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L A County is one of those counties have been hit extremely
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hard because their patient population
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is so large and their capacity so small
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that they have actually told some
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of their e M S personnel that if
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a patient has known to be COVID and
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they have a lot of coal morbidities and they
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appear extremely sick, to
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consider not transporting them to the hospital.
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That's Dr Paul Bagba, an
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emergency medicine physician who shares
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firsthand how the system in the US was
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never prepared to handle such an overwhelming
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public health disaster. In our conversation
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with Dr Bogeba, we discussed the silent
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yet widespread effect the pandemic is having
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on our frontline workers. The mental
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health and well being of our doctors, nurses,
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and medical practitioners seems to
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go unnoticed, and yet despite
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this undeniable emotional and physical strain,
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they're the ones we turn to for help while demanding
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perfection. It's really an impossible
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proposition. On the other end
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of that phone call to our emergency services
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is meliitsa rangel, a loving daughter,
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a protective mother, and a practicing
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nurse. Melita shares the devastating
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story of how her father paid the ultimate
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price while protecting her from the disease,
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and all because of an overwhelmed and broken
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system. And yet for someone experiencing
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such loss, Melita understands the heavy
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weight and burden placed on our healthcare workers
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and speaks with empathy when sharing her
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story. So my
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sisters called the MS so they can pick up
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my father. And then maybe
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two hours passed and E M S never came.
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My sisters called E M S again and E M
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S told him that there was
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no space, that they couldn't pick it up,
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so they canceled the ambulance
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services from my father. At
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that point, my sister came immediately
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to pick up my dad. She put on full
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ppe and rushed into the hospital.
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That was the only option we had. I'm
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Justin Beck, founder and CEO of
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Contact World. I'm here with my co
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host Katherine Nelson and DT Pava,
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and over the coming months, we'll be talking to scientists,
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researchers, celebrities, experts,
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anyone who's been affected by COVID and
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getting to the bottom of how we can improve public
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health together. We may not have all
2:17
the answers, but you deserve to understand what
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goes on in your neighborhood and the decisions
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that will affect you and your family's health. Welcome
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to Contact World. We're here to share
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two stories with you today. This is a bit
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of a heavy episode, but we need to bring
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attention to these topics. The show
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is about truth, So one day, when
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we look back at the overall carnage of this
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pandemic, the emotional and mental
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toll this has had on society as a
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whole is really underestimated.
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I mean, I haven't seen friends or socialized
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since March, but I sometimes
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remind myself how relatively easy
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I have it. But to think of being
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a frontline worker and what's become
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a normal day in a clinical environment
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is another story altogether. I
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mean, we're going to see post traumatic
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stress disorder. These heroes haven't
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even had the time to mentally unpack what's
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happening to them. What do you two
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think about the mental anguish and stress of
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the pandemic and how it's affected our hospitals
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and clinical environments. So,
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you know, justin I feel that even
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before we making to think about mental
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health or even you know, move beyond
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the current crisis, we all need to first
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reckon with the skill or what has been
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experienced right our front
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line health care workers among the most vulnerable
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populations at this point in time, and as research
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shows that the risks
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to the well being of these health care workers
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are not even very understood, forget about
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trying to solve for those issues. I
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think the key thing with mental health right
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now is do we have the ability
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to self check? Do we have that moment where
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we're able to check in with ourselves
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and make sure everything is okay. And when
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you're working, you know, as a physician in a hospital
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or you're a nurse and you're there
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around people that are dying and suffering
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and hurting, perhaps you're so
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busy helping everyone else you don't have
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that ability to stop and make
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sure that you're mentally at well. I
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was thinking the other day about how we
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put a cap on over the
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road truckers and how much time that they can
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spend on the road, or we put
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a cap on how many
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transcontinental or trans oceanic
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flights a pilot might
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take because of the impact
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that their decision making might
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have on lives of people.
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Right you can't put a trucker on the road
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for fourteen hours a day because he might
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crash. But we don't put
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health or mental wellness or well
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being programs in place for our frontline
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workers. And they're in the same decision
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making capacity matters of life
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and death, and they are working
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seven days a week, in some instances too
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many hours a day. They
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inevitably are going to make bad decisions
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or they're going to miss things because it's
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impossible for a human to
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endure the anguish that they're going
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through the amount of time they're working,
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and then you multiply that by
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the pain of decision making that
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they have to go through every day, sometimes literally
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denying people critical care. It's
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unbelievable. Yeah, true,
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justin what you're saying is, you know, it's so sad to
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see that how little we have been prepared in
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terms of providing care to people who are
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responsible for caring for us, and that came
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through during this pandemic. Why don't
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we have ancillary services or frequent
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visits to psychologists for these health care
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workers. That's something very basic they should be
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having access to. Right. I
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agree with both of you, but I struggle
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to say that we should limit the
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time that they spend because there are
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shortages. It's a tough thing
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to say, But do
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we want to turn people away
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from the hospital because there's no doctor on the shift.
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It's almost like we're in cry, says, and we need
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them so much, but then at the same
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time we want them to be clear
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and level headed enough to make the right decisions.
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It's a horrible situation, it really is. There
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is a need for better preparation, and when we talk
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about better preparation, you know we are not prepared
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for such emergencies, right. I
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believe this gives us a perfect platform
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to think about such issues. So if at all something
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like this happens again, we do not face
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the situation. We don't have to
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make that compromise that we're making today. You
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know, in hindsight is and
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I think that we're not talking about pivoting the way that
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we're handling it now. But what
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we need to do is we know we need
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to better resource health agencies and
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we need to change the way we've
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thought about clinical care based
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on what we're putting these doctors through.
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You know, a few years down the road, when they really
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have a chance to think about what they've gone
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through, we're probably going to see unprecedented
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amounts of PTSD suicides
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from frontline how workers. We're not going
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to know what the real long term impact of
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this is until we're looking
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back at it, and you're right, what
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we need to do is take a very honest look
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at the way we've managed this, the way that
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we've been prepared for it or unprepared
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for it, and we have to be ready
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to change things drastically in some
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cases. I agree. Begins with the conversation
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and deep te I know this
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episode focuses a lot on your
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interview with Dr Paul Bargeois.
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Tell us about that conversation and
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kind of set it up as far as what
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a listener can expect to learn
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from him. Sure. So, Dr
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Bagua is actually an emergency physician
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who has worked in Florida
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before and also now in Canada,
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and what we really talked about was more
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on the healthcare workers side, is to what they
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face in terms of extreme COVID
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footigue and how that comes with
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their own risks and rising
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levels of anxiety and fational
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exhaustion that they go through. They have
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to make heart decisions and decide
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who needs the care and these services the
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most. Thank
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you Dr Bada for joining us today. It's
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great to have you here and to have an opportunity
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to hear from the front lines on how
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as an emergency physician you were
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experiencing and treating COVID nineteen
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directly, as well as we will talk
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a bit about, you know, your own experiences
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with the inequities of the health
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system in the US and globally and
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what you see while working firsthand
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with the patients. So let's
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first talk about your choice to
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work as a physician. Why medicine?
