't remind me. Um,
49:27
it's, you know, in
49:29
my mind growing up
49:31
and then even, you know, up until
49:34
I was maybe 40, uh,
49:37
college was like the end all be all. It's
49:39
what you needed. And I thought a PhD
49:42
would grant me access. And now granted at the
49:44
time I wanted to be a professor, so it made sense.
49:47
Um, but. I
49:49
don't think my Ph. D. has really gotten me
49:51
access to anything, uh,
49:54
you know. Yeah. I mean, I can't
49:56
say for sure. I mean, there may
49:58
have been a job I got hired for, they're
50:00
like, oh, she has a Ph. D. Like, I don't know if that
50:02
could put me over the edge or anything, but there's
50:05
like no Always, there's something. Yeah,
50:07
there, I mean, but there's no like, like,
50:10
Honestly, nothing that I'm aware
50:12
of.
50:13
One of the biggest things is,
50:17
uh, just your parents having your back,
50:20
which is what you guys have always done
50:22
for me. Um,
50:25
I think college was like one
50:27
of those things you guys really had
50:29
trouble with trying to get
50:32
behind me with, of not going
50:34
anymore. I didn't. Um.
50:39
I worried about you.
50:41
Well, yeah, but that's that's what I'm saying
50:43
is like there was a lot of sit
50:45
downs and discussions for that more
50:47
than Yeah,
50:49
I should say Yeah,
50:51
I should sit. I should put it like this. I
50:56
I didn't We
51:00
were not the parents who were going to sit down and yell
51:03
at you about going and making sure you
51:05
went and, and all that stuff.
51:07
Um, but I felt like I wanted to
51:09
do our due diligence. Like I
51:12
watched how much you hated it. I
51:15
watched what it was doing to your psyche.
51:18
And I was like, I want my child to stop
51:20
doing this because he is unhappy.
51:23
And so I immediately
51:25
was like, don't go back. Like
51:27
in my mind, I was like, don't go back. But
51:30
then it was like, okay, this is a huge
51:32
decision with long term ramifications,
51:34
which your dad knows because he doesn't have a degree and he's
51:36
had trouble his whole life getting jobs and stuff,
51:39
you know? And um,
51:41
and so I wanted to make sure we talked about it thoroughly.
51:44
Yeah.
51:44
Yeah. Yeah, recently
51:47
I, um, had
51:49
an anxiety attack like same
51:51
degree as I would have almost every
51:53
day when going to school. And
51:55
I was like, how did I live with
51:57
myself? Yeah, I don't know. You were, you
51:59
always had anxiety issues, like even as
52:01
a... As a toddler you didn't want to be
52:03
dropped off at daycare and stuff.
52:05
I just yeah, I don't know what screw
52:07
or school screwed with me Like I just
52:10
and any time now that I feel the level
52:12
of depression or anxiety that I had while
52:14
I was in school I was like, I don't know how I did
52:16
this every day. Yeah, I don't know either School
52:19
is not for everybody. It's just not no
52:22
it's not. Um, and Yeah,
52:25
uh, I'm perfectly fine
52:28
never going back and living
52:32
with crappy jobs, so
52:34
that's fine with me. I
52:37
have made my peace.
52:40
Um. All I care about is whether or not you're happy.
52:43
Well, I shouldn't say all I care about. I,
52:46
I also want you to be clothed
52:49
and fed and have a roof over your head and,
52:52
you know. I mean, that was also nice. But
52:54
you guys, like, you guys weren't 18
52:56
and kicking me out of the... Oh
52:58
my God, I didn't want you to leave. I
53:01
heard all these other parents that were like, Oh,
53:03
I can't wait till they're out of the house. And I'm like, I don't want him
53:06
to go.
53:08
Yeah.
53:09
Um, I just, I even hated
53:11
it when you just kind of disappeared for a while when you first
53:14
started dating Shelby and you guys just were always
53:16
like, you were always at her place or you were like, you
53:18
guys were always out and like, you were like,
53:20
it was so sad to me. I was
53:22
like, I don't even remember. I can't
53:25
even see him anymore. Like we used to, cause
53:27
we used to watch movies all the time. We used to do puzzles
53:29
and all this stuff.
53:30
Yeah. Because you wouldn't even really see me in the morning.
53:32
Cause I would, in the morning I would go to work and then
53:34
like after work I would go to Shelby's or
53:36
something like that. So I wouldn't see you for days. And
53:38
I was like so sad, and
53:40
I was like, how do people, how are people like
53:43
just like excited for their kid to be in
53:45
the house? Like, I don't understand this because I am so
53:47
sad. So like, yeah, so
53:49
when um, now having you both here,
53:51
I love it. I,
53:53
I, yeah. Yeah, that, that's
53:55
also I think why there's like,
53:58
I think... Right
54:01
now as well, there's so many people that are just
54:03
shutting their parents out.
54:05
Oh, going no
54:06
contact? Because their, their parents
54:08
will be like, I want you out of the house
54:11
or, you know, you just have to listen to me
54:13
and that's it. And basically all of the negative
54:15
things that we've talked about so far, sometimes
54:18
a lot of those are wrapped up in one parent. And
54:21
then, and then they'll get
54:23
mad at their kids for, for
54:26
not wanting to speak with them or anything
54:28
like that. And it's like, how.
