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Hello to everybody who accidentally got
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a rooster. It's to refer a
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lot of this one hour your
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phone call you name's. Right?
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know? Now.
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I have already. chris get through here. I
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know not everybody loves a long trip. This
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one I'm going to estimate. How
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ten to twelve minutes of ensure and
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skip ahead to that. If you just
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want the phone call please consider beautiful
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amount of this.com you're looking for more
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content. Thanks so much. Everybody
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Chris gathered here. Welcome to another
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episode of Beautiful Anonymous! I feel
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so lucky. To. Be Here! I
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feel so lucky to be doing this and the other
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phone call that you're about to here. Is
1:03
one that I figure out going to feel lucky
1:05
be here as well. This one was a great
1:07
reminder to me of the early days of the
1:09
show, where things were a manic and unpredictable and
1:11
where I never knew quite where it was going
1:14
and where we have now recorded it and I've
1:16
still not are always certain. Of
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where. It. Went before I
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get into any of that. Have to say
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first of all a huge thank you to
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everybody in Brooklyn who came out a little
1:27
field on Saturday. I did a. Benefit.
1:29
Show for the mental health education
1:31
nonprofit that I work for now.
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Wellness. Together help me build the
1:35
program. Laughing Together Gary gone and clear.
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Okay Christie summers business casual and we
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packed that place out. Thank you are
1:42
so much for helping and if you
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want to see me live we got
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first will be of Vancouver to stand
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up on the fifteenth of February and
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March. First will be back at Littlefield
1:52
doing another Laughing Together benefit raising money
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for mental health services As Ghouls with
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Joe Para Joy L, Nicole Johnson Can
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these mobley. Nichols, all
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kinds of good stuff. And a beautiful anonymous
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taping March 23rd in
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Boise. All kinds of great
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things happening. Thanks to everybody who supports and buys
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tickets and comes out to see
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things on the road. What
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else do I want to tell you in this
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intro? I don't think we need to make this
2:19
one a particularly long one.
2:21
Oh, I should also
2:23
say, of course, thanks to everybody who
2:26
listened to the audio
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excerpt from the audiobook of my
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new piece, Dad at Peace. If
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you haven't had a chance to listen to it
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yet, everand.com. You can go sign up for 30 days
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for free right now. If you go to
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my social media, I think there's a link for 60 days
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for free. I've got three books on there. I actually think
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they have a fourth one of mine as well, as
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well as stuff by all kinds of, I mean, Stephen
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King and Margaret Atwood. So if
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you're looking for something to read or listen to, I've
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got a new piece up there,
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new little mini book. And this one,
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Dad at Peace, a lot of it
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is about how I came to sort
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of struggle through some financial stuff, some
3:06
insecurity, the pandemic, the health
3:08
insurance, the questioning, the constant travel, taking a
3:10
step back at my life and saying I've
3:12
had a very lucky life and a relatively
3:15
successful life, but I don't know if it's
3:17
for me anymore and how I came to
3:19
start working at a nonprofit.
3:22
And along the way, you'll be happy to hear, I
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think anybody who's listened will tell you, I
3:26
spill a lot of tea about what happened with
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Beautiful Anonymous. I know there was a stretch where
3:31
we announced we were going independent. And then I
3:33
saw a lot of feedback from people saying, you
3:36
sound looser on the show again. I could,
3:39
now that I can hear that some stuff
3:41
was going, I look back and can sense
3:43
there had been some tension in some of
3:45
those episodes and that you had some weight
3:47
on your shoulders that's been lifted. If
3:49
you've ever wanted to know more about what was
3:51
happening with Beautiful Anonymous, I really do go pretty
3:53
in depth, more in depth than I've gone publicly
3:56
and probably that I will. I mean, the
3:59
stories of the that helped the
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show survive are kind of baffling
4:03
and funny and Some
4:05
of the timeline of how everything started to
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break that led to beautiful anonymous going independent
4:10
I get really specific in there. So if
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you've ever been curious, you
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out some other stuff when you're there and then if the
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service is not for you No harm. No foul just unsubscribe
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And yeah, thanks to everybody who has supported check it out
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And this one I think will tell
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get the heartstrings and I think beautiful anonymous
4:35
listeners Will read it and
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go right? guy is
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finally realizing How
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to grow up and embrace who he is not
4:45
who it used to be and a lot
4:47
of you have always realized that Six
4:49
to twelve months before I have realized that as
4:51
I take these life turns. It's very strange It's
4:54
very strange to go on the road and meet
4:56
Beautiful anonymous fans and they'll say oh you said this
4:59
thing on the show and I said it to my
5:01
husband a year ago Like oh Chris should do x
5:03
y and z and I go I
5:05
wish someone had told me and they go no No, these
5:07
are things you have to figure out for yourself and we
5:09
listen and we listen to you figure them out We all
5:11
got each other's backs and it's wild
5:13
the consistency with which I
5:16
have conversations like that I
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Do also have to say I had an amazing dinner
5:22
that Fans
5:24
of beautiful anonymous. I think we'll just like
5:27
that this happened I did San
5:29
Francisco sketch fest, which is a great great
5:31
comedy festival and every time I do it
5:33
I'm reminded of the reasons that
5:35
I fell in love with comedy in the
5:37
first place comedy Which can be so divisive
5:39
and strangely so culturally Influential
5:42
and negative ways and and
5:45
disappointing at San Francisco sketch fest Really
5:48
stands against all the annoying sides of comedy and
5:50
is reinvigorating So I went and I did it
5:53
it was awesome And I got to catch up
5:55
with a bunch of friends then I flipped to
5:57
Portland My flight was delayed
5:59
by over three hours and I was bummed because
6:01
my friend Murph, one of my dear friends, he was the
6:03
Reverend at my wedding. I was the Reverend at his. We
6:05
were on the TV show together back in the day. I
6:09
got to hang out with him and his wife and his beautiful
6:11
daughter for about 45 minutes. It
6:13
was supposed to be the whole day. It was
6:15
only about like 45 minutes and we had to go
6:18
get dinner and Murph came to the show and
6:20
that dinner, you'll be happy
6:22
to hear, I got dinner with the
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callers from Love Is Everywhere and Parade
6:26
Girl herself and
6:29
I got to catch up with them, fill
6:31
them in. Murph had them laughing with some stories of
6:33
how I used to be in the old days back
6:36
when things were more wild with me. Got to
6:39
hear about all the
6:41
stuff Parade Girl's up to which is always a lot
6:44
of twists and turns as you would expect in
6:46
her life and she really broke down in person
6:48
as we sat and broke bread about how she
6:50
managed to take over the show for a long
6:52
while there and she was laughing
6:54
about how she knew that she was actively
6:57
pissing off the high priestess Andrea Quinn as
6:59
she manipulated the show and turned it into
7:01
her own and I was
7:03
left there catching up with both the
7:05
caller from Love Is Everywhere and her husband
7:07
with Parade Girl with my old friend Murph
7:10
and all these people from different eras of
7:12
life and different eras of my
7:15
creativity and I was just left really
7:19
really struck by
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how lucky I have been
7:24
and sometimes I give in to the stress and sometimes
7:27
I give in to the dramas and
7:29
then every once in a while I managed to take a step back
7:31
and go I've lived this life where I've
7:33
made some stuff and I've managed to survive and the
7:35
most important thing about it is
7:37
it has connected me with
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people in
7:42
ways I never expected and
7:45
all over the world and
7:47
now that I'm I've turned
7:50
a corner age-wise and where
7:52
being a father is a factor I now
7:54
get to have this other thing where I go to cities and I
7:56
go I'm sitting here having a dinner
7:58
with one of my oldest friends, Murph,
8:01
with Heidi and Rick,
8:04
love is everywhere, who have
8:07
been so deeply meaningful in my life. With Parade
8:09
Girl, who when you get
8:11
past the idea that she manipulated the show and
8:13
was my nemesis, it was actually this weird creative
8:16
back and forth that she and I had that
8:18
unfolded in a way that wasn't planned and that
8:21
I didn't even know who she was. And I
8:23
sit here and I go, okay,
8:26
if Cal ever winds up in trouble in
8:28
Portland, Oregon, I got multiple people
8:30
who are gonna have that kids back. I
8:34
know who I'll call if he ever has a
8:36
car breakdown in San Francisco or Denver
8:39
or Chicago or all
8:42
over the country and all over the world. There's
8:45
places where I know that if my little guy
8:47
grows up and he needs help, he'll
8:52
reach out to me and I'll
8:54
be able to go, okay, you
8:56
need help, okay, you need help in that part of
8:58
the world? Well, I got a 39 year old grandma
9:00
who I think will be there and will treat you
9:02
like her own grandson. I don't
9:06
know that you're even
9:08
intimately aware with this person
9:10
or, oh, you're broken
9:13
down in Toledo? Well, make your way to Culture
9:16
Clash Records and they will make sure that you
9:18
are fed and housed and have a roof over
9:20
your heads and that extends not just
9:22
to the community of this show but the community
9:26
of my life. And
9:29
I don't know why I'm in such a contemplative mood.
9:31
Sometimes I get in these moods where
9:34
I'm not trying to be too dark or I will
9:36
sometimes have these thoughts of like, cool, when I'm gone,
9:39
my son will have all these people to protect them
9:41
and I go, I'm 43, I don't think I'm going
9:43
anywhere anytime soon. I had a colonoscopy, clean bill of
9:45
health and it sounds
9:47
macabre but it's
9:50
not macabre. It's actually such a
9:52
piece, a sense of peace and such a sense
9:54
of zen, which is a lot
9:56
of what that piece is obviously about but also just
9:58
in life in general. I feel
10:00
very, very lucky to be in a phase where
10:02
the stress has lifted,
10:04
at least momentarily enough, that
10:07
I can offer a huge heartfelt thank you to
10:10
everyone who has been a part of my
10:13
community and who I know has not
10:16
just had my back, but where I go.
10:19
My little guy has this gigantic safety net
10:21
he could not even perceive for
10:23
many years. And
10:26
man, does that bring me a sense
10:28
of peace. Anyway,
10:30
that's that. We did the show plugs.
10:32
I should also obviously mention that beautifulanonymous.com
10:34
is up and running. It's going well.
10:37
I don't think we're going to get to that 2,500 subscriber
10:41
benchmark, but we're up above 600 and that's
10:43
not nothing. I don't want to get caught
10:45
up and say, well, if I could get
10:48
to 2,500, I get this big financial bonus.