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What inspired you? Thank you first
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for having me on the show. I guess
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your question is a question that they asked pretty
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much all physicians when they enter MAD school,
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was why medicine? You know, most physicians
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have a story behind it, So I'll give you a bit of a
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story. When I was growing up, I actually wanted to be
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a police officer. I thought was the
9:08
most rewarding thing. I would see police officers
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on the road, and as I was going
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through school, I was on a call
9:15
with one of my friends who was a police
9:17
officer, and it would ended
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up being a medical call, and I noticed
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that they're kind of almost first
9:24
responders, just like emergency medicine
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is, and that kind of opened
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my eyes up into medicine, and I decided
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to do an elective away
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in India and they
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put me in the emergency room the first day that I
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was there, and I had a child
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that had his hand caught in a sugarcane
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wheel. I couldn't really do anything
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to help him. His hand was very
9:46
badly damaged. But I remember I literally just
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went over and I sat with him and I put my arm
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around him, and I think at
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that point I realized that medicine
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might be the path for me because he
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was, you know, obviously crying, but that in
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there and soothing him really drove
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me towards medicine. Wow, what a story.
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One of the next questions I had was, you know why emergency
10:08
medicine. I mean, of course, you know kind of mentioned
10:10
that and touch that, but do you see
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there is more to it than just
10:15
being a physician that you really wanted to
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serve in the emergency medicine area. When
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I was going through medical school, I appreciated
10:22
all the different fields, but nothing
10:24
really hit home for me until I
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did emergency medicine. When patients
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enter a hospital, that is the first place
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to go. No one knows what's going on with
10:33
the patient. You were the first one to see them,
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and so I enjoyed that aspect. I enjoyed that
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aspect of being the first person
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to see the patient, being the first person to
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diagnose something, because it really
10:45
starts there. That initial contact
10:47
is what drove me to emergency medicine.
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So, as you trained to become a doctor,
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did you personally ever see you
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know, over the years, any health iniquities
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you were also India, you said, right, So, I mean I would
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say not just in the US, but also globally
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where the challenges that came up
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through the system, you know, specifically in caring
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for the underserved communities and specifically who
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gets scared. Did you see that? So?
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You know, I think each country has
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their deficits, but I definitely see
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a disparity in healthcare in
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every single country that I've been in a hospital
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where I've spent some time with. One
11:23
of the main things across the board that I've
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noticed is the preventative
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care for the underprivilege to
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prevent long term diseases.
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And by that, I mean, you know, if you break your hand, you're
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going to be seen no matter where you go, Right,
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that is an acute problem that will
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be treated. But if you
11:42
have long standing hypertension or high
11:44
blood pressure, that may not be
11:47
seen in a lot of countries, and a lot
11:49
of people may not have access to
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manage that or to get to a physician.
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So I think the biggest disparity that I've
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noticed across the board, no matter where
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I went, is to event these preventable
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diseases, especially in the
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under privilege. The way to fix that
12:06
is to get access out there, to get
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access to a family doctor or primary
12:10
doctor. Right, I mean, you talk about
12:12
preventive care. That's very interesting. I mean in various
12:15
episodes that we've had so far, Dinner
12:17
Towers and Peter Hotels, where we have often
12:19
talked about how health and economic
12:21
crisis stemming from COVID situation
12:24
at this point in time has only magnified
12:26
the systemic barriers to health
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and how they're particularly worse for these much groups.
12:32
But it has been existing, and there are certain
12:34
areas which have been completely overlooked, you
12:36
know, for years, and I believe
12:38
these complexities demand
12:40
for accountability, transparency,
12:43
and also solutions that transcend
12:45
health and health care programs as
12:47
they've been designed, you know traditionally. Do you
12:49
have a take on that, Yeah, So, absolutely.
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I think, you know, COVID nineteen has definitely brought
12:54
to light the disparities and healthcare
12:56
and especially the under privileged communities. Initially,
12:59
when there's these came out, I I
13:01
had a theory and I'm sure a lot of physicians did as
13:03
well, that there we're going to be risk
13:05
factors that when you look back
13:07
at the thousands and hundreds and millions of patients
13:10
have been affected, who has been affected
13:12
the most? And there have been some small
13:14
studies that have come out of the States and globally
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that African Americans, people with obesity,
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people with smoking, you know, are
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the ones that are affected most. And
13:23
some of these things like smoking smoking cessation.
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Preventing smoking is a very simple
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task that you can, you know, start
13:31
with public health, and some countries have done it
13:33
much better than others. Obesity,
13:35
especially in the United States, is a big concern.
13:38
But these things have been really
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brought to light with the disease and it's
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important. It's important that we just don't throw
13:44
them to the wayside when this disease is controlled.
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So I think it's a great point that you bring
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up. COVID nineteen definitely has brought to light
13:52
a lot of the disparities in healthcare. So
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talking about COOD, Dr Bashua,
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you contracted COVID yourself too,
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How was it managing your own care while
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also being in the same home with your family
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and your wife and your kids. And I believe your wife
14:07
is also an emergency physician. She is,
14:09
she's a family physician. But when I had
14:11
COVID nineteen, physicians
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make the worst patience, by the way, and I think you you'll
14:16
you'll find that across the board, we never
14:18
think anything's wrong with us. I was
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practicing an emergency room. I
14:23
was on a regular shift. It was a Saturday night. COVID
14:26
had just been kind of on the news
14:28
for the last two or three weeks. This was back in March
14:31
of last year. And I went home and I
14:33
was pretty tired because I just brod six ships
14:35
in a row. And Sunday morning, I woke up
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completely fine. Monday,
14:39
again, I felt a little bit tired, and I just thought it was
14:41
from the weekend. And Monday
14:44
night, I woke up at midnight and immediately
14:47
I knew something was wrong. I hadn't felt kind
14:49
of this way in a long long time. I think
14:51
the last time I probably felt this way was when I had the flu,
14:53
which must have been five or six years
14:55
ago, and I had diffused
14:57
body aches. I had a pretty pretty
14:59
bad had ache, enough that I could barely
15:01
open my eyes, and so immediately
15:04
I went to the spare bedroom and I texted
15:06
my boss at one am
15:08
and I said, listen, I think something's wrong. I'm gonna come
15:10
in for a test in the morning. And
15:13
at that point, the disease was
15:15
so new in Canada that
15:17
the testing wasn't there, so
15:19
the testing was so backlogged. They
15:22
initially thought my test was going to come back in three or
15:24
four days. It actually took eight days
15:26
to come back, and when the
15:28
test did come back, it came back negative.
15:31
Luckily, I had was off for
15:33
six or seven days, so before going back
15:36
to work, I called my boss and said, list of my
15:38
test isn't back yet. My disease
15:40
course, luckily, was only two or three days,
15:43
and the body aches, the headaches
15:45
completely went away, and I had no respitory
15:47
symptoms, thankfully, and
15:49
so I got to repeat tests the prior quarterback to
15:51
work, and my original test came
15:53
back negative, but my repeat
15:55
test came back positive, which means that my
15:58
first test was a false test and
16:01
so luckily my disease course was very
16:03
short compared to a lot of the other people
16:05
on some of my colleagues as well, and
16:08
I was out for about three weeks until
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I had a negative swab to get back to work.
