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the ass. Claire, I don't understand me. Maybe
2:01
it'll actually be good. For me,
2:03
Isn't that what? Even trying to help
2:05
me find like someone who's good for
2:07
me, but you're not suing him the
2:09
real you. You're giving him some edited
2:12
version of herself and that's not
2:14
sustainable. I Tony. As usual
2:16
my beautiful wife speaks the truth
2:18
is as across and how. Much
2:20
longer you can stay in our guest room. Okay,
2:23
that was a low blow. You know? I've been
2:25
looking for a place where. I'm sure you're
2:27
joblessness isn't helping you get any
2:29
approvals. How players credit score hovers
2:31
in the low five hundred's. Not
2:33
irreparable, but below a landlords ideal
2:36
score for renters. You
2:38
can stay as long as you'd like. Clear
2:40
sausages, getting frustrated and your directly working as
2:42
your own best interests. I don't need to
2:44
to speak for me my love of course
2:47
not darling and just trying to help clear
2:49
see where you're coming from. And
2:51
to reiterate that I share your opinion,
2:53
I. Appreciate the clarification. On.
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Your intent. I appreciate the deep love
2:58
you have for our family which lives
3:00
at the surface and core of you
3:02
are being even when you're frustrated. And
3:04
hi Claire I was. Things. I
3:09
can. Even with the people, this is what
3:11
it looks like to trust your partner unconditionally.
3:13
And a half perfectly harmonious communication styles.
3:16
It sounds to me like you're both
3:18
acting the way the other things you
3:20
should. Stand it any
3:22
different than what I'm doing with then it. It's
3:25
entirely different. I. Mean, once we read
3:27
each other's files, we knew the challenges,
3:29
the nastiness, the things that have gone
3:31
wrong, and how he reacted. But your
3:33
files weren't. Lake. Upsetting.
3:36
Book. Or possibly than the challenges.
3:38
You found Saddam Had to read about the loss of
3:40
my cat. His hairless cat. I
3:43
mean the fact that he had a hairless cat in the first
3:45
place? Clarify. A lists and number
3:47
of short lived fish Among previous animal
3:50
companions, there was debate about whether to
3:52
include the pigeon that nested outside of
3:54
her old bed stay apartment with Claire
3:56
said corn chips for several months. She
3:59
just passed when. And I romanced.
4:01
And if I hadn't seen that first,
4:03
I might not have understood precisely why
4:05
he was so down on our first
4:07
date. Tony might have been too shy
4:09
to bring it up in the hairless
4:11
cat. She even brought me flowers!
4:14
I mean, a hairless cats are objectively freaky,
4:16
but that's a beige. Flag at worst.
4:18
Bad is relative. One person's red
4:20
flag might be someone else is
4:23
green flag. Okay who's green flag
4:25
is fired by her ex on
4:27
boyfriend boss. Who's. Is
4:29
impulsively broker lease who's is
4:32
indefinitely crushing other cousins. Couch
4:34
with no money, no prospects in a burden to
4:36
her family. Well when you put a Segway. Have.
4:39
You reached out to war and yet. A.
4:42
I. Will just. Hasn't felt like the right
4:44
time. Clear. Has communicated
4:46
with her sister Lauren since Lawrence
4:48
birthday in September two years ago.
4:50
likewise claims last contact with her
4:53
brother Eat and was on his
4:55
birthday in February. Clears. Prose,
4:57
I'll describe their relationships as cordial,
5:00
never explicitly unfriendly, but lacking the
5:02
warmth and play typical of could
5:04
sibling relationships. This. May be attributed
5:06
to both of clans oldest sibling: studious Ness.
5:09
Neither more nor even were known to sneak
5:11
out of the house or skipped classes, or
5:13
at least neither of them were caught in
5:15
the act. As often as Claire, you have
5:17
to give her the chance to be a
5:20
better sister. If you want that kind of
5:22
relationship with her, you have to be vulnerable
5:24
to keep her a chance to be a
5:26
better sister if you ever want the of
5:28
my God I were you always this annoying.
5:32
Seriously, I know you have a lot
5:34
on your plate and Tony and I
5:36
are here for you no matter what.
5:38
That. If you really want to build
5:41
a new life and move forward with
5:43
Bennett than you have to start rethinking
5:45
some things. You say that like
5:47
have already made up my mind about Bennett,
5:49
haven't you? I mean
5:51
he's your soulmate, but the like
5:53
him. Or. Do you like
5:56
the idea of who use made him think
5:58
you are so much that you. Falling
6:00
in love with your fake self. My love
6:02
you are so wise. I don't know,
6:04
I'm just trying to figure it out. Okay,
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you're never gonna find out a spin it
6:09
really likes you If you don't give him
6:11
the chance to know how great you are,
6:13
he's still getting know me as just like
6:15
a better. Me: Who. Wasn't
6:17
responsible for a line of the empties up.