10:51
At the end of the day, over 600 people
10:53
signed up who want a little more bang for
10:55
their buck. We put
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out an episode with Tim from Culture Clash
10:59
Records, catching up with
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him, doing the five questions, hearing how the store
11:03
is going, hearing how life is going. The
11:06
caller you're about to hear, the five
11:08
questions afterwards are just lovely and
11:10
surprising and fun. Once a month,
11:13
we get to go out there and give
11:16
a secret number for the people at
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the touchtone tier of beautifulanonymous.com. You
11:22
don't have to compete with so many people to be on
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the show. It's just really lovely. If
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you buy for a whole year, there's big massive
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discounts. Every day, I type out
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two or three letters to the people who
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sign up at that cellular technology thing. That's
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where if you have disposable income, it's 150
11:37
bucks for the year and
11:40
you get a hand, not a handwritten
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because my handwriting sucks. I typed out
11:44
note from me. I type every single
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one individually. Many People
11:48
would be tempted to copy and paste the intro
11:50
and outro and then just do a little blurb
11:52
in the middle. Every Single one is different. I
11:54
Love doing it. I Love schlepping to the post
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office. I've sent some off to the UK and
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Canada. It's so cool. So thanks Everybody
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has been signing up. Test
12:03
everybody who's been listening. Thanks to everybody
12:05
who's about to enjoy this call, which
12:07
is an all time classic. I'm calling
12:10
it now. You're gonna love this guy.
12:12
Energy From the start I'm never certain
12:14
where it's going. It has all the
12:16
benchmarks of the types of beautiful anonymous
12:19
calls that become embraced by all time
12:21
classics meaning a clear phone connection, a
12:23
good sense of humor, and unpredictable nature.
12:25
Arm I ask questions that don't get
12:28
direct answers, but they lead to like
12:30
six new questions. There are animals that
12:32
show. Up, I know that that's a
12:34
lot of stuff is gonna be one
12:36
your favorite. Cause if there's not a
12:39
random animal, course it's not. There's random
12:41
animals and that standard random animals. Weird
12:43
random animals. And then of course there's
12:45
also talk of. Things.
12:48
Diving. Deep in a way. That
12:51
we won't see and that okay, if there's one regret
12:53
I have, I wish we had more time to try
12:55
to get into some specifics, but it's almost for the
12:57
best that we don't because the color comes to talk
13:00
about something that is very. I
13:02
don't want to say very unique to the nineties
13:04
because it's still goes on today. But
13:06
it was very much. Shattered
13:09
About and Invoke and a Thing in the
13:11
Nineties. And that kind of a defining thing
13:13
that when you think back to those nineties
13:15
talk shows. On I
13:17
feel like it needs a little bit of a had
13:19
a heads up. You. Might remember
13:21
that back then. It would be like our Jerry
13:23
Springer have an all these kids that have to
13:25
go to some school that's like. Basically.
13:28
The military and they seem harsh and
13:30
dark. Or. Color went to
13:32
one. Now. I don't want to spoil
13:34
it, but I know that my piece of the
13:36
some people need to brace themselves for if you
13:38
had experience with these because they don't have a
13:40
reputation for being pleasant places for color was but.
13:43
You. Will hear that we get into in a way that's not. The.
13:46
Drawn out narrative of his time, there it's more just a
13:48
fact of his life and how it affected him then and
13:50
how it affects them. This. one
13:53
is very real in that way it's not well on
13:55
this day i went in on this date this happen
13:57
and i'm then i got out on this day it's
13:59
more yet This was a thing
14:01
that kind of became a weight
14:07
that gave gravity to the entirety of my
14:09
childhood experience that I had to then unwrap
14:11
as an adult. And
14:13
then you'll also hear that the caller is who he is today.
14:17
It's kind of mind blowing. So
14:19
anyway, I feel really
14:21
lucky. And I think you're going to love
14:23
this one. Feel lucky that I have to get this
14:25
call. I feel lucky that I get to live this life. I feel lucky
14:27
that I get to connect with all of you. And
14:29
I hope you're out there feeling lucky about your
14:32
own things as well. And if you're down on your
14:34
luck, having some bad luck right
14:36
now and you're decidedly not feeling lucky, I hope
14:38
at the very least this helps
14:40
you connect with someone else for
14:42
an hour to take your mind
14:44
off your own troubles. Thank
14:49
you for calling Beautiful Anonymous. A beeping noise
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will indicate when you are on the show
14:54
with the host. Hello?
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Hello? Hey,
15:00
Chris. Yeah, what's up? Oh
15:04
my gosh. Not
15:06
much. I was just the music
15:09
ended so abruptly. I was called off-star. You
15:11
were there? Here we are. We're
15:13
in it now. We're really in it now. Yeah,
15:15
yeah, yeah. Oh,
15:18
I was going to try to make a cup of
15:20
coffee before he comes back. But let's look. What
15:23
if you need
15:25
to make coffee? I can hold. I'm
15:28
not going to put you on hold. How
15:31
are you doing today? How is
15:34
winter weather where you are? Winter
15:37
weather is not great. There
15:40
was a lot of snow and stuff a couple of weeks ago, so
15:42
we don't have that. But it's just been gloomy here. As
15:44
far as how I'm doing, I will say the answer
15:46
is you really don't want
15:49
to know and I'm always honest about it,
15:51
so don't ask. So don't ask.
15:53
Okay. Yeah. That's
15:55
fair. Yeah, and not because I'm
15:57
in a bad place. I'm not trying to figure anybody out.
16:00
It involves, I recently had
16:02
a colonoscopy. So just let's not ask
16:04
about, let's not even ask. No,
16:07
no, that's listen. I'm, um, we're,
16:09
we're close in age. So the adult, uh,
16:13
adult healthcare is a real thing. It
16:15
can definitely catch off guard. For sure. And now I
16:17
feel like I'm scaring everybody and they all think
16:19
that I have been diagnosed with, I have not, it's
16:21
just, what
16:25
the hell, you got a rooster? I
16:28
do. I have about 20 chickens. One of them was
16:30
a rooster cat noir was not supposed to be a
16:33
rooster. We got this re-up
16:35
and on, on ladies, we thought it was,
16:37
you get these straight runs and yeah, I
16:40
thought cat noir was a
16:42
boy. He had the right to be around the straight run
16:44
of that. Yeah. He's named Kat
16:46
and my kids named him Kat Noir. Yeah. After the French
16:49
cartoon. Wow.
16:51
Are you familiar with Kat Noir and
16:53
ladybug girl, the adventures? No. This
16:56
immediately, immediately taken some turns.
16:58
No one expected. Yeah.
17:03
We can, we can, we can zig away
17:05
from colonoscopy. I can chat about chickens. Yeah.
17:08
People are a lot like dog people. Yeah,
17:11
go for it. Well,
17:14
so, um, when
17:16
you get chickens, um, a
17:19
lot like people like us are kind of like backyard
17:21
hobby farmers. You just get them from like factor
17:23
supply or the hardware store, you
17:26
know, places have chicks and it's
17:28
hard. A lot of times you get them a little
17:30
bit older as pull-ups where they're guaranteed to be ladies,
17:33
to be egg layers. But sometimes you
17:35
figure you'll save a couple bucks, which was a
17:37
mistake for good with one of these batches. And
17:39
you're like, Oh, I'll get us what's called a
17:41
straight run and they're unsexed. And so we
17:43
got a straight run of eight on time. Four of
17:46
them were roosters and four were hens. The
17:49
cat noir was small and he escaped our
17:51
detection. The other three roosters got rid of
17:53
on Craigslist, but, um, the
17:55
cat noir persist. He's been here a couple of
17:57
years now. Cause he can't
17:59
have More than one rooster they'll start fighting.
18:01
Yeah, Well
18:04
some of that is is miss. Try and
18:06
like the idea that roosters or mean and
18:08
nasty a lot of is like you know.
18:11
We've got about twenty chicken total to the
18:13
hands of the pecking order is real and
18:15
the older hand don't suffer fools. they'll They'll
18:17
put Cat nord a place like he'll try
18:20
a mob. Or
18:22
take or is that you know as the kids
18:24
a whole time ride. Them
18:26
of the older ladies and first of
18:28
they're not lay eggs anymore the just
18:31
and retirement and then they will. They
18:33
will fight back with like if a
18:35
diminutive size rooster. Or how to
18:37
make. No,
18:42
I'm not bringing food at the other thing that
18:44
they all line up when I come on the
18:46
porch because they think I'm bringing scratch. Team
18:48
that rooster has good timing. The every time
18:51
there's a pause in the conversation, a bruiser
18:53
Mr. insert himself. Right
18:55
there Now that can get a goddamn
18:57
walk. Around
19:00
it's what it's like. It is funny
19:02
at mm. But we have We have the
19:04
my chickens we had to get am. Another
19:07
got the a threat the machine right on time
19:09
as well. As. We.
19:11
Have we have to get a yeah chicken that the
19:13
come out and. He sort of
19:16
explain the. Roosters
19:18
actually level a bit longer. Than
19:20
the hand because they really don't work as hard
19:22
you know they'll they'll put I got other than
19:24
to everyday. Do
19:27
for you for the article. Know
19:30
brother I live in a Poet
19:32
Anonymous by the I live in
19:34
of a large metropolitan area, but.
19:37
Because of the state I live in as
19:39
a state happens to be an agricultural fate
19:42
and it's very. By the sword
19:44
metropolitan area, you're allowed to have as many.
19:47
Chickens as you want because the state
19:49
was built. By to the to a
19:51
strange loop hole. Them. didn't
19:53
our chickens we could have go to we
19:55
want to be could have taken like you
19:57
and work really like a city in
20:01
like a proper suburb and like there's
20:03
no HOA though so you can do these sort
20:05
of things. Can't have horses that's where they draw
20:07
the line but if I wanted to
20:09
add goat or we looked at getting pig pre-pandemic
20:12
we thought about it for a little while. We
20:14
just we have a little over a half acre
20:16
but we also have like a proper you know
20:18
ranch home like suburb
20:21
people. So you have a half acre
20:23
which is respectable but it's certainly
20:25
not huge. How close is your closest
20:27
neighbor? You
20:31
see why I'm asking. Well
20:34
so my closest neighbor on one side
20:36
is a delightful retired Greyhound bus driver.