16:13
You bring an important point that it took you eight
16:15
days to get tests back just quarantin
16:17
NG and this confusing around things and also
16:20
talks a little bit about the unpreparedness that you will
16:22
have been going through. We'll touch
16:24
that topic a little later, but what I also
16:26
caught on was that he came back after six
16:28
shifts like it's been tough. Right. As
16:31
an emergency physician, we all know
16:33
your work is very important at any point in
16:35
time, but specifically during COVID nineteen
16:37
kindamic, you were saving a lot of lives.
16:40
And during the panda maybe we've been also reading
16:42
that there's been like chaos in many
16:45
hospitals globally, and this
16:47
comes with rising levels of anxiety
16:50
and emotional exhaustion, and
16:52
I find it as a pity. You know, I was just doing
16:54
some research that to date, no research
16:57
has focused on the emergency physician
16:59
ex hidents during the pandemic.
17:02
I saw only a few publications coming
17:04
from China where they kind of did some studies on
17:06
you know how emergency physicians
17:08
you don't really take the distress.
17:10
So as you faced, you know, you are
17:13
faced with an unpresident search of critically
17:15
ill patients showing up at the hospital without
17:18
warning. What was your personal
17:20
experience dealing with it? You
17:23
know, working in the emergency room, you do see
17:25
the worst, the worst. You're the person that's supposed
17:27
to diagnose the life threatening conditions,
17:29
So that in itself is hard enough to begin with.
17:32
And now you throw a disease in that process
17:35
where you have to put on personal protective
17:37
equipment, which takes time. You have
17:40
to sift through the cases
17:42
that you think are either COVID or there's something
17:44
else. It adds another layer
17:46
of complexity to your job. And
17:50
if you do that for a month or two months, that
17:52
may be okay. But people get COVID
17:54
fatigue and physicians get COVID fatigue,
17:57
and you start missing them
18:00
in cases that you normally would catch.
18:03
So it is very hard on the emergency room
18:05
physician and any physician in the hospital, the surgeons,
18:07
the pediatricians, the O, B, G, y n s. They
18:10
also have to contemplate is this
18:12
patient COVID positive. It is taxing
18:15
not only on the physicians in the hospital,
18:17
but the nurses, the text, the
18:19
CT people, the radiology people, even
18:22
you know, the ancillary staff that's there. And
18:25
then you brought up another great point as to the
18:28
hospital capacity. Right, so now
18:30
you are adding another burden
18:32
on the hospital system. And I don't care which country
18:34
you go to, the amount of
18:36
hospital space is not proportionate to
18:39
the patient population. Right. We need
18:41
more hospitals everywhere we go. But
18:43
the places that are really really hard hit
18:46
are the ones that their population
18:48
size is large and their hospital
18:50
capacity is not equivalent to that. And
18:53
you look at the news any day, what are the countries have
18:55
been hit the hardest, You know, Brazil, the
18:57
United States? Right, these are the countries you
19:00
can see the dispairy there. So
19:02
it's not only taxing, I would say, on
19:05
your physician, but it's also taxing on
19:07
the hospital itself. I was reading more
19:09
about Italy living in Switzerland. You know, I have more
19:11
contexts in Europe, but also you know a bit in the US
19:13
that multiple patients will just show
19:15
up, and you know that would mean that you would have to
19:18
kind of give care at the same
19:20
point in time. To multiple people, and
19:22
and it's evident, you know, like you're saying that critically
19:24
ill patients have been far greater
19:26
in number than the life saving equipment
19:29
itself. Right, the vent leads the hospital
19:31
beds, montree equipment and all of these things, and
19:33
then compounding appropriate ppe s that
19:35
you're talking about, for instance, and
19:37
you do talk about the preparedness, right,
19:39
you know, the hospital space is less than what
19:42
it should be. What do you think
19:44
there could have been around better
19:46
preparedness and response? If we just
19:48
turn back time, what could have been done
19:50
which could have made this a little bit better
19:53
as a situation. You
19:55
know, preparedness, especially
19:57
when we've never dealt with anything like this before,
20:00
is relative. And in the
20:02
emergency room we have a special department called
20:04
the disaster preparedness and by that I
20:06
mean we treat for environmental
20:08
disasters or chemical disasters. There's
20:11
never been any type of training for a pandemic
20:13
disaster, or even for the
20:15
hospital for that matter. So
20:17
looking back at it, how could
20:19
we have prepared for this? It shows
20:22
that the hospitals one are
20:24
not ready for the capacity for patients.
20:26
And that's what we can see it, which is pretty evident. Number
20:29
Two, we weren't ready as
20:32
far as personal protective equipment. But
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I think the biggest thing would be to
20:38
look at our everyday operations
20:41
as a hospital and as physicians.
20:43
How do we treat people who have normal
20:46
conditions, yet we have
20:48
to be aware about COVID. How do we treat the heart
20:50
attacks and the strokes? What do
20:52
we have to do differently? Right? So
20:54
I think moving forward, we
20:57
have to think outside the box to prepare
20:59
for these things. And mainly
21:01
I think the big thing is getting
21:04
the hospital capacities up to par to
21:07
deal with all the patients. And I think a
21:09
lot of countries already doing that, especially here in Canada.
21:11
And you talked interestingly also about the stuff
21:14
and you know a lot of the physicians within
21:16
the hospital itself, and would
21:18
you like to talk a bit about emotions,
21:21
stress, anxiety, moral
21:23
injury and even the department
21:25
culture change during the pandemic? Right?
21:28
I mean, how do you keep all those healthcare
21:30
support functions and stuff motivated
21:32
to keep going. It's a tough job. It's a
21:34
very tough job, you know. It's I think
21:37
the emotions is the biggest factor
21:39
that we all have to I think control
21:42
and also deal with. I think it's something that
21:44
we have to talk about. I'll give you an example.
21:46
Recently, I had a patient
21:48
who was presumed to be COVID positive
21:51
was not breathing too well, and
21:53
I had to put a breathing tube down to help them
21:55
breathe. And when I came out of the
21:57
room, we have a system where the nurse is
22:00
watch us, and we watch the nurses as we
22:02
take off our protective equipment as to not
22:04
to contaminate everything. And
22:08
I was taking off my equipment and
22:10
my unit secretary came to me and said,
22:12
hey, the patient's husband
22:14
is on the phone, which, by the way, I think we should also talk
22:16
about that patients families are not allowed
22:18
in the hospital, which is a big
22:21
anxiety, especially for the patient,
22:23
but also for the families. Imagine
22:25
sending your family member in and you have no idea what's
22:27
going on. So, as
22:29
I was taking off my equipment, I forgot
22:31
to take off my mask, which technically
22:34
is contaminated, and I went to the seat and
22:36
I put it onto the desk and
22:39
my nurse, who's one of my outstanding
22:41
nurses, asked me to dispose it properly, and
22:43
I didn't, and I kind
22:45
of brushed her away in a sense that hey,
22:47
let me deal with this patient's family, which
22:50
is, you know, obviously concerned, but I should have dealt
22:52
with her concerns as well. So there's
22:54
this aspect of emotions are running
22:56
high with everyone, but it's such a
22:58
stressful time not only to the families,
23:01
but to the physicians, to the nurses.
