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Rabiah Coon (Host): This is More Than Work, the podcast reminding
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you that your self worth is made up of more than your job title.
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Each week, I'll talk to a guest about how they discovered that for themselves.
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You'll hear about what they did, what they're doing and who they are.
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I'm your host, Rabiah. I work in IT perform standup comedy, write, volunteer, and of course, podcast.
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Thank you for listening. Hey, everyone.
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Thanks for joining More Than Work this week, I'm really excited because
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today I'm actually heading to a podcast festival here in London.
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I'm going to see my friend, Claire, who runs the Creativity Found podcast.
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And you'll hear an episode that she and I did together of her podcast coming up.
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We're going to do a, my first feed drop here.
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I'm also going to get to see Rich Wilson from Insane in the Man Brain and
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Rosie Wilby from Breakup Monologues, plus a bunch of other things.
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So it's going to be a fun day. Uh, this week, I have a person who started out studying
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philosophy actually in college. And then she is now going back to school to get her master's in writing.
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And she's going to talk about how she got to that decision after spending time
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doing graphic design and video editing. But it's another great episode just around someone finding
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their calling and pursuing it. And I hope it inspires you.
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Um, lately I've been kind of wrapping my game in comedy really, and also on
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the podcast, because I'm doing some things differently in the backend
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that you won't notice because they're really around marketing and stuff.
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But, um, with comedy I'm writing more and trying to enjoy every performance I do.
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And that's something that happened recently where I wasn't
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enjoying what I was doing. And I'm trying to find a way to do that because otherwise, why do that?
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But I think it shows too that we can be pursuing our dreams and
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then realize maybe our dreams have shifted a little bit in that time.
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So anyway, there's just a lot to think about, I guess, or maybe I'm just thinking
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about a lot, but I hope you enjoy this episode when you get to know the guests
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Jazeen and let me know what you think.
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Of course, I would love for you to rate and review and follow the
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podcast as well, but you know that.
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Let's go! Hey everyone.
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So my guest is Jazeen Hollings, and she is a writer, artist, and future ghost.
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How are you doing? Jazeen Hollings: I'm good.
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Thank you so much for having me on Rabiah Coon (Host): I'm just reassured that you are a future
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ghost and not like a present Jazeen Hollings: not a present ghost.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): yeah, I would definitely insist that this was video then, because you wouldn't even show up probably.
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So that'd be amazing, Jazeen Hollings: There's proof that there's life from the beyond.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Exactly. I would just see your microphone floating around and
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. I mean, that would be sweet. I feel like that'd be a much better podcast.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): it'd be really fun to be honest, but we don't have that.
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So, so anyway, where am I talking to you from?
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Jazeen Hollings: Just outside of Toronto, Canada.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Oh, cool. Yeah. Is there another Toronto?
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Jazeen Hollings: I think there's one in the States. Rabiah Coon (Host): I didn't even know that.
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I live in England now and so I see a lot of names that are also in
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the States for sure, but I know why that happened obviously, but yeah.
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Well, cool. Well, I'm glad to have you here.
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So, first of all, you're a writer and artist, but that's not your full-time gig.
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So maybe let's talk about your full-time gig is, and then go into what you're
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doing that's more than work as it is.
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Jazeen Hollings: Sure. Yeah. So I'm a video editor. I do a lot of like commercial/ corporate.
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Was lucky enough to do some short films.
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Recently cut like a trailer, which was really fun.
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So I do get to do some fun stuff in my, in my money job, but most of it is corporate.
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So it's kind of just, you know, cutting real estate
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commercials and stuff like that.
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Not as creative as I'd like, but it's fun.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. Well, so the trailer you did, was it a trailer for a feature?
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Jazeen Hollings: A trailer for a web series. It's like a period piece kind of like Peaky Blinders or Bridgerton,
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but it's like an indie, Toronto Canadian version of that.
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But it was still fun. Trailers are fun to cut. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah.
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That seems fun. Cause you're telling this story very quickly, but not giving too much
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away so you have to really decide. And how'd you get into video editing?
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Jazeen Hollings: At school, I was taking graphic design and then I took
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like a motion design class so it was like a like kinetic typography and
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like animation and after effects stuff.
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And I really liked that.
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And then after doing that for a little bit, I started doing
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more video editing stuff cause that's what people asked me to do.
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So I was like, oh, cool. Okay. Let's, let's learn Premiere.
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Let's learn, you know, how to do that.