20:38
I love him and he hangs out
20:40
and scraps all day. He does a
20:42
scrap metal scrapping. So he's out
20:45
there with an angle grinder constantly and
20:48
one of the chickens, Cinnamon Girl, she's the only
20:50
one that's forgot how to fly the fence. So
20:52
she'll go over to his yard and lay eggs
20:54
in his yard and then come back and he
20:56
loves that. So that neighbor's cool and then
20:58
the other neighbor immediately on the other side is just
21:01
never there. It's like a it's
21:03
a family home they're just keeping
21:05
alive but no one lives there full time and
21:08
then the backyard directly
21:11
behind me is just wetlands so
21:13
no issue. And to be
21:16
honest more annoying than rooster
21:18
is people leave their dogs
21:20
outside like still in this day and error.
21:22
People leave dogs outside all night and all
21:24
day and those get loud. Those
21:26
get crazy. So
21:29
you got this guy grinding metal next to you.
21:31
You managed to get the one neighbor noisier than
21:33
you so he can't really get mad.
21:36
Yeah. Well
21:38
I think too this is the thing about the
21:40
rooster over the phone. I think the cell phone
21:42
is making him seem more
21:44
aggressive. Also I've left
21:46
the screen porch door open so now the cats are
21:48
out there so he thinks the cats are going to
21:50
bring him food. You know it's a real menagerie here.
21:53
A real uh we got
21:55
an animal situation.
21:58
But the chickens man you know I don't know what
22:00
your situation is like, but it's like, uh, I
22:03
grew up without, like, it's sort of
22:05
funny. I make this joke, but
22:08
the house I grew up in, there
22:10
were like these couple hard fast rules
22:12
and it was like, one of them was
22:15
no, no pets of any kind. We just never had pets,
22:17
no call waiting, which this sort of ages me,
22:19
but like, that was like an advanced technology when
22:21
I was a kid, like, so no call waiting
22:23
and no cable TV, not for
22:25
finances, just all like on principle, we
22:28
didn't believe in cable TV or my folks didn't
22:30
believe in cable TV in their house. And even
22:32
for a couple of years, we were like a
22:34
TV free house in the eighties. So the
22:36
TV free house kids, I mean, that means
22:38
you didn't have a Nintendo or nothing. The,
22:41
the no TV kids back
22:44
in the eighties, um,
22:47
you had a sense that their parents were on
22:49
like, correct. Like it's going to make them smarter
22:51
and more successful and more well adjusted people. But
22:54
man, every other kid felt
22:56
bad for the no TV kid. Well,
23:00
it's funny that lasted the no
23:02
TV lasted about, I want
23:04
to say it was a gimmick. Like we moved,
23:06
let's just not get a TV once we move
23:09
into this new place. I was in like, like
23:12
for sir, this grade, but, but
23:15
there's like, like any good junkie,
23:17
like there's loopholes, like my grandparents who lived
23:19
in the neighborhood had cable television, like with
23:21
the push buttons on top, you
23:23
know, like the big brown cable
23:26
box. Do you remember those? Yeah, I remember those.
23:30
Yeah. So I could, I could get a hit of
23:32
it. Like when we stayed the weekend
23:34
at the grandparent's house. So like, and
23:37
I would, I would indulge, like, like
23:39
stay up for like two hours
23:41
at a time. I remember, um,
23:44
feel like what staying up to watch fire live with a
23:46
friend and a blanket for it. So it's like, you know, it
23:49
fell its way in. And then when I
23:51
was in fifth or
23:54
sixth grade television came back in our house because
23:56
my brother had to watch the news for
23:59
his homework. I got a TV
24:01
and came back and which was lucky
24:03
because I was just in time to Participate
24:05
in the Simpsons and all that, you know, the
24:07
greatest TV ever. There you go. There
24:09
you go. I I had
24:12
a good friend growing up named Jeremy Really
24:15
good guy and he had a
24:17
no TV house So
24:19
certainly a no Nintendo house and
24:22
I remember at my birthday party Fifth
24:25
grade birthday party a bunch of kids came over And
24:28
everybody was like playing and running around in the basement
24:30
and going outside and he just sat and played Nintendo
24:32
the whole time and that's when I I was
24:35
like, oh, yeah Moderation is a good thing
24:37
because he's been deprived of this and he just like
24:40
Every second that he can ignore all of
24:42
us to play some Mike Tyson's punch out
24:45
like he is He's gone
24:47
for there's no human interaction here, but he
24:49
actually turned out great. I think his parents
24:51
turned were correct I forget if
24:53
he's an ambassador or a diplomat now, but
24:55
he's like killing it So they were correct,
24:58
but I did see a moment of like,
25:00
oh if you take away something totally Then
25:03
the second a person gets it they go
25:06
250 percent in all in on it. Yeah yeah,
25:11
well that I mean that sort of it's
25:14
kind of sometimes the cycle of addiction like if
25:16
people are deprived or aren't exposed to stuff or
25:19
Compulsive eating all that sort of stuff that
25:22
we get it that we sometimes run into Sometimes
25:25
some of it, but it's funny. I was telling
25:30
before you came on when I was chatting It's
25:33
hard. It's hard to organically bring up things that are on the mind,
25:36
but it's funny that Actually,
25:38
like it's now that I'm an adult and a
25:40
parent of my own. It's sort of like And
25:44
I am very lucky to still have my now
25:46
elderly parents in my life, but they get to be
25:49
grandparents You probably are experiencing some of this, too, and
25:51
it's like Yeah,
25:53
it's like whatever Be for
25:55
problems they had with me as a youngin
25:57
and whatever difficulty
26:00
I have with them, I'm okay with
26:02
them being the grandparents to
26:04
my kids. You know what I mean? Like
26:06
it's kind of a great closed
26:09
the loop. So like, I
26:11
know I'm making really
26:13
what I think of the terrible choices
26:15
with my kids sometimes like around stuff.
26:17
But then I'm like, you know, in the
26:20
end, it all it's all at the moment worked out.
26:22
And I'm fortunate to have both my parents alive and
26:24
in my life to be grandparents to my kids. So,
26:28
you know, yeah. Yeah, the
26:30
few years of physical television
26:32
and actually, like
26:34
I said, we got one back just in time for
26:36
the Simpsons for, you know, like to sit and watch
26:38
the trace on the show to be the first Simpsons
26:40
short ever in like, after
26:43
the races with good television. They you know,
26:45
at the Golden Age, Simpsons and
26:48
Seinfeld. Yeah, pretty good stretch of
26:50
comedy for our lives growing up.
26:53
Yeah, it is funny like, oh, no,
26:57
you go ahead. It's funny. Yeah, like my
26:59
my life is also close to my eyes. We talk
27:01
about when we encounter people younger than us who like
27:03
scream and binge watch
27:05
the shows from our youth. It
27:08
feels weird because it's like they weren't engineered for
27:10
you to watch every single episode in a row
27:12
on time. It's like, you know, we caught it
27:15
in syndication or we caught the reruns in the
27:17
summertime. Like the like,
27:19
like, like my kids, the idea that
27:21
you see everything you watch from episode
27:23
one, that's the least two episodes. So you
27:25
get to see it all in order. It's still
27:28
foreign to me, you know, but I
27:31
don't know. I got to be old
27:33
and let the new ways come in. I
27:35
also miss I have very fond memories
27:37
of and
27:41
there's a few shows in particular, but one
27:43
that stands out to me is I
27:45
remember my mom was a big fan of the 18.
27:49
Remember the 18? Oh, God, yes. Don't
27:52
stop. Remember, you could phone in and choose a
27:54
different ending. No, the A team
27:56
had an interactive show. There
28:00
was a special episode, a very special A-Team,
28:02
where you could call like a 1-900 number
28:05
of something which we weren't allowed to do. But
28:07
we watched, yeah, and then you could choose a
28:09
different end. You could vote for whether someone, I
28:11
think it was Space finds a spot. Oh, guys,
28:13
we'll have to Google this. Someone's
28:15
screaming at the phone right now. No,
28:17
but I'm pretty sure that was, there
28:20
was an episode, yeah, I love the A-Team. Sorry, yeah. I
28:23
got to experience the A-Team, huge A-Team. I love it when
28:25
this plan comes together. I loved it.
28:28
I love that show, and my mom loves that
28:30
show. I have
28:32
very fond memories. I don't think my dad was a
28:34
fan, but once a week, when
28:37
it was in season, my mom would sit
28:39
in her bed and she would watch the A-Team, and
28:41
I would go and sit at the bottom of her bed
28:44
and we would watch the A-Team together. Like
28:47
you said, not only
28:49
is the idea of, hey,
28:51
anything I want to watch largely from the
28:55
entirety of the history of pop culture, I
28:58
can go find it and consume all of
29:00
it at my leisure, but
29:03
there was also something
29:05
to be said for things being appointments, that you
29:07
and your family had little rituals. Who
29:11
was I just, what was I just listening to?
29:14
I was just, oh, just listening. Conan O'Brien did
29:16
a great interview with Rob Reiner and Albert Brooks,
29:18
and they were talking about All in the Family,
29:20
which Rob Reiner was obviously on. He played Meathead,
29:22
another show that I, that was reruns for me
29:24
growing up. That was before my time, but the
29:26
reruns were great. And he was
29:28
talking about, it was, when you look at the
29:31
numbers, it was like 15%, 20% of all Americans
29:36
were watching All in the Family at the
29:39
same time, once a week, and then
29:41
discussing it and waiting for the next one. But
29:44
I can't think of anything that happens right
29:46
now where 20% of America comes together on
29:48
a weekly basis to do
29:51
a thing at the same time, let
29:53
alone something as frivolous as an episode
29:55
of television. Well,
29:59
you're absolutely right. Like I have, I think
30:02
it was when I was in eighth grade the second time, the
30:05
Simpsons were still on Sunday nights. And
30:07
so if you hadn't stayed up and watched them
30:09
on, I think that's when
30:11
the Simpsons were on Sunday night. Oh yeah.
30:14
It's like the water. It's like, yeah.
30:16
So like on Monday morning
30:18
and you know, you show up, if
30:21
you didn't know what happened, I get it. What were
30:23
you doing? I have a feeling we're similar age. I'm
30:25
43. I have a feeling
30:27
you're within spitting distance of each other. Yeah.