23:04
So you have to be mindful of a
23:06
lot of the emotions that are going on in the hospital,
23:09
especially when people are
23:11
extremely sick. I think that's the hardest aspect
23:13
to deal with is you're not sure
23:15
you know who's feeling angry or who's feeling upset,
23:18
but you have to be there pretty much for everyone. In
23:20
the context of what you're saying in your story, I was
23:22
just reading that the burnout rate
23:25
of doctors practicing emergency medicine
23:27
and specific is estimated to be about
23:29
eighty six percent according to a recent
23:31
survey by Canadian Association of Emergency
23:34
Physicians, And also recently
23:37
one doctor's death in Quebec, Canada,
23:39
where you know, she committed suicide,
23:41
and that sent shock ways in the Canada's medical
23:44
community. The point I want to
23:46
just kind of bring in here is it's
23:48
not just we are poorly prepared in terms
23:50
of infrastructure. We're also
23:52
poorly prepared and little aware of the
23:54
potential devastation of
23:57
the health care communities worldwide. Right,
24:00
what's your take on that. When I was working
24:02
in Florida and I was part of the administrative
24:05
staff of the hospital that worked at I
24:07
brought up this exact topic. I said,
24:09
we need more support for
24:12
physicians dealing with kind
24:14
of the everyday emotions that they have. There was no support
24:16
system if a physician felt suppressed
24:19
or angry, There was no wordy for them to go to write.
24:22
The hospital had no ancillary staff
24:24
for them. We don't have that here as well,
24:27
right, So it's a huge problem. Imagine
24:29
going to an emergence room and
24:31
your physician has worked eight days or nine days
24:33
in a row, and they
24:36
are back after six hours of work. Do you really
24:38
want them taking care of you? Is there a chance
24:40
that they missed something? Absolutely? So,
24:42
there is very little support for
24:45
physicians as far as their emotions,
24:47
and it's a big problem because
24:49
it definitely affects performance and anything you
24:51
do. You look at sports players, you look at anything,
24:54
it's the same. Right, you need that support,
24:56
especially in high stress situations, and
24:59
so there is disparity, and I believe the numbers
25:01
that you've looked up, I think they're probably at that number.
25:04
Would you like to share some of the toughest moments
25:06
that you've faced as as
25:08
as an ear physician during COVID times
25:10
where you felt helpless,
25:13
powerless and you wanted to help patient
25:16
that you could not help. Do you have
25:18
any moments of grief in any story
25:20
to share? Yeah, I'll actually have. I
25:22
have two stories. One is COVID related,
25:24
one is not COVID related, one of which was
25:27
not my story, but I felt for the physician
25:29
because I trained with him and
25:31
he's a good friend of mine. And he went off
25:34
to l A County to be in attending and
25:36
he's been there for about six or seven years, and he called
25:39
me a month ago and
25:41
he seemed very down. In l
25:43
A County is one of those counties have been hit extremely
25:45
hard because their patient population
25:47
is so large and their capacity so small
25:50
that they have actually told some
25:53
of their e M. S personnel that if
25:55
a patient has known to be COVID and
25:58
they have a lot of comorbidities and
26:00
they appear extremely sick, to
26:03
consider not transporting them to the hospital
26:05
because their hospitals are so full, and
26:08
and they obviously have to talk to the physician
26:11
who was there at the hospital and give the vitals
26:13
in the scenario. But I remember
26:16
my colleague who called me after his night
26:18
shift. He said that he got
26:20
a call from the paramedics that it was his
26:22
neighbor that they
26:24
called in, and he
26:26
his neighbor actually was picked up
26:29
and on the way that the hospital passed
26:31
away. And so you know, it's
26:33
one of those things that as emergency physicians,
26:35
you see death all the time and you almost get
26:37
immune to it. You kind of brushed it off. But
26:40
I could feel the pain in his voice, and it
26:42
was one of those things that initially
26:44
you feel the pain, but then it just becomes numb. And
26:47
I had a similar case which was not a
26:49
COVID case. The actually just happened yesterday.
26:52
I had a patient who was
26:54
a thirty four year old who was a
26:56
mom of two who actually
26:59
saw my wife as a doctor,
27:01
and she was complaining of donald pain and my wife
27:03
ended up getting an ultrasound and the
27:06
ultrasound was concerning for a possible new
27:08
type of cancer, and she
27:10
was sent into the emergency room
27:12
because we needed to do a CT scan
27:15
and when we did the CT scan, we confirmed
27:18
the diagnosis. But because of
27:20
COVID, the time for her
27:22
to get referred to oncology is
27:24
going to take some time. And I remember
27:26
just sitting with her and I
27:28
I cried with her, you know, because
27:31
this is something that shouldn't you shouldn't
27:33
have to wait for. You shouldn't have to wait for seeing
27:36
an oncologist and getting treatment started just
27:38
because the virus is out there in a
27:40
thirty or four year old mom with two kids. It's
27:43
something I head home and it's just one of those things that
27:45
in a normal world without a pandemic, this
27:47
would have been dealt with much faster. Moving
27:58
on a bit into to come
28:00
as an ear doctor, are you also seeing any
28:02
spike in other non related
28:05
COVID cases? Is that putting a strain
28:07
on the hospitals as well? Absolutely?
28:09
You know that we have right now in Ontario
28:11
where I work, stay at home order at
28:13
least for thirty days. And you know, when you have a pandemic
28:16
like this, the diseases that should
28:18
be brought to light are not brought to light.
28:20
So for example, people who have adal pain are scared
28:22
to come to the hospital because of COVID nineteen,
28:25
and when they do come in, they have the most
28:27
severe problems that should have been
28:29
dealt with a month ago or two months ago. I
28:32
recently had a case of a person who had right lower
28:34
quadrant pain and they clearly had
28:36
appendicitis, and they sat at home for four days and
28:38
now they're a penicetis ruptured and
28:40
now they're in the hospital for a couple of days because
28:43
that rupture causes them to become septic.
28:46
So these common diseases,
28:48
appendicitis, heart attacks,
28:51
strokes, gall bladder problems,
28:53
these should be dealt with because their emergent
28:56
and people choose not to come, which
28:58
is rightfully so, because are scared of COVID
29:00
nineteen and the government has told them stay at home. So
29:03
it's a very big problem because common
29:06
diseases are being missed and
29:08
common diseases are going to the extremes,
29:11
so it's more of a burden when they come
29:13
in this late. I want to hand we talk about
29:16
these diseases and where people are not even coming
29:18
to the hospitals because they want to feel safe, as
29:20
well as we talk about healthcare workers and
29:22
physicians who are you know, kind of doing
29:25
so much more to just get through the
29:27
day, you know, and at the same
29:29
time, I want to have your perception about
29:32
general population, you know, how they
29:34
are reacting to the measures in place
29:36
globally, you know, to contain this virus.
