I can't imagine that I've literally asked for help in the couple people who replied only because of a public feed that people see so the DM me that was sent to me a couple times and then in capital letters E I don't understand all this so much so that I don't even know how to post this so somebody other than myself I was on cloud nine not because someone of status wanted to help me or talk to me or made me feel like I am worth it I thought that the DM instructions were such an honor and meant so much but as my intelligence and deductive skills and reality facing nature they wanted the DM so they could fucking ignore me privately delete me and then it would never happen not knowing I think perhaps just the weight police do knowing nothing of a situation judging you solely upon your past which is in can be a good guy but they disregard the 22 years 30 years you haven't done anything wrong you are a potential even if .001 percent risk to their image which really I I have learned that the only do publicly because of the recognition and that's why it's always with children or sick or if the public can use sympathize and empathize with them I've called the radio station I couldn't be more serious and I got laughed at made fun of and it was fucking devastating and you know what's worse no one will read this no one gives a fuck and I don't even know where to put it so these wonderful helpful giving tolerance Souls who reached out to me and gave me purpose even if it's only a couple hours we're simply trying to sweep me under a carpet where they could block me because I'm not worth helping because they won't get anything from it except teaching me maybe how to go about really starting a podcast judging me as if I am fucking Ryan Hoppe and have studied this filled my entire life and this is the best I'll ever get hence bringing them nothing so they would help me not realizing who I actually am and if I straightened out my father's worth about a hundred million had they known that my fucking Twitter feed would be explode Oprah fucking Winfrey would try to help me but they don't realize if I clean and get right I am worth more than all of them and that simple status forever not be status but B without question who I am a loser worthless I am shocked people won't help anybody and yet I'm a dummy who I've given away so much I'm totaly embarrass to say.