6:19
father's daughter. So. It was wrong
6:21
about that. Oh.
6:25
Nothing serious has. Shot Up sent
6:27
me a voice know. Secular
6:31
sort of. It's weird and voice memo
6:33
gonna hate how texting gets rid of
6:36
all the nuances Village Voice That makes
6:38
it possible that. Was
6:41
a soda have been clear but I would like
6:43
to see you again. That is
6:45
if you're able to take some time
6:47
off from that big secret project Claire.
6:49
But if you do have some time
6:51
maybe this weekend then ah, let me
6:54
know and we could see each other.
6:57
Or you can pick the places that. Are
6:59
thought Us: Yeah, I guess if you're
7:01
already back in Chicago then I hope
7:03
you had a nice flight. Home.
7:07
So. I guess he doesn't mind the version. of
7:10
me he seeing than certainly doesn't sound like
7:12
as. Be careful with his
7:14
feelings, Claire. And with your own.
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The second date has been studied
7:23
by psychologists at the National Soul
7:26
Mate Database. Before the release of
7:28
the algorithm, psychologist identified that the
7:30
perceived favorability have a partner after
7:32
the second date was a much
7:34
more significant indicator of future compatibility
7:36
and the same metric. After the first
7:38
date. Really
7:40
New Yorkers? never global oil and coal mine
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as such as Sex With Me. Or. Stage
7:45
Oh so this. Isn't this?
7:47
I wasn't quite sure when you
7:49
replied to my voice memo with
7:51
the text, K K sounds good
7:54
for good T U d Just
7:56
a test. Was looking for a
7:58
shorthand for it's platonic socialising. Then,
8:00
between two soulmate matches Internet
8:02
that's a mouthful. I'm
8:05
glad if I'm interpreting correctly. That.
8:08
It seems that you also enjoyed spending time together the
8:10
other night. For. Least that I made
8:12
it through the next phase of the serial killers. Us.
8:16
Most researchers myself included believe that
8:18
the second seed is usually more
8:21
successful because there are fewer pretenses,
8:23
a lower state of anxiety, and
8:25
more fluid conversations feel my cousin
8:27
she was stuff around. Me as
8:29
about this number? senior again. She
8:31
and her husband. their soulmate obviously
8:33
and she's trying so hard to
8:35
get me to tie into at
8:38
all. Ah, so you were coerced
8:40
into same day. Blink
8:42
twice, but it helps. No, no, I
8:44
mean. I think she just
8:46
really want to believe in the soul
8:49
mate thing to like justify. Her own
8:51
relationship. Or thought. Oh.
8:54
Hush and Tony. And my
8:57
brother and sister like this to with
8:59
their soul mates. Everything is so intentional.
9:02
They're all about radical honesty and
9:04
nick empathy exercises and the stupid,
9:06
so I'm okay. Okay, it's. A
9:09
Sorry, it's not stupid if you're into it,
9:11
but I'm like that. Like all sounds so
9:13
obvious, like everyone should be doing this
9:15
automatically and I'm just a dumb ass.
9:18
will. Blow with took there
9:20
again in a negative says
9:22
title. I'm. Actually
9:24
doing these leaks. Positivity
9:27
exercises written out a
9:29
whole self. Love? really?
9:32
Burns you patients things like tuck lot
9:34
about the database. Oh of course
9:36
he asked. Everybody has complex good about
9:39
the database, even my clients who are
9:41
already must select relationships become conflict. Britain's
9:43
Us because er som it. But I
9:46
mean. Isn't togetherness and happiness?
9:48
Kind of like the point to
9:50
the whole concept? Well together as and
9:52
health and us aren't necessarily the same. Conflicts
9:55
is a type of together do
9:57
you judge. your patients who believe in the
9:59
database It's not my
10:01
job to pass judgment on who they are or
10:04
what they believe. It's my job to help them
10:06
feel heard and stop repeating harmful patterns that might
10:08
be getting in the way of their
10:10
growth. Isn't that just a fancy way
10:13
of saying what the database already does, though,
10:15
without the price tag of a psychologist visit
10:17
attached? I suppose. That's the
10:19
way of looking at it. Hey,
10:26
you want to know about my siblings? You
10:28
know, if you had read my file like a normal person,
10:30
you'd already know all this stuff. Isn't that a thing that
10:32
people talk about on dates? Or
10:34
platonic soulmate talks? Whatever
10:37
this is. Yeah, I
10:39
guess. Okay, well, first
10:41
is my sister Lauren and then Ethan
10:43
and then me. I've
10:46
been told that I give very youngest
10:48
child energy. Though
10:51
there is no true diagnosis
10:53
for the oft-touted youngest child
10:55
syndrome, youngest siblings are often
10:57
described as freewheeling, attention-seeking, or
10:59
coddled from consequences. But
11:03
yeah, I mean, we get along fine, I guess.
11:05
I mean, we're not like the best of friends.
11:08
I get on way better with my cousin Sasha. She's
11:10
the one I'm staying with right now. Where
11:12
do your siblings live? Ethan's in Boston
11:14
and Lauren finished medical school and
11:16
moved back to our hometown just
11:18
outside the city. Here? So
11:21
she's close. Have you gotten the chance to see her
11:23
yet? Well,
11:25
yeah, we've got something in the books.
11:28
What about you? Family? Siblings?
11:30
Well, don't you already know about all these things from my file?
11:33
Or have you now joined
11:35
me in abstention and tossed off the
11:38
trappings of algorithmic loads? No, I kind
11:41
of thought that since you don't seem to be in
11:43
to the files that you might like tell me
11:45
better yourself. Sure, that's true. Um,
11:47
I'm an only child, two
11:50
half-siblings, but we don't see each other much.
11:52
Oh, no wonder you're so weird. You
11:55
know, I didn't mind it. I was a bookish
11:57
kid and somewhat of an introvert, so being alone more often.
12:00
and suited me fine. And you
12:02
grew up in Chicago? Yeah, right in the city,
12:04
not too far from the lake. Are
12:06
your parents still there? Are you
12:08
guys close? They are. And
12:10
they're divorced. Which, I'm sure you read in my
12:12
file. Yes, I did. So
12:15
I'm reasonably close with each of them as
12:17
an individual. We did the split weekdays, weekends,
12:19
holidays, spend, the whole nine yards, but we're
12:22
not particularly close as a unit. It's
12:24
one of the things that I liked about Marie's
12:26
family, actually. They're
12:29
all super close. They're
12:31
endearing. Are you still in love with Marie?
12:34
No. Well,
12:36
I mean, I'll always love her to some
12:40
extent, but I haven't been in
12:42
love with her for probably longer than I'd
12:44
like to admit. Yeah, I
12:46
understand. Is
12:48
there anything I can do? I
12:51
have your job to manage my emotions. No,
12:53
sorry. I need to be apologetic.
12:56
I mean it. I enjoy your company. You
12:58
are like absurd
13:00
with emotional intelligence. Hey,
13:04
occupational hazard, I guess. And
13:12
this is my elevator. This is
13:14
a very thorough tour. It was
13:16
installed in 1999. Should
13:19
be a taken scare. Maybe.
13:28
After you. Take
13:30
your shoes off here, if that's okay. And,
13:35
yeah, this is my apartment. Well,
13:39
I guess that tour was shorter than advertised then.
13:43
No, there's not
13:45
much to show, I guess. Aw,
13:47
don't get all shy. It's like right
13:49
out of a West Elm catalog. Thanks,
13:53
I don't know. I've lived here
13:55
for the past three years. Did
13:58
Marie ever live here with you? No,
14:00
we were long distance after college. Still
14:04
so weird to hear you talk about her, you've never even known
14:06
her. I'm sorry I can stop. I don't know how to- No,
14:09
it's fine. I prefer that we're open about who we are.
14:11
Of course. Um,
14:14
do you want anything? Uh, let's uh, come,
14:16
uh, sit on the couch. We
14:18
don't have to hover in the doorway. So,
14:24
uh, yeah. This
14:27
is where I live. It's really
14:29
nice. This is a great
14:31
neighborhood. Yeah, I'm grateful that I was
14:33
able to find this. I've been subletting
14:35
and apartment hopping the whole time I was in grad
14:37
school and doing my internships, and this was the first
14:39
place that really felt like it was, uh, mine. And
14:43
I was home. That's a really nice feeling. What's,
14:46
uh, what's your apartment like? Oh,
14:49
uh, you know. No,
14:52
come on. You're so descriptive. Give me a
14:54
picture. Okay, well, um,
14:57
my apartment in Chicago, like, isn't...
15:02
It's not really where I wanted to be yet. But
15:06
I'm hoping I can fix that this year. What
15:09
are you trying to fix? Oh,
15:12
I don't know. I guess it's like the- it's like
15:14
what you said. I want a place
15:16
that feels like home. That feels like
15:18
I can stay and be settled. Not like,
15:21
too settled, but you know, like, be peaceful. Does
15:25
that make sense? Of course. You
15:29
really never read my file? Nope.
15:33
Okay, and you've never really even looked
15:35
at your own file? I mean,
15:38
sure, I did when I was younger. Years
15:40
ago. But once I got
15:42
deeper into my training, I realized how antithetical to
15:44
human nature it is to try to algorithmize love.
15:47
Really? I feel like it's the most
15:49
human thing ever to try to optimize
15:52
everything. But what single algorithm, no
15:54
matter how complex, could really encompass a
15:56
whole person? Could predict a
15:58
whole future? believe in
16:00
science. No, of course I believe
16:02
in science, I just believe that there are some
16:04
phenomena that can't be explained through an equation. They're
16:07
unpredictable, complex, nuanced.
16:10
Isn't that the problem? I think
16:13
it's part of what makes them great. Plus,
16:15
the longer I've been a therapist, the more
16:17
I really do believe that it's deeply important
16:19
for a person's self-expression to be central to
16:22
their introductions of self. I'm sorry, can you
16:24
translate that? It's
16:27
good for people to have a say in how they're perceived
16:29
by others. You really think so?
16:31
Of course. We all
16:34
contain more than a file could show. You
16:36
know what? I couldn't agree more.
16:45
I should probably tell you something, Bennett. Oh?
16:49
It's... When
16:52
I had your bag for the night, I kind
16:54
of opened it and I saw a couple
16:56
of your things and I know that that is such
16:58
a violation of your privacy and that's just not what
17:01
I wanted you to think of me. To
17:04
be honest, I know that you would never have done that
17:06
to me. Not just because of your
17:08
file or anything like that, but because not
17:11
a single one of my contents was moved
17:13
a centimeter and I definitely check for
17:15
that. Sorry,
17:19
I'm the worst and you
17:21
can kick me out if you... No,
17:23
stop. I'm just... I'm thinking.
17:26
It was awesome. You're
17:28
mad. I'm not mad. Arguably, it's
17:30
very reasonable to have opened a piece of luggage
17:32
that you accidentally took home. Couple that
17:34
with the curiosity sparked by the
17:36
soulmate thing. Actually,
17:39
I have a
17:41
question. Sorry. Oh? I
17:43
also saw this really
17:47
little stuffed dog and I'm
17:49
dying to know his story.
17:51
Oh no, you saw Ruffles. Ruffles?
17:55
Yeah, you know, like rough,
17:57
rough, Ruffles. Oh.
18:00
My. God. I
18:03
can't even tell you how grateful I was Them
18:05
back home with never been away from each other
18:07
for so long. And but you didn't
18:09
look in my bag then. No.
18:11
I didn't look in your back. See.
18:13
Years as to better person than I am. Not
18:16
clear. I'm not. I have to
18:18
have earned a few questions of my own, right?
18:20
Oh, Did. You
18:23
find anything else incriminating when
18:25
you were violating my privacy?
18:28
Know. Nothing. More
18:31
exciting. Than the dog. Okay,
18:34
Then let's see I have looked into back. Would.
18:37
I have found anything incriminating has. I mean
18:39
it's only fair I can ask. Tips: a
18:41
tough. I mean. Nope.
18:44
Like pretty. Boring stuff in there
18:46
to space. shoes, socks, broz.
18:50
Silica. White. Painted
18:53
you. Dirty to Die.
18:57
So miserables as the Dirty Dog
18:59
I'm just a simple man. Who.
19:05
He. Still haven't given me a clear answer about hello. You
19:07
planning to be a New York. Oh
19:09
have I Not. Not to
19:11
my memory great both. Them
19:14
I've got worth of course the
19:16
graphic design for. Yeah, but
19:18
now they're letting me work remote I
19:20
guess indefinitely. And I guess I was
19:22
feeling them like priceless back in Chicago.
19:25
like something wasn't quite perfect and so
19:27
it's not like anything. Is really set
19:29
in vote in like anything but I
19:31
guess I'm looking for a change in
19:33
New York City is a wonderful place
19:35
for judge you think I hear them?
19:37
were. Arena.
19:40
Guess that's true. Is not that I'm
19:42
like making and kind of rash decisions.
19:45
The snow who I am hopeful that
19:47
little. Well,
19:51
I'm honestly the receivers on what he feels.
19:53
Yes, you're right. I should be Snowden or
19:55
the I. I. I don't mean to push
19:58
you out, know you're right though. It's. Gotten
20:00
later than a such good company. years and the
20:02
like. My
20:04
cousin Sasha of exactly me. And
20:07
I can stay out to listen. Skolnick system
20:09
says from. Should.
20:12
I want you out. Can. I
20:14
and mean can we see
20:16
each other than soon? As.
20:20
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the kids can even host their
22:01
friends. Whoa, it smells amazing. AirWick
22:04
Vibrant Essential Mist is infused with
22:06
two times more essential oil versus
22:08
regular AirWick Essential Mist for our
22:10
most authentic, nature-inspired fragrance experience. AirWick
22:12
Vibrant Essential Mist is perfectly portable
22:14
and effortlessly easy the way fragrance
22:17
should be. That's that, the breath
22:19
of fresh AirWick.
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