29:38
You know who could be actually influential
29:40
in getting these numbers down,
29:43
like wearing masks, you know, keeping distances, etcetera.
29:46
You obviously do understand disease more than
29:48
any other man on the street does. But
29:51
how do you respond to, you know, people not really
29:53
taking care on these measures. Yeah,
29:56
you know, it's hard because I came from
29:58
a place called Florida, which a
30:00
lot of people in that state
30:02
have not taken this disease seriously. You
30:05
have extremes in that state of the very very
30:07
old people who are very susceptible disease,
30:10
and a lot of young people, especially in Southeast
30:12
Florida, who don't think that the
30:14
disease is actually true or there
30:16
it's not going to affect them. And then
30:18
you have people that are kind of in between that do
30:21
wear masks that sometimes comply with
30:23
the regulations. One
30:25
of the reasons why I came to Canada
30:28
was because the Canadian belief
30:30
do what's right for others, put others in front
30:32
of yourself, and I really appreciated
30:35
that about my family and friends that were up
30:37
here, and I wanted to be more like that.
30:40
It's hard because it's hard to get
30:42
everyone on board on the same page.
30:45
And even as simple as mask wearing, that
30:47
is probably one of the most simplest things that anyone
30:49
can do, or even social distancing,
30:51
right distance someone by six ft.
30:54
It truly doesn't sound hard, but no one does
30:57
it because I think it's in
30:59
human nature to try to do the opposite.
31:01
If I were to pick and I know there's a
31:04
lot of weapons now against COVID nineteen. We
31:06
have social distancing, we have mask wearing, we
31:08
even have vaccines. Out of
31:10
all those things, I think the biggest
31:12
thing you could do is social distance. If I
31:14
didn't have the vaccine, I would social distance,
31:17
and if I couldn't social distance, I would wear a mask,
31:19
and finally I would get the vaccine. I
31:22
think that is probably the last restore because
31:24
it's going to take time for the vaccine to roll out. There's
31:27
a lot of people out there that don't believe one
31:30
in this virus and number two in the
31:32
prevention of this virus. But you
31:34
can see the numbers on the news, and you
31:36
know, I don't joke with people, but I say,
31:38
if you really don't believe this, come to
31:40
an emergency room and let me show you a
31:43
lot you're talking about is really the personal accountability
31:45
and social responsibility. But I
31:48
imagine you guys a healthcare workers
31:50
on frontline, especially on top
31:52
of that with COVID, you have an extra challenge
31:54
being at a higher risk of contracting the disease.
31:57
I mean, I've seen some pictures wearing face
32:00
eels and moon suits and all that gear
32:02
to protect yourself. And we are
32:04
such a visual society. If we
32:06
if we haven't seen those struggles
32:08
of health care workers, we believe you know, it's
32:11
not happening, right. So I take
32:13
your point to that and do take pictures
32:15
from there and maybe post it. I think it's going
32:17
to really work, because we need a behavior change
32:19
in people. In my opinion, let's
32:22
stave deeper a bit into healthcare
32:24
systems in the US versus
32:27
Canada. I mean, you've worked in both the places,
32:29
and one of my questions was that why
32:31
did you make a choice to move to Canada, which you
32:33
kind of answered, but also
32:35
what has been your experience so far working
32:38
within the two different health care systems. So
32:40
I trained in a stakehold
32:43
Connecticut and then I moved to Florida for about
32:45
six years. There's a lot of major differences
32:47
between the two countries on healthcare in
32:50
general. One of the biggest differences
32:52
is access to healthcare. If you make
32:55
healthcare part
32:57
of your taxes, which Canada
33:00
as. It's a big difference in
33:02
the preventable diseases, like we talked about
33:04
hypertension, diabetes, high cholesterol
33:08
in years to come. That
33:10
prevents people from being hospitalized. And
33:13
that's what has made I think Canada so
33:16
great that everyone starting from
33:18
birth has access to healthcare. In
33:20
the United States, not everyone has access
33:22
to healthcare, so you see the most
33:26
disastrous outcomes because people
33:28
don't have management to eye blood pressure.
33:30
You see the strokes, you see the bad heart attacks,
33:33
and don't get me wrong, you see them here as well. But it's
33:35
gratifying to see people know their
33:38
medical history, know what medications
33:40
there on, no the last time they saw a
33:42
doctor. So I think preventive
33:44
healthcare is one thing. Now. One
33:46
thing that America is great at is if
33:49
you want to have a procedure done, say you
33:51
have hurt your d and you tore your a c L and
33:54
you want surgery tomorrow, you will get surgery
33:56
tomorrow. You have to find orthopedic surgeon
33:59
and your insurance resent and they'll do the surgery.
34:02
Because a c L surgery is not a mergent here
34:04
in Canada, you may have to wait a couple of months.
34:07
And I personally have not heard my a c L, so I'm
34:09
not that picture. But if
34:11
I were to, I would say I'm
34:14
okay with waiting. I'm okay with waiting
34:16
four or five months because someone out there
34:18
needs more emergent treatment. That's
34:21
kind of that sacrifice for the greater
34:23
good. But I have an analogy for
34:25
US healthcare in a sense that it's like Amazon. Right
34:27
you clicked the order on Amazon, it's there in forty eight
34:29
hours. If you want something
34:31
done in the United States, you will get it done in the United
34:34
States, but you may have to wait in a lot of socialized
34:36
healthcare settings, and it's
34:39
a trade off. Some people don't want to wait for that and
34:41
some people are willing to wait for that.
34:43
That's a great point to touch on access to healthcare,
34:45
and here living in Switzerland, I mean, it's one of the
34:47
best examples of that as well. I mean it's
34:49
really very much silar to what you're saying in Canada as
34:51
well, perhaps the most talked
34:54
about topic right now, and would love to
34:56
get your views on it. I'm sure you've been asked a hundred
34:58
times what do you think about vaccines
35:01
and do you think of them as a promise?
35:04
So? I think vaccines in general have
35:07
done a great good in global
35:09
healthcare. If you look at diseases
35:12
like measles and momps, we've
35:14
done such a great job with those, and I
35:16
think that vaccine children
35:18
has gone a long way. You look at the Gates
35:20
Foundation and what they have done. As
35:23
far as the COVID nineteen vaccine,
35:25
because it's so new, we
35:28
really don't know how
35:30
far it's going to go. We have trials,
35:33
but I think in the long term it's probably gonna
35:35
be close to what they have advertised, and I
35:38
think it's going to be another
35:40
tool to battle COVID nineteen.