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And just kept doing it cause I didn't really know what I wanted to do.
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And I love film, like definitely one of my passions.
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But yeah. I just didn't have too much direction. So I was like, oh, this is cool.
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I can like set my own rate, which is nice, you know?
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And. Just kept doing it until uh, fell in love with screenwriting.
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And that's when I was like, okay, I want to write, I don't want to do this any more.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. That kind of brings you to now, I mean, I guess you had some big
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news relatively recently about what you're going to do with writing.
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, so I applied for my MFA in creative writing because
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I just wanted to transition full time into writing and have some
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real guidance, I think, because being self-taught at something You get to
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a point where you're just like, Yeah. I would love like some intensive, like hardcore guidance and feedback and just
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to kind of take it to the next level. So yeah, I applied to a bunch of MFA programs in Canada.
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And I got into the University of British Columbia MFA program,
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which I should not have. I just want to say that because one, yeah, one, my grades were not as good as
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they should have been from the school. And the other reason being, I had totally like messed up on my application
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and didn't send them a transcript when I should have, and I had to like
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frantically email them and be like, "I'm so sorry, but I messed up."
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So I definitely thought that there was like no chance.
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So, but you never know, so you might as well try it.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. And if you make a mistake, just kind of own up to it, right.
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And just try to Jazeen Hollings: yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): say, this is what happened.
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That's easier to understand then. "Oh no, I did attach it and you didn't get it" or something
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weird, Jazeen Hollings: you can't. really lie through a computer that way it's either there or you didn't do it.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. And sometimes it's like, you just forgot and cause sometimes I've
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been late with something before and I've just said, well, I forgot.
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So can I still do it or not? And then it's like, no, it wouldn't be fair to everyone else, okay.
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Or, yeah, go ahead. So. Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. People are actually really like, receptive to the truth when you just tell them.
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Yeah, I've totally just forgot. And they're like, oh Yeah. Okay.
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I'm like, oh, okay. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. All right.
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So I don't have to do my creative writing for this basically.
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. Yeah. So Yeah. That's some big news.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. That's very cool. And congratulations.
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So you'll be going full time to school?
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, I'm so excited. Rabiah Coon (Host): When you did your undergrad, what did you study?
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Jazeen Hollings: So I did graphic design at okay.
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I do university. And then I did two years before that at UFT, University of Toronto for philosophy,
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which, you know, super useful degree. Rabiah Coon (Host): yeah, yeah.
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That and art history both really make parents happy about student
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loans and stuff like that, Jazeen Hollings: Oh, yeah. Very worth it.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): yeah. Okay. And so you didn't finish the philosophy degree.
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Jazeen Hollings: No, I transferred. Yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): Okay.
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But that's good. It's good to know you don't want to do something and just to stop doing it.
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If you can really . Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. Like I liked philosophy.
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It was just very clear that it's a little bit depressing to study it full time.
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And then at the end of the day it's like, well, what can I do with this?
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And at the end of the day, I just wasn't like passionate about it.
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Like I wasn't going to get my PhD in it. I wasn't gonna, you know, devote my life to the meaning of existence so
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I called it quits and I was like, all right, let's go make stuff instead.
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of. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. So did you do art or any kind of art before you went to the graphic design
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degree or was that your first time really creating, I guess visual art.
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Jazeen Hollings: I had always been into like drawing and painting as a kid
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and like through high school for sure. I was always doing that even when I was really young as well.
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Like just always making something I think.
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And, yeah, I just think that I got a little bit derailed and in high school,
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like everyone was going to traditional universities and degrees, and they were
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kind of like planning out their future their third, whatever 10 year plan
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when you're like 17, which is insane.
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And I just felt like pressure to do the same thing, I think.
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Then I definitely didn't listen to myself at all because if I had, I probably
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would've just been writing and making art since a teen, but I just, didn't.
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Wasn't strong enough, I guess. I just didn't. So, that's the reason why I went to university pretty much.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. Well, it's the acceptable path.
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It's the accepted path, right? For everyone, I think, I mean, Either that, or you don't.
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But I mean, like for me, I didn't have much pressure from my family just because
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no one had gone to school prior to me, but it still, I wanted to be a lawyer because
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I thought you need to be a doctor or a lawyer and I was not going to be a doctor.
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So I was going to be a lawyer and I studied political science.
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And then around my second year of some things happened.
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In my life, that changed some perspective for me.
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But also I just took a writing class that wasn't in my major or anything.