30:30
I'm, I'm 47. So you're, you're my
30:32
wife's age. You get it. It's
30:35
like, you're like a year and a half older than
30:37
my brother. And it's like, if
30:40
you miss the Simpsons back then and you
30:43
try to come into the lunchroom on Monday, what are
30:46
you doing? Like that's like showing up with a gun
30:48
with no bullets. Like you got no ammo to keep
30:51
up. Well,
30:53
here's the crazy stuff. The
30:55
Simpsons are, the reason that my mind
30:57
is my, might
30:59
be a little too young, but my nine year old
31:01
discovered it on Disney plus. And it's like, it's
31:05
hard for her little brain to understand that there's
31:07
already 750 episodes in
31:09
the can when like, as a family, you know,
31:11
we stream the Disney plus shows when they come
31:13
out and there's 10 episodes. But so she's discovered
31:16
the Simpsons as this endless Reese. And
31:18
it's funny, like we started with some of
31:20
the old stories. Older
31:24
episodes and the references, some of them
31:27
are evergreen, but some of it is
31:29
so hilariously dated that they
31:31
prefer the newer episodes of the Simpsons that are
31:33
fully foreign to me. There's
31:35
episodes of the Simpsons. Bart now wears like a
31:37
hoodie, like a proper zip up hoodie, like
31:39
a stylish Brooklyn hipster
31:41
hoodie, like on the newer episodes.
31:44
I didn't know that till about a month
31:46
ago. It is wild to realize, oh, this
31:48
thing that's so beloved by us, but my
31:50
son, there's hundreds of episodes of it. And
31:53
I'm sure many of them are good. I'm sure many of
31:55
them are not, you know, I think a lot of us
31:57
like to go, well, the Simpsons have that golden age. And
31:59
after the episode where he goes to New York
32:01
City, that's where I stopped watching, where Homer drinks
32:04
the crab juice instead of the Mountain Dew. Good
32:06
joke. That was the cutoff point. Like a lot
32:08
of people say that and it's like, oh no,
32:10
there's hundreds of episodes more similar
32:12
to Weezer, right? Like people our age,
32:14
those first two Weezer albums, these are,
32:17
you either, you loved them or hated them,
32:20
but you didn't have no opinion. They got
32:22
like 14 more albums that most of us
32:24
have never heard. Well,
32:27
you're going to step in it. Yeah, I
32:29
was 47. Now I haven't formally played in
32:31
a band since the mid nineties, but pretty
32:34
much a dividing line when you played in bands in
32:36
the nineties was whether the rest of the
32:38
band liked Pinkerton or not. And so I was very lucky
32:40
in the mid nineties to be in a band where Pinkerton
32:42
was considered a bellwether. Like you had to
32:45
hit that or you weren't,
32:47
you weren't shit. You know, that's, yeah, you're
32:49
absolutely right. But it's funny. My
32:51
kids, my 11 year old adores,
32:53
uh, whatever. There's a Weezer album
32:55
that I think came out when he was a toddler.
32:58
So like he heard the, it's like in his
33:01
conscious, a song from, I
33:03
don't know, four summers ago that we were put
33:05
out. That's the one he knows. So yeah, that's
33:07
not the Deborah Green. That's for the
33:10
kids, man. It's not for us. So now we're called
33:12
Ratatouille or something like that. Yeah.
33:15
Well, I mean, now your,
33:18
your kid is not old enough
33:20
to discover his own music yet. Or
33:22
is he or you're like, somebody used
33:24
to be in a band. He has
33:26
discovered his first favorite band that he
33:28
decided was his favorite band, a
33:30
band that neither. Now my wife
33:32
is a musician as well. So she, there's always music
33:34
on in the house, but she,
33:37
she would not claim herself to be this kind of
33:39
person or what I, he
33:41
is four and a half years old and
33:43
he recently decided he is
33:46
all in on kiss. And I
33:48
think it's the best funniest thing in the world.
33:51
Oh, did he see it visually or
33:54
hear it audit, like auditorily first? He,
33:56
I don't know if maybe a song
33:58
came out on shuffle. I know that the flashpoint
34:01
was when he saw them. My wife showed him a
34:03
video. I think he heard a kiss
34:05
song in the background somewhere and was like, mommy, this
34:07
is good. And she was like, oh, wait till you
34:09
see these guys. And then
34:11
he sees the
34:13
demon and star child and cat man
34:16
and space man. And he was
34:18
just like, yo, this is my thing.
34:22
This is it. This is my
34:24
thing. He wanted to be Gene
34:26
Simmons for Halloween. He insisted that
34:29
having star child Paul Stanley, I
34:31
was cat man Peter Chris. I
34:33
was like, oh, I guess we just won't have an ace freely because we're
34:35
only three of us. And he goes, well, uncle Greg
34:37
has to come from Philly. I was like, uncle Greg
34:40
has his own kid. He's not driving up from Philly
34:42
to dress up as ace freely. He goes, well, then
34:44
grandma has to do it. We were like, Cal, your
34:46
grandma is not painting her face like ace freely and
34:48
wandering around the neighborhood on Halloween. But
34:50
he was all about it. And then Kiss's last
34:53
concert was at Madison Square Garden.
34:57
And we really wanted to take them. But
34:59
the tickets were hundreds of dollars. And
35:02
I never ever do this. If you
35:04
asked my manager today, he'd tell
35:06
you probably more than maybe any client in the
35:08
history of the entertainment business. Like, I got all
35:10
these buddies who will get nicks tickets from their
35:12
agents and stuff. I'm just like, I think that
35:14
whole side of entertainment is gross. I want to
35:16
make stuff. I want to move on with my
35:18
life. I don't want to get caught up in
35:20
this thing where I owe you because you
35:23
were able to get me reservations at some
35:25
restaurant, blah, blah, blah. But
35:27
I reached out to my manager. I
35:29
was like, is there any, do you
35:31
know any back channel to Kiss tickets?
35:33
And he was able to find me a way to
35:35
get them at like the cheapest possible price, but it
35:37
was still just too much for a four
35:39
year old. But we got it on pay-per-view. And
35:42
then we took him. There was like a Kiss
35:44
pop-up store in New York. So he's all about
35:46
Kiss. And I never liked Kiss. Kiss was
35:49
real, you know, like real crazy over the
35:51
top. And a whole thing about Punk Kids
35:53
is like Punk really stripped it back down
35:55
to just like three chords go. So
35:58
the indulgence of Kiss. was
36:00
like offensive to my sensibilities. But now I'm listening to
36:02
a bunch of these songs and I'm like, bunch
36:05
of these kiss songs are fucking great. And
36:07
I was real pretentious. Like crazy,
36:10
crazy nights, great song. But
36:12
sometimes we'll have him out in the car and
36:14
I'll go to like skip one that's just like
36:16
nine minutes of, you know, Spanish guitar fingering. Or
36:19
I'm like, this is not my thing. And I'll go forward it and
36:21
Cal will be in the back seat and he'll be like, what are
36:23
you doing? Play that song. And
36:26
he's not messing around. He's like, you don't skip a kiss
36:28
song. He won't skip, he won't.
36:30
Oh, that's great. What if we just skip forward
36:32
to Detroit Rock City or something? He's like,
36:34
no, this one. I'm like, okay, we have
36:36
to listen to every kiss song in its
36:39
entirety all the time. Let's
36:42
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back to the phone call. He
39:37
won't skip. He won't, I'll be like, what
39:40
if we just skip forward to Detroit Rock City or
39:42
something? He's like, no, this one.
39:44
I'm like, okay, we have to listen to
39:46
every kiss song in its entirety all
39:49
the time. That's fun. Well,
39:51
uh, when my kids
39:53
were that young, I mean, they're not much of it. I
39:55
have an 11 and a nine year old, but like
39:58
my son at that age for whatever. reasons
40:00
he glommed on the modest mouth, he even had a
40:02
little modest mouth t-shirt. It was like, it's some of
40:04
the most... Yeah, he
40:06
really... Something about the voice
40:08
and the like dissonance and the extra
40:10
instruments, he would have a... He
40:13
would hear a certain part and have us rewind
40:15
it to just like... It would
40:17
be a song that was like the third track on an album
40:19
and it ends with just a drum break. He'd be like, I
40:21
want to hear that one. The one that ends with just drums.
40:23
Like that's how he would describe them. And
40:25
now as an 11-year-old, he's a full...
40:29
He's really into scores from movies
40:32
and he's so strong into it
40:34
that he'll tell you John Williams
40:36
sucks. He's that into modern movie
40:39
comp... He's got an
40:42
ear for it. He can pick it out
40:45
right away. Did you watch that
40:48
live action one piece on Netflix yet? Have you
40:50
seen that? Live action one piece?
40:52
No. Well,
40:56
again, kids... This is the only... Not the only...
40:58
This is one of the cool things about being
41:00
an old out of touch parent is who
41:03
used to be... Well, you're learning this. We
41:06
used to be the ones that were in touch
41:08
with what's happening, but they introduced the things. It's
41:10
just like Japanese animation that I knew nothing about,
41:12
but it was made into a live action show.
41:14
But we watched
41:16
it as a family, which was fun. And then he's like, yeah,
41:18
I really liked... He was just... He can just pick
41:21
out the songs and he picks the adolescence.
41:23
But it's like, he's got this crazy
41:26
developed ear and he's already a better
41:28
musician than I ever... I'm
41:30
a purely self-taught drummer who played
41:32
my ear, but he can read
41:34
piano, he understands theory and
41:37
scores. He hears them well. That's
41:41
so cool. And you were like a 90s
41:43
indie rocker, it sounds like. Yeah,
41:46
I was... Yeah,
41:49
straight up. And
41:52
I'm old enough that 4-track
41:54
recording demo is playing some club
41:56
shows, but then I had a real... bumping
42:00
the road right on age 17. So a lot
42:03
of that stuff got put by the wayside.
42:05
And then I came back to it
42:07
briefly in the 90s and then I kind of switched
42:10
mediums, I guess. But I still, I mean,
42:12
there's still a drum set in the house and there's
42:14
still an, I still have like a kind of
42:17
a developed ear, I guess.
42:19
But like my wife plays cello and reads
42:21
music, both of the kids take piano
42:23
lessons and can read sheet music. I just like, I
42:26
never learned to properly read music, which was such
42:28
a prideful thing at that time. But now I
42:30
kind of, you know, I sound like every adult
42:32
music plays that ear. I just wish I had been
42:35
mature enough to take every option. Yeah.
42:38
It's got to be cool to come
42:41
up as a player for your
42:44
wife to be someone who plays music and
42:46
then to have your kid to be like,
42:48
Oh, your first favorite band is Modest Mouse.
42:51
You must be like, wait, this kid cool.
42:53
And now the kid's reading music and
42:55
understanding theory. That's got to be such
42:57
a great feeling. But
43:00
it is cool. And also like, I mean, he's
43:02
11 and he's not, I mean,
43:06
he's better than I,
43:09
as a person, he's already better than I was by 11.