35:43
Do I think it's going to be the end all, be all
35:45
treatment. I don't think so. I
35:47
think we have come to a new realization
35:50
that viruses are prevented
35:52
by distancing
35:55
and by wearing masks. But I
35:57
think getting the vaccine is absolutely
35:59
going to help in reducing the transmission
36:01
of COVID nineteen will absolutely
36:03
stop the transmission. I do not think it's
36:06
going to stop the transmission. I think
36:08
eventually a lot of us will get immune
36:10
to it, either via the vaccine itself
36:13
or via herd immunity. But I think
36:15
we've come to a realization that we need
36:17
to do other things besides vaccines
36:19
to prevent disease, washing our hands,
36:22
wearing masks. This may be a
36:24
new norm that we're we're going into. Um
36:26
it's I guess the only time will tell. But
36:28
back to your question support
36:31
vaccines. Yes, there have been side
36:33
effects to some vaccines. As you know,
36:36
some vaccines can cause these
36:38
terrible diseases like GM beret and
36:40
Bell's palsy. But in
36:42
the realm of all the people that have been vaccinated
36:45
in the world, this is a small,
36:47
small percentage, and I think
36:49
for the greater good, vaccines have done a great
36:51
service to all of humanity. Right, And
36:53
I do agree that you know, vaccines is not
36:55
the only solution. We have to continue wedding
36:58
masks and dick tists and preventive
37:00
measures need to be done as well. But
37:02
in specific to where you are in terms of
37:04
Canada, you know, how has been the reaction response
37:07
there and throughout how does that look
37:09
like? Yeah, so you know,
37:11
every government is different. Here, we have just recently
37:14
started it back in late December,
37:16
so now it is mid January. So like
37:18
a lot of the other countries, we are vaccinating
37:20
first the most susceptible
37:23
populations, which is the elderly
37:25
people, you know, compromise, the residents
37:27
at long term care, the workers
37:29
in long term care, and then the high
37:32
risk healthcare workers, which would be the I
37:34
c U doctors, the emergency
37:36
medicine doctors, the nursing staff, the
37:38
ancillery staff in those areas, the pharmacists.
37:41
You know, if you look at all the research throughout the world,
37:43
these are the populations that have been affected
37:46
the most. But I think Canada overall
37:48
is doing a great job with what they have.
37:51
Obviously everyone needs more vaccines, but prioritizing
37:54
the vaccines and distribution of the vaccines,
37:56
I think Canada is doing a great job
37:58
so far in that context.
38:00
Maybe one of the last questions I have for you is
38:03
a little bit long term, and what we're
38:06
starting to see is also a
38:08
mental health crisis. People
38:10
are tired of this. Of course,
38:12
it's taken a toll on people, So
38:15
what's your take on that, and if there's any
38:17
advice that you could give to people that would
38:20
be created as well. I have not
38:22
seen this much mental
38:24
health illness in my career.
38:27
My career so far has been a boy eight years after
38:29
residency, and in this past year
38:31
I've probably seen more mental health complaints
38:34
and patients than I have in the first seven
38:36
years of my career. This is again
38:39
a stressful time in all
38:41
of our lives, whether it's
38:43
not even a health care worker, whether it's a frontline
38:45
worker, or whether you know, if you're just
38:47
staying at home, it's very stressful. So I
38:49
think this has shed a lot
38:51
of light on mental health and mental health issues.
38:54
It has probably worse than people who
38:56
already have mental health issues, and
38:58
I think there should be a big I know candidate
39:01
here. We have recently passed and lecture
39:03
that brings more availability
39:06
and mental health to the public, and I think other
39:08
countries should be doing the same to follow,
39:10
because this is going to be a big problem
39:12
as we recover from COVID nineteen. This
39:15
is a time where you should be helping your neighbors.
39:18
You should be lending a hand
39:20
and calling a neighbor, calling a friend,
39:22
and being there for others. It's going to be stressful
39:25
for years to come. It's one of those times
39:27
that we'll never see again. We'll talk to our kids
39:29
about this, and this
39:31
is a time where we should be there for each
39:33
other. Dr Bawa, thanks for
39:35
sharing your experiences as someone who
39:38
has lived this COVID nineteen experience
39:40
in terms of physical, emotional
39:42
and psychological challenges. You
39:44
know of working through this pandemic, and
39:46
you, along with all healthcare workers
39:48
on the front lines, they have experienced significant
39:52
losses, trauma, grief, and
39:54
a burden that is really hard
39:56
to put in words. So all we can say
39:58
is you've been doing a tremendous job
40:01
and absolutely deserved all I respect.
40:04
So thank you. I appreciate you having me. Thank
40:06
you so much. Transitioning
40:10
from Dr bog Bob an e er physician
40:12
and hero faced with impossible
40:14
decisions day to day whose mental
40:16
health and well being are compromised because
40:18
the health care system is on the brink of collapse
40:21
at any given time, and like so
40:23
many others, she doesn't have the luxury
40:25
of taking a break. We hear
40:27
from Melizza Rangel and the tragedies
40:29
she's experienced firsthand, including
40:32
the loss of her father. I want
40:34
to warn you there is no sugarcoating
40:36
nous. Melissa was a patient,
40:38
a family member who lost her father, and
40:41
a nurse who truly empathized with her
40:43
caregivers all at once. I
40:49
want to start with you sharing
40:52
some fond memories of your family and
40:54
your dad. You know, growing
40:56
up, my dad was our
40:58
everything to us, not just I don't literally
41:01
say our everything, because he was our father,
41:03
but he was our mechanic, our plumber, are
41:06
you know, our worlder, our honeymoon.
41:09
He was a person that was always there for
41:11
us. Um My dad was always,
41:14
you know, the person that motivated as the most,
41:16
and even though he was
41:19
disabled, he
41:21
he really was very involved in
41:23
everything that we did. And
41:26
he was a positive influencer in our lives.
41:28
And that's something that that I hold
41:31
dearly with my heart because it's a something
41:34
that I don't ever want to forget. Yes,
41:37
of course, of course. Now I want
41:39
to talk about your experience
41:41
with COVID, your personal experience.
41:44
Can you share with us how
41:48
it all started your COVID symptoms.
41:52
My COVID symptoms started in June.
41:55
I had learned that I had got exposed,
41:58
right, so I immediately isolated my self.
42:01
I was feeling very tired, I
42:03
wasn't really feeling very hungry. I
42:06
noticed I was heavily sweating. Within
42:08
maybe like three days, I developed
42:11
a lot of facial pain. So
42:14
I did develop a fever. It was about
42:16
a hundred and one. Soon after,
42:18
maybe like within two days, I noticed
42:21
that just walking to the restroom,
42:24
I was very short of breath. So
42:26
at that point, you know, I decided
42:28
to get a note to a pulse
42:30
oxyometer so that I could actually
42:33
take my oxygen levels and see where
42:35
I was at. On the twentieth,
42:38
I went to the hospital and one of
42:40
the things they did was a they gave me antibiotics.