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I took sociology too, which sounds weird.
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But like, there was this, it was social deviance.
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So it was Jazeen Hollings: Oh, nice. So yeah.
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like weird social stuff.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. And so then I ended up not doing my major for over a year and I was just focused
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on writing and that kind of thing. And I'm just saying this to tell you that, and I'm probably 20 years older
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than you, it was the same thing for me.
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Like I just didn't do it and I should have done it because
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that's what I wanted to do. And I will tell you though, it took me and tell us about 40 to realize
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that that's what I should be doing. And so I'm doing more writing now, but I really am proud of you.
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I don't know you but I'm really proud of you for making that decision.
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Really. Jazeen Hollings: I'm proud of you too. Yes. Follow your dreams.
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Go. \ Rabiah Coon (Host): it is crazy that at 17 or 18 we're suppo as, as people and
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now, well beyond that, but even kids now, like a parents are listening like that
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planning your entire life when you're that age is such a ridiculous thing.
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Cause you have no idea who you are. Jazeen Hollings: I know it's a joke.
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Like, I mean, there's the odd person who's just like, yes,
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I'm going to be X, Y, or Zed. And they've had like, they have that conviction and that kind of
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attitude of like, I don't care. Like nobody's gonna stop met but l ike, I don't know about you, but
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I had like zero confidence at 17.
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Like I don't, I don't, I didn't think I ever was going to get it.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): No. Jazeen Hollings: So Yeah. it is.
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It's kind of insane how much pressure we put on children because
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you're still a child at that point. Rabiah Coon (Host): So as far as screenwriting, you mentioned that that's
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something you realized you wanted to do and now you're going to do your MFA.
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Have you written screenplays already a full one or parts of them or?
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. I have a feature which is great.
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It took me so long. It was a nightmarish process, cause I'd never written one before and
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I didn't know what I was doing. And I had like, like eight or nine drafts until it made sense.
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I finished that about a month ago and then I had just had like maybe three or four,
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like short screenplays finished as well.
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So just testing the waters and like seeing what kind of stuff I want to
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make and like, you know, what, what's the process like and what are the
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pitfalls and all that kind of stuff.
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And you definitely don't, you don't figure it out until you
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figure it out until you just do it. So.
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But really great experience though, really rewarding and maybe one day
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we'll get made into something or it will just be a script forever.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Did you have an idea before you sat
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down to write the whole thing? Or what was your process like?
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Or was it just building the story as you went and how was that for you?
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. For this one, I just had like an opening image in my head
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and a song to go with the image.
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You can't really promise a specific song in a script cause of like rights
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and money and all that kind of stuff. But this one started with just like an opening image and and
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like a doo-wop song to go over it.
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And just the story kind of unfolded from there of how did
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we get to this point essentially? But they all kind of start different ways.
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It's usually an image though, for sure. Where it's like, oh, like That's freaky.
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Let's investigate that. Rabiah Coon (Host): Hmm.
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): cool. And then in your, in your MFA, are you going to focus on screen writing
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or just writing in general or? Jazeen Hollings: Yeah.
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So they have like a bunch of different courses. It's divided into like a thesis project, so a major project and then coursework.
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So there's lots of different genres that they offer, which is great because,
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you know, I've, I love writing fiction as well, and I love doing poetry.
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So those are definitely genres that I would love to do as, as
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well included with screenwriting. So, I definitely like writing all things, not necessarily screenplays.
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And that's just because I feel like certain stories need different formats.
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A lot of the times I think very visually and I think in terms of
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films, So those stories just go right into the screenplay idea pile, and
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then other stories are like, you know what, I would love to have more than
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120 pages to dedicate to this idea.
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That goes in the fiction pile and so forth and so on.
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Yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): That's really cool. And then as far as your art and you being an artist, I mean, do you think,
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what kind of art do you do first of all; the graphic design only?
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Or do you do physical, painting and stuff like that now?
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. So, I paint, but I guess I call myself an artist more so in the fact of like
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I do a variety of different things.
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So not necessarily just visual art, but like, like I would consider like you an
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artist as well, because you do comedy and that's an art, that's an art form.
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I feel like anyone who does something that's, you know, really creative,
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it doesn't necessarily have to mean it's a visual art thing.
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It's like, it's more of an attitude or a lifestyle, or
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just a way of being, I guess.
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But I do paint for fun, but just for fun.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): It's interesting that a lot of your ideas come to you visually though, and
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): versus another.