43:11
You know what I mean? Like, As
43:14
a person or a musician or both? As
43:18
a human, as a human. No, at
43:20
11, I'd already quit. I'd already quit
43:22
violin and was 11. I was
43:25
more into like, when I didn't, drums
43:27
sitting in my life and maybe a little
43:29
bit after that, like I thought, like
43:32
the first time I saw a drum
43:34
set being played live, I got
43:37
like the first time I ever played drums with the
43:40
guys like, here, you want to try? I literally never
43:42
held drumsticks. And it was like in a setting in
43:44
front of people. I'm just that
43:46
rest of the game. I don't know. But no, he's a
43:48
better person than me than I was at 11 for sure.
43:52
Now I will tell you, this is
43:55
the fact that we've already had roosters and
43:58
gone down the music road. and
44:00
talked about how
44:02
your neighbors grind metal and therefore they can't complain
44:05
about the roosters. I will listen
44:07
to you talk about anything forever. And I have
44:09
a feeling our fan base feels
44:11
the same way. I will say we
44:13
have a document where Andrea and I type back and
44:15
forth and Andrea has let me know that we haven't
44:17
even touched the stuff you actually talked about
44:19
on the phone with her, which we
44:21
can either do or not do, but I just
44:23
love knowing how much you have to offer. That
44:26
is correct. Well, I don't
44:28
know how to short circuit it. It does,
44:30
let me take back up. So like, yeah, around
44:32
11, around when I was the age my
44:34
son is now is when I began, and
44:36
even a little bit before that, I had my
44:38
first real troubles in school. Like I
44:41
was in fourth grade,
44:43
I was asked to leave the
44:46
Orthodox Jewish day school I was at that kicked
44:48
out of there. Then I went
44:50
to a fifth grade. And then by the time I made
44:52
it to high school, I'd been to
44:54
like four or five other schools. And then I
44:56
never fully finished high school because
44:59
I skipped school and dabbled in substances so
45:01
much that I was sent
45:04
off into what was kind
45:06
of called the troubled teen industry. Like
45:08
in the nineties, you probably remember Desert
45:11
Tuff Love programs and stuff like that, where
45:13
they would send kids. Bootcams. You're lonely other
45:15
than. But you know, I remember
45:18
them because you'd see like Jerry Springer would
45:20
have episodes on them. All those
45:22
shows from that. Sally Jesse Raphael, what happens to, yep,
45:25
Sally Jesse Raphael would feature them. Yeah,
45:28
and so, but I mean like, yeah. So
45:31
like, and this is the thing
45:33
like why I emphasize enough, like I'm
45:36
a grown man, I'm 47, this stuff is 30 years. But
45:39
these are my
45:41
strong formational memories from
45:44
30 years ago is, you know,
45:47
thinking it's cool just to skip school a bunch. And
45:49
then like, and
45:51
you know, doing the drugs and all that
45:53
good stuff. But I've been sober
45:55
for 24 years now. So you can run
45:57
that clock back. But yeah, I got, for
46:00
like one day, let's see
46:04
how to piece the timeline together. Yeah, basically after,
46:07
did you, in New Jersey did they have sort
46:09
of the like teen
46:12
mental lockup kind of hospital places where
46:14
they would send troubled teens to like,
46:17
ours were called Charter, they were like
46:19
a brand name. Did they have a place like
46:21
that in New Jersey where? I
46:24
remember the
46:27
levels I remember were that our
46:31
high school had a wing called Horizons, which
46:33
the rumor was that they locked the door
46:35
from the outside and that's where the troubled
46:37
kids went. And then if you
46:39
were too bad for Horizons or if you were
46:41
younger then they had the county school and
46:44
the county school was supposedly a place where you'd just
46:46
like go get bust and all the worst kids from
46:48
every town in the county would be there and you
46:50
play pool all day. That was the rumor about that.
46:53
And then I do remember, you know, there
46:55
was a couple kids that got sent to
46:57
like a military school which is starting to
46:59
flirt with what you're talking
47:01
about. Yeah, and
47:05
here's the thing, like I can't emphasize this enough.
47:07
I'm a 47 year old grown man now, two
47:09
kids of my own, amazing my
47:12
elderly parents in my life and it's sort of
47:15
like the half joke is when those years
47:17
come up, they're sort
47:19
of referred to as the late unpleasantness of my family,
47:21
which is a funny
47:23
historical joke. But
47:26
I've put in the work in, you
47:28
know, but the memory. So the
47:31
Desert Tough Left program, just
47:33
a short circuit, basically you
47:36
have to be sort of asked where you're flown to a desert
47:39
in, this one was in Idaho. And
47:41
so it's like you go from like my
47:43
many weeks of skipping school and you know, sleeping in
47:46
my station wagon to basically being scooped up in this
47:48
system, you know, I'm 17
47:50
years old and you
47:52
get off the plane and I don't know
47:55
how to describe it because it's
47:57
done so much writing. of
48:00
the main instructor or counselor, I don't know what to call
48:02
the guy, looked like Neil Young on
48:04
a bad trip already. You know, like the
48:07
guy that greets you had like giant mutton
48:09
chop stringy hair. Yeah,
48:12
and then they strip you down, naked,
48:14
had you comb out your pubic hair and like shake
48:17
out your, like you'd like a jail, it's like an
48:19
entry into jail, but it's a desert. And you make
48:21
a bedroll and you're basically spending
48:23
like, that one was a couple weeks, you
48:26
know, marching around the desert. But what, I
48:29
was 17 for that one, but that's just
48:31
the beginning. I
48:34
was 17, yeah. And
48:38
then from there I was sent to the
48:40
next stop on the train is
48:43
what we're called academic therapeutic schools.
48:46
But that's kind of a 90s term
48:48
for reform schools that had
48:50
a vaguely therapeutic
48:53
background to them, I guess, I don't know. These
48:57
terms will make me seem dated and old fashioned
48:59
because the world is I think far more sensitive. You
49:01
know, the age I
49:03
am, it's like if a kid couldn't pay attention
49:05
in school, it was a huge problem with
49:07
the kid. And then these days, my kids
49:09
are real lucky. Like if a kid has a
49:11
problem with school, we assume there's something wrong with
49:13
the structure and the way we're teaching. You know
49:16
what I mean? Like we're more open now, I
49:18
think, to people who learn differently. I
49:20
definitely think that there was, when we
49:22
grew up more
49:25
of a predilection to label
49:30
a kid bad and treat that as
49:32
final. You know what I mean? Right.
49:36
There's a lot more of that. And here's the crazy shit. I
49:39
don't know how to say this without sounding
49:43
retrospectively innocent, but I didn't feel
49:45
like I was a bad kid.
49:49
I didn't feel inherently mischievous. I
49:51
wasn't mean spirit. And in fact,
49:53
I was picked on when I was younger. And like,
49:56
even at the time that I got scooped up in that system,
49:59
I didn't. relate to some of that
50:01
like some of the people at that
50:03
desert tough love were like through
50:06
criminals like i had never like you know i
50:08
mean like they were like criminal teens and like
50:10
had like criminal mischief quiet relax you
50:12
guys why does the rooster now the cats have
50:14
entered and
50:18
like um i don't know i just
50:20
didn't uh i was mischievous to the
50:22
point of like like i
50:24
made good examples in middle school one time i was acting
50:26
my parents loved to retell this story one time i was
50:28
acting out the teachers like sit down and sitting
50:31
down on my desk i sat down in the middle of
50:33
the floor but you know in 1989 that's like a revolution
50:35
that's like a terribly disruptive
50:37
child in 2024 i'm sure someone
50:40
would film a pick-up of that you
50:42
know i just yeah it's hard to
50:44
explain how different how different also when
50:46
i tell people that like i was
50:49
in seventh grade people would that the
50:51
people making fun of us the most were the
50:53
teachers themselves like i don't know if
50:55
you've ever experienced that where teachers were the ones bullied oh
50:59
i i mean we had a teacher in
51:01
high school who he
51:03
was pretty beloved i actually grew to really
51:06
grow tired of him throughout my high school
51:08
career but he used to
51:10
routinely tell us oh i live in livingston i
51:12
would never live in westerns like i'll teach here
51:14
but i would never live in this place like
51:16
he was actively making fun of
51:18
us for living in the town we
51:20
lived in where he taught and it
51:22
was like you what you look back
51:24
now you're like what are you you
51:26
can't if a kid came to my
51:28
kid's school it was like i would never live in
51:30
this shithole of a town we wouldn't find that funny
51:35
no like i said like in seventh grade i had a teacher
51:37
that just made fun of
51:40
my name and provided basically fuel for
51:42
other kids to taught me but what's
51:45
good you know and discovered like i said discovery of
51:47
the playing band so it's like um it's
51:49
like my sense of mischief i never had
51:51
like this like bart simpson
51:53
was never a relatable character to me let's put
51:55
it back to the simpsons you know i mean
51:57
like i probably related more to lisa Yeah,
52:01
just being like eternally curious, you
52:03
know, but also
52:06
definitely defiant of authorities. Like I
52:08
even now as an adult, if
52:10
I run into someone in a position
52:12
of authority, and I know they're wrong, I do
52:14
I do they can't get to me, I guess,
52:16
you know, I mean, like, I've definitely had an
52:18
instance where people, they think they're gonna
52:21
bully me, but I don't still not like a, I
52:23
don't bully back, but I don't I don't. What's
52:27
the word? I don't intimidate easily either. Yeah.
52:30
And now going to this situation where it sounds
52:33
like you were in over your head, you're seeing
52:36
other kids where you're going, because again, and one
52:38
of the things that one
52:41
of the things we've also unwrapped that we were trained
52:43
to do back then is to make everything sort of
52:45
a comparison and pissing contest. So you're
52:47
sitting here going, there's kids who are actual criminals here,
52:50
which again, it's bad that we were
52:52
even trained to start gauging who quote unquote really
52:54
deserves to be here because I don't know that
52:56
those programs back on fun. No,
53:00
but I like I felt, yeah, go ahead. No
53:02
you self what? I
53:05
self identified back then probably is just like
53:08
a stoner musician, you know, goofball like
53:11
I didn't see myself at
53:13
like there was people at these programs
53:15
who like this one guy, this is
53:17
pre columnine, this is 94. So
53:20
there was one guy who had stolen weapons and stolen
53:22
a boat. And like that was
53:24
like facing grand, he was, he was
53:26
there on a judge's order to avoid
53:29
jail. And I'm like, yeah,
53:31
I just smoked pot and skipped a lot of
53:33
school. I mean, it turns out I
53:35
got clean when I was in my 20s. There
53:37
was a lot more underneath all that, but the
53:40
proponents we at least, but
53:42
but but anyway, so it's like, I was
53:44
definitely being like, that was the initial
53:46
exposure to it. But then
53:48
I went to this, the school and then
53:51
eventually I ran away from that. And
53:54
this, this is all basically like between
53:57
age 17 and 18. And by the time I
53:59
was 18. I had made
54:01
it to Alaska
54:03
also through these convoluted
54:06
programs my parents and God love them
54:08
because like I say they're the greatest
54:11
grandparents my kids could ever ask for
54:13
they Literally
54:15
like it is It
54:17
is healing watching my dad with my kids, you
54:19
know, yeah, like it's a it's
54:22
really cool. Like he's He's
54:24
pop-pop and it's like that's gonna cry
54:28
Pull back but like it is cool.