42:42
They gave me steroidse which we're gonna help me with my
42:44
lungs. I believe they even gave
42:47
me a rosa shot. And then they
42:49
sent me home and they're like, Okay, you're still good,
42:52
Just you know, try to relax. So
42:54
were they saying you have COVID or
42:57
were they just treating the symptoms not knowing
42:59
that it was COVID. At that
43:01
time, I still hadn't gotten my
43:04
results. So when you
43:06
went to the hospital, one of the main things
43:08
they did is that if you had any sort of symptoms
43:10
that were related to COVID, you
43:12
were automatically put with
43:14
people that had COVID. So
43:17
I was like, let's say, if I would have been negative
43:19
at that point, I would have been exposed
43:21
because of the fact that they had to separate
43:24
anybody had the symptoms and put
43:26
all those individuals together. So I
43:29
was in the room with a whole bunch of other people
43:31
that had symptoms. Yeah, that's
43:33
kind of scary to think of, because
43:35
you don't know who's really sick and who's
43:37
not, And as you've said, you
43:39
could be exposing yourself to the
43:42
virus just by being there when you're trying
43:44
to get better. So after
43:46
I went to a hospital, I went twice
43:49
right, because I kept developing the shortness
43:51
of breath. Do you feel because you're young, They
43:53
didn't take it as seriously maybe
43:56
I don't have like um
43:59
pre existing conditions, so
44:01
I'm guessing it was more of a your
44:03
oxygen is still okay, you
44:06
should be fine, which I understand
44:08
because at that point there was no rooms, and
44:10
everybody that was not hospital was because
44:12
they were in critical condition. You
44:15
know, you have to meet a criteria
44:17
to get admitted. So on
44:19
the third time that I ended up going to the hospital
44:22
was because I blacked up. I tried
44:24
to go to the restroom. I felt
44:26
my body shot it down and
44:28
I screamed for help. That's the last thing I
44:31
remember. And then the next thing, well, my father
44:33
was there China to help me, of
44:35
course, and rush me to the hospital.
44:38
I couldn't walk. I felt like I was suffocating.
44:41
I was just coughing and coughing, And
44:44
you know, the biggest thing on my head was
44:47
I just exposed my father. I
44:49
was very scared, but at the same time, my dask like,
44:52
why wouldn't I do it? You're my daughter? Wow?
44:55
So um, he's
44:57
my hero. That's the love of father
44:59
has as kids. Yes, so
45:03
do you know whether any MC service
45:05
was called for you or not? Or do you not
45:07
remember because you were passing out? No,
45:09
my dad didn't call because he knew
45:12
that everything was very packed and we
45:14
had already been here in the news. There
45:16
was ambulitis with actual patients waiting
45:19
in the ambulances. He just
45:21
rushed me straight into the hospital. I
45:23
mean, my oxygen was in the low eighties.
45:27
If I walked and went into the seventies,
45:29
Like I was pretty signotic. I
45:32
felt like if I took any steps or if
45:34
I walked, and I was going to die. It's
45:37
not something that I wish on anybody.
45:39
It was a very horrible feeling.
45:42
Yeah, I can't even imagine. So
45:44
your dad makes the ultimate sacrifice
45:47
and takes you to the hospital. Tell
45:50
us about your experience this time around
45:52
at the hospital. When
45:56
we got to the hospital, they were
45:58
a little bit more organized. I
46:00
remember the first time I went, there was just a crowd
46:02
of people outside, you know, waiting to
46:05
even go into the e er or you
46:07
know, waiting to go in through the COVID side.
46:11
Um. When we got there, the lady in the
46:13
front I remember that she uh
46:15
asked my dad what was wrong, because he's
46:17
the one that got off, and he's like,
46:19
my daughter can't breathe. He's like, we need a wheelchair,
46:23
and they they
46:25
said, well, you grab it, right, So my dad
46:27
grabbed the wheelchair. He's
46:29
the one that wheeled me into the hospital.
46:32
Once I was there, they
46:34
checked my oxygen levels and
46:36
at that point they're like, okay, you can't
46:39
really walk and I was like, no, I I can't
46:42
breathe. And that's where they admitted
46:44
me. When I got there, it didn't
46:46
take that long I want to say, maybe like
46:49
thirty minutes max. Before they put
46:51
me in a room. And was that room
46:53
by yourself or with other people? When
46:56
I was in the r I was by myself
46:59
for two days, and after two
47:01
days I shared a room
47:03
with an older lady
47:06
who had COVID and she
47:08
was passing. Wow,
47:12
that must have been tough. How do you
47:14
feel about the care that you receive or
47:17
lack of care if you feel that way
47:19
at the hospital. When I
47:21
was at the hospital, I
47:24
I had this one episode where
47:27
I really needed to go to the restroom.
47:30
But at the same time, we keep hearing code
47:32
blue, like maybe every thirty minutes,
47:34
right, And what does code blue mean? Again?
47:37
Code blue means that somebody is unresponsive,
47:40
they're crashing, they're dying. I
47:43
mean, you're pretty much trying to save somebody
47:45
from dying. Being a nurse,
47:47
I know that somebody is going into cardiac arrest
47:50
anytime I hear called blue, so
47:52
I knew what that was. That
47:55
day, I can see
47:57
the nurses running back and forth and
48:00
I really needed to go to the restroom. The
48:02
thing is that when you have COVID you're
48:05
stuck to your bed, your bed bound. Any
48:07
step that I took, even if it was
48:10
to go to the restroom, I felt like I was
48:12
going to pass out and die. I felt
48:14
really horrible. I was
48:16
scared to like pass out in the restroom
48:18
and just suffocate. I
48:21
was terrified. I am not gonna lie.
48:23
It was something that was very scary.
48:26
It was a horrible experience. I
48:28
remember calling the cob
48:31
bell so that the nurses could come, and
48:33
they never came. I waited
48:35
an hour. I called again
48:38
and they're like, it's because we're having a lot of emergencies,
48:40
which honestly I understood because
48:43
I kept hearing all the coding.
48:46
I tried to hold it at least I
48:48
want to say, three hours without going
48:50
to the restroom until I just couldn't
48:52
anymore. So I grabbed
48:55
whatever I could and I had
48:57
to use that to go to the restroom on my own, in my bed
49:00
um and trying not to dirty anything because
49:02
at that point, like I just couldn't hold it anymore.
49:05
Eventually the nurse got there and she
49:07
said, I am so sorry. At
49:10
that point I couldn't be mad because
49:13
I saw her face. She
49:15
wanted to cry. Like the workload that she
49:17
had was too much for her,
49:19
and I remember her telling me it's
49:22
because I have like thirty patients. So
49:25
me putting myself in her position, I'm like, if
49:27
I have all patients that are bad abound, there's
49:29
no way I could provide the
49:32
proper care for any of them.
49:34
I just told her not to worry about it. I feel
49:36
bad because I had pretty much
49:39
made a mess. There
49:41
was no way that I wanted to put any more stress
49:43
on somebody that's trying their best to help
49:46
somebody when I know
49:48
they don't have the resources to do it. Wow,
49:50
you have such a great heart, because you know a lot of people
49:52
would not be thinking about somebody
49:55
else and feeling empathy at that moment, and
49:57
they would just be frustrated. I am
49:59
a nur, so I know that they
50:01
were suffering just as much as we were.