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I mean, I don't know how everyone's ideas come to them anyway.
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I guess for me, because I'll write different things, but I like, I
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love non-fiction for some reason and always have I guess ever since
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I discovered the New Yorker, I don't know if you've read it. Jazeen Hollings: Yeah.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): There's just amazing, amazing, interesting
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stories in there that almost read like fiction sometimes, because
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they're just done beautifully, right? So I'll just think of an idea though, but not necessarily a visual idea.
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So I like to hear how you're, how you're doing it in that way.
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It's pretty cool. Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. And so do you do you draw from like a lot of like real experiences?
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Cause I know comedy is very much like that where it's like, you kind
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of have to just draw on your own personal experiences and, and that's
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interesting that you like nonfiction, cause maybe that's just like, you know,
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real life is very inspiring to you, Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah, true.
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And even films that I like and shows, and my mom, we were watching.
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I mean, I don't know if you've seen This is Us, but you know, it's a
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drama, like a family drama show.
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And my mom was like, oh, it was almost too real.
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Like just watching real people this one episode recently, and I investigated
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more about it and I found the one actress has contributed to writing it.
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It was mostly about her character and then Mandy Moore had directed it.
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So it was a female director, but also her who's very invested in the show.
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And so I thought, and it was a different episode than other ones.
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You could see the difference. But I liked that it seemed a real cause I always liked like that things feel
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real, but to the point where they're almost too raw, but I think that's cool.
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Jazeen Hollings: Right. You know, I love that. Yeah.
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Yeah. I'm definitely the same way. I love maybe just like pushing it to a point where it is extremely
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vulnerable and extremely raw because that's where all the good stuff is.
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I don't know if you've seen Fleabag. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yes.
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. But like her stuff, she just like.
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Like takes, like the way she writes is like, she just takes a knife and like
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stabs you and then like twists it. Like every, I don't know, every beat or every half a show or have
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like full, full episode or whatever. And you can tell that that's like coming from a real place.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah, it's rough because she'll say things and
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it's like, well, maybe I've thought that I would never have said it.
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Jazeen Hollings: Right? Yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): you know, and I think too, some of the best comics and
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people I admire and things I try to do, I don't do much shock or very vulgar or
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anything as far as comedy but I've enjoyed working on things that like around mental
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health, for example, is one subject I'm playing with just because I've had
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experiences with difficulties there.
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And then with chronic illness and things like that that are
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hard to do in a five minute set. I have to do like a longer set in a show in a way to get that out.
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But it's fun to me because I do like, I don't like talking about it necessarily,
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but I do think that there's an importance in sharing those things and and, you
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know, I'll, I'll talk about them in the context of trying to help other
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people or something, but then on stage there's, there's funny things about it.
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There's funny things about certain stuff that maybe doesn't seem
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funny on the surface, you know? And so I think that's fun.
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And I think that that's the part where people say, well, artists are dark
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or comics or always have a dark side and I think it's true, but I think it
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manifests in different ways, you know? Jazeen Hollings: Totally.
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And I think I've somewhat similar to you in that respect of like, I definitely
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gravitate towards darker things just because I feel like they're more real
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or they, they feel more real or they feel like there's these things that
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people just don't want to talk about. And I mean, comedy and, you know in regards to your stand-up is such a great
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way to shove something in someone's face. And be like, look like this thing actually exists.
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It's real. And by the way, it's also a joke because everything is a
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joke on some level, I think.
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But yeah, I love the dark stuff. I think it's like very close to home
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Rabiah Coon (Host): I think you can have both in the same thing, kind of like
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what I guess where you're just saying about colony, but even in a screenplay or
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something like You can have the characters that are depressed or that have some kind
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of maybe personality flaw or something, but it can also be funny, but it's, it's
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different when it's like, you're trying to make it, so they're all happy all the time
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cause that's so unrealistic. Even that person, you know, that it's always happy all the time.
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And I think the biggest thing to me is like, almost thinking about people as
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their Facebook profile versus real life,
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Jazeen Hollings: yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): And it's like, my Facebook profile looks
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very different than my life does. And people will say, oh, I'm so jealous.
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And I, someone said that to me recently.
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I went on a trip and I'm so jealous. And in my head I was going, you're jealous of what?
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Because like that I'm there, but what about everything else?
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And I know you, you wouldn't possibly even go alone, so you're not jealous.