54:30
Like there's no And
54:34
like I got to heal
54:36
stuff but it is it's this memory it's sort of funny
54:38
like and the only time I'm reminded of
54:40
like my unusual Adolescence
54:43
is you know a lot of the adults
54:45
I meet in my life or other parents and
54:47
I have very little in common with them
54:49
other than the Parenting thing and occasionally when
54:52
they talk about like high school or their
54:54
youth Sort of have to shrug, you
54:57
know, like oh, well, you know, I'm
54:59
I missed my junior prom because I was
55:01
in the desert When
55:05
you think back to those days Where
55:08
it sounds like you're instinct still today
55:10
is I don't know that this
55:12
was a program meant for me Compared to some
55:15
of the other people These
55:17
programs overall which I think there are
55:19
still versions of them that happen Famously
55:22
the rapper Earl sweatshirt was sent to
55:24
like a school in Samoa. That was
55:26
a similar like school for troubled kids
55:29
There's also you know, not
55:31
a lot of Yahoo went through a system like that, too
55:34
There's also, you know, there is also a
55:36
very dark version of it in modern times,
55:38
which is conversion camps for LGBT kids
55:40
Which is yes a
55:43
version of what you went through with a specific
55:45
aim I think you could you know, and there
55:47
might be people who say no, they're very different
55:50
But I think they fall into the same umbrella
55:52
of take a type of kid and send them
55:54
to a behavior modification Camp
55:57
that is dark. Yeah, and yeah
56:00
go and send them saying my school. Yes
56:03
and the school system that I was plugged into what
56:05
what I know now that the years have
56:07
gone by and um yeah
56:10
I don't want to break my anonymity literally
56:12
and figuratively but um I do know that
56:14
a lot of what was exposed about that
56:16
industry was sort of that troubled teen history
56:18
is that it it preyed on desperate parents
56:20
and like to my
56:22
parents credit they for whatever reason
56:24
by the time I was 17 given
56:27
all the um already
56:29
all the consequences of things I'd faced by then
56:31
they felt out of options and I do think in
56:34
some ways that system preyed on them
56:36
as much as it preyed on us as
56:38
much as it preyed on the teens you know what I mean
56:40
but um and
56:42
and and now that I'm a parent
56:45
like I get it if in five years my
56:48
kid seems unreachable and someone swoops in
56:50
and says we can fix
56:52
this I don't know if I wouldn't you
56:54
know like it's like even knowing what I know even here's
56:57
to recovery and healed relations like but
57:00
I I still so I get how that
57:02
but I think that's also what was exposed
57:04
a lot about those places they weren't effective
57:06
they didn't really um do
57:08
I actually it's funny it was on my mind because I
57:10
heard something on NPS
57:12
this is so this is so
57:14
middle-aged Chris I heard something on NPS on an NPR
57:17
were a dad who had tried to help his
57:20
kid with tough love and stuff eventually came around
57:22
to a different approach and the
57:24
kid actually got and this was more recent so it
57:26
was the oxycontin evidence that did the thing to be
57:29
clear in 94 this is slightly more an
57:32
instant time when the Grateful Dead still existed that
57:34
was still an option you know you could still
57:36
drop out of high school and go on the
57:38
road and then drop back into college you know
57:40
I may I found my way back to college
57:43
to college at like I started at 21 so it's like
57:46
I do think the world is less innocent now
57:48
that some you've shared that or maybe you
57:50
don't feel that way in
57:53
some ways yes in some ways no I
57:55
mean I certainly think I
57:59
go back and forth because I sit here and I go, as the
58:04
parent of a four-year-old right now, I know
58:07
that there was one kid in our neighborhood when
58:09
we moved here who used to like jump on
58:11
a bike and drive all around and his parents
58:13
wouldn't know where he were and it was kind
58:15
of like, oh man, this kid is like
58:17
stressing out his parents and everybody's worried.
58:20
And I go, that was just the standard of get
58:22
on a bike and go and your parents don't know
58:24
where you are. Now it is expected that parents
58:26
know where you are and oversee you. In
58:29
some ways that's good and in some ways that
58:31
bad. But we also grew up in an area
58:33
you and I where anyone
58:36
in a van was trying to kidnap
58:38
you and there were constant satanic rituals
58:40
and D&D was secretly trying
58:43
to turn you into a Satanist. So we
58:46
look back behaviorally as these innocent
58:48
times but we were also constantly drilled
58:50
with fear throughout all of that. So
58:53
I don't think it's as simple as a lot of
58:55
people like to put those rose-colored glasses on and say.
58:59
Let's pause there. I want to underline that because
59:01
there is such a dialogue right now. Like back
59:04
in our day we go to the free and
59:07
it's like, yeah, but we were
59:09
all terrified of being kidnapped all the time
59:12
and also people just said homophobic stuff
59:14
freely and it was fine. Like
59:16
times are better and progress has been made everybody. We
59:19
can let our kids go on bikes and explore
59:21
more and not romanticize times that also had some
59:24
dark edges. Anyway, I think about
59:26
it a lot. I also think about different
59:28
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59:39
going to finish off the phone call.
59:46
We look back behaviorally as these
59:48
innocent times but we were also constantly
59:51
drilled with fear throughout all of that.
59:53
So I don't think it's as
59:55
simple as a lot of people like to put those rose-colored
59:57
glasses on and say. Yeah,
1:00:00
yeah, no, no, I that
1:00:02
rings true. It's funny you brought the state
1:00:04
to the Satanic Panic I distinctly remember the
1:00:07
year that the Judas Priest suicide article landed
1:00:09
in the Rolling Stone magazine because
1:00:11
I used to go to this magazine
1:00:14
store Well, that's really outdated
1:00:16
But like a magazine store that I could ride
1:00:18
my bike to and I remember that was like
1:00:20
the first really good long-form article I finished in
1:00:23
Rolling Stone. I remember after finishing I was
1:00:25
like, gosh, I never I still don't like
1:00:27
Judas Priest But you remember that there they
1:00:29
blamed it a backwards masking. It was that
1:00:31
whole ordeal Yeah,
1:00:34
that was the same time but I Also
1:00:37
want to say to you about the type of
1:00:39
program you were in and it sounds very clear
1:00:41
like you have referred to it as they preyed upon
1:00:43
your parents and I Get
1:00:46
the sense that your opinion is these were not
1:00:48
effective for anybody and also want to point out
1:00:51
to there's been some very famous cases of In
1:00:54
Pennsylvania in particular as a judge Who
1:00:57
went to prison because it came out that he
1:00:59
was taking kickbacks By sentencing
1:01:02
kids to these camps and then they were
1:01:04
paying money on the side because they were
1:01:06
for profit I actually have a good friend of
1:01:08
mine Murph who Used to appear
1:01:10
on my TV show with me who went before
1:01:12
that judge maybe six months before
1:01:14
he sold his first kid into Into
1:01:17
that whole boot camp system and his kids would
1:01:19
come out of it There's documentaries about that Pennsylvania
1:01:21
case in particular because there's so much, you know,
1:01:24
I mean there was criminal behavior by a judge
1:01:27
But all these kids saying I smoked pot
1:01:29
on my way in and I was a
1:01:32
criminal on my way out and I abused
1:01:35
while in there and Yes,
1:01:38
there is no world about if it
1:01:40
improved my life. It absolutely
1:01:42
made my life worse than I went there Yeah,
1:01:46
the school that ended up with for a couple months on
1:01:48
17, I Mean
1:01:51
in the intervening years has had a lot
1:01:53
of exposure, but
1:01:56
at the same time like when
1:01:59
you're troubled teen like
1:02:01
a charismatic therapist
1:02:04
for lack of a better word which there should never be such
1:02:06
a thing. It impacted
1:02:09
briefly but like I was also very lucky
1:02:11
because like I said my sense of a
1:02:13
sense of
1:02:15
mischief wasn't that strong but I like I
1:02:18
still kind of even in my darkest
1:02:21
days knew some form of right
1:02:23
from wrong you know I mean like I was
1:02:25
chasing something else I don't know and I don't
1:02:27
know what that was you know like the
1:02:30
restlessness and then it but by the time
1:02:32
I put myself back together at least
1:02:35
like there's enough resources available for
1:02:37
free even today you know like that if
1:02:40
someone wants to put themselves back together they can.