50:04
So I was there for about I want
50:06
to say, a week and a half, and
50:09
because we're all on oxygen and
50:11
none of us could shower, we weren't allowed to
50:13
shower. So when I made a mess,
50:15
I asked her, you know, I know it that you have
50:18
a lot going on, and I know that you cannot help
50:20
me. I'm like, but can you at least bring me a
50:22
new basin with water and soap.
50:25
I told her I would like to like clean myself,
50:28
like you know, at least do a bed bath on
50:30
my own, and that is what I
50:32
did. Um, I did a bed bath on
50:34
my own, and she did bring me the like the little
50:36
tampoo and everything so that I could try to do it
50:38
on my own. So eventually
50:41
you started to get better, right, yes,
50:44
any time that I tried to
50:46
breathe, like you breathe in and you're taking
50:49
that guple there, but when you have COVID,
50:51
it's like you try to breathe and it's just stuck
50:53
and it doesn't go into your lungs. And
50:56
that's how I felt. Twenty four hours
50:59
after I had last uh, I actually
51:01
was able to take my first breath by
51:03
myself, and I
51:05
was shocked. I'm like, Okay, this is actually working.
51:09
So tell us about the
51:11
progression of you getting better and
51:14
what was happening on the opposite end of
51:16
the spectrum with your father. So
51:19
when I was getting better, my dad
51:21
started to get worse. He
51:23
started developing a cough and
51:25
then my son would call us and he's like, oh, his oxygen's
51:28
eighties um where he started dropping
51:30
even more and then his blood sugar started
51:32
rising and at that point it's like,
51:34
okay, we need to take him to the hospital.
51:37
So my sisters called the MS so they
51:39
can pick up my father. And then maybe
51:42
two hours passed and E M S never came.
51:44
My sisters called e M S again and e MS
51:47
told him that there was no
51:49
space, that they couldn't pick it up, so they
51:51
canceled the ambulance services
51:54
for my father. At that point,
51:56
my sister came immediately to
51:58
pick up my dad. She full
52:00
ppe and rushed him to the hospital.
52:03
That was the only option we had. Wow.
52:06
So when he got to the hospital, do you
52:08
know how long before his symptoms
52:10
got worse. He
52:13
was in the e er for
52:15
three days, and his
52:18
symptoms started getting worse the
52:20
day that he was supposed to
52:23
be released. My dad was
52:25
never able to get pastma right away like I
52:27
was, because there wasn't anymore. I
52:29
tried to donate myself, but because
52:31
I had just had COVID, They're like, you don't
52:33
even have anti bodies yet, it takes a
52:35
while for your body to develop them.
52:38
I wanted to see
52:40
my dad old, and I knew that
52:43
he had diabetes, and I knew he had had retention,
52:45
so I knew at one point this was gonna
52:47
probably kill him. But I didn't
52:49
think that COVID, which was a virus
52:53
that appeared out of nowhere right,
52:55
was actually gonna take what we cared
52:57
for the most, which was my father. It
53:00
really broke my heart over all,
53:03
the fact that we couldn't be there to hold his hand,
53:05
and we couldn't be there at all with him.
53:08
It still seems very surreal,
53:10
like it seems like it's all alive,
53:12
like it's fake, but it isn't.
53:15
A lot of people are like COVID, Joe, COVID
53:17
is, It's not real. I had COVID
53:19
and I had no symptoms. Okay,
53:21
well, some people really don't have symptoms
53:23
and they are lucky and they are fortunate.
53:26
But for those who have gone through COVID
53:28
and have experienced loss, it
53:31
is something that you don't wish on anybody.
53:33
It is something very hurtful and
53:36
it's very real, and it's something that
53:38
I hope that a lot of people
53:42
really really really make sure that they're
53:44
doing everything in order to not get sick. And
53:46
just if you know when you leave home, you
53:49
know Hug, Hug those people
53:51
you know, Hug your parents, Hug your families
53:53
because you don't know if
53:56
you're gonna see them next or if you're never
53:58
going to see them again. At this point,
54:00
this is what has come down to, and as
54:02
sad as it is, it's what's going on
54:04
right now. I'm
54:06
so sorry about your loss. I am sorry
54:08
about your experience. I'm sorry that you missed
54:11
opportunity to receive the care
54:14
that you deserve in the first world country.
54:16
And you know, I understand you have empathy
54:19
for the nurses, but you know, at
54:21
the same time, it's heart wrenching to
54:23
hear that you weren't able to be
54:26
taking care of the way you should have been taken care
54:28
of. My favorite thing
54:30
when you were talking about your dad is how your face
54:32
lit up. You're sharing your memories of
54:35
him. How would you like for us
54:37
to remember your father? My
54:40
dad? He um,
54:44
he was the best. He
54:47
was the best. I
54:49
just want everybody to remember him
54:51
as a person that always
54:54
um gave us a hot twenty body, strangers
54:58
or a strangers, anybody on this read.
55:01
He would actually stop and you know,
55:03
try to help those in need, even
55:06
though we didn't help much. My
55:09
dad did a lot of things for a lot of people,
55:12
and I did. What I wanted
55:14
to remember the most was how he
55:17
always had a smile. Can
55:24
you imagine having a family
55:26
member denied ambulance service?
55:29
What about being in the shoes of an e er physician
55:31
who has to decide where to allocate
55:34
limited resources and
55:36
your decision means the death of somebody
55:39
else's family member. How
55:41
about having a heart so strong that
55:43
you can actually separate your personal
55:45
loss and suffering from the pain
55:48
that your caregiver's experience. As
55:50
we heard from Melizza, folks,
55:52
things will get better, but we have to be
55:54
serious about these lessons. Our
55:57
health care system was not built to weather
55:59
this storm arm even if we're supposed
56:01
to be the shining city on the hill. To
56:04
continue shining, we need to continue
56:06
the progress towards health equity and
56:09
meet this moment wide eyed. We
56:11
need to improve resources to our local
56:13
health agencies, as we continue to say,
56:15
and we have to have a better plan for our frontline
56:18
heroes to cope with the decisions
56:20
and the trauma that they've endured and
56:22
will inevitably continue to endure
56:25
during this pandemic. At the
56:27
risk of sounding like a broken record, I
56:29
want to remind you of something. As
56:31
hard as it is to wear a mask to separate
56:34
from your friends and loved ones, and as much
56:36
as your life has been disrupted
56:38
from this pandemic, every decision
56:40
you make is life or death. I'm
56:43
not trying to sensationalize this. The
56:45
decisions that you make today, if they don't
56:47
affect your own family or you, they
56:49
affect someone like Melitza or Dr Boshbab,
56:53
So please consider their stories and
56:55
the impact of your decisions. Thank
56:57
you so much for joining us again. We'll
57:00
keep bringing truth no matter how hard
57:02
it is, and we'll see you soon. Listen
57:13
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