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So I'm here by myself for one thing, and I know that's not your
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deal, but then I thought there's all this other stuff going on
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they don't know about. And I almost like how in a movie or jokes or whatever you can say.
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"Yeah, here's this person who also has all this going on" and it's there
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so they can be three-dimensional.
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. yeah, The three dimensionality is, is I feel like where you get like the real stories.
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I'm recently finished the show. Barry. I don't know if he, yeah.
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Bill Hader show and, you know, he's a Hitman who is lost and doesn't
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know what to do with his life and stumbles across like an acting class.
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And he realizes that acting is what he wants to do with his life.
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And It's just So exploratorave of, of like how we all kind of feel very unhappy
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in a lot of ways until we kind of find the thing that brings our life purpose,
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. So thinking about just what we've learned about you is that you're pursuing this
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Philosophy degree, then decided to go and get out of that and do the graphic design.
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And then now you're, you've been doing this video editing
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job, which you do enjoy. You've expressed that you do enjoy it, but you have this passion writing.
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So now you're getting out of that and going into the writing.
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And so those are two kind of, I would say, pretty major pivots in your life.
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How did you feel making those decisions and if you can talk about making those
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changes to pursue what you want, because that's a really bold thing to do?
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, I guess with video editing, it was just
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like, oh, I'm doing this now. And I actually didn't really think too much about it.
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It was just like, oh, this is something that semi creative that,
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you know, won't make me want to jump off a building essentially.
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Cause I think that if I worked in an office over time,
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that's what would happen. And then when I fell in love with screenwriting, it was just like
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this moment of like, holy shit, like this is what I'm supposed to do.
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And, in a lot of ways, it was extremely terrifying because it
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was like, well, I spent all this time, doing this other thing.
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And obviously like the age thing comes into play where it's just like, oh, you're
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not 16 and you're not really attractive.
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So like how could you possibly live your dreams?
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Which is insane. Rabiah Coon (Host): Well, that's insane anyway, but yes.
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Jazeen Hollings: I realize it's very untrue, so Yeah.
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I mean, you could do whatever you want at any age. I don't think it matters.
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And but it was this really weird thing of I wanna live all of these different lives
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and like be all these different people. And experience all these different things.
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And then writing is a perfect way to do that because you can
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literally just make up any story that you want and, and craft it.
21:56
And you can be different people and explore different problems and
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explore humanity and you know, you can make it funny or you make
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it scary, just so many options. But it wasn't until writing for two years, I think until I was
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brave enough to actually be like, "Hey, I want to make money at this.
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I want this to be my life." And, and I mean, I don't, I don't need to get famous or make
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millions of dollars or anything. I just would like to support myself doing something that I love.
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And that's my main goal. It didn't feel like a choice when I decided to do it, to pursue it full-time
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and to try to get really good at it. It felt like I had to do it and it still feels like I have to do it.
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If I don't write every morning, my whole day is messed up and I'm not happy.
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So I, I don't know. It doesn't feel like a choice.
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It feels like I have to do it. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah.
22:48
And so that's your writing, is that that's part of your writing
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practice writing every morning? Did you freewriting or?
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Jazeen Hollings: I do. So sometimes I journal like when I have to get some stuff out, but like
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whatever piece I'm working on, I like to dedicate an hour every morning to it.
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No matter what, because that's the only way that it will get done.
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I think Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. Jazeen Hollings: with life, life around.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Well, I always felt like the mornings, the only part of my day I can control.
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Jazeen Hollings: Right. Totally. Rabiah Coon (Host): And, and in a way I get frustrated if someone,
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if someone calls me or writes to me or something, I'm like, what?
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Like, this was my time and now you've intruded on it, you know?
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And that's not fair to whoever does that, but it's just for me, it's
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like, this is the time I have that no, one's supposed to be bothering me.
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Of course I can put my phone down, but you know, that's another thing, right?
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Jazeen Hollings: Like how dare you encroach on my boundary
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. Yeah. That I, that I'm not that you don't know about that I'm not respecting.
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Jazeen Hollings: right, exactly. Yeah.
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I've actually, I've thought about that a lot and I think
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it's like a self-trust thing. I feel like it actually has nothing to do with other people or the outside world.
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Cause I would get really pissed off if someone was ruining
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my writing time air quotes. And it's just like, wait a second.
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It's not them. It's me being like, if I don't have this, I'm not going to make
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something, but that's not true. You know what I mean?
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It's. Yeah, it just, I don't know.
