I am alone at the kitchen island today since Greg had to go to work early. Life has been overwhelming with anxious thoughts, doctor appointments, old dogs and depression. Anxiety isnt always hyperventilating and crying. It can be rage, feeling like your skin is crawling, no sleep, etc. Everyone deals with their anxiety and/or depression differently and for me lately, it has been a struggle. A lot of us try to put on a brave face with a big smile and pretend everything is fine, but inside the thoughts are a jumbled mess taking control. 

I truly apologize for being the reason that we havent had new shows out. Sometimes it is just hard to function. It will get better. I will get better. I just need to pull myself out of the black hole of despair that currently has me in its powerful grasp. 

We love you all