0:12

I relate so deeply to the

0:14

Kim and Kry situation on a

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cellular level, and

0:19

watching this video

0:21

of them cry out for help and

0:24

fight really

0:28

took me down to the sticks.

0:31

Because as adults

0:33

we push away experiences

0:36

we had as children. It's just our

0:38

survival mechanism. We just

0:42

we brush it off. We think it didn't

0:44

happen. It's the only thing we knew. We

0:48

can sometimes just say that we didn't have

0:50

a great childhood, or an ideal childhood

0:52

or a functional childhood. But it's just like an

0:54

anecdotal thing. But

0:57

you really don't remember or even know

0:59

what it felt like, because it's just something

1:01

you can describe. It's

1:03

not something you can feel now because you've pushed

1:06

it down and because you're not a child. And

1:08

so I watch Kim

1:11

and Croy in desperation.

1:15

Imagine people who cared so

1:17

deeply about what other people think.

1:21

Financially, the cars, the

1:23

stuff, the chanel bags, the show,

1:26

the show, the

1:28

show. We'll get into that, but that

1:33

to be able to be on camera,

1:36

awsome hidden camera, or not even be

1:39

in front of your neighbors, just like be

1:42

out there in the open with

1:45

police at your house and someone calling

1:47

the police and actually talking to the police because

1:50

you feel like they're the only ones who can help

1:52

you. That means you are close

1:54

to rock bottom. And I

1:57

lived in that house. I know that there's

2:00

been discussion about finances

2:02

and gambling and foreclosures

2:05

and mortgages and fronting

2:08

and stunting. It's a fact. And

2:12

I know that I was the kid in

2:15

that house. I was at the kid in

2:17

the house where in the neighborhood

2:20

things were smashing, glass was smashing.

2:23

There was one time that my mother took every

2:25

single framed beautiful

2:28

glass and I don't mean like eight x ten like

2:30

a giant, like giant

2:32

poster size horse

2:35

winter circle pictures that my stepfather

2:39

won that were all over the house and smashed

2:42

them all. I remember watching

2:44

suicide attempts. I remember knife

2:46

fights. I remember my mother being beaten

2:48

with the phone and dragged down the hall. And

2:51

I remember hearing the word see

2:53

the sea word that my stepfather

2:55

was calling her that because she had been out to Studio

2:58

fifty four till all hours of the night, I

3:00

wasted and got

3:02

into a car accident. He would lock her

3:04

out. She would punch the glass

3:07

to get in, bleeding everywhere, and

3:11

I remember he would come in and say everything to

3:13

me about her, like everything she was to

3:15

me, you know. And I remember

3:18

hiding in the closet. I remember lighting paper.

3:20

I remember lighting fire, like not that I wanted to set

3:22

the house on fire, but I remember lighting paper and then blowing

3:24

it out, lighting paper and then blowing it out, like watching

3:27

the flame get a little bigger. I could have set the

3:29

house on fire. I was a child, and

3:32

I remember eating off of a card table.

3:35

We had a parakeet and we had a cat.

3:37

We ate off of a card table. Fifty

3:39

three Greenway Terrace and Forest

3:41

Hills. The house cost one hundred thousand dollars. I

3:43

kept trying to ask, like how much one hundred thousand

3:45

dollars was, Like, it's one hundred thousand

3:49

dollars. And I

3:51

remember having different cars, Mercedes,

3:53

Jaguar, all of it, and then I remember having

3:56

none of it. I remember my stepfather

3:59

coming in and asking me to break open my piggy

4:01

bank to pay back bookies,

4:04

football bookies. I remember

4:06

calling the cops and them coming and

4:09

us being at the hospital and

4:11

be looking at me, looking myself and

4:13

the ads for like little apartments and begging

4:16

why we can leave them? Why we couldn't find an apartment.

4:19

And I remember, I

4:24

remember all of it. I remember going to that

4:26

groom's house, my father, my stepfather's

4:29

groom, his horse groom who worked for me, a young

4:31

guy in his twenties, and his mother, Pat

4:34

Wilson, and she and her husband. She her

4:36

husband used to was a raging irish

4:39

alcoholic. I don't remember. I remember there being

4:41

an abusive household too, and I remember

4:43

someone in that house being violated

4:46

in that house. Let's just leave it at that. These

4:49

I know that I didn't realize we

4:51

couldn't leave because of money. Money, money,

4:54

money, money, money, money,

4:56

money. Money makes the world go go round.