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I don't know why creative people get crazy
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Rabiah Coon (Host): absolutely. Jazeen Hollings: when people interrupt them.
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So I definitely think it's more of an us thing.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Totally. And it's just like, then just don't have my phone out or just
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don't be on logged into something.
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It's very simple. Anyway, if I really don't want to be interrupted, I can
24:32
prevent that from happening. I live alone. I mean, if someone breaks into my flat, that's another issue, you know?
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Jazeen Hollings: How dare you you ruin my creative morning time.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Just take what you want, but please be quiet. I'm working.
24:46
Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): So you do have some writing on your website
24:49
though, and some blogs and stuff. So can you talk a little bit about what you choose to put out publicly?
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Jazeen Hollings: It's whatever, whatever resonates, I think.
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Yeah. It's weird because for a long time, I was very much just like, Okay.
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let's decide. Let's make a plan and make topics and be very logical
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about it and have a spreadsheet.
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And now I'm just like, if I feel like writing about it,
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that's what I write about. And that's, that's my baseline for what gets out.
25:18
Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. I do know someone who has spreadsheets for a lot of things, and I feel very
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seen right now, but also very attacked.
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Jazeen Hollings: Are you a spreadsheeter? I was for a very long time.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): I am. I have I, I am and you filled in a Google form and,
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Jazeen Hollings: I did, Rabiah Coon (Host): then that goes into a spreadsheet, which is super fun, for me.
25:39
And then and I have a spreadsheet for my comedy, so I ,know exactly
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how many gigs I've done and how long I've spent on stage.
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And Jazeen Hollings: I think for that, that makes sense.
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Cause that's like a, I know you're keeping track of all the things, right?
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But I feel like when you come up with a joke, you probably don't have
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a spreadsheet of potential jokes.
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It's more just like you're walking down the street and you're just like, oh, that's hilarious.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. And then that goes in Notes. Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, exactly.
26:05
Let's write that down now Rabiah Coon (Host): and itAndvery unorganized and there's like probably
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200 notes that have weird thoughts.
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Like if someone ever opened up my notes and saw what I've written down.
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Most recently it's "plus sized nudists" question mark.
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And I can't make it work.
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I can't make it work. I have not, but I know something there because that statement is
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funny, but you can't just go on stage and say that and that's it.
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, but the idea that like, you're like,
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there's something there, somewhere. Rabiah Coon (Host): there's something there.
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So no, but that's, that's really cool that you've just kind of figured
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out over time what you want to do.
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Yeah. And are pursuing it. I think that's, that's so important.
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And I, I like how for you, it's not a, it hasn't, it's not a choice at some point.
26:50
And I think that that's the mistake some people make is that they have
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this calling to do something, but then they somehow rationalize it like
26:59
they can't possibly choose to do that. And I don't think you have to make a living at writing, even if you want to
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write, or if you want to do what I do, comedy, which you're talking way too
27:07
much about on this episode, it's about you but if you want to do art, if you
27:11
want to do whatever you don't, you have to find a way to do it in your life.
27:16
I mean, do you agree that even if you're not doing it, full-time,
27:18
there should be way you make space. Like you said, for an hour every morning, you write for example, right now?
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. I feel like you have to make space for the things that you love or else it's
27:28
like, what are we doing on this planet?
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Our job is not to go work a nine to five for somebody else, so that we
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can make money and have a crazy amount of things in a crazy amount of space.
27:42
For some people maybe that is what gets them excited every morning.
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But just for me personally, it's just like, if I don't have something
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that I'm working on that I can express myself with or investigate
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something or, you know, work at then I just don't feel like I'm alive.
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And I know that sounds insane. But Yeah.
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I guess, I guess it just, that's why for me, it's just not really a choice,
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even if I don't make money at it. Cause like I've been writing for two years.
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I haven't seen a cent. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah.
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Jazeen Hollings: That should detour someone from not doing
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something but that's the only thing that keeps me going.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. So as far as we've talked quite a bit about what's worked for you, but is there
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any advice or mantra that you just like to share with people or something that you've
28:28
come across as that's been helpful to you? Jazeen Hollings: Yeah.
28:32
I guess like my mantra has been be afraid, but do it anyways.
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That's my mantra. And then and I think that, you know, I would tell that to anybody.
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Yeah, Be scared because if you're not scared, then you're probably not doing
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something that's, that's open and real but be scared and then just do it.