1:02:43
You sound remarkably well adjusted like now you
1:02:46
sound like a guy who's just living with
1:02:48
his family raising your family and a bunch
1:02:50
of animals and you are great conversationalist you
1:02:52
sound like you really landed on your feet
1:02:56
in a way that my guess is you would not
1:02:58
have predicted for yourself when you were young. 100%
1:03:03
I never knew what I wanted to do when I
1:03:05
grew up and by
1:03:07
the time I found myself
1:03:09
clean off drugs
1:03:11
and enrolled in college
1:03:13
I stumbled into something I had never
1:03:16
participated in my life and then got
1:03:18
off on a path that
1:03:21
baffled even me and yeah there was a
1:03:24
point where I was
1:03:26
being paid to speak on this discipline
1:03:29
that I had learned at
1:03:31
university level and it was a it's
1:03:33
a trip because my professional
1:03:36
and human and personal resume reveals
1:03:39
none of that you know I mean like my all
1:03:41
of that like what everything I went through
1:03:44
between age 11 and you know
1:03:46
23 doesn't exist
1:03:49
other than stories I choose to tell you know I
1:03:51
mean like it's a it is sort of
1:03:53
great that like when people judge me they judge me on
1:03:55
all these things I've done with a clear sober head you
1:03:58
know like the I'm accountable for 24
1:04:00
years of my life and it's
1:04:03
hilariously bizarre. But yeah, that's
1:04:05
some saying, like when I meet other parents and every once in
1:04:07
a while I do, like I have one of my best friends
1:04:10
now I met through
1:04:12
parenting and I actually could
1:04:14
relate to him on other levels. Like he, it was
1:04:16
really, it's neat, like I've made a good friend and
1:04:18
his kid is good friends with my kids, but in
1:04:20
a lot of times parenting man, it's
1:04:22
just sort of like this blank slate where all, you
1:04:25
know, have to befriend, but you meet
1:04:27
some weird people when you're a parent, that's
1:04:29
for sure. I have to say, so I
1:04:32
mean, it sounds like you're keeping it vague because you
1:04:34
don't want to out yourself and if that is the
1:04:37
case, that's fine, but I
1:04:39
am very intrigued when you say that you wound
1:04:41
up professionally doing
1:04:43
something where you were like being hired to speak
1:04:45
at a very high level that you never saw
1:04:47
coming. I'm very intrigued to ask what it is,
1:04:49
but if you're like, I'd rather keep that private,
1:04:51
also totally get it. Well,
1:04:56
I can still make it an honor. It's
1:04:58
in the art and it's not, it's
1:05:00
not the self-taught music. Like I had to
1:05:03
learn and self-teach something else and I ended up
1:05:05
getting a couple degrees in it and then, um,
1:05:12
the joke I always make is like in, um,
1:05:16
like 2007, 2008, some
1:05:18
of the work I did went bacterial because it
1:05:20
didn't really go viral, but it went bacterial. It
1:05:22
touched enough people that were already in my
1:05:24
network that then it sort of turned into a many
1:05:27
year Odyssey, you know,
1:05:30
chasing that. But yeah, I have
1:05:32
a feeling that if anyone knows me
1:05:34
personally, they'll be like, oh my God, I'm sure I'll
1:05:36
get some text messages, but also I
1:05:39
don't know. I don't know if
1:05:41
I know anyone personally in my current life who
1:05:43
actively listens to Beautiful Anonymous, you know, like people
1:05:45
say that, like, I think my mom used to
1:05:47
listen to it, maybe she's fallen
1:05:49
off. I don't know. But,
1:05:51
um, my mom too, my mom, but, but, uh,
1:05:54
yeah. But also the other thing, me
1:05:56
personally, I deleted all my social media a couple
1:05:58
of years ago. I had
1:06:01
enough of it, you know, save for one.
1:06:04
It's funny, I, this is, again,
1:06:06
this is the magic of the world, Chris. I
1:06:08
still have my Twitter for some unknown reason.
1:06:10
You kept the worst one. So it's
1:06:14
funny, but I perceive it as the oldest one. And
1:06:16
I had, this is, this is how my brain
1:06:19
works. I associate it with a good
1:06:21
friend from graduate school who told me about it like
1:06:24
a month after it premieres. I was like, Oh, you
1:06:26
got to get this thing where you can send text
1:06:28
messages to the internet. I was like, why
1:06:30
would I want to do that? It's so cool. You can
1:06:32
just send a text, like from a flip phone, you could
1:06:34
send a text message and it would show up on the
1:06:36
very early version of Twitter. So I have a warm, fuzzy
1:06:38
experience. Sure. So
1:06:41
that's how you called today. That's
1:06:44
exactly right. Yeah, yeah, yeah. That
1:06:47
was a, that made
1:06:49
my, I know less about, I asked you what you
1:06:51
wound up doing professionally. I do feel like I know
1:06:53
less based on that
1:06:55
answer. Good. Well,
1:06:58
I don't know. Well,
1:07:04
I don't, I
1:07:06
don't give it. It's in the arts. All right.
1:07:08
Relax. It's not going to eat you. Can
1:07:10
you hear that? Walking in the background? Yeah.
1:07:12
Yeah, I hear it. No, the, the hands,
1:07:14
the hands, that's the hands. They make, they
1:07:16
make different noises. Yeah. No, I
1:07:19
mean, it's in the arts, man. It's, but it's,
1:07:21
it's a, it's a weird thing too. Like on
1:07:23
the other side of it, I guess everyone says
1:07:25
it when they
1:07:29
get through to you, like
1:07:32
I have it better than most. And
1:07:36
then even the pandemic kind of hit me for a
1:07:38
wallet where it kind of like the thing I
1:07:40
did the best was help people to put
1:07:43
a sort of a spectacle based thing in their
1:07:45
space to invite in crowds. And then it's like,
1:07:47
oop, surprise 2020 to 2022. We
1:07:49
don't need that anymore. Yeah.
1:07:52
But, but yeah, it's
1:07:54
cool. Like I, I definitely
1:07:56
am surprised about how things turned out, you know,
1:07:59
but I have. It surprises me. I
1:08:01
mean, they weren't surprised. We're
1:08:03
trying to have them. How
1:08:05
much do you know about your past?
1:08:10
So it's funny. I try and be
1:08:12
honest with my kids. My kids know
1:08:15
that I got in trouble in school a lot. They know
1:08:17
that by the time I was in fourth grade, I was
1:08:19
asked to leave my first school. And they know that I
1:08:22
was paddled when I was in fifth grade. I mean, I
1:08:24
tell them the stories, but they seem real abstract of them
1:08:26
because like my son is, like I said, at 11 years
1:08:29
old, he is already a better
1:08:31
person than me. He saw his
1:08:33
first fight
1:08:35
with his own eyes, like a couple of weeks
1:08:37
ago. That's a fifth grader. He's managed to not
1:08:39
see any like, you know, but he headed the
1:08:42
middle school next year, which I worry about for
1:08:44
other reasons. But he was shaken.
1:08:46
He was like, oh, my God, I felt, you know, like
1:08:48
you didn't know what to make of it. And then,
1:08:51
of course, the next day, fifth graders who fight
1:08:53
are friends again. But he just, you
1:08:56
know, but yeah, they know, but they don't
1:08:58
abstract to them because they're such good kids.
1:09:00
They're such good students, you know. In
1:09:03
the other direction, do you ever you're still in
1:09:05
touch with their parents? You say they're great. They're
1:09:08
like awesome at being grandparents. Is
1:09:11
there any ever is there ever any discussion of
1:09:13
like, why did you send me to that weird
1:09:15
desert punishment school? Do you just yeah, yeah, yeah.
1:09:17
No, no. So
1:09:21
like like I said, we've
1:09:23
had years of healing around that. That
1:09:26
that's there. I know
1:09:28
the reason I
1:09:31
put in years of work with that and like to
1:09:33
rebuild and build a new relationship with them. Man, I don't know
1:09:36
how to put it in. The coolest thing
1:09:38
happened a few years ago. I
1:09:40
was talking to my mom and she's like, I don't know if
1:09:42
I've told you the story yet, but I think if you were
1:09:44
friends, I was going to play the story again. And it's like
1:09:46
if you ever make it to adulthood
1:09:48
and have had an ongoing relationship with your parents and
1:09:51
your mom's put stuff and says, I think of you as a friend.
1:09:54
I hold on to stuff like that now. Like it's
1:09:57
it's cool. And I'm not I'm not super well-adjusted.
1:10:00
still like struggle,
1:10:02
you know? Yeah, it sounds
1:10:04
remarkably well adjusted, but I also know we're
1:10:06
just talking for an hour. Yeah,
1:10:09
we're only talking for an hour and also, I
1:10:12
don't know, maybe, well, like the things I struggle
1:10:14
with the most these days, that was sort of
1:10:16
funny, like it's like these core issues struggle around
1:10:18
food. It's so funny, right before I called into the
1:10:20
number, I had just made a
1:10:22
mistake with some food. I ate more than I
1:10:25
should have. And I know you know that feeling because you have
1:10:27
struggled with food and exercise. Like, I didn't need to eat
1:10:30
that. Like I started off with a
1:10:32
good lunch, just had like a sweet potato and some
1:10:34
vegetables. But then I was like, Oh, I'll
1:10:36
have a second lunch of crackers and hummus, which isn't
1:10:38
inherently unhealthy, but I've got like cracker
1:10:41
and hummus belly, like it's like, oh, waste
1:10:44
you down after a while. I would
1:10:47
dream of eating as healthy on a
1:10:49
consistent basis as you just described between
1:10:51
those two lunches. No, but I can
1:10:53
still like it's become this obsession. And
1:10:56
like I exercise today, which is like,
1:10:58
but also the older I get, I think
1:11:01
I'm more comfortable with my physical form, just being
1:11:03
what it is, you know, like I
1:11:05
put in the exercise eight healthy and so
1:11:07
what I had to go up a pant
1:11:09
size like people tell me I look young for my age. So
1:11:15
Do you are you in touch with any
1:11:17
of the people from those from those strange
1:11:19
years where you were kind of sent off
1:11:21
to fend for yourself, whether that
1:11:23
other kids that were there, counselors?
1:11:28
No, and there's a self
1:11:30
protective reason for like, no,
1:11:33
and I have occasionally in the
1:11:37
midnight hour when awake have Google to see
1:11:39
what's become of some of those characters. But,
1:11:42
but in general, anyone,
1:11:45
unless it's like family or a
1:11:47
lifelong friend or someone, there's no one from
1:11:50
before getting
1:11:52
clean that I stay in touch with. There is no, there's
1:11:55
one person I met along the way on
1:11:57
that journey that I occasionally will. email
1:12:00
list, but he's not related
1:12:02
to the he's related to the time when I ran
1:12:05
away from all that stuff. But no, I have
1:12:07
a whole like I say it's a it
1:12:10
really was like once I made
1:12:12
the choice myself, I got like a new fresh
1:12:14
life. But but
1:12:17
I occasionally like when when some of the people
1:12:19
who ran one of those programs passed away, it
1:12:21
made it made some news and
1:12:23
when lawsuits pop up like I do sometimes
1:12:25
Google to see Oh, yeah, I wasn't completely
1:12:27
even my sense
1:12:29
of the 17 year old wasn't completely off
1:12:31
about this place is something dark was happening. But you
1:12:33
know, at the time, like I
1:12:36
said, at the time, those whole industries were
1:12:38
were, I mean, they were preying
1:12:41
on parents who were desperate. And I don't
1:12:43
fault desperate parents, you know what I mean? And
1:12:46
I mean, there's, you know, I don't want you to relive
1:12:48
anything. But just to be clear to anybody who's like, I'm
1:12:50
not sure what they're doing that.