54:30
There was more, definitely
54:33
that philosophy I remember growing up,
54:35
which was basically, especially
54:37
cause I grew up in a Christian context, right? So everything
54:39
was about forgiveness. You need to forgive everything.
54:42
Right. And there's, there's
54:44
forgiveness, but then there's also protecting
54:46
yourself. Like you can forgive and
54:48
still remove yourself from the situation.
54:51
Um, you know, and.
54:53
Yeah, because that's, that's like, that's
54:56
not life. It's exactly putting yourself
54:58
in a toxic situation and then just
55:01
keep forgiving that person. And then they're like,
55:04
no, I, if, if
55:06
I ever had a friend that was constantly
55:08
toxic to me all the time, first
55:12
of all, they were never my friend to begin with
55:14
because they were so toxic to me all the time and
55:16
I just cut them out. I'm not going to try
55:19
to be friends with you.
55:20
Yeah. Yeah. I think
55:22
we have this, I don't
55:25
know how prevalent it is. It's in
55:27
which generations and whatnot, but definitely like
55:29
in my generation growing up, it was very
55:31
like, family is family,
55:34
you know, and you just forgive,
55:36
forgive, forgive. And then you just
55:38
like stick with that family, which to
55:42
in a very, very basic sense, yeah,
55:45
you like you people make
55:47
mistakes, you forgive them everything. But that's very
55:49
different from someone. Being,
55:54
like you said, toxic or somebody
55:56
denying the very fiber of who you are,
55:59
somebody only demonstrating
56:01
love and care for you if you behave in the ways that
56:03
they want, you know, and,
56:06
um, It's, it's kind
56:08
of funny because I'm, I'm very pro
56:10
going no contact if it is good
56:13
for your mental health. Um, and
56:15
I have to say that,
56:17
um, I, it's not
56:19
because I want to go no contact with my parents
56:21
or I have or anything like that. Like I'm,
56:24
I'm very connected to my parents and...
56:26
I, you know, I go back to visit them
56:28
often, you know, um, so
56:31
I don't, I don't want to go no contact with them.
56:33
I wouldn't, I wouldn't. Um,
56:35
but witnessing
56:37
like what the relationship I
56:40
have with my family versus
56:42
what some other people I know have with theirs,
56:45
I'm like, yeah, you,
56:48
your situation is bad.
56:50
Like, yeah. You know, and
56:53
um, especially when somebody's like,
56:55
they, they come out as like
56:57
gay or trans or,
57:00
you know, and then their parents are like, basically
57:02
like, yeah, like why would
57:05
that kid want to stay in contact
57:07
with you? Honestly, especially
57:08
there's some parents that
57:11
will kick their family
57:13
member out or like, we'll, we'll
57:16
get mad at them, basically shut their family member
57:18
out and then they'll get mad at the family
57:20
member for not, Reaching
57:21
out to them. Uh huh. Oh, it's so
57:24
it is this very weird feeling where they're like,
57:26
well, I'm the parent you can't reject
57:28
me I gave birth to you, you
57:31
know, like And in
57:33
a very visceral way I kind of I
57:35
kind of get that especially because if you ever were
57:37
like I'm gonna go no contact with you I would
57:39
it would devastate me. That would be awful.
57:41
I will be the worst thing for me Okay.
57:46
Um,
57:48
okay. But,
57:51
but I don't know what parents expect when they treat
57:53
their kids the way they do, especially if it's like parents
57:55
who have abused their children when they were younger,
57:58
like physically abused them.
58:01
And then as an adult, they're like, well you should just forgive
58:03
me for that, and we should, you know. Especially
58:04
if the parent had said
58:07
something along the lines of, I'm not gonna do it anymore,
58:09
and then did it again. Yeah. And then,
58:12
even if the parent is being completely serious,
58:14
and it's 100 percent going to happen that you're not gonna
58:16
do it again, there's never gonna be any
58:18
of that trust.
58:20
Well, and sometimes
58:23
as, uh, older,
58:25
they refuse, they refuse to admit that.
58:28
It was their fault. That, yeah. Or that they
58:30
even did it, you know. Yeah. So,
58:33
so yeah, um,
58:36
I hope nobody, anybody listening
58:38
to this, I hope they don't have to go no contact with their
58:40
parents, but um, I also
58:42
hope you choose it if it's what's right for your
58:44
mental health. Yeah. You know,
58:46
like you have to.
58:47
Even distancing is okay. Yeah.
58:50
Like, it doesn't have to be no contact. Right. You can just
58:52
give your, like, if you say, I
58:54
need some
58:54
space. Base. Right. Yeah. Yeah. And,
58:57
and if you're a parent and your kid has gone on no
58:59
contact with you, you may want to take
59:02
a look at your behavior. Yes.
59:04
Yeah. So. Man,
59:07
we covered a lot of stuff. We did. It's
59:09
an
59:09
hour in. Are we
59:10
an hour in? Yeah. Oh my God.
59:12
Welp. Oh, goodbye! Gotta get
59:14
somewhere. I, uh,
59:15
I think, I think maybe we, we need to do our
59:17
Midwestern goodbye. Time
59:19
to go.
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