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Just figure out a way to do it. Rabiah Coon (Host): I talked to a lot of people about getting on
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stage and get nervous every time.
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Yeah, absolutely. Because otherwise it doesn't mean anything and it's like, do you get
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worried when you publish a piece? Of course, because it's going to be seen and people might have an opinion
29:07
on it that's not great or it is great.
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It's almost scary to do well sometimes.
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I don't know. Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. Well, before the pandemic I had done like a Second City stand up course.
29:19
And I had, and I had done like maybe 10 shows.
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Like I wouldn't call myself a standup person, but I did 10 shows and there
29:26
is nothing more nerve rattling than telling a joke and nobody laughing
29:33
and yeah, there's, I mean, It's like, it's a special skill to be able to put
29:39
yourself out there over and over and over again, hoping for a certain response
29:43
and getting a completely different one. And that's the fear that I think a lot of artistic people have to push
29:50
through like every single time. Maybe Yeah.
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a lot of them probably not all of them. I'm sure there are amazing, incredible people who are just like don't care.
29:59
Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. Jazeen Hollings: And I envy those people, but.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah. Cause when you, when you share writing too, right?
30:06
I mean, it's not just performance, but it's when you share writing or you share
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even, maybe even with your video editing, I mean, you send it to someone and they
30:16
might have feedback you don't like. I mean, I know I've my, one of my best friends in the
30:20
world is a graphic designer. Actually, and then I have other good friends who are too, and I don't know
30:26
how they do it because I mean, in the sense that they have to get negative
30:33
feedback constantly for good work.
30:36
And I don't know how someone does that. I don't think I have the constitution to handle that because I'd be like
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super annoyed all the time, you know?
30:44
Jazeen Hollings: I mean, you get to a point where you just like turn it off.
30:47
Like you just turn off like the, the, like I'm going to take this personally switch
30:53
in your brain, you just turn it off. Some of them are so funny when you're working with like
30:57
business people who know nothing. Absolutely nothing about how things should look and you'll give them
31:03
something and they'll pour hours into it.
31:07
And you're like, this looks sick and they'll come back and then just be like,
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okay, here's something really funny. Okay.
31:12
Here's something really cool that we should do. We should make the font Comic Sans.
31:17
I don't know. We'll just be like, okay, I don't, you could either get upset or you
31:21
can just be like, Yeah, totally. By the way, I'm going to charge you an extra whatever for that.
31:28
I'm going to at least make money. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah.
31:31
I feel like Comic Sans should just be called tragic or something
31:34
like this should rename it. And be like, okay, this is not a funny font because too many
31:40
people have taken it seriously. So it's no longer.
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. it's like your life is overflowing. Like this is what you use when it's done.
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It's gone. Rabiah Coon (Host): It's horrible. It's horrible font.
31:53
All right, so then I have a set of questions called the Fun Five
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that I just like to ask everybody. So the first one, what is the oldest?
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T-shirt you have and still wear. Jazeen Hollings: Uh, yes, um the oldest t-shirt I have and still wear
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is a t-shirt from a Pixies concert.
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From 11 years ago, I think.
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And I'd like, the color is like deteriorating.
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And I think like, I don't know the print on it is like, can't even tell that
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it's a Pixies t-shirt, but I just love it so much and I'll never let it go.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah, very cool. Very cool.
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So if everyday was really Groundhog's Day, like it's felt for a lot of
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the last couple of years, because we were had to be in our homes.
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What song would you have your alarm clock play every day?
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Jazeen Hollings: So I think something that would be really funny for like
32:40
other people to witness, but maybe not for me to wake up to every morning.
32:44
would be beautiful day by U2, but just like just the chorus.
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So it would start with like, it's a beautiful day, but
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just for the rest of my life, Rabiah Coon (Host): that would get annoying
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Jazeen Hollings: I think that, yeah, that would be horrible. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah.
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Jazeen Hollings: It could be worth it. Rabiah Coon (Host): So, all right.
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Coffee or tea or neither? Jazeen Hollings: Coffee in the morning tea in the afternoon.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): That's smart. Jazeen Hollings: it was, it used to be coffee all day and it was not a good time.
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Rabiah Coon (Host): yeah. Do you like any specific kind of tea?
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Jazeen Hollings: Chamomile. Just like a chill. Yeah.
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Some of that will just wind me down. Rabiah Coon (Host): Nice.
33:17
Alright. Can you think of a time you laughed so hard you cried or something that just
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makes you kind of crack up when you think of it or interact with someone?