1:12:52
These were extensively schools that were like supposed
1:12:54
to be a lot of discipline and tough
1:12:57
love and almost militaristic. But the
1:12:59
stories would come out that outright abuse,
1:13:01
but there was outright abuse. Yeah, how
1:13:03
much we have six minutes time to
1:13:05
have left. Okay, in six
1:13:07
minutes, I'll put you this way. One of the times I was
1:13:09
there, one of the penalties I
1:13:12
got because I didn't understand what I was being asked
1:13:14
to do is to go sit in a basement in
1:13:16
the dark and scrub with a toothbrush in this creepy
1:13:18
old mansion. And I should say
1:13:21
at that time when I was 17, I
1:13:23
was still instinctively afraid of the
1:13:25
dark and the head therapist
1:13:27
that school knew that I was still scared
1:13:29
of the dark. It was one of my
1:13:31
greatest fears. So I was left alone in
1:13:33
a basement to scrub a floor with a
1:13:35
toothbrush. So yeah, that should happen. So they
1:13:37
find out about your greatest fears and then
1:13:39
exploit them to punish you. Like it's it's
1:13:41
as punishment as punishment. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And
1:13:43
then also, yeah, and a lot of yelling,
1:13:46
they called it confrontational therapy.
1:13:50
And then, you know, but
1:13:52
some people went through those programs and had stellar
1:13:54
lives and other people, like myself,
1:13:56
bounced in and out of them and
1:13:58
then found Heindler gentler. You know, and
1:14:00
like there's I Don't
1:14:03
know how to say it in so
1:14:05
many code words, you know, but Yeah,
1:14:09
those memories are there but they're not like you
1:14:12
know, it's funny like Do
1:14:14
you ever look obviously you write for a living? But
1:14:17
like sometimes I just write on a
1:14:19
blank document just to barf up Memories
1:14:21
of any type and I do like the
1:14:23
activity of writing. So You
1:14:26
know this stuff comes back. Yeah. All
1:14:28
right, so we got five minutes left About four
1:14:30
and a half. I did want to ask too
1:14:32
because you've mentioned that The
1:14:34
timeline of this you mentioned that you did get
1:14:37
clean from drugs at some point You've
1:14:40
also said on your way into the desert program.
1:14:42
You were just kind of like a stoner kid
1:14:44
from the 80s That's
1:14:46
right. So do you feel that the program by the
1:14:48
time? Accelerated you into yeah
1:14:50
further drug abuse Once
1:14:54
I left well, yeah one This
1:14:56
is the thing about those confrontation school one
1:14:58
of their approaches was to psychologically break you
1:15:00
down and kind of Wrench
1:15:02
open that void even further. So when
1:15:05
you run away from that place, you're
1:15:07
like, well, I must be a complete degenerate and scumbag
1:15:09
So I might as well, you know
1:15:14
Live on the land and do this every
1:15:16
yeah. Yeah. Yeah act as if but
1:15:19
then in the inverse when I finally Was
1:15:22
done. I was able
1:15:24
to seek help and And
1:15:27
like I said even even through all that
1:15:29
I managed to Get
1:15:33
get high school out of the way as a very
1:15:35
old age and then I'll be applied to college and
1:15:37
and then somewhere
1:15:40
during my I dropped
1:15:42
other college ones and then when I dropped back in it
1:15:45
really it really took off something coalesced around I
1:15:49
Studying art in college. So I know people always say
1:15:51
I'll drop out but I say go to college and
1:15:53
study something You know nothing about This
1:16:00
has been one of my favorite calls in the history
1:16:03
of the show. We still got three minutes left. Oh
1:16:06
my God. Okay. Well, music. You
1:16:12
know, this is the funny thing about getting
1:16:14
old and losing touch with what's relevant. I
1:16:16
do want to say that my nine-year-old is
1:16:18
a massive twisty. So by extension,
1:16:20
I've had to listen to the whole catalog of
1:16:23
Taylor Swift music, and I'm here to say as
1:16:25
an old person, it's great. It's a
1:16:27
good inroads to other music. Like there's
1:16:29
a song by Taylor Swift called Anti-Hero.
1:16:32
It's a great way to introduce the cure to your children.
1:16:34
So if your kid likes Taylor Swift, they're ready for the
1:16:36
cure. How's that? How much time left?
1:16:40
Drop another bomb. Okay. Well,
1:16:45
it's also in the Taylor Swift wheelhouse. It's
1:16:47
a good way if you aren't already playing
1:16:49
Carole King's tapestry for your children and they
1:16:51
like Taylor Swift, play them Carole King's tapestry.
1:16:55
And you know, in terms of like exciting
1:16:57
things, like I ended up with when my parents
1:16:59
sold their house, I ended up with their record
1:17:01
collection. So I have like my childhood record collection.
1:17:04
Oh, Philip, listen to Philip's records. Here, you
1:17:06
know who he is? The old folk musician?
1:17:08
Yeah, Philip's OCHS. OCHS? I ain't
1:17:11
marching anymore. I played that for my kids. I grew up listening to
1:17:13
my parents' records. I knew the words to Draft Dodger Rags starting at age 12. So
1:17:23
do terrible things like that to your family. We've
1:17:26
got 90 seconds left. 90 seconds left. So
1:17:28
everything that I could squeeze out of you
1:17:30
is gold. Okay. And
1:17:33
chickens. You want to start with two and it's
1:17:35
sort of, they call it Chicken Max. Once you
1:17:37
have two, you're going to end up with four
1:17:39
and then you'll end up with 20 someday. And
1:17:42
it's worth it. Get two chickens to start with because they
1:17:44
need a friend. How
1:17:46
often do you eat eggs that
1:17:48
your chickens gave you? Every
1:17:52
other day, we more often give them away. If
1:17:56
we ever meet you, we'll hand you a dozen eggs free of charge.
1:17:59
Can you get tax? abatements as being a farm
1:18:01
based on your chickens and eggs?
1:18:05
No, no, no. It's just my yard
1:18:08
is half chicken run and the other
1:18:10
half is garden and children's
1:18:13
debris. Nerf darts. This
1:18:16
has been an absolutely
1:18:18
incredible conversation. If
1:18:21
you're down, what we do these days is we say
1:18:23
goodbye to the people on the free feed and then
1:18:25
we got a little subscription service where
1:18:27
I'll ask you five random questions. If
1:18:29
you're into it, does that sound cool? That
1:18:33
sounds fine. Let me just look at the old wristwatch. Yes,
1:18:35
I've got I've got the time because I do
1:18:37
have to run the target before I see that the kids from
1:18:39
school but I've got time. Okay,
1:18:42
we're gonna say goodbye to everybody on the
1:18:44
free feed for everybody who signed up at
1:18:46
beautiful anonymous.com Thanks so much for signing up.
1:18:48
Just keep it rolling. We'll hear our
1:18:50
five questions for everybody else. Goodbye
1:18:52
from this really fascinating call and
1:18:55
caller. Thank you so much. Thank
1:18:58
you. Caller,
1:19:04
thank you so much for calling and
1:19:07
being open and being unpredictable and funny
1:19:09
and also talking about some stark realities
1:19:11
of life and also just honestly for
1:19:14
owning some weird roosters, man. Thanks for
1:19:16
that too. Thanks to our
1:19:18
producer, the High Priestess Andrea Quinn. Thanks
1:19:20
to Shellshag for the feed music. chrisgest.com
1:19:22
if you want to know more about
1:19:24
me included tour dates, which
1:19:26
is a live taping in Idaho coming
1:19:28
up, which is Vancouver, Canada, which is
1:19:30
another benefits show for mental health in
1:19:33
schools in Brooklyn on March 1st. It's
1:19:35
a goodness out there. Tickets for
1:19:37
all those at chrisgest.com. Hey,
1:19:40
our voicemail line is at
1:19:42
973-306-4676. If you have a
1:19:44
call, you feel like it needs to be heard
1:19:47
on the show. We are down accepting voicemails at
1:19:49
all times. I left a cat out of the
1:19:51
bag on this recently. We have a caller in
1:19:53
Israel who wants to talk about Israel
1:19:56
and I want this show to reflect
1:19:58
modern time. I'm hoping
1:20:00
that maybe someone who's Palestinian or has
1:20:03
Palestinian roots wants to close well. Because
1:20:05
I've actually talked with the Israeli caller
1:20:07
and made it clear I'm not trying
1:20:09
to play any games, but this is
1:20:12
a show with human stories and everything happening
1:20:14
in that part of the world right now
1:20:16
is so dark and so intense that
1:20:18
I feel like those stories should be told in
1:20:22
quick succession with each other to make
1:20:24
sure that this
1:20:27
show is the best it can be. That's
1:20:29
my instinct sticking with it. Not
1:20:32
that I want to dictate what anyone says, but
1:20:35
I just want to make sure there's such a
1:20:37
clear dividing line. I want to make sure
1:20:39
we have perspectives from both sides of the line. I
1:20:42
don't presume to know what those perspectives
1:20:44
might be. We also have an
1:20:46
Instagram out there. It's a beautiful anonymous pod. Andrew
1:20:48
does an incredible job on it. Follow it. Check
1:20:51
it out. You can follow that if you want to
1:20:53
know when calls are happening. You can also follow me
1:20:55
on Twitter at Chris Gethler. Thanks
1:20:57
everybody. This
1:21:10
week on Beautiful Anonymous Plus, here's
1:21:13
some of what you'll get from the five
1:21:15
questions. Now,
1:21:18
we've landed on a question that has
1:21:21
come up before. It
1:21:25
hasn't always had a lot of weight to
1:21:27
it, but with you, I feel like it's actually a question
1:21:29
that now that I've heard enough about your background, this one
1:21:32
might be a tough question to answer, but
1:21:34
I'm fascinated. It
1:21:37
has landed on a question asking, who
1:21:41
is a person you feel really saw
1:21:43
you when you were young? Oh
1:21:47
my God, I have the answer right away. Oh,
1:21:49
because I thought it sounds to me like nobody
1:21:52
did and that you fell into a system. Are
1:21:56
you ready, Chris? I am such a good little pack rat.
1:21:58
I'm walking to the back of the house. to
1:22:00
find my fifth grade yearbook and
1:22:02
it was it was
1:22:05
my fifth grade art teacher
1:22:08
and she saw how everyone bullied me
1:22:10
and she saw that I never didn't like the
1:22:12
work that I made but she was so encouraging
1:22:15
her name was Mrs. Irwin she was a saint and
1:22:17
I've got my fifth grade yearbook do you want to
1:22:19
read what she wrote in a fifth graders yearbook a
1:22:22
fifth grader who by the way got titled
1:22:24
by the principal because that was illegal
1:22:27
back then you want
1:22:29
to hear what she wrote my fifth grade yearbook I
1:22:31
have to know don't
1:22:33
forget to sign up for beautiful anonymous
1:22:35
plus at beautiful anonymous comm
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