4:58

And it's why Kim and Croy probably

5:01

are staying together in some way. They probably love

5:03

each other, they probably hate each other. They

5:05

probably look at each other

5:07

and their mirrors of each other. They reflect

5:10

all their mistakes. They're the only ones who

5:12

know how much a fraud it's all been.

5:15

And I bring up the show because that's what The

5:17

Housewives is. It's

5:19

a place where you have to show everybody

5:21

else how rich you are,

5:24

how much money you have, how many air meaz

5:27

bags you have, how many letters you can fit

5:29

on your body, how many logos you can wear.

5:31

I'm not saying this is a situation with p K

5:34

and Dori. I'm just saying so many people

5:36

have said there have been financial issues.

5:38

I'm not saying that was the situation with Alex

5:41

and Simon. I'm saying that they were going to Kevali

5:43

and went into foreclosure. I'm not

5:46

saying that it's the situation

5:49

with Charat,

5:52

but she felt like she had to build some palace

5:55

to prove something to somebody. I'm

5:57

not saying that Nini is or isn't

5:59

a rich bitch, but she came

6:01

on the show as a woman who was just like a

6:04

normal married woman and felt the need that

6:06

she had to prove that she was rich bitch.

6:09

It goes on and on and on in every

6:11

single city. Everybody

6:13

has to prove how much money they have, and

6:16

then you find out, oh, they're not really a housewife.

6:18

They're being helicoptered in to prove they're a housewife.

6:21

Oh they don't really own their house,

6:23

they rent their house. Or oh that

6:25

person in Salt Lake City, jen Shaw

6:28

who's stealing to look rich

6:30

with logos everywhere, but they're all fake. Oh

6:33

that's not really her house. Every season she rents

6:35

a new house. First season I was on with Chill.

6:38

They had money. It's some money. Bobby

6:41

rented a yellow Lamborghini

6:43

to film. Everybody has

6:45

to appear rich and it's

6:48

a pressure cooker because they can't sustain

6:50

it. They can't sustain it.

6:52

And I know how much money people have that

6:54

were on the Real Housewives of New York. It wasn't

6:56

a lot compared to what people think. It's

6:59

not a lot on Beverly Hills. It's a lot,

7:01

but it's not what you think it is because everything

7:04

is designed to show you how rich people

7:06

are. Was Erica that rich? Was

7:10

Erica that rich? I knew she was, and I knew her husband

7:12

owed money. It doesn't matter. Everybody

7:14

has to prove it. That's what that show is about.

7:16

And they don't hire people that don't look

7:19

rich. You don't have to be rich, you just have to

7:21

look rich. They would never hire someone in

7:23

a studio apartment like mine. Now, that's not

7:25

what the brand is, and they would say she doesn't

7:27

have enough money. She doesn't like she has enough

7:29

money when casting. That's what it

7:31

is, and that, I bet you is

7:34

a lot of the pressure here because we

7:36

hear about all the bags that him selling, all

7:39

the money that these two were trying

7:41

to prove that they had, and

7:44

now we hear about gambling

7:46

debts. There are children in that house,

7:49

and they probably can't afford to

7:51

break up, and somebody's going

7:53

to have to just be a grown up

7:55

out of the two of them and take their

7:57

kids and themselves out of that misery. People

8:00

want to blame Kim, people want to blame everyone.

8:02

They're both in there, and their

8:05

children are going to be the product of

8:07

their unresolved issues. All

8:09

the issues that their children have in the future that they're

8:11

talking to their therapists about are going

8:13

to be a result of being in that house.

8:16

So somebody has to get out

8:18

of there. Somebody wants to stay in my house, in my

8:20

guest room, in my guest house, no problem.

8:22

But somebody's got to get the hell out of there and

8:24

find a small, tiny place to stay

8:27

with no heirs and no show and no go.

8:29

And they have to call this fight now because

8:32

this is irresponsible, it's unhealthy,

8:34

it's bad for their children, they're doing

8:36

damage, it's bad for themselves. Somebody

8:39

has got to call this fight. It's time someone

8:41

has to get out of this house, get a studio

8:43

apartment that is six hundred dollars a month

8:46

and take those kids into a calm

8:49

environment. Living in a nice,

8:51

big house is not worth this, and

8:53

it's doing damage. It's enough now