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Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, so, recently my boyfriend and I
33:27
have been watching storage wars. I don't know if you've ever seen that show.
33:31
Yeah, I know Rabiah Coon (Host): what you're talking about. Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. It's like people bid on storage lockers and they try to like outbid each
33:36
other and like, like try to figure out how much their wares are worth.
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It's the stupidest, reality show I've ever seen.
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But the theme song is this super American country, like
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gritty bluesy, like yeah.
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Like we are in America and the, the lyrics of it and the melody,
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are like, money owns this town.
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As I go throughout my day, like, I'll be sending an invoice and
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I'll be like money owns this town.
34:07
And just, this is the stupidest thing ever, but that's what
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makes me laugh right now. Rabiah Coon (Host): Great. Yeah.
34:11
That's I know it's like, Ugh.
34:13
I mean, I'm from America and some of the things we put on TV for
34:19
people to watch just amaze me. And then we wonder why people think certain things about us, you know?
34:24
All right. And then the last question. Who inspires you right now?
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Jazeen Hollings: So for me, people usually don't inspire me and I know that
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sounds conceited and weird and horrible.
34:35
But it's actually mostly just everyday things or like situations or like things
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that happen to me that maybe inspire a story or inspire me to write anything.
34:47
I would say that like some of my favorite authors are Margaret Atwood or Alex
34:52
Garland who writes a lot of scifi stuff.
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He's a director as well. He did Ex-Machina and Annihilation and all those sorts of things.
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Stephen King I look, I actually really look up to his work.
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I know a lot of people kind of dismiss him as just like a genre writer.
35:07
You know, he's like, ah, it's this horror and sci-fi and whatever.
35:11
But he's put a lot of himself in a lot of his work in really interesting ways.
35:15
Like The Shining for example, is actually about like his kind of his
35:20
his addiction to alcohol and also the fear of him pushing his family
35:25
away because it's getting in the way of his writing, like his work.
35:28
Obviously it's a very severe, severe metaphor for that.
35:32
But he puts a lot of his own fears into his work and I think
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that's really, really brave. So yeah, I think that's my answer.
35:39
Rabiah Coon (Host): Oh, that's great. I didn't know that about Stephen King.
35:41
I have read some of his stuff a long time ago and yeah, just because
35:46
you're in a genre doesn't matter. And I did I actually read Handmaid's Tale.
35:49
I didn't read the next book. I think it's on my Kindle right now waiting, but that was incredible to read.
35:54
Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, Yeah, she's amazing.
35:58
Rabiah Coon (Host): yeah. And just, I read it after watching the show.
36:01
And so then it, it changed my view of the characters so much.
36:05
Even though it was a lot shorter.
36:07
It was just text. That was a lot shorter and more concise than two, two or three seasons.
36:12
I don't know how many seasons I've been at the show, but it was really amazing how
36:15
in so few words, she got these characters to be so real, you know, it's amazing.
36:22
Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. I, I mean, they're just making like so many incredible shows right now.
36:26
Like, like Handmaid's tale, for example, like the book is, is great.
36:31
And deals with a lot of kind of really scary themes.
36:35
But the show, in my opinion is maybe even more bleak and hits way home.
36:40
Like it hits home way more, I think.
36:43
So yeah. but you know, she's great. I love Margaret.
36:45
I would she's Canadian, which is great too. Rabiah Coon (Host): All right, cool, so if people want to find
36:49
you, where do you want them to go? Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, they can check out my poetry on Instagram at Jazeen
36:55
underscore underscore, underscore underscore (@jazeen____) it's just
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like a long line after my name. There's my website.
37:02
You can check out some of my art there. That's jazeen dot com (jazeen.com).
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Rabiah Coon (Host): Super. Well, it's been it's been a lot of fun talking to you, so thanks
37:08
for being on More Than Work. Jazeen Hollings: Yeah, well, thank you so much for having me.
37:11
It was awesome. Talking about all this fun stuff and also hearing about your comedy.
37:16
I just have like, this really weird, obsession with comics cause I think
37:19
what you guys do is is so hard. Rabiah Coon (Host): Yeah.
37:22
I feel like, yeah, I've talked to more about it than
37:24
I usually do, but that's okay. People can enjoy, enjoy that, right?
37:28
Jazeen Hollings: Yeah. Rabiah Coon (Host): Thanks for listening.
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You can learn more about the guest and what was talked about in the